Outwardly Inward.

It’s so hot here, all her windows open. And I find myself in the heat of it, running up the block and back. Tender intensity, it always gets the best of me. And I lost control there, breathing. It was four in the morning last I checked, and not the first time. I found blood on my body afterwards but she still said thank you. And I said, thank YOU. We got some sleep after that, even through the morning light we found some sleep after that.

I'm trying to put myself together So I can see what I look like.

One unread message, but I've already read it many times over.

She came over last night but got picked up by her roommate before we did much other than make out. Her roommate waited outside for 5 minutes while we just hugged each other. Eventually I said "good luck" and she said "you too." A few moments later I said "I'll see you when I see you." She agreed and walked out the door while I stood there with it open. Without looking back she said "thank you" which I repeated back. As I was closing the door she glanced at me and we caught eyes for less than half a second. That was probably the last time.