b r o k e n

            ♔ TWO THOUSAND FIVE HUNDRED !!

First off, a very special thank you to Hades for drawing me this beautiful picture of Soi Fon and allowing me to use it on my blog (casually links to her art blog so you can all go see what wonderful work she does). Second of all, I cannot believe that 2.5k people looked at my blog and said, yeah I want this on my dashboard! I am so grateful to be able to share my love of Soi Fon with you all and that you all have given me that chance. I have some of the sweetest followers and friends, too. You guys are always there when I need you and I couldn’t be more grateful for my experience here. Its true there have been ups and downs, but I wouldn’t trade it for anything because being allowed this opportunity to write and grow alongside you has been an honor. You are all so talented and wonderful, it’s just such a joy to have you on my dash. I hope you can turn around and look at my blog and think at least something similar.

Anyway, because these things are wont to get sappy (and probably no one reads this part anyway) I am going to just do a few specific shout-outs and mention a few people who have really changed my life with their kindness, their writing, their talent,and their presence in my life. If I ever hit 3k I will do a longer one but for now here is my follow forever:

TO MY CLOSEST FRIENDS:

Those of you listed below have played such a crucial role on my blog and in my life. You have all been there for me, lent me your time, your ears, your strength. You have inspired me to become a better person, a better writer, a better artist. You have all shown me qualities that the world needs more of. You’re welcoming, kind, understanding, patient, talented, and above all you are my friends. When I think of my experience here on tumblr I know it wouldn’t mean nearly as much without all of you.

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TO THOSE I ADMIRE:

All of you are so inspirational in one way or another. I sit here and look at your blogs in awe, I look at the people you are and how generous and talented and genuine you are and I am amazed. I am so glad to call you all my friends, and to those of you I can’t quiet say that to yet— I hope to be able to in the future. All of you have made a difference to me in some way, be it by your friendship or your writing, and I am so grateful for every single one of you.

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                “----no. It’s fine.”

it wouldn’t be very fair for her to make something the moment she returned. even he had more decency than that.

( it had nothing to do with long-gone voices of years past, of a fire, loud & scathing, scolding & attempting to teach a brazen young boy about something that was so completely out of his comfort zone; had nothing to do with a warmth long gone between figures that could have had so much had life not interfered; had nothing to do with a calming sun that broke through his darkness & given him so much more than he could ever return ) 

              “What’s wrong?”

because despite how everything was the same, both she & him & their shared little space, there was something off, a strange sort of divide that hadn’t been around since the first trials of this arrangement. it wasn’t obvious, wasn’t glaring so, not even an absolute awkward affair, but it was there & so, so very palpable. 

   IS THAT

          IS THIS FOR REAL

she hadn’t changed at all. not since the day they met. still quiet, still with a stutter, & still with that will he could never fathom.

he wasn’t expecting her to still be here, in all honesty. he himself wasn’t around all too often, the apartment bare & quiet. just as it was before she came along. perhaps that’s why it hadn’t bothered him nearly as much as it should have -- this apartment wasn’t home, was nothing like home ( home was dead & gone & never to return ) & had long since discarded the notion of home being a place that could so easily be destroyed.

but home couldn’t be a person either, for they were just as likely, if not moreso, to break & crumble.

she wasn’t home, not at all, but --- he supposed she was the closest thing.

so he stepped forward, plopping himself on the couch that separated them, a clear invitation for her if she so wished. as if nothing had changed & everything was just as it was, time passed be damned.

                  “----hungry?”

                                  ( so. he had been thinking of her, had he? )

inspired by itispleasingtomyeye-ishipit​ and this post