“Ladies, gentlemen, and other distinguished guests” <- inclusive but far, far too formal

chipotle order?

thoughts on veganism?

a specific color that gives you the ick?

mythical creature you think/believe is real?

favorite form of potato?

do you use a watch?

what animal do you look forward to seeing when you visit an aquarium?

do you change into specific clothes for the house when you get home?

do you have a skincare routine (and how many steps is it)?

on a plane, do you ask for apple or orange juice?

anything from your childhood you’ve held on to?

brand of haircare/bodycare/skincare that you trust 100%?

first thing you’re doing in the purge?

do you think you’re dehydrated?

rank the methods of death: freezing, burning, drowning

thoughts on mint chocolate chip?

an anxious compulsion you do everyday?

your boba/tea order?

the veggie you dislike the most?

favorite disney princess movie?

a number that weirds you out?

do you have an emotional support water bottle?

do you wear jewelry?

which do you find yourself using, american or british english?

would you say you have good taste in music?

how’s your spice tolerance?

what’s your favorite or go-to outfit?

last meal on earth?

preferred pasta noodle?

ask me anything !

1. usually the black beans/vegetarian option

2. respect

3. yellow probably

4. spirits/ghosts or aliens

5. fries probably

6. yes

7. jellyfish

8. yes

9. no. just the face wash. i used to have a very comprehensive one tho

10. apple

11. lots of little things, they’re all in a shoebox in my closet

12. st. ives for face and body mark antony for hair

13. i feel like there’s a right answer to this and i don’t know what it is so

14. yes even though i drink so much water every day

15. burning, drowning, freezing

16. all love

17. bite the insides of my cheeks

18. green tea

19. asparagus

20. i do not compare princesses.

21. 53

22. yes

23. yes

24. as a canadian, a mix

25. it’s certainly not bad

26. exceptional

27. jeans and blazer or j head to toe black

28. smth chocolate

in

1. coffee mugs, teacups, wine glasses, water bottles, or soda cans?

2. chocolate bars or lollipops?

3. bubblegum or cotton candy?

4. how did your elementary school teachers describe you?

5. do you prefer to drink soda from soda cans, soda bottles, plastic cups or glass cups?

6. pastel, boho, tomboy, preppy, goth, grunge, formal or sportswear?

7. earbuds or headphones?

8. movies or tv shows?

9. favorite smell in the summer?

10. game you were best at in p.e.?

11. what you have for breakfast on an average day?

12. name of your favorite playlist?

13. lanyard or key ring?

14. favorite non-chocolate candy?

15. favorite book you read as a school assignment?

16. most comfortable position to sit in?

17. most frequently worn pair of shoes?

18. ideal weather?

19. sleeping position?

20. preferred place to write (i.e., in a note book, on your laptop, sketchpad, post-it notes, etc.)?

21. obsession from childhood?

22. role model?

23. strange habits?

24. favorite crystal?

25. first song you remember hearing?

26. favorite activity to do in warm weather?

27. favorite activity to do in cold weather?

28. five songs to describe you?

29. best way to bond with you?

30. places that you find sacred?

31. what outfit do you wear to kick ass and take names?

32. top five favorite vines?

33. most used phrase in your phone?

34. advertisements you have stuck in your head?

35. average time you fall asleep?

36. what is the first meme you remember ever seeing?

37. suitcase or duffel bag?

38. lemonade or tea?

39. lemon cake or lemon meringue pie?

40. weirdest thing to ever happen at your school?

41. last person you texted?

42. jacket pockets or pants pockets?

43. hoodie, leather jacket, cardigan, jean jacket or bomber jacket?

44. favorite scent for soap?

45. which genre: sci-fi, fantasy or superhero?

46. most comfortable outfit to sleep in?

47. favorite type of cheese?

48. if you were a fruit, what kind would you be?

49. what saying or quote do you live by?

50. what made you laugh the hardest you ever have?

51. current stresses?

52. favorite font?

53. what is the current state of your hands?

54. what did you learn from your first job?

55. favorite fairy tale?

56. favorite tradition?

57. the three biggest struggles you’ve overcome?

58. four talents you’re proud of having?

59. if you were a video game character, what would your catchphrase be?

60. if you were a character in an anime, what kind of anime would you want it to be?

61. favorite line you heard from a book/movie/tv show/etc.?

62. seven characters you relate to?

63. five songs that would play in your club?

64. favorite website from your childhood?

65. any permanent scars?

66. favorite flower(s)?

67. good luck charms?

68. worst flavor of any food or drink you’ve ever tried?

69. a fun fact that you don’t know how you learned?

70. left or right handed?

71. least favorite pattern?

72. worst subject?

73. favorite weird flavor combo?

74. at what pain level out of ten (1 through 10) do you have to be at before you take an advil or ibuprofen?

75. when did you lose your first tooth?

76. what’s your favorite potato food (i.e. tater tots, baked potatoes, fries, chips, etc.)?

77. best plant to grow on a windowsill?

78. coffee from a gas station or sushi from a grocery store?

79. which looks better, your school id photo or your driver’s license photo?

80. earth tones or jewel tones?

81. fireflies or lightning bugs?

82. pc or console?

83. writing or drawing?

84. podcasts or talk radio?

84. barbie or polly pocket?

85. fairy tales or mythology?

86. cookies or cupcakes?

87. your greatest fear?

88. your greatest wish?

89. who would you put before everyone else?

90. luckiest mistake?

91. boxes or bags?

92. lamps, overhead lights, sunlight or fairy lights?

93. nicknames?

94. favorite season?

95. favorite app on your phone?

96. desktop background?

97. how many phone numbers do you have memorized?

1. depends on the beverage. (usually) water bottles.

2. depends. (usually) lollipops.

3. bubblegum

4. “curious & adventurous” i hated it

5. cans

6. depends; fluctuates between tomboy & formal + sportswear @ the gym

7. depends on my headspace. earbuds.

8. depends.

9. either the salt of the water at the beach or the smell of sweat mixed with sweet. idk if it’s from ice cream or perfume but smth about the sweet sweaty summer perspiration makes me jcjdjzjzkz happy

10. dodgeball + hockey.

11. oatmeal :/

12. imo 3

13. key ring

14. peppermints or liquorice

15. lord of the flies

16. as unladylike as possible? idk the names of seating positions

17. vans or converse. both’re black high tops.

18. cloudy w mild warmth or sunny with mild wind.

19. spooning my darth vader build a bear bear

20. note book

21. lego. always.

22. my mother and father.

23. idk if i would know my strange habits - that seems like smth someone else would notice and not myself. ig if i’m in a rush i’ll make my coffee and take it w me in the shower…that’s a bit strange.

24. black obsidian xox

25. oh wow. my mother used to sing me goodnight sweetheart by the platters when i was an infant. it was in 3 men and a baby which she had seen and adored before having me, so that song became the lullaby she was use for me. i still am comforted when i hear it - but it needs to be in her voice. it’s very important to me. yeah.

26. bike rides xox

27. tobogganing if i’m home but ideally skiing xox

28. tricky. i believe we’re constantly changing and evolving so this may not be the case in 4 years or 4 months or 4 days but for rn… crush by ethel cain, i don’t mind/too much by zayn, heaven and back by chase atlantic, and j’boss by jäde. last ones been on REPEAT lately

29. SKIP SMALL TALK

30. rooms that have been lived in. like, bedrooms w trinkets on desks and posters on walls. that, or quiet open spaces.

31. black blazer and black slacks with a white button down and a shiny silver ring on every finger. my energy babyyy >>

32. i’ve been dreaming of a true loves kiss, i cant believe you’ve done this, so no head, chipotle is my life, hi thx for checking in i’m still a piece of ~garbage~

33. yeah, anyway, oh. not phrases but anyway (??!)

34. TOO MANY

35. 23:00 but i try real hard for 22:00

36. oml the stupid one direction ones that were like “be amaZAYN” w like a super zoomed in picture like ST O P

37. depends.

38. depends

39. cake

40. school went on lockdown bc a girl passed out in gym class

41. my sister

42. jacket

43. leather

44. vanilla blackberry

45. idrk. if it’s done well i’ll watch it

46. near nothing or hoodie

47. i’m dairy free!

48. probably smth wack like a kiwi or a tangerine or smth.

49. everything in your life is a choice.

50. my uncle makes me laugh more than anyone in my life

51. school mainly

52. times new roman bc i’m a basic whore

53. rough skin around the knuckles bc it’s cold out

54. that nothing comes to you unless you earn it.

55. too many

56. too many

57. i’m still struggling wdym overcome

58. i’m not talented

59. “ah shit. here we go again.”

60. the one where they have these super odd powers that they don’t get and are tryna learn about while still being a ‘normal kid’ but no one questions their normalcy bc they were awkward to begin with.

61. “that’s all it is miles; a leap of faith.” from into the spider verse or “within this inch, we are free” from tryst six venom or “i don’t think i have it in me to be THAT scared abt smth that could be good.” from the wilds

62. riley luo, addie larue, lily calloway, toni shalifoe, peter parker, kate bishop, sue gilbert

63. 2stylish / crème / already best friends / i wanna see some ass / way out by jack harlow

64. fantage was my life but it passed away

65. yeah i have one on my knuckle from when i punched something in 8th grade oop

66. i could be a florist i love flowers so much. any and all.

67. i have a deck of cards that’s purple and has a unicorn on it. i bought it as a joke, but now i bring the deck with me if i’m nervous or stressed and it always results with a good day.

68. deep fried cheese and meat, particular lamb and steaks. anything incredibly greasy just- keep me away.

69. that women are born w all the eggs they will ever produce

70. right

71. idk

72. treacherous at math but i believe u can become good at anything and there’s nothing ur bad at forever if u intentionally learn and change.

73. ketchup on every👏thing

74. at least a 7 or 8

75. first grade

76. fries probably. or baked.

77. wouldn’t know

78. coffee from a gas station is water and probably would hurt my GI tract too bad so that one.

79. both’re shite

80. earth

81. fireflies

82. console

83. writing

84. depends

85. barbie

86. cookies

87. simple answer is spiders. hard answer is being alone.

88. world peace :p but fr to attain that i think ppl need to find a peace within themselves first? stop caring what other ppl think of u and love urself bc the standards ur destroying urself for are in constant fluctuation and are all for economic gain. just look at ur self, love every part, then go out and spread that love to ppl who don’t have it / see it in themselves. i think this occurs most effectively through kindness.

89. my family

90. being born XD

91. bags

92. sunlight then lamps then overhead lights

93. too many embarrassing inside jokes between my sisters and i but ultimately none.

94. autumn

95. notes or camera or safari probably

96. it’s the basic apple mountain range i haven’t changed it

97. 3

Thank you for being there for me always, and for, by virtue existing, reminding me that the humankind can be good, and insanely kind.

I have found parts of myself that I like, parts I wasn’t sure even existed, in our conversations, enmeshed in your words.

Happy one year to our abstract rants! Here’s to many, many more ❤️

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY LOVE OF MY LIFE

you are the sweetest, most sincere person i’ve met for a really long time. i love our conversations, and i love that i never feel embarrassed around you.

I’m not talking about their spirituality or their religion. I’m talking about the things that evoke immense emotion in us one way or another that we struggle to explain why and- thus- the symbolism in our stories that to one interpretation is really only for us, if I write a scene where a character as a child eats an orange sherbet push pop that maybe to everyone else it will be an irrelevant detail, and I feel alone in the overwhelming nostalgia and softness of sun-soaked childhoods at a very specific park and a routine I used to follow for no particular reason- but I like to think it’s not, only for me.

I think that, while it’s a folly to presume to know the mind of anyone you’ve only read the work of, there is a kind of intimate exchange in storytelling. We talk often about obscure or strange trauma triggers, people whose minds have somehow condensed an abusive experience down to the sight of eggs on a plate or a particular song but only when it’s whistled- but these forms of trauma simply reflect a broader truth in human understanding. We make patterns out of the strangest things.

“Pareidolia” is the proper term often used, and, as I so often like to do with words, I chew it apart into its pieces and look for pretty fragments. Pareidolia is simply the way that we look for, and see things- patterns, faces, hands- where they do not factually exist. The things that are most important to us make soap bubble distortions out of our world. But inside of that word is ‘idol’, like an idol for a deity. I am sure that presence has other meanings, but a part of me imagines it almost as a personal pantheon. The strange gods of the life that only we have lived, and that we share at a thousand small places with others.

The god of my childhood is orange sherbet push pops, eaten in summer, earnest attempts made to lap up all the sweet sticky syrup before it drips too far but never successful, and the plastic ‘umbrella’ (really the pusher, but it was always an umbrella to my eyes) taken to play with and turn in my fingers long after the cardboard tube was gone. Perhaps, somewhere in the world, there are other people that know that particular god.

A curious thing to call divine. Just one memory among many. But whenever I see them again, it’s like turning over a page in an old yearbook and there’s your best friend who you haven’t seen, who you wonder what they’re doing now. The vocabulary of our most intimate and personal experiences are littered with ostensibly meaningless objects that held our hearts once.