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How does this impact pro ED?

My hair is falling out

I have terrible stomach cramps all the time

I’ve gotten completely and totally weak (even something like slicing a cucumber feels like a fucking hardship)

I can’t breathe

I can’t sleep

I’m in constant pain

My chest hurts all the time

I always have a sore throat

I’m covered in bruises simply from existing

My blood sugar is always dangerously low

I’m fucking freezing 24/7

I can’t concentrate on anything

My nose bleeds daily

I don’t know how much more of this my body can take

Now, tell me again about how “eating disorders are pretty and desirable”

The title of your blog is literally “beauty and bones”

I’m like:

you know what the world needs? more genuine, raw, sweet souls that are not defined by numbers or sizes, but focus their energy on changing lives and healing hearts to fix society’s brokenness

you know what will not be remembered? bmi, lowest weight, daily calorie intake, calories burned, jean size, foods eaten and foods not eaten, hours spent at gym, waist measurement, thigh size, presence or lack of stomach rolls

you know what will be remembered? your passions, you confidence, your radiance, the memories you made with friends, the crazy things you did, the places you visited, the people you invested in, the mountains you scaled, the depths you survived, the purpose of your existence 

After reporting a few dozen “meanspo” posts last week, I got a flood of “we checked out your report” emails, and almost none of them had been deleted. I had to respond to all of them individually and argue for their deletion.

Yesterday, I reported a bunch more, and I just got the response emails - they were all deleted. They were all similar, sometimes basically identical posts - it just seems that the batch that went in a few weeks ago got approved while the batch I sent yesterday went to someone who thought the content merited removal.

So I have had a few messages from you guys about my health… recently I enquired about what causes my chronic hip pain and it turns out I have early onset osteoporosis as well as a lack of blood circulating my bones. Thats on top of my heart arrhythmia and amenorrhoea going on after I became what is clinically described as a healthy weight a year ago after my ed.

Why am I sharing this with you guys? Because I didn’t think I was “sick enough” to deserve recovery, but I was sick. Sometimes you don’t realise how much you need recovery until you’ve started getting healthier. I am going to get through this and I’m so glad I managed to defeat my ed before it gets any worse.