Some day, a traveler told me-

THE TOWER

"Wish and Fear", personal artwork. October 2024.

It's hard to live when you learn that people's kindness is a trap that sometimes carries even more potential danger than open aggression...

Kindness makes you vulnerable, it takes away your right to say "no", to defend yourself, no matter how hurt, wronged, violated you are.

Because don't you dare to bite the hand that acts out of kindness, generosity, care. The hand always knows better, while you are either confused, or delusional, or lying.

Words that it "doesn't wish you harm" mean that there will indeed be harm, but it's either for your sake, or is unintentional. In any case, you have no right to object. Being kind to you and allowing you to be is already a favor.

If you bite back, you are the bad one. If you retreat in fear, hoping to avoid the conflict, you are the bad one again because "you wouldn't be afraid if you weren't guilty". Besides, you're a coward for avoiding it, instead of accepting its righteous hurt and anger. You are the bad one.

So...

It's safer to be the bad and unapproachable one in advance. Turn your fur into spikes so that no hand would ever try to pet you.

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There's a part of you inside that yearns for kindness... you hate it. You want this part gone for being weak and vulnerable.

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"They made ritual as if to summon Azura as Nerevar wanted but Almalexia used poisoned candles and Sotha Sil used poisoned robes and Vivec used poisoned invocations. Nerevar was murdered."

They cut off his legs so that he would take a different path after being reborn, and they cut off his face so that he would come back in a different appearance. Or maybe it was out of fear? But the victors are not judged.

The natural conclusion to my berrymania is blueberry pie!🫐✨🥧

I also realized that I've accidentally made a short comic about the fate of these blueberries with my 3 paintings haha

Painting process! The full hours long video will be DMed on Patreon.com/Yuumei on August 5th!

May the sweetness dry your tears This is an artwork of a focused Vehk attempting to comfort a distressed Ayem by feeding her honey/syrup, i wanted to focus on the relationship between Ayem and Vehk in my headcanons, the particular dynamic of Vehk acting both as crucial emotional support for her yet also like an enabler. I believe they often empathize with each other due to both of them feeling like they are inherently wrong/messed up since birth. They are both quite unstablem but react and cope with it in different ways. While being together cured some of their loneliness, they tend to spread unhealthy habits to each other aswell. Theres a lot of both negative and positive to say about their relationship, they did eventually drift apart and evolve in opposite ways when they reached godhood, but that is for another post.

Oh Vivica, i wish you well