i could still be ruthless if you let me

In the haze, there are blinding stars dancing in her eyes. She tries to blink them away, tries to focus her eyes on him as he sits up straighter and puts his hands on her waist, but the task seems impossible when she feels so weak. 

She can’t move—her legs feel like JELL-O and he seems to sense it, offering a mumbled “I’ve got ya,” and standing to slide an arm beneath her to wrap around her back.

Then, lifting her with a soft grunt and holding her so that she is pressed flush against him, he moves them both back up towards the pillows at the head of the bed.

What a fucking gentleman.

“Need a minute?” he asks, as he lays her down gently upon the mattress. “We can take our time entering the next round.”

She nods, then shakes her head, then furrows her brows because she can’t decide. She is breathless and intoxicated (from the alcohol, from the lilt of his accent, from his hands on her skin) but she wants him inside of her, and she doesn’t really want to wait.

i see you at the bar, at the edge of my bed

If you stop being friends can you start being something else?

Amelia Miller’s life went up in flames 40 miles north of London on the M1. At twenty-four she buried her parents side by side and was left to wonder at questions of existence, and purpose, and fragility she should have been decades shy of. She’s painstakingly built a new life, one framed by incredible success and hard work, and grown in the kindness of new friendships. Her old university friends feel worlds away from who Amelia is at twenty-eight, and they hurtfully bump and scrape their way around her heart.

Harry Styles met Amelia at uni with the rest of them when they were forced into being a trivia team on a Freshers’ Week pub crawl. He doesn’t think he’s changed much from the earnest, overly hopeful teenager who pretended he knew how to drink a beer. That was eight years ago, before any of them had to learn what it meant to be a grown-up and well before Harry can pinpoint he started knowing who the hell he is. He’d like to say he hasn’t noticed how their little trivia team had soured over time, or that Amelia’s slowly been tearing herself away from them all. He’s not a liar though.

Amelia’s about to find out recalibrating allows some people surprise you and others to behave exactly how you expect them to.

A friends to lovers story about pub trivia, fraying adult friendships, and the squishy parts of us that break and heal.

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. H A R R Y  F A N F I C T I O N .

Rumor Has It 

© 2020 / Fake Dating OU / WIP

–> Harry Styles is 26 and wants more than anything to be left alone to get over his broken heart. Ishika Arora is 22, Bollywood’s sweetheart, and has quite the reputation. She’s lived her entire life at the whim of her father’s wrath. 

One drunken mistake and one forced decision brings these two together — 6 months of manufactured chemistry in India, England, and the US to prove they’re the real deal.

A fake dating OU about media perception, what sacrifices it takes to be a star, family (or the lack thereof), and a boy who takes care of a girl like nobody else ever has.

All’s Fair

© 2019 / Spy AU / Complete [ 52,147 words ]

—-> Priya Rai likes to solve problems through talking. Harry Styles likes to solve problems through… less conventional methods. In short: they don’t work well together. Not in the past and certainly not now. But when a former agent with a need for vengeance goes rogue, the two best British intelligent agents are forced to not only confront the mission — but their rocky relationship, or lack thereof.

 A story about a one night stand gone wrong, betrayal, sacrificing everything for your job, and realizing that all is fair in love and war after all.

Timeless

© 2018 / OU / FWB / Complete [ 80,687 words ]

—> Rhea Trivedi Williams likes being in control, but when it comes to Harry Styles she has none.

No Strings Attached

© 2019 / AU / Friends to Lovers / Complete [ 21,400 words ]

—-> Naina and Harry have been best friends for 6 years. They’ve also been roommates for 3 years. While Naina is used to Harry’s playboy tendencies, she never thought she’d want to be a part of them. When a bad breakup changes everything, the two take their relationship to a whole new level with one simple rule: no strings attached.

The Wedding Trials

© 2018 / OU / Complete [ 21,982 words ]

—> In which Harry gets a taste of Indian culture and Anushka is the one who gives it to him.  

Through The Ages

© 2017 / AU / Complete [ 12,616 words ]

—> A Dunkirk inspired series about two different couples in two different ages.  

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. N I A L L  F A N F I C T I O N . 

Kiss & Cry 

© 2020 / Coming Soon 

Great Expectations

© 2019 / OU  / Complete [ 80,502 words ] 

—>  At 24, Gia Malhotra is absolutely sure of two things in her life: she will never live up to her mother’s overbearing expectations and she is damn good at her job. Being one of the best event planners in Hollywood is who she is and because of that, Gia doesn’t take risks. Ever. Until one particularly nasty fight with her parents and a bottle and a half of champagne later, she ends up sleeping with a guest at her latest event - who just so happens to be, yes, the Niall Horan. Gia never expects to see Niall again, until her best friend looks at her nervously over a positive pregnancy test two months later in her bathroom.  

A story about an unexpected pregnancy, what it means to be a mother and a daughter, and the understanding that expectations are almost never meant.

Reminisce

© 2019 / OU / Friends to Lovers / Complete [14,363 words ]

—> The only constant in Meera Talwar and Niall Horan’s lives are each other. And making heart breaking music. Through all the heartbreaks - the good, the bad, and the ugly; Meera and Niall never let the other crumble completely. Somewhere along the way, Niall realizes he doesn’t want to see his best friend heartbroken anymore. Not if he can do anything to help it.

An OU oneshot about five times Meera and Niall get their hearts broken and the one time they don’t.

Unwritten

© 2018-2019 / AU / Enemies to Lovers / Complete [ 41,103 words ]

—> Neha Khanna is on the verge of losing everything because of blissful ignorance and Niall Horan, an investment banker without a single romantic bone in his body, is her last hope from keeping her world from shattering – that is, if they can get along first.

Show Me Your Heart

© 2017 / OU / Complete [ 25,000 words ]

“Niall told me that you might have someone else on your mind,” she mentions. Harry feels his breath leaving his lungs like someone has just punched him. Tilting her head, she continues, “And I see that he’s right.”

Damn Niall, Harry thinks.

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