On one side booking tickets for Dan and Phil's show in Paris will heal my inner child that never had the opportunity to see them... but I've retreat myself from fandom life for so long now... I don't know anyone and none of my irl friends speak a good enough English to understand the shows.
My boyfriend already said he would come if I ask but I know he would be so lost... he already followed me to concerts where he didn't know a single lyrics to but this will be wrost for him....
So yeah I'm feeling conflicted. Like Paris isn't close also, so I'll have to book a hotel and all. And at that time none of my acquaintance will be in the capital whiwh means I would be all alone even if aren't only talking about "attending the show" aspect.
I'm this kind of introvert who hates meeting new people in fear of judgement but also can't do anything alone without triggering an anxiety attack... Kinda tired of myself on this one đĽ˛














