Ana

Best friends are supposed to be there for each other. Best friends are supposed to get through issues and problems between them. Best friends are supposed to have each other’s backs no matter what. So what happened between us? Best friends aren’t supposed to cut each other off without warning. I guess we weren’t really “best friends” after all.

December is a very busy month for my mind. I’m bursting with nostalgia and retrospective thoughts. Multiple analysis and comparisons are running in my head. My personal development growth rates and monthly highlights are in the making. By how much my comfort zone has expanded, is an important question. I’m busy making mental reports of my healing and of all my realizations. I’m full of all sorts of emotions. I am hopeful. And excited. And high on energy. I feel forgiveness is easier to come by in this month. So the first person I tend to forgive is myself - for everything that I did wrong this year, for every goal that wasn’t achieved, and for all the promises I couldn’t keep. Acceptance is also easier to come by this month.  So I accept all the areas I am lacking in and I tell myself its okay and that we will work on it.  I will work on it.  It may take me a while but I haven’t given up on myself.  December is all food and gifts and cold weather and endings and anticipation for beginnings and a better life, a better self. But it is also a  ‘It’s okay. You have worked really hard. You’ve done a good job. It’s okay. I will take it from here. Thank you so much. Thank you for everything.’, to my past self, to the me this year by the me progressing into the new year. Thank you.