Fractured Crystalline Forms

lingers in the backof her mind as vividly as the red marks cast upon her back weighed down by the sins of thosemeant to be guardians of her innocence willful ignorance provided false warmth at night, and sung the denial like a quiet song her silent screams ran in salty wavesdown her faceshe closed her eyes, and held her breath. –blood isn’t always thicker than water.

hearts beating to the slumbered breathing of dreamscapes tucked in the mind, tight.Purple twilights intertwine with paled wishes sparking the ignition of intuition, through imagination. Working through the world’s problems one nightmare at a time, all the whilesmiling and swaying to the sound ofthe shuffling and bustling rhythm of citiesbasking in the glow of street lamps,and they block out the…

It sat on the shelf, not collecting dust;Children came and went, fleeting touchesBut it was not alone,a sea of soft, brown fur huddled in a row.Beaded-black eyes, eagerly staring aheadA stark contrast to the bright, white, metal shelves. It has yet to have the pleasure of Being loved by a little boy or girl.But it knows hope in the Laughing of kids bouncing offThe plastered walls littered…

When you spot the distance in the photos, do you regret it? Or does the fake family filter make you choke inside?Does it haunt your dreams, twisting them into nagging nightmares like mine?Do you wish to re-trace the steps I was forced to take alone? Does our lack of connection taint the apathetic apology you hold inside? Do you notices the differences between him and I, the hesitation in my…

we encounter patient paths presented withpast choices of others expected to repeat mistakes enmasseand forget freewill and self-identity instead, i clutch my fate & chose neither possibilities laid before me my will forgesadmirable avenues of my ownfresh blades of grass bend for the first time undisturbed by the robotic impressions of those before me my oversights willbe my own

the cold clutters the mind chattering teeth and mistletoes mingle with the falling snow and chimney smoke wafting into the starry sky with sparkling glasses filled with the juice of fermented berries clinging into the darkness the rings carry into the chilly air, gripping wishes for the new year, of luck and of fortune of no more procrastination and of new gym memberships and promises of living…

it ached and pressed into my body, its weight tight across my chest soaking in the shadows of my mind, the cold welcomed into my shaking armsmy eyes filled with the salt of my shortcomings, lurking in the depths of my mind, ever presentI once saw the world in vibrant neons, but now they’ve dulled to desolate hues, tainted by the inability to overcome. in my mind, a play takes form, the only one…

we’ll teeter on the line   of Love and lust only   to fall feet first into love  and headfirst into lust  telling yearning hearts to hush  our ill-advised touches led   to empty carnal pleasures  facilitating fantasy   with convoluted delusion  we’ll burry our feelings  under the sweat-soaked sheets  we’ll forget they exist   and ignore them in bliss   clinging to what we can of one…

You came up from the depths and,Took my hand and never looked back Dragged me down into the abyss, where,I lost myself and accepted darknessTook my hand and never looked back Choking on my traitorous tongueI lost myself and accepted darkness My lies a foul and bitter taste in my mouth Choking on my traitorous tongueYou laugh, and drive the blade further into my back,My lies a foul and bitter…

The mirror shows me, That my worst betrayal will Forever be me

We stand at the cliff,   Overlooking the churning waves below   As they overtake the rocks,  The salty foam a temporary visitor upon their backs,   The waves themselves erode the land,  And form their own permanent creations   Their mark on the world immortalized   From islands to cliff-sides   Much like waves,   Words ebb and flow with the waves of  Emotion and the way of the world,…

Line after line I, Pour more and more of me into, Twisted Memories.

My lines between heaven and hell blur so much, I am no longer sure if I am hollowed or blasphemous. Seeking sinful solace between the sheets, My baptism is the sweat clinging from our skin, My revelation is found in the rhythm of our bodies. My paradise constructed from the shivers of pleasure I illicit from your body, escaped moans a confirmation of the nirvana I bring you. I find my…

You were meant to protect, Yet, it was you I needed refuge from, I didn’t look under the bed for my monsters, Not when the devil lay above, with me. Yet, it was you I needed refuge from, Crept in with the shadows of the night, Not when my devil lay above, with me, You thought my dreams held me tight. Crept in with the shadows of the night, Mutating my blameless innocence into an early…

Told me my edges cut like diamonds, though you linger in the glistening claret left behind. Wielded my insecurities as your daggers, sharpened the blades with every vacant touch. My viscera laid out before you was not enough, no, you yearned to fractionate me down to my marrow. Though you were next to me, I laid in an empty bed. I got used to being used by you. For so long my lust screamed…

You fight the current, instinct taking over, I succumb to the undertow, the depths a welcome reprieve. Doing your best to expel the water from your lungs, I swallow the salty suffocation whole, and smile through the burn. Maybe in the profundity, I would find a moment of quiet instead of the thundering echoes of my deafening reticence. Would the darkness only amplify the stillness? Caught up…

You touch me again, and your shame and your shadows 

Flow into me, darkening my insides

Overtaking my senses 

Indignity explodes, expanding to a devastating hunger 

Rough hands follow my curves up and up, 

Shrouded in darkness, 

I’m easier to accept. 

Never seeing the landscape laid bare before you

Sharp, contestant chagrin eats me alive

Organ by organ, inch by inch 

Fracturing my fantasy, 

Starved skin fed by fervent, carnal touches 

Licking at the friction between our bodies 

Savoring the bitter taste stuck to our tongues 

Yet, your hands still wonder.

Taking their time

As if you would catch fire without my contact 

I wonder what’s behind your eyes

When your breath catches as your hands stills over my heart 

Are you afraid? 

Of feeling the life in the heart so battered by the push and pull of your carnivorous desire laced with such discomfiture 

So torn between what you covet 

And what is expected of you 

So, you turn to ash and dust what you worship most 

Why leave me unmarred and whole?

When my cracked and disintegrated pieces are too convenient for you?

Suffocating hunger infects my thoughts

Turning reality over and over in my head,

I wonder what I ever saw in you 

Was it all in my head?

Though your eyes track me 

In a crowded room, you always know where I stand 

When I meet your stare 

Lust and ignominy color your eyes.

So, I take it all in. 

All of it.

And I swallow it. 

I allow myself to disappear into your flesh,