we're here to devour each other alive.

coarse and rough and irritating by frak-all

The first time Ben sees Rey in a bikini, his oafish left hand just sort of spasms around a new tube of Neutrogena SPF 100+ face sunscreen, squeezing hard enough that nearly half its thick white contents erupts—coating his palm, the mirror, and the floor—in one great big mortifying spurt.

It’s a metaphor from the universe even he can’t ignore.

A beach week au that somehow also morphed into a soccer au. 

[part 1] [part 2] [part 3] [AO3] - Now complete!

Woke: Spark Notes/Education Based Twitter Memes

And I have to think about this very often when depression tells me to delay doing things, if it tells me something is too much work right now etc.

If I can do it in less than 2 minutes I can do it no matter how exhausting it seems.

That’s what I tell myself. And it works!

What works really really well for me is to compound annoying tasks that don’t require much thought with something actually pleasant. It took a long time to find the actual pleasant thing, but with audiobooks I can actually end up looking for chores to do because I want to continue listening to the book, and it doesn’t combine well with anything except the most mindless work.

Like I might use are “A Working Day” by Ben Folds or “Happy Working Song” from Enchanted. They’re both about two minutes. I’d do those. Or if I did the playlist? It’s 17 minutes total.

I’ve even been listening to podcasts and been like “I will get up and clean for as long as they are running their mid-episode ads.”

And yeah, a good portion of the time, getting up to do that small amount, while giving myself permission to do no more, was all I needed to find the juice to actually keep going. The song or playlist or ad break finishes and I go “actually, I can finish this pile of dishes, since I’m already here.”

If you “don’t see color,” then you can ignore it when there are protests that another black child or teenager was killed by a police officer, because you don’t see that as a racial issue.