jovie's inside thoughts

as a chronic migraine girlie, peter parker having chronic migraines is something so deeply personal and important to me

anti-doomerism has actually improved the way I handle my depression. I’ll think something like “I have nothing to look forward to, everything is getting worse and it’s not getting better” and then I’ll be like “whoa, cringelord. you sound like an emo 14 year old. you’re not helping anyone or anything with that misanthropic hopeless attitude. grow the fuck up.” and I bully myself back into participating in life, because depression and the associated dark thoughts are so cringe

something about brand new home that i don't see a lot of people talking about is how they deal with humanity. a large part of the story is about peter and how he thinks he's a monster. how damage control sees jean and her sister as objects, weapons to be studied and then sacrificed for "the greater good". how bruce is treated post hulk crash out even though it wasn't his fault, but the hulk is an inhuman monster so of COURSE he's in a psych ward. it tells you that we can have these notions about who is human and who is not; about what is human and what is not. but ultimately, we cannot deny someone's humanity. and it's not the biggest part of the movie, but banner's words about "what's the good and what's the bad" really ties into the whole thing about who's human and who's not.

The joy I genuinely felt explaining to my family who Frank Castle is and why the movie did such a great job portraying him and his relationship with Peter/Spiderman, and why Peter sacrificing himself for Jean Grey was so fucking good because FINALLY someone is protecting her instead of treating her like a disobedient mutt that needs to be collared or put down, and Frank almost losing Peter because of his "shoot first, ask questions later" mentality having a bigger impact on Frank than any debate/argument they had about his use of lethal force, and Peter sharing his memory of Aunt May's unconditional love for him with Jean so that she can understand that his apology is not only sincere but he's always seen her as a person, and then Jean using her powers to keep him alive because he's the one person in her life since her sister died who showed genuine care and concern for her, I'M A MESS 😭😭😭😭😭😭