the "allistic smugness" of distancing yourself from people sexually fantasising about children & "I just didn't know that people would be disgusted by me posting about my child sex fantasies!"
see I think being an autistic woman is actually helpful when considering other autistic people like Patricia Taxxon and what they say. when a woman like her says things like "I didn't know talking about child sexualisation would make people distance themselves from me" and people frame former friends and collaborators highlighting this as "pedojacketing", it reveals that she and those who defend her want us to believe that
Patricia Taxxon allegedly sent pornography to multiple children and has received a lot of negative attention for this, but was unaware of the general online perception of those who frequently discuss sexual fantasies about children
Patricia Taxxon allegedly masturbated on call with multiple children (see above link) and has received a lot of negative attention for this, but was still unaware of the general online perception of those who frequently discuss sexual fantasies about children
Patricia Taxxon, who has received a lot of negative attention for frequently discussing sexual fantasies about children, has so far been entirely unaware of the general online perception of those who frequently discuss sexual fantasies about children
Patricia Taxxon was not aware that people, including those who collaborated with her in some work capacity, may distance themselves from her for her frequent sharing of sexual fantasies about children
and I think this is emblematic of everything isn't it? you owe someone who keeps talking about her sexual fantasies about children an explanation for when you stop talking to them. how is she supposed to know that those fantasies made you uncomfortable if you don't tell her first? she wouldn't have known. there's nothing about wider society that would indicate that this subject matter would make people uncomfortable and distance themselves from her. being kind and courteous to the person who is sharing sexual fantasies about children takes precedent over any personal feelings you may have about interacting with someone constantly sharing sexual fantasies about children.
as an autistic woman I understand the difficulties of socialising with others, not understanding what behaviour you displayed got you tossed aside by those who previously considered you a friend as they refuse to be transparent about it, and hating being misunderstood. I also understand what it is like to have been groomed on the internet as a child and believe that sharing "funny" pornography with your peers is just another form of bonding, and that "peers" can extend to anyone who extends you even the slightest positive interaction. I understand the difficulty ageing into adulthood and needing to continuously learn what appropriate behaviour amongst friends is, as is usually a lifelong process for anyone autistic. however, given all the context Patricia Taxxon has shared, including
her and her defenders openly discussing that other people talk about her publicly (see "stalker blog" "harassment campaign" etc
her defensiveness against being misinterpreted flipping around to "I couldn't have known that was why!"
does this look like someone who is unaware of how people perceive others who share her opinions to you? does this seem like someone who really just hasn't known, this whole time, that her sexual fantasies about children are something that would make other people uncomfortable?
I don't think it does, especially because Patricia Taxxon herself knows that her behaviour has gotten her cut off before and she made peace with it at the time!
by the way, when Patricia Taxxon mentions people going after her friends for guilt by association, what she is talking about is one of the then-children she sent pornography to and who was in the calls she masturbated in asking someone whose videos they enjoyed why they were collaborating with someone who masturbated on call and sent them pornography when they were 13, and had the following exchange: "why are you telling me this this was ages ago she was a minor at the time" "no she wasn't" silence.
that video linked above is by the same woman who wrote a twitter thread about Patricia Taxxon's discord server. do you see the above two images where Patricia Taxxon goes "I did this and I am sorry?" let's go look at a later post by Patricia Taxxon where this reflection on past events becomes "I was groomed by older people and now everyone is making me out to be a predator which is false":
I don't think Patricia Taxxon didn't know that her actions were inappropriate and that people would distance themselves from her. I think she is mad that someone who underpaid her distanced himself from her for very understandable reasons, and that he highlighted this part of her behaviour as she was (as she is wont to do) talking about all the people who have distanced themselves from her for her constant posting about her child sex fantasies alongside vagueposting about him multiple times in a short span that people they mutually know probably saw and sent to him.
there's a key hint in the timeline here, by the way.
the year/age that patricia taxxon says she was being unfairly ghosted by people she believed to be her friends is the same year/age she was masturbating on call with children present and sending children pornography. do you think there might be a reason why someone who was comfortable behaving like this around children at the time might have been ghosted without a word by multiple people? do you think those people owed her an explanation?
I wish "the spectre of the pedophile" was made up by rich white people and not something children deal with in such large quantities that as many as one in four children globally experiences child sexual exploitation online, that pedophiles haven't been trying to advocate for the normalcy of child abuse as part of Queer Culture for more than three decades, and that pedophiles haven't been actively grooming children on the internet since its inception due to its ease. I wish that myself as a negro nose and jackson five nostrils black child did not get groomed by multiple white American men who believed that I as a black child in a third world country was an easy target because they would likely face no consequences for their actions, only for a white American woman to talk about how the The Spectre Of The Pedophile is made up by wealthy whites, that the fear of the pedophile beyond the home is simply a lingering phantom hovering over a society that sees children as property. I wish that "the spectre of the pedophile" wasn't coined by and exclusively used by child sex fetishists as some sort of retort against people calling them pedophiles for their child sex fetishes.
Every Single Day children are abused and now in even larger quantities because they can now be abused via the internet. children in developed and developing countries being long-distance groomed by pedophiles in their own homes are simply thrown to the wolves because it's inconvenient to the woe-is-me pedophile narrative.
many a pedophile is someone that exists in children's homes, and much familial abuse of children is pedophilic - but the idea of pedophilia as simply another facet of the child abuse of the family structure and not as something that grown adults also choose to enact on random children for nothing more than their own sexual pleasure is a falsehood.
but don't worry, Patricia "thinks an album made by a convicted-of-CSEM-ownership pedophile that consists mostly of police interviews of CSA victims and their parents, used without their consent, is funny because some of the interviews have sad music in the background but don't worry her opinion is more nuanced now" Taxxon is someone you can trust to be 100% nuanced in her thoughts on pedophilia. it's because she's queer and autistic and ostracised, you see.
Childlight, the global child safety institute, recently released their 2026 Data Update on online child sexual abuse. I highly recommend that you read it.
