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having terrible graphic intrusive thoughts all by yourself gorgeous?

btw you don’t have to turn your trauma into a story, art a meaning, anything. sometimes trauma is just something that happened to you and that’s it. there isn’t some deep poetic meaning

i love when I don’t give a fuck about anything i love not having a single thought in my brain i love when i’m not constantly remembering a horrible thing from the past i love when i let go of things

I can’t imagine a future. It feels as if I’m not meant to be here

I hate hate HATE what the internet has done to mental health language. You don’t have intrusive thoughts about fucking McDonald’s for four hours Bethany, they’re about incest, rape, murder and all other kinds of disgusting things you don’t want. That’s why they’re called INTRUSIVE. They’re rapid and scary and horrible. You’re not “triggered” cause a moron on tiktok said something you don’t like, it’s when your PTSD recognised something that could be dangerous to you that’s similar to a traumatic event and shuts down to try and help you. It’s panic inducing and the worst feeling. Disassociation isn’t “zoning out.” For a bit in class, it’s walking around like an emotionless zombie because you can’t feel anything as a symptom of severe mental illness or trauma. Shut the fuck up!!!