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Crane has no control of his life, and instead of doing something to gain it, he gaslights himself into believing he likes the way things are. He's also always stressed and overwhelmed and finds comfort in not having to make decisions and just accepting what others tell him to do.

One thing many people dislike about him is how he's always bringing up his sexuality, especially when he's meeting someone for the first time. And. Have you never gotten the urge to do the same?? Every time I meet someone for the first time I have the same thought process Nicky likely has, which is: Can they tell I'm queer? What do they think of queer people? Would they not like me if they knew? Is this actually secretly a massive homophobe? Will i get attached or let my guard down only to find out they hate me? The urge to be covered in pride flags and scream how gay you are because then at least you'll be sure that everyone knows, and you don't have to tiptoe around it, you don't have to be scared, you don't have to wonder if you should hide. You can take control of the situation.