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The relief and contentment on Malthus' face; the way he looks like he has let out the breath that he's been holding back as he inhales the scent of Hilda—like his body's survival relies on breathing in her presence. And this is also paired with the initial shock on Hilda's end? The way her expression went from pure happiness and surprise that the saint came to her room, before contorting to a cry of relief as she was, yet again, assured that Malthus does indeed love her.

Then not even a few minutes later, Malthus says that he wanted to see her place—expressing his desire to know her more; to see Hilda's room not as a man that lines up to wait their turn, not as a saint of the conservative society that wants to chastise her, and not as a colonel that flashes her with gifts, but someone that wants to see the decorations of Hilda's sanctuary that wholly paints her. It was the moment that he found out about her favorite music box—one that she got when she was 15—and her love for jewelry and perfume

Definitely one of their most intimate scenes when you consider that this was the first time that Malthus willingly chose to be with her, and Hilda's first experience of a man coming inside her room with the purest intentions, even if it was to say good bye; even if it may be their last, he only longed to spend time with her.

Mine is that Hilda wept when she saw Malthus' self-flagellation scars and she kissed them.

Another is that they bathed in the bubble bath and daydreamed of a life together in those hours that they were in Hilda's room. Or they spoke about their childhoods.

I only saw this now i'm so sorry 😭 I really like the thought of Malthus repeatedly telling Hilda that he loved her after they got back together at the end of the series as some form of reassurance that he wouldn't leave her again

I also believe that Malthus has memorized every freckle and mark that decorates Hilda's shoulders as he often stared at her, especially during the council votings. It's just the intimacy of knowing the beauty that adorned Hilda, with Malthus probably thinking that each part of her is just incredibly breathtaking

It's kind of silly how he wanted to perform a miracle by exorcising her so he could finally be a saint, but unknowingly Hilda's existence itself was the miracle—the only person who actually taught him what it means AND how it feels to be human—the angel who opened his eyes and made him ACTUALLY love humanity, “I look at her shoe and I love the world.” She still was the miracle, although it's not how he intended it to be, but it's what he needed the most.