I Don't Wanna Be Alone Anymore

Would never do some of this stuff you do, but that’s just me.

Things from your past, or before we had officially started dating, shouldn’t bother me one bit and I know that. But seeing posts about how you wanted to like me but couldn’t because of your ex being in the way, about how you wanted to be texting your ex instead of me, about how you didn’t know if you loved me after you coerced me to say it earlier than I wanted(not earlier than I felt, but earlier than I wanted) just really fucking hurts. And idk what I’m going to do.

I really hate and am disgusted with myself rn. I just really don’t know why I am the way I am. Life can’t cut me a fucking break once.

I feel like fucking shit. I just wanna be good enough, but I know I never will be. Not for anyone. Proven time and time again. My shortcomings are insurmountable. I will always be a let down in one way or another to anyone I ever show my heart.

Thought I was what you need, but I’m just second best.

Super personal in the tags so... beware.

Feeling down on myself tbh.

What a weird feeling...