summary: fans are quick to notice an f1 driver follows and interacts with a random bunny pet account. only thing is itโs not random, itโs yours, and secretly his too
social media
( warnings: none really just some fluff! again i try to be as inclusive as possible but let me know if anything is inaccurate or offensive. i love all of you so much and literally am so grateful for everyone! )
hoppingaround81: pixie took on her first ever in person. australian grand prix! ( only her human went to the race, but pix enjoyed all the beaches very much ) ๐๏ธ๐๏ธ๐งก๐ฆ
user: they do live in australia so iโm sure they have been going there since y/n got her
^yourusername: yes but only she started swimming in sept 2025!
user: is the 6th pic her pretending to be a kangaroo?
yourusername: she thinks sheโs one of them!
user: why is oscar piastri in the likes
^user: maybe he likes bunnies
^user: he probably thinks itโs a fan account
^user: technically it isโฆ
^user: yeah sheโs been a supporter of him since his f3 days. this used to strictly be an oscar fan page until he joined in 2023 and thatโs also the year she got pixie
user: ughhh you've got it all girl!
user: oh to be pixie at the beach with my human who busted attended the australian gp
user: queen did you see oscar crashed on formation lap? :(
^yourusername: yes i did unfortunately. absolutely gutted for the poor guy, but he will come back with a bang!
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oscarpiastri: grateful for everyone at the AUS GP, always amazing to be back in my hometown and interact with everyone. this year we were off to a not so great start for the season, but my head is up and iโm ready to race again. interested to see how the rest of this season unfolds, hopefully itโs only up from here.
hoppingaround81: someone was so excited to get outside that she escaped out the front door when mom was leaving, but thankfully dad rescued her. donโt worry we took her to the park the next day!
hoppingaround81: special day for everyone especially our beautiful baby pixie. canโt believe iโm married to the love of my life, weโve been with each other since 2019 and we always planned on forever ๐งก๐ชฉ๐
alexandraleclerc: this is the cutest wedding ever, hi little pixie!
carmenmundt: iโm so obsessed with her tiny little bow
^georgerussell: the cutest ring bearer
user: since 2019 are you actually kidding me
user: not even shocked he kept this private for as long as he did
user: SHE IS SO GORGEOUS OH MY GOD
^user: the hijab with the layered wedding dress???
^user iโm actually crying this is so beautiful
user: oh! i was not expecting to be bawling for an f1 couple this early in the morning
nicolepiastri: my daughter in law ๐๐ฅบ
hattiepiastri: MY SISTERRRRR โค๏ธ
^mclaren: we're not crying.....( hand us the tissues pls)
user: husband oscar? oh wowowowow
user: if you donโt think this is most gorgeous stunning couple, bride, wedding, and bunny parents youโve ever seen then i donโt know what to tell you
user: pixie is just the most adorable thing ever
^user: dare i say the best paddock pet
^user: sheโs never been in there but yk hell yeah
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summary: the very next day after you announce you're adopting, it becomes official. you and lewis experience all the emotions and make memories with the kids, who are already comfortable with being loved as hamiltons
first chapter | everyoneโs family
real life 3.0k words
(warnings: adoption, unexplicit past trauma, avianna is a high functioning autistic and extremely intelligent and blunt ) authors note: hi hi hi, i am genuinely so sorry this took so long to put out. i won't be explaining my absence but i'll make up for it by posting a lot of stories, and frequently too. hope you enjoy this part of the mini series, you can read the first chapter if you haven't already, to get some context. thank you so much for sticking around and reading, i love you all!!!
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your fingers are laced with lewisโs as you walk in the courthouse togetherย
both of you dressed nice, you in a long flowy maxi dress and lewis suit pants and a button downย
your family lawyer confidently walks ahead, her heels clicking against the marble as she quickly flips through a folder with lots of files and photosย
glancing at lewis beside you, you catch his soft smile that he hasnโt been able to wipe off all morningย
the one that started immediately when he awoke and realized today was the day
โhow are you feeling?โ he speaks softly, his thumb brushing over your knuckles
you nod, even though your throat feels tight. youโre feeling so emotional you feel as if you speak too fast everything spill out
โweโre about to take our five kids home, iโve never been better.โ
your voice rises in pitch as you smile and try to take it all in. all of this feels almost unbelievable but you know itโs not. not anymoreย
however you remember when this all first started, how it was just yasmine, you and lewis had planned to adoptย
just one file. one girl, that you and your husband couldnโt stop thinking aboutย
especially as her being your daughterย
but then suddenly she wasnโt just a girl. she was a sister, an older and a younger. now here you are, getting ready to invite five lively little pure souls into your homesย
lewis notices the silence and can already tell youโre in your head reflectingย
he brings your hand to his lips, still holding onto youย
feeling more grounded by his act, youโre now in front of the courtroom. the doors open, and immediately everything changesย
you barely have time to take in the space before you see them
all of them. marcel, yasmin, avianna, harper and little baby rioย
theyโre all there on the bench with their social worker, clustered together. they seem to be a mixture of excited and anxious but the second they spot you and lewis, everything explodes and all composure or quietness leaves the room
harper, soon to be your four year old, is the first to break away
her tiny legs moving as fast as they can carry her. giggles fall out of her mouth so loud it echoes, and avianna follows right behind her skipping happily
sheโs already halfway through a sentence about how long theyโve been waitingย
as you bend down and open your arms to embrace the young girls, lewisโs eyes drift over to the two teens
yasmine doesnโt run and neither does marcelย
they stay back just a second longer, watching. but then they notice lewis holding his arms out with a smileย
holding the eye contact the two oldest realize heโs specifically waiting for them
usually all the attention goes to the little ones. not this time, thoughย
yasmine canโt help but smile and move her feet. marcel trails behind, trying his best to keep his eyes clear and dry. even though he tries his hardest, the sight of the kids walking towards him makes lewis tear upย
heโs been waiting for this day and now itโs finally here. his arms wrap around the two teens and the kids cling onto him proudlyย
you briefly look over to see your husband and the teens, the sight making your heart swell with warmth
โyouโre here!โ harper shouts which pulls your attention back to herย
it sounds like sheโs been holding that sentence in all morning. she jumps up into your arms โwe said we would be.โ you tell her softly, brushing her hair back
avianna hugs your side, then pulls back just enough to look up
her brows slightly furrowed โthis is the final step, correct? we will live with you forever unless thereโs extreme circumstances or we move out.โ
you canโt help but let out a soft laugh at her bluntness โcorrect.โ you say gently, looking at her with the same seriousnessย
โthis is forever, youโll always be ours.โ
she nods once with a satisfied smile then bounces over to her other siblings with lewis
the worker walks over with rio, whoโs been clapping the second he saw you and lewisย
you set harper down, whoโs starts jumping once she realizes youโre going to hold rio. in this entire process you and lewis have met and hung out with the all kids individually to bond with them
but never had you been with all of them at the same time ย
which was why harper became excited. the little girls absolutely loved baby rio, though they hadnโt seen him since he was one month. it seemed everything he did, had the two younger girls in aweย
especially in seeing their baby brother get excited with their new parents for the first timeย
โlook heโs clapping! heโs clapping, avi look!โ the girl giddily pulled her sisters armย
their social worker happily passed the baby to you
he held his arms out with a gummy smile, and you almost fell to your knees right there
you couldnโt believe this was real. all the kids here together. plus to have rio reach his arms out for you because he now knows who are, felt so surrealย
what made the moment even better was avianna jumping up and down with harper โoh that means he likes you!โ
ย you lightly bounce whatโs almost officially and legally your baby
โoh is that so?โ with a smile, lewis and the teens decide to join in on the conversationย
avianna nods, not quite understanding the fun or sarcastic tone stand. she looks to you with a raised brow โthatโs what i said. do you think he needs me to repeat it, because his hearing is decreasing at his age?โย
โhe is pretty old.โ you giggle and watch her mirror your actionsย
lewis steps closer, picking up avianna. because of her comment he lightly tickles, making the girl squeal with excitementย
marcel and yasmin make their way to you with a smile
first to hug you is yasmin, who gently leans into your side. acknowledging the younger ones, she gives rio a little shake of the hand, before happily placing harper on her hip
now, your teen boy doesnโt quite hug you but you can definitely he wants to. the hesitation in him is easy to see and even easier to feelย
you donโt rush him but give a small smile back to himย
just a moment later the judge swiftly enters the courtroomย
all of you scramble to move to the front and squeeze together in an orderly fashion
the kidโs social worker and your family lawyer confidently place themselves ahead of you and the kids
as they present the official documents, your eye canโt help but go blurry from tearsย
your fingers lightly brush up and down rios back, your mind remembering you and lewis are surrounded by all the kids
standing together like a family already
and though this signifies that officially, the bond between you lewis and the kids that exsists, is bigger than any documentย
the hearing itself feels like it passes by in a blur and a lifetime all at onceย
the judge smiles warmly as she looks over at the kids
the ones who are all gathered around you smiling, jumping and held up by someone. baby rio clapping in your arms, harper wiggling around with yasmine, and avianna giggling over with lewis on his hip, who also has his arm around marcel
she asks a few formal questions that you and your husband do your best to answer with steady voicesย
even though your heart is racing you somehow manage to keep your composureย
you glance down at the kids as you stand there together, all of you in a line that feels both new and already familiarย
after a few minutes of back and forth answering question, you realize its almost over
thereโs only one final partย
and that part is here. yasmine reaches for your hand without thinking, instinctively wanting her motherย
her firm grip grounds you, and unknowingly yours does the same for herย
clearing her throat, the judge begins calmly speaking with a smile โit is clear to this me and this court that these children are not just entering a home, but a family that has already begun to love them deeply.โ
your eyes canโt help but to drift over to your husband, who already seems to be looking at you
lewisโ chest tightens with emotion at the words just spokenย
it happens even more as the judge continues speaking, having to try his best not to faint from realizationย
โwith the power of the united kingdom, i am honored to finalize the adoption of marcel, yasmine, avianna, harper, and rio into the full care of lewis and y/n hamilton.โ
and just like that, itโs done. you are now parents to five children
thereโs a moment of silence between everyoneย
but only a moment. the kids being kids, canโt contain their excitement and practically burstย
laughing and cheering harper jumps up and down again while avianna joins in with the cheering. she smiles at the man whos now her dad, grabbing his hands to clap together in a specific rhythmย
yasmine covers her mouth, still finding this hard to believe ย
rio leans into you and you cradle his head, letting out an airy tearful laugh. they say babies can tell who their parents are, and while he may be young he knows who loves himย
you and lewis. he knows
even marcel lets out a breath of relief, bear hugging yasminย
you watch the two teens hug, before lewis makes his way over to you. pulling you into him for a second his forehead presses against yours gently
โwe did it, my love. weโre parents.โ he whispers softly, voice shaky
โweโre parents.โ you echo, happy tears freely streaming down your face โthese are our kids.โ ย
he nods slowly with pride, holding you for a moment longer before the kids pile around you for a group hugย
the click of a camera shutter lets you know pictures are being takenย
something youโre very thankful for. you canโt wait to look back at these and show your kids these. display them at all their graduations and weddingsย
everyone squeezes together more, then clamoring to get a proper organized photoย
the photographer captures a moment that will exist foreverย
when you step out into the hallway, the kids begin asking questions and it feels like no time has passed. it like theyโve always been part of your life and householdย
โso what happens nowww?โ harper asks immediately, bouncing on her toes
โnowww,โ you wiggle side to side mirroring her movement and tone โweโre going home.โ
the word home means something different and now. you see it in their and lewisโ face
everything carries over to the car. the ride there is everything youโve ever wished for and loud in the best wayย
questions from your four year old overlaps with avianna excitedly explaining her favorite ways to calculate statistical probabilities, all while harper tries to climb halfway into the front seat before yasmine pulls her back gently
on the quieter side marcel sits looking out the window
but every now and then he glances forward checking that you and lewis are still there
lewis does the same. He canโt help himself from lookiingback at the kids every second wile you drive. You and him share a look of happiness and prideย
โsoo we were thinking,โ lewis lightly clears his throat, his voice warm โfor dinner tonight we would have a big dinner, something for everyone. Yeah, does that sounds okay?โ
โhmm like what?โ yasmine asks with a small smile leaning forward
โlike whatever you want. everyone can pick their favorite dish and iโll make a big serving.โ
thereโs a pause form the teen girl as she thinks
but the littles donโt waste a second, as a loud collective gasp hits the ears of everyone in the car. even baby rio who squeals
โi want mac and cheese!!โ avianna and harper shout in unison with wide eyesย
marcel covers his ears like heโs annoyed, but turns to the window to hide his smile. he was happy to see his little sisters so excited and most of all comfortable
even if he didnโt want to show it. he still felt it ย
you and lewis only raise an eyebrow, purely amused at their synced energy levelsย
โmac and cheese will be made for sure then.โ
lewis lets out a little laugh, nodding at his daughters with admirationย
chaos finds it ways back in the car again, while the two teens smile through it and tell you what they want for dinnerย
as the car pulls in through the drive way you watch as all the kidsโ mouths hang open
once parked the two littles darts out and run around
youโve barely manage to get out of the car yourself and your daughters are already admiring, and inspecting the driveway. of all things they are excited about the drive wayย
it was beautiful to witness their joy over such a thing
lewis opens the other side of the car to unbuckle a giggly rio from his carseat while you help the two teen climbs out from the backย
yasmine grabs your hand and steps out softly โthank you.โ she speaks softly, almost as if she doesnโt want to interrupt the moment but needs to say it anyway
marcel nods in agreeance, looking at you and lewis who is now beside youย
โyeahโฆ.thank you guys.โ the teen boy adds then unexpectedly hugging you. it hits you harder than you expect because you can feel the weight of those words and the years of things they carriedย
stuff they shouldnโt have had toย
you feel all his emotions and you urge yasmine you hug you two
lewis does his best to hold off his years
hes waited for this moment for fifteen years, to see his wife hugging his children
now he has and its taking everything in him not to crumble to the ground in emotion. it becomes more difficult to avoid when he remembers heโs holding his baby and watching his two little girls chase each other up and down their long drivewayย
you turn slightly in your seat, your expression gentle but firm
โhey.โ you say softly with a shaky voice โi promise you donโt have to thank us.โ
they both look a little confused at that until you keep speaking, choosing each word carefully โyouโre here because youโre supposed to be. this is permanent, okay? youโre not visiting and youโre not temporary, so please donโt thank us. all we want is to love you, ok. youโre home now.โ
lewis emotionally nods, snuggling rio a little tighter โyou were wanted. we want wanted you, all of you and youโre always going to be wanted. always.โ
the teens now have tears in their eyes as they both move to hug you and lewis again
pulling away from the hug you lightly nudge them โand spoiled.โ you playfully add which gains a small smirk from themย
lewis then turns his attention to the girl who are still running around and squealingย
โgirls!โ his happy, but fatherly tone comes out for the first timeย
their little eyes snap up immediately, though all of their excitement has been drained from their body. they stand still on the concrete, frozen in fearย
you both walk over to them with marcel and yasmin trailing behind, lost in conversationย
lewis realizes he mightโve scared them and immediately hold out with and with a big and warm smileย
โoh. iโm sorry if i scared you, i was going to go ask if we should go inside now?โย
you nod in agreement โhow does that sound to you, my babies?โย
their fear of consequences melts away and turns into laughter. harper doubles over holding her stomach and avianna jumps into your arms โweโre not babies!โย
โohh youโre so right! i made a mistake didnโt i?โ you gasp playing along, and watch lewis giggle with harperย
once their fits of laughter die down a little, the teens who have watched this entire interaction are ready to go insideย
they share a smirk before shouting โrace you guys inside!!โย
immediately avianna and harper break away, all the kids taking offย
except baby rio. he sits in lewisโs arms happily slapping his chubby hands on his dad faceย
to you and lewis, the sound of their shoes hitting the ground and their squeals while they push each other is what youโve waiting all day for. all your relationship actuallyย
but the wait was worth it
because after all these years of loving each other, you get to share that love. because you and lewis finally were able to bring kids, your kids, into your shared house
house as it was missing that home feeling. children, is what it was really missing
having it filled with the sounds of their laughter from telling inside jokes or misspeaking and shoes hitting the ground from being kicked off when getting back
these kids, your kids, they are what have turned it into a home
summary: existing in a world where you donโt fit the social standards is difficult. carlos knows this, and now having two daughters the importance of power confidence and justice only increased to him. when your daughter comes home questioning her identity, you and him realize and sort out your differences. then remind them who they are
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( warnings: racism, name calling, parents arguing, child meltdowns and spanish that is translated. this is quite heavy, but i write to be inclusive and share real representation and perspectives with my fiction. i wrote this with black women specifically in mind, but this applies to anyone who has been made fun of for any skin color or culture. take up space, be loud and wild and know you donโt have to fit in the propaganda of pure prim and proper. thank you for reading and i love you all, i hope this isnโt offensive, but empowering. but as always, if you have a problem with this, please comment or message me. my priorities are always inclusivity and respect. )
you stand in the kitchen, the room filled with the smell of garlic and fresh air as win passes through the open window
stirring soup you and carlos move between the stove and the sink with easy rhythm. he effortlessly switches between talking to you in spanish and english
he waves one hand gesturing as he teases you for being impatient and eating before itโs done
โnunca puedes esperar hasta que la comida estรฉ lista, ยฟverdad?โ he laughs as you swat as him with your spoon but he keeps going
( you can never wait until the food is ready, can you? )
โsiempre tienes prisa, mi mujer.โ
( you're always in a hurry, my wife.)
you simple roll your eyes โeso es porque siempre cocinas sin probar y sabe mal!โ por eso a las niรฑas les gusta mรกs mi comida que la tuya.โ
( that's because you always cook without tasting and it tastes bad! that's why the girls like my food more than yours. )
a laugh canโt help but escape him โay mentira.โ
( oh lie )
โthe girls want you to cook because you let them taste as well, and dance around in the kitchen.โ
you nudge his hip with yours. โwhat i can say, ellas son su madre hija despuรฉs de todo.โ
( they are their mother after all )
smirking at that, he leans down to kiss your temple โnow that, is very true mi amor.โ
his lips linger on your forehead while you smile in his arms. the madrid sunlight pours through the kitchen windows, everything is calm as you count down the seconds until your two daughter come home
right as you and carlos expect the door open
but it slams harder than usual. yes the door slamming is expected as you never know what mood your teen is going to be in
though you become worried when you notice itโs nala whoโs stomping
you and carlos share a worried look as she enters the kitchen entrance without looking at either of you. her little shoulders are drooping, her backpack dragging on the floor
immediately you step forward upon seeing her red eyes and trembling
โmi amor?โ you canโt help but gasp with concern
the eight year old silently walks faster to get away but carlos is already after her
he scoops her up effortlessly, lifting her against his chest like he did when she was smaller and your concern only grows bigger when she buries her face into his shoulder
โhey, hey.โ he murmurs softly, one hand cradling the back of her head
โquรฉ pasรณ princesa? what happened?โ
she shakes her head violently against him with a shout โnothing!โ
you frown, your concerned motherly tone coming out โnala.โ reaching for your heart your tilt your head but she wonโt look at you
or her father. and that is very unlike her. talia finally appears, practically tip toeing
as the sixteen year old girl hangs up her back you she turns with a facial expression that makes your stomach churn
โtalia.โ speaking quietly you furrow your eyebrows โwhat happened mi niรฑa?โ she hesitates, eyes bouncing back and forth between her parents and her distraught little sister
carlos nods as he rubs circles into nalaโs back. โamor please tell us.โ
โsome kids at school.โ she starts quietly eye fixed on the floor โthey were saying stuff.โ carlosโ jaw tightens instantly and he almost interjects with anger
but your hand on his shoulder stops him โwhat stuff did they say honey?โ
talia looks at nala, then back at you. โthey made comments about her hair, saying it looks ratty and ugly.โ
when your teenage daughter was done speaking the kitchen fell silent
carlosโ hand stops moving for a split second before he forces himself to keep rubbing the back of his youngest. unfortunately there was more. talia continues her voice slightly shaky now โand they said her skin looks dirty.โ
your heart feels like it falls down to your feet and you fight back your tears and anger
carlos inhales slowly trying to remain calm, but it quite obvious heโs upset. you could have guessed his reaction
โwho?โ he asks with a low voice
one you know too well. his tolerance for these kind of comments is zero and he doesnโt back down โcarlos.โ you warn quietly with a look
โno, y/n.โ his eyebrows furrow in a way to question your dismissal of this mess
โi want to know who said it. who said it talia.โ he repeats
the teen sighs, upon noticing your hesitation and her dadโs demands โwho do you think dad. but it doesnโt matter anyways, itโs not true and theyโre idiots.โ
carlos presses his lips to nalaโs temple. with the presence of his daughters heโs trying to remain calm
but you see it. heโs furious beyond reasoning
though when he speaks again, his voice is soft โtalia.โ carlos gently but firmly speaks โgo upstairs mi cariรฑa por favor.โ
she hesitates and looks to you for confirmation. you nod in agreement with your husband
the older girl loved her little sister, and you both knew that but this was bigger their like for proximity towards each other
sensing the slight defiance, carlos lets his shield fall and looks to your daughter with pleading eyes โplease.โ
that gets her to slowly disappear down the hallway and up to her room. now itโs just you, your husband and your youngest daughter
โmi niรฑa,โ carlos whispers, diverting his attention to her โlook at me.โ
she refuses at first fists clutching the fabric of his shirt. you step closer and cup her cheek gently. โbaby.โ
slowly, she lifts her face and thatโs when you both see her swollen eyes
you speak to her with the gentleness she needs from her mother. โyou look like me,โ you say quietly โand i would never change a single thing about myself. do you understand?โ
she blinks through tears but her face remains blank. no nod, just nothing
โhoney people who say things like that are small and scared. they donโt understand beauty when itโs different from theirs, but they does not take away from your looks, knowledge, kindness, dedication or anything ok sweetheart.โ
carlos kneels beside you now, one hand resting on nalaโs back, the other gripping his own knee like heโs physically holding himself together
โi want it gone.โ she suddenly murmurs and you and carlos almost feel your hearts shatter right there
โque?โ carlos frowns with a disgusted and angry tone
โmy hair!โ she cries, her hands moving to pull harshly on it โi want to shave it off, i want to be bald now!โ
carlosโ face breaks watching his daughter claw at her hair, trying to stop her
โno, no no.โ you grimace in shock instantly, stepping forward to grab at her hands. that control and resistance from you, only upsets her more
nala grows more desperate to get free and run away โi donโt want it anymore!โ she screams, pushing against both of you, trying to slide out from her dads arms. โi hate it! i hate it!โ
โnala.โ carlos turns stern, now holding her tighter. โno dices eso. nunca.โ
( you donโt say that. never )
โporque no? itโs ugly!โ she shouts. โitโs ugly and messy and it looks like a rat!โthrashing against she kicks and scream
your chest starts to physically hurt watching the scene in front of you play out
carlos isnโt taking it any lighter. you reach for your daughter again but she jerks away, now hitting your arm away. yelling sheโs fighting both of you now, writhing in carlosโ arms. โlet me go!โ she cries
โamor listen to me.โ he tries to reason with her gently โyour hair is beautiful. itโs perfect and itโs yours.โ
โand your skin,โ he continues, voice shaking and trembling heavily โyour skin is the most beautiful color iโve ever seen in my life. eres como mamรก.โ
( youโre like mama )
you swallow hard listening to his words. she doesnโt seem to be repective at all
nala shakes her heard violently โi donโt want it!โ she sobs again, pushing at his chest. โi donโt want to be like this!โ
nala finally breaks free from his hold and throws herself on the floor, her small hands covering her face
โi donโt want to look like me!โ her cries pierce the ears of you and carlos
the words hit harder than anything else and carlos covers his face as well. his own tears fall and heโs heavy breathing, unsure what to do at this point
you decide to take the lead now, giving carlos a moment to calm himself. you sit down next to your daughter pulling her into you
wrapping your arms around her small body she resists at first going stiff and angry. but then after you rock her for a few moments she melts into you, sobbing harder than before
carlos sighs and wraps himself around both of you. โi want to be bald.โ she mutters again into your shoulder
โno.โ you say gently, stroking her puffs. โyou donโt want to be bald. you want to not get picked on. i understand that, mama had to go through the same thing.โ
she goes quiet at your statement
after a few more moments, she pushes away from both of you again, wiping her face angrily
โi want to go to my room.โ
carlos reaches for her instinctively, but you place a hand on his arm.
โvale, let her.โ you murmur softly and he looks at you with conflicted eyes but you persist โshe needs a moment carlos.โ
he nods slowly sighing nala stomps up the stairs without looking back. her steps now heavier and with more force than before
upstairs her door slams, something you were expecting
but now the house feels too quiet, and you werenโt exactly prepared for the silence. the anger boiling and pouring from your husband
carlos stares a the kitchen floor for a moment longer than intended
his jaw is tight and his eyes are glossy. itโs taking everything in him not to scream and fight out of pure rage for his daughter
you silently walk over to the stove, turning it off before returning your attention on him
โcarlos.โ you say quietly
he looks up at you, eyes filled with rage and you know whatโs coming
carlos stands in the middle of the kitchen his chest rising fast. his is jaw locked so tight you can see the muscles and veins shifting underneath his skin
โesto es inaceptable.โ he snaps, running both hands through his hair. "ยฟcรณmo pueden decir algo asรญ? ยฟquรฉ clase de niรฑos piensan que estรก bien decir cosas asรญ, y a su compaรฑero de clase que tiene la misma edad? estoy disgustado y cabreado!โ
( how can they say something like that? what kind of children think it's okay to say things like that, and to their classmate who is the same age? i'm upset and pissed off! )
he starts pacing back and forth immediately, his hands flying around wildly as he rambles. the angrier he becomes the faster his spanish seems to get. that part is usual
words jumble together as he continues to spit angry sentences
โeso nunca deberรญa pasar. nunca. estoy tan jodidamente enojado ahora mismo. i swear i am going to that school tomorrowโโ
( that should never happen. ever. i am so fucking mad right now )
โvoy a hablar con los profesores y con el director. con quien sea. oh and donโt think I wonโt fight their the parents? i want their parents, all of them and i will be speaking with them because if thatโs what their children are saying, then thatโs what theyโre hearing at home!โ
( i'm going to talk to the teachers and the principal. with whoever )
his voice is now rising, echoing off the ceilings and walls
โcarlos.โ you say softly
he doesnโt hear you but he doesnโt care to. heโs completely
โesto no es normal.โ he continues, pacing again. โshe is eight. ocho aรฑos. and they are already teaching her to hate herself? no. absolutely not. i wonโt allow it.โ
โcarlos.โ
this time your voice is firmer and he stops mid step upon hearing that you rarely say his name like that
he turns toward you, breathing so fast his chest heaving hard
โmi amor.โ you say gently. โmรญrame.โ
his shoulders shake one more before he switches to english, speaking much quieter now
โiโm sorry.โ he mutters, rubbing his hands down his face. โi justโi canโtโโ
โi know.โ you nod, softly cutting him off knowing heโs struggling to piece his thoughts together
he shakes his head, still pacing but slower now and taking deep breathes. โshe should never have to hear that never.โ
you nod once. your hands are clasped together in front of you โlisten to me carlos, i know youโre angry, and this is going to upset you more.โ
โbut i donโt think you should go to the school tomorrow.โ you say carefully
his head snaps toward you. a look in his eyes squinting, shooting you a look so sharp you want to disappear
โwhat?โ
with the help of a deep breathe, you continue, keeping your tone level โwe should put our focus on nala and remind her that sheโs beautiful. remind her sheโs strong and needs to be proud of her skin and hair.โ
his brows pull together in disbelief โthatโs it?โ he asks, mouthing agape and eyebrows raised his โthatโs enough for you?โ
โitโs what she needs.โ
โno,โ he says instantly shaking his head. โabsolutely not, lo siento mi esposa but thatโs not enough for me.โ
he starts pacing again, hands on his hips this time. โshe was crying in our kitchen, pushing us away and screaming saying she wants to shave her head.โ
voice cracking, carlos passionately speaks the emotion pouring out of him โshe wants to erase herself because of what someone ignorant entitled uneducated kids said, do you understand that?โ
โi know.โ you whisper, crying yourself
โso you see how sheโs affected by this. how is me doing nothing the answer?โ
โitโs not nothing.โ you plead now feeling guilty. carlos huffs shaking his head โyeah well it feels like nothing.โ
you inhale slowly โwe need to be the bigger person.โ the second the words leave your mouth, you know he hates them
he laughs once but thereโs no humor in it, only disbelief and fury โthe bigger person?โ he repeats. โshe gets bullied and now she has to be the bigger person?โ
โcarlosโโ
โno,โ he cuts in, shaking his head. โthat is insane. she is eight. she should be worrying about coloring inside the lines and what time her favorite show is on, not about being the bigger person because someone attacked her for her skin and hair.โ
his voice trembles now, the presence of anger and heartbreak evident and tangled together
โis that how you want to raise them?โ he asks suddenly, his tone shifting. โto just take it and brush it off, never stop or question it?โ
the question hits harder than you expect, that wasnโt an aspect you had ever stop to considered
you look down at the floor and for a moment, you donโt answer
more like canโt answer. the accusations from him make you freeze in shame. are you minimizing it? are you really teaching them to swallow their voice? it seems you are in your husbandโs eyes
โno.โ finally you speak, voice shaking and body trembling โthatโs not how i want to raise them.โ
โi want them to be strong, powerful, ambitious and confident women as they grow. i want them to be full of love and surrounded by it. i want them to walk into every room knowing exactly who they are and know that they donโt have to change.โ
your throat tightens as you speak, the realization of your faulty parenting actions now hitting you hard
โi donโt want them shrinking.โ
carlos sighs looking at you with teary eyes, sounding broken โ then why let this go?โ he presses โiโm not letting it go.โ
โit sounds like you are.โ
you sigh, rubbing your hands over your arms like youโre trying to ground yourself
โwe knew this was going to happen someday.โ you say quietly. โand that doesnโt make it acceptable.โ
before you can speak again your husband interjects โthen why are you acting like itโs inevitable? why?โ
you hesitate. you know your answer is only going to upset him more โbecause it kind of is carlos.โ you whisper and right away carlos throws his head back
โit happenedโhappens to me.โ you correct yourself then continue, quickly before he can say anything โit has always happened. and you know madrid can beโโ
โdonโt.โ he whispers and even though you hear him you want finish your sentence
talking over him you sigh. he shakes his head knowing exactly what your about to say โiโm sorry but they can be very close minded carlos.โ
โi said donโt call it that!โ he snaps, his voice being louder than intended
heโs never yelled at you before, though you understand why itโs happening now โitโs not being close minded itโs racism y/n!โ
the word echo between you in the now completely silent kitchen
neither of you say anything for a moment. the guilt growing in carlos feels like enough to sallow him whole
after a moment he exhales, running a hand over his mouth
โiโm sorry.โ he mutters walking over to you โi didnโt mean to raise my voice at you.โ
the frustration is still radiating off him but he breathes deeply, coming over to embrace you gently
โit makes me crazy.โ he says quietly โbecause you shouldnโt have to expect it. our daughters shouldnโt have to accept it.โ
your eyes sting harshly, but you try to blink it all away. โi donโt want them growing up thinking this is normal i certainly donโt want our sweet nala thinking she just has to endure it.โ
he looks at you and can see right through your heart and mind
the battle going on inside you isnโt behind his as well as you wish it was. he knows the struggle you have between wanting to protect your daughters and wanting to fix thing but not knowing how
โi hate that i canโt shield them from this.โhe says lowly โi would take all the pain and hate for you, her and talia if i could.โ
you step closer, reaching up and placing your hands right over his heart โi know you would.โ
he lets out a shaky breath, immediately softening at your movements and word. all his anger and fire sits in your arms
โiโm sorry i snapped.โ he says again
โyouโre angry because you love us. i understand that carlos and i know you only want to protect us.โ
he nods while you fully wrap your arms around him
he exhales, relaxing into you slowly but surely. his arms circling your waist tightly, pulling you close
for a long moment, neither of you speak. his breathing slowly evens out as you rubs your hands gently over his back trying to ground him
he presses a soft kiss into your hair as he can feel the words your holding on the tip of your tongue. โplease, tell me.โ
you sigh slowly, feeling drained before even speaking โi donโt brush it off because i think itโs okay or donโt care,โ you begin quietly. โi brush it off because i have to. the world has already normalized it and i feel like i need to as well because thereโs no use in fighting against it.โ
โwhen i was nalaโs age i heard the same things your fingers tighten slightly against him
โi was too dark, too loud and ugly.โ
carlosโ jaw flexes, but he keeps quiet, allowing you to expressing your feelings and share your experiences
โand every time i reacted, defended myself or even showed that it hurt, suddenly i wasnโt the girl who got insulted anymore. i was in trouble. i became the one who was rude. the angry one.โ
โand from there on i was always labeled and known as the angry black woman.โ you whisper โif i cried, i was dramatic. if i argued, i was aggressive. if i stood up for myself, i had an attitude.โ
carlosโ arms tighten instinctively around your waist as you kept speaking
โso i learned.โ you say, blinking back tears you refuse to let fall, โi had to learn that it was easier to smile, and shrug it off. i had to to pretend it didnโt hurt or i didnโt hear it.โ
your voice wavers now despite your best efforts to conceal everything โbecause if you donโt react, they canโt label you.โ
he exhales slowly against your hair holding you as you finally release it all. tears soak into his shirts
โand i hate that. i hate that iโve gotten so used to being the bigger person that itโs automatic. i donโt even think about it anymore. it just happens.โ
carlos leans back slightly so he can see your face
โi donโt want our daughters labeled,โ you continue. โi donโt want talia being called difficult because she defends herself. i donโt want nala being seen as angry just because she refuses to accept disrespect.โ
โbut i also donโt want them hating themselves. i donโt want them thinking their hair needs to disappear or their skin needs to lighten or soften to be accepted. iโve spent so much of my life navigating rooms carefully.โ you admit with exhaustion โchoosing my words carefully. choosing my reactions carefully all because if i use one wrong word or an off tone iโm suddenly the problem.โ
โand somewhere along the way,โ you whisper, โi started thinking that surviving it silently was strength.โ
seeing your sobs he pulls you back into him immediately, his hand cradling the back of your head
โmi amor.โ he murmurs pressing his cheek against your hair. โyou were protecting yourself and trying to survive around people who canโt accept differences.โ
โno. i was shrinking myself and the girls.โ you sniffle softly and he pulls himself back just enough to look at you. he speaks firmly. โyou were navigating a world full of hate.โ
โand i understand why you do it,โ he continues. โi do. i see it now.โ he brushes his thumb under your eye where the tears fall
โbut if nala is old enough to hear those things from her classmates,โ he says, his voice gaining soft force again โthen those children are old enough to be corrected. to be scolded in a way that clearly states that what they said is racist.โ
โi will not stand for that behavior toward my daughters.โ he pauses and look directly into your eyes, holding your face โor toward my wife.โ
โthey donโt get to say that and walk away untouched on a high horse.โ he adds while you nod slowly โyouโre right.โ you say firmly and you mean it โthank you, thatโs how it should be.โ
you inhale deeply โiโm really sorry my love for brushing it off earlier. i didnโt mean to make it seem small.โ
he shakes his head immediately. โno.โ he whispers. โdonโt apologize.โ
his hands rub up and down your arms in a means to soothe . โi understand why you do it.โ he says. โi understand the instinct and thatโs exactly why i will always fight.โ
he presses his forehead to yours. โbecause you shouldnโt have to.โ
โi want our daughters to see that,โ he continues softly. โi want them to see a father who defends them and defends their mother. not because they canโt defend themselves but because they deserve someone standing beside them. they donโt have to fight every battle but they need to know they have the right to. if they choose to correct it every single time which we know our talia will, then i will stand behind them every single time. and I will stand behind my beautiful wife who brought then to us. i will always fight.โ
your eyes close briefly once bed done speaking. bending his head he presses a slow kiss to your shoulder
then another and another, repeating the process until you stop him with a laugh
โi love your skin.โ he smiles and murmurs against your neck. โi love how it shines and glows in the sun.โ
a dip in his voice tells you what heโs about to say โand how it feels under my hands.โ
his fingers slide gently along your arm and you laugh knowing you were right. โi love your coily 4c hair.โ he continues. โevery curl and every inch. i love watching you wrap it at night after you let me run oil through it. i love watching our daughtersโ hair grow and change and take up space.โ
lingering one last kiss he holds you in his arms, sensing your change in mood
โi want them to find people who love them like the way you love me.โ you say quietly and pause for a moment
โbut they wont unless they love themselves first.โ
carlos nods slowly, understanding your message completely, as well as where this is going โand that starts with us, i know.โ he whispers sweetly
โyes.โ
he rests his forehead against yours again listening intently to you speak
โwe as parents have responsibilities. we teach them that their beauty theirs and not dependent on anyone elseโs approval.โ
โand we show them that disrespect has consequences.โ he adds softly with a slight smile
you both stand there for a long moment, breathing in sync
the anger on both ends dies down and the only emotions in the room is the love and support between you two
โweโll go to the school tomorrow.โ you confirm with confidence
โtogether.โ carlos nods and you agree โyes, together, but first.โ pulling back slightly you turn to face him โwe talk to our girls.โ
you reach up and smooth your hand over his cheek, while he gently grabs ahold of you hand and kisses it
โi love you amor.โ
you lean into him one more time, your arms wrapping around his waist again
carlos moves toward the bottom of the stairs much calmer than before but still the same amount of serious
he takes a breath before calling out, โtalia y nala. ven aquรญ ahora por favor.โ
( come here now please. )
his voice is firm, not in a angry way but definitely stern
upstairs thereโs the sound of soft footsteps, and a door creaking open. followed by the slow shuffle of feet coming down
nala appears first. her eyes are still red and swollen from her breakdown earlier
her fingers curl nervously into the hem of her shirt. talia follows behind her with a neutral expression, her braids pulled into a loose ponytail that sways against her back
they both stop at the bottom step waiting and watching their father
carlos turns to the girls and tilts his head toward the living room โcome sit.โ
they walk over quietly and settle onto the couch beside each other. nalaโs shoulders are hunched, a frown looking nearly etched on her face
as for talia, the teen sits upright, with her chin lifted. though her fingers twist together in her lap
โare we in trouble?โ talia asks cautiously
โno.โ you say immediately, your gentle motherly voice peeking out but at the exact same time carlos speaks โyes.โ you turn toward him sharply, brows furrowing
he lifts one hand quickly, covering his mouth slightly as he leans toward you
โdรฉjame.โ he murmurs under his breath, a small smile tugging at the corner of his lips. โlet me, please.โ
you hesitate for a moment then nod slowly, showing your support but also speculation. when you look back at the girls, theyโre already exchanging a confused glance. however they straighten up once when their father begins speaking
โyou are in trouble.โ pauses, letting the words settle before continuing
โyou are in trouble,โ he repeats slowly, as a smile slowly creeps its way on his face โfor forgetting that being black is a gift.โ
the girls blink surprised and confused but none the less intrigued
โdo you know,โ carlos steps closer, speaking softer โthat people all over the world spend thousands and thousands of dollars trying to look like you?โ
immediately upon hearing that nalaโs eyes flicker up to lock on you and her father
she never knew that. the little girl sit up straighter waiting for her dad to go on and taliaโs nodded with a knowing sigh
โthey pay for big curls like yours nala,โ he gently gestures nalaโs puffs. โand they pay for braids like yours tals, which by the way do not look good on them and make their hair fall out.โ he adds glancing at talia whoโs surpressing a laugh
โthey pay for skin tone or sit in the sun and burn themselves. they get injection for big full lips, have surgery for high cheekbones.โ
โall for everything you two have naturally.โ he steps closer before stopping in front of nala โand yet,โ he bends down to be eye to eye with your youngest โtoday you came home wishing you were different.โ
โso yes, you are in trouble.โ he continues, โthe biggest trouble you could ever be in for listening to hateful people who do not have your beauty. you are in trouble for not standing up to those who tried to make you feel small. and most importantly you are in trouble for believing their racism instead of rejecting it.โ
the girls go silent and his words hit even you harder than expected
your face softens watching him rest gently on nalaโs knees โmรญrame mi pequeรฑa.โ he murmurs
( look at me my little one )
he reaches out and lifts her carefully into his arms, settling her against his chest
she clings to him instinctively his voice drops as he speaks again โwe never want to hear you say you hate your hair.โ he presses a kiss to the top of her head โor your skin.โ
before he can stop it, tears well in his eyes and stream down his cheek as quickly as they formed
talia notices immediately โpapรก.โ she questions with concern and disbelief, a hint of teasing in her tone showing โare youโฆ.are you crying?โ
you shoot her a little smile paired with a look sharp enough to silence her
carlos lets out a small laugh through the tightness in his chest โmaybe.โ wiping quickly at his eye, he admits as he smiles
โiโm crying because it hurts to think that my daughters are not proud of who they are. it hurts, it really does. more than anything, and more than anyone will ever know.โ
the words settle in the ears of both girls who now are now frowning at the sight of their fathers tears
he looks from one to the other, eyes shining and filled with tears. โyou are both your mother.โ he canโt stop his voice from shaking
your hands rests over your heart, making eye contact with your husband โyou have her beautiful textured hair.โ he smiles then continues โher lean and very strong muscular arms.โ
he glances toward talia first โher full shaped eyebrows.โ then to nala โand her beautifully structured nose.
softening his voice more he continues โand you are a product of love.โ he presses another kiss to nalaโs temple and smiles at talia โour love.โ
nalaโs arms tighten around her father as she is calm, now nodding. he lifts up nala slightly so she can see his face
โyou both are exactly as you were meant to be.โ
talia watches quietly on the couch, beside her dad and sister
and you stand across from them, your heavy cracking heart now feeling full and mended
carlos holds nala tighter, her chin resting on his shoulder. he keeps her tucked against him while he stands up, one hand smoothing slowly over her back
then he looks at both of his daughters really looks at them and his voice, when he speaks again, is firm but warm
โyou need to be proud of who you are.โ he
talia nods at him, her eyes already glassy from his empowering message
โand when someone says something racist,โ he continues choosing the words carefully so they truly understand โyou donโt shrink or absorb it but correct it. that language is not okay and you never ever need to or should pretend it is.โ
both girl listen intently and nod. he pauses with a big sigh. taking a moment to collect himself he nods before speaking in a shaky emotional whisper
โbecause you come from greatness and a legacy bigger than your mom and i. much longer than our generation before and after. and if you didnโt know, some of the most successful, talented, intelligent, funny and athletic people in the world are black.โ
he glances between them seeing the small growing proud smile on your face
you werenโt exactly sure where he was going with this but you do love and trust your husband over anyone
โusain bolt, once the fastest man in the world. the gymnast you love watching. simone biles has five skills named after her because she is the first and only one to do them. miss misty copeland who danced her way into auditions and shows that told her she didnโt belong because of her skin.โ
he shifts nala slightly so she can see his face โpelรฉ.โ he says smiling faintly knowing how much she loves playing fรบtbol โa legend who changed the sport forever at such a young age.โ
he looks at both girls again with a smile, but more so towards his eldest daughter now
โbeyoncรฉ.โ carlos intentionally mention the singer, knowing taliaโs eyes would light up โone of the biggest singers in the world. one who has the most grammys ever and built her empire from scratch with her voice and by not sticking to the made up rules.โ
his voice softens slightly at the end โand we canโt forgot about your uncle lewis.โ
โwhen he first started karting he called names and was bullied by parents who said he would never make it. he walked into formula one being the only black person and despiste not having anyone that looked like him to look up to, he became one of the greatest to ever do it. he became the person he wanted to look up to. he still fights for diversity and i fight right along side him. i fight for the people who donโt have representation, and for the little girls who look just like my little girls.โ
โyou are descendants of greatness.โ he says quietly โand you need to remember who you are.โ
your eyes land on talia first as you speak up sweetly โbecause you are loved.โ then on nala โand you are beautiful.โ knowing her dad is done speaking, taliaโs composure finally breaks
tears spill down her cheeks before she can stop them. you move toward her immediately pulling her into your arms
she leans into you with a shaky laugh through her tears
โthat was really beautiful.โ she says, her voice thick she glances at her dad โi get why you were crying now.โ
carlos laughs softly, wiping quickly at his own eye again
talia wraps her arms around you tighter โi love you both so much. truly the best parents ever and i am so grateful to have you as mine.โ she murmurs
then she turns reaching for nala. her little sister reaches for her older sited and carlos sets her down
talia leans in and hugs her too โi love you hermana.โ she whispers
nala sniffles, pulling back slightly looking towards you and carlos โiโm sorry mama y papa.โ she says in a small voice. โfor saying i hate my skin and my hair.โ
carlos presses a kiss to her temple โthank you mi niรฑa. we understand why it hurt.โ
you embrace both your girls, carlos standing behind you. arms around all of you
โbut we want you to know that youโre allowed to take up space. wear your hair big, be loud, show emotion and your culture even if people are mad. theyโll always have something to say about things they donโt and canโt have.โ you add softly with a smile โyour hair is something to be proud of. especially because you styled it all by yourself this morning.โ you remind her
โthat takes skill. deberรญas ver a tu abuelo tratando de hacerlo cuando eras un bebรฉ. y รฉl es viejo". carlos adds with a playful nudge
( you should see your grandfather trying to do it when you were a baby. and he's old )
she gives a tiny, watery smile. he shifts her slightly and suddenly tickles her side, picking her up
she squeals โpapรก!โ squirming around she laughs, her father joining in
โah thatโs the smile i want to see!โ
she giggles again, wiping at her face โok ok! i will go to school tomorrow.โ she declares softly while carlos gently sets her down โwith my puffs. and i will add two bows!โ
a shy but smug smile appears which makes taliaโs face light up as they high five
โthatโs right.โ nala slaps her big sisters hand with a grin. you pull both girls toward you and carlos joins wrapping his arms around all of you a long tight family hug. completely embraced in the love that created this family
and the confidence you both instilled in your daughters
because being black is always something to be proud of and no one can take that away
summary: with you not having any social media accounts, george uses his personal liberty to dedicate his accounts to you. he also makes sure to showcase how chronically online he is when displaying his love and appreciation
social media
( warnings: george being online, obsessed and unhinged. also goly thank you so much for over 400 followers. i appreciate every single follower, and person who reads my stories! )
maxverstappen: oh i wasnโt aware this was happening
^georgerussell: did kelly or p teach you that?
maxverstappen: y/n did actually. she loves showing me the cynthia ervio meme compilations on youtube
^georgerussell: yeah stay away from her
user: when is she going to get social media!!
^georgerussell: probably never, but that's why all my social accounts are shrines of her. though you couldnโt pry youtube out of her hands even if you were the hulk
user: YAYYYY Y/N CRUMBS!!!!!
user: the next time she'll attend a race i will have graduated high school and college
^user: she likes her quiet fun life and that's okay
user: why does george know so many internet references?
^alexalbon: because he needs to keep up with y/n. that girl still knows everything from youtube and he doesn't want to feel old or left out
user: when i followed george i thought he was kidding about the shrine thing, i quickly learned he is not......
user: he's such a lover boy its so cute
user: i've never seen a driver not care about racing like the way he does
mercedesamgf1: we see new year new year me has not taken effect on your insta yet!
f1: we recognize we will never be number 1 in your heart
^georgerussell: hmm not even a p2 honestly. KIDDINGGG!!! DONT TELL THE FIA I SAID THAT
charlesleclerc: oh no youโre one of the tops drivers in racing and motorsport, how will you revcover!!!!!
^isackhadjar: oh heโs getting paid millions? doesnโt matter because it's apparently not enough to leave his girlfriend
user: george get uppp ๐ญ
user: heโs never beating the stalker allegations
^user: or the obsessed ones
^user: you know what he should be obsessed. HAVE YOU SEEN HER?
user: how are you so aesthetic
^georgerussell: iโm about to expose myself REAL BAD here but sheโs makes these herself in her camera roll and i secretly post them. nobody tell her pls!!
user: her not knowing is actually hilarious
user: so on brand for him
^user: literally "oh i wasn't are that was happening...."
kimiantonelli: so are you not happy to be my teammate
^georgerussell: iโd be happier to be y/nโs husband
lewishamilton: ok glad i left thenโฆ..
^georgerussell: thereโs ALWAYS from for you my idol, sir lewis hamilton, 7 (8) time world champion
^maxverstappen: yup and just for that iโm asking your gf to hangout
^georgerussell: NO TF YOUR NOT. IโM SORRY. PLEASE
^georgerussell: stop. ( code for hopefully wife and momma soon, but donโt let her or anyone know that )
^user: dude like this is public btw?
alexalbon: ok just bc I can I'm going to tell her
^georgerussell: NO. THIS IS WHY OUR WEDDING WAS CALLED OFF
^lilymhe: for the last time, YOU AND ALEX ARE NOT GETTING MARRIED. and if anyone were to tell y/n it'd be me since I'm right next to her
^georgerussell: do u hate me? don't answer that actually
user: auntie y/n is something I didn't know I needed
^user: same. but now i need mama y/n
^georgerussell: *wink*
user: the little fairy wings ๐ฅน
isackhadjar: oh to have y/n as my aunt
kimiantonelli: from my personal experience with her she truly is the best
Mercedesamgf1: our favorite wag!
^georgerussell: bye not admin being messy
^Mercedesamgf1: hmm. enjoy your break while it last ๐
rebeccadonaldson: so cute, miss her!
^carlossainz: oh so you hate me
^georgerussell: yes, yes she does. NO ONE CAN BEAT Y/N IN ANYTHINGGGG
landonorris: omfg look what you started carlos
^nicohulkenburg: he wouldโve started that anyways
^georgerussell: you know what, yes. happy black history month my king ๐๐ฌ๐ง
^user: never thought i would see george giving lewis a pass to somethingโฆโฆ.
^user: actually what timeline am i in
^user: this fucking kid man ๐ญ
user: blud has wayyy too much time on his hands
^user: which is CRAZY to think about since heโs in the high form of racing, running on the busiest schedule and this year is quickest off season turnaround
maxverstappen: heโs being serious i can tell. i already said it to her in PERSON BTW GEORGE
isackhadjar: happy black history month y/n!
^user: no way
^iasckhadjar: i always pay my respects to queens
landonorris: fuck off
^georgerussell: expect to be in the barriers, EVERY. SINGLE. RACE. HOW DAREEE YOU
^landonorris: OMG WAIT IM SORRY IM SORRY. I MEANT THAT TO THE BLOCKING. I ALREADY SAID HAPPY BLACK HISTORY MONTH TO HER AND SENT HER $500. PLEASE THATโS NOT WHAT I MEANT
^georgerussell: hold on, why are you sending my wife money without consulting meโฆโฆโฆ
^landonorris: dude. are you kidding. YOU told me to go out all out, i got yelled at the first year you two dated and i didnโt get her anything for february
^georgerussell: ohhhhh. you right you right. shouldโve been 1000 smh ๐ค
user: poor lando, the guy canโt win
user: never did i think i would see george terrorizing the drivers to say happy bhm to his girlfriend ๐ญ
^user: because sheโs the first and only black wag, iโm letting it slide bc thatโs how it should be
user: wait are we just going to ignore the fact heโs calling her his wifeโฆ..?
^user: stop youโre right
^user: IF THEY GOT MARRIED I WILL CRY
user: YES GEORGE LET EM KNOW
^user: i want what they have
alexlabon: lily and i already sent her flowers dw!
^georgerussell: youโre safe. she says thank you and she misses you and lily, AND she wants to go on a double date again soon.
^lilymhe: what the mrs wants, the mrs gets. canโt wait to party with my wife again!!
^georgerussell: OH SO SHES YOUR WIFE BUT ALEX AND I CANT GET MARRIED, OH HELL NAH
^mercedesamgf1: george please get back to testing!
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yourusername: made this literally only to say happy birthday to best husband in the world, and then i will disappear forever and never log back in
georgerussell: FIRST PLACE FOR THE FIRST RACE!! i know this season is going to be fantastic, weโre off to an amazing start. thank you to my wife for FINALLY coming to another race, and thank you to my entire mercedes team.
more P1 podiums and wifey appearances will be here in the 2026 season. LETS GOOO!! ๐ฉต
summary: living in monaco for his whole life means he knows everyone. but when you step in the city, charles canโt help to be entranced. he does what he knows second best, throw a party
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( no warnings really, extreme yearning and desperation from charles. no looks specified for the fem readerโฆ..i donโt think. i tried my best but itโs not proofread. also thank you so much for reading and for 300 followers, i appreciate and love every single one of yall and see all comments and inbox messages <3 )
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being in downtown monaco felt like a dream
people all around you were driving one of their ten fancy sports cars and walking their dog, and even that looked rich
you had just moved here yesterday and it was already feeling like home
it was much different than miami. no one was smoking, fighting on the street or geeking out from drugsย
though you had just gotten here, you were already turning heads
people couldnโt help notice your striking model walk, insanely straight posture and stone cold face. as you stepped out of her car heads turned immediately
smiling slightly, you pushed your sunglasses up and gave the crowd of girls a quick wave
as you strolled down the sidewalk, whispers started almost instantly
some sounded curious, mostly from young girls and women
but others seemed to be envious. it didnโt bother you though. whatever they were saying, it was about you
you were being brought up in conversation and that sat perfectly with your conscience
"that's the new girl.โ someone murmured "she's gorgeous." another voice said as they snapped a photo of you
an young mom sitting outside a cafe with her baby in her arm stopped you gently, a warm smile on her face. "excuse me dear, i just have to say you are absolutely stunning."
smiling graciously, you lowered your sunglasses stopping in your track
your eyes scanned over to the baby in her arms who reached out to grab your finger. with soft hands you grabbed the tiny oneโs hand
"thank you so much.โ your voice sounded smooth and honeyed as you tilted your head. "that's such a lovely thing to say."
for a moment you paused to let out a sigh "but makes sense since you're such a lovely and beautiful woman as well."
the woman beamed and it was clear she needed that
you gave her and her baby once last wave before continuing on your way, the four inch heels underneath your feet clicking softly against the pavement
once you reached your destination you stepped into a store filled with luxury clothing and accessories. your ran your fingers over the soft linens and polished handbags
every shop entered felt like a stage, and it so happened you played the role flawlessly
what you didn't know was that you really did have an audience
across from the sidewalk, charles leclerc stood by himself watching from across the street. he'd been on his way to meet his brother aurther and max verstappen when he spotted you
it was hard not to be there and unaware of the attention and slight commotion you were causing
the way you walked with purpose. how you held yourself like you knew you belonged here. your confidence but humbleness both shining through as you interacted with people
he had no idea who were. if he was being completely honest
but your clothes fit you too much like a glove, so much so that there was no way they werenโt tailored. or even custom made
he didnโt even mean to look that way either. it was gut instinct from seeing the crowd form, but when he realized it wasnโt for him that was when he saw you
all it took was one glance and now he couldn't look away. "damn.โ he muttered to himself
everything about you, from the way you walked and the way you carried herself, was magnetic
charles couldn't put his finger on it, but there was something about her that was different from the usual rich people in monaco
you werenโt just pretty, you were breathtaking. but it wasnโt even only your looks, you were classy and elegant but clearly had personality
and the confidence you exuded. it was enough to knock the air out of his lungs. it totally felt like it did too
though he didn't know who you were, yet, he knew he had to find a way to get to you
charles walked into the restaurant, sitting down across the two men
as the two men talked while they waited for the food, his mind was still on you. he couldnโt stop thinking about you and your everything
arthur was sitting next to him fiddling with something on his phone he thought was funny, while max sat across from them telling a story about his cats
once they realized charles hadnโt contributed anything to the conversation they stopped mingling amongst themselves and turned to him "anyway.โ his brother spoke
"what are we doing after this?โ
charles didn't answer right away, though the question was directly asked towards him
but eventually, when max snapped his fingers in his face, the older leclerc sat up straight, folding his sleeves back and placing his hands on the table
deciding to confess he realized he was gonna drag his friends in on this
"i am throwing a party tonight.โ he nodded firmly, making sure his statement was clear
though the two men still seemed to be confused. more than confused actually, try surprised and perplexed
"charles what?โ arthur looked at his brother with wide eyes, taking in his brothers words
but charles didnโt stop there. he gestured wildly with his hands beginning to tell the story of why heโs throwing a party โi just saw the most beautiful woman i've ever seen in my life on the way here. i'm not even kidding."
"oh great, another model hes plotting on?" max spoke, not even cracking a smile. "who is she?"
"well thatโs the thing. i donโt know who she is.โ he started and stopped the second he heard his younger brother scoff "no no just listen to me please!" he exclaimed
โshe wasn't like your usual rich girl. she wasn't fake like they are she just had this confidence, she owned the whole damn country."
max chuckled. "sounds like someone made an impression on you."
arthur finally put his phone down, looking slightly intrigued. "ok whatever describe her."
instantly the man spoke again, his face lighting up like a kid talking about his first crush
"the most beautiful hair iโve ever seen, long beautiful shiny skin, and fancy unique clothing."
he was being totally serious, which was something the two men didn't seem to grasp
they knew he was serious, but they didn't know the full extent charles was willing to go for this girl
"she was downtown, ok but here's the thing you guys, i've never seen her before. and you know we know everyone here, like even the tourists. everyone."
the three of them sat in silence for a moment, as they realized charles was right
after a few moments max was the first to speak up
to be quite honest he was really interested to see what ridiculous idea his friend was going coming to come up with โso what are you gonna do about it with this party?โ he asked
at that question he grinned because that's exactly what he was waiting for. but it was the kind of grin that usually meant trouble
and it absolutely was ridiculous."well i need to know who she is so we're gonna throw a party. a full blown monaco style
"because that's totally the right way to do." rolling his eyes, arthur scoffed
"you don't even know if shes going to show.โ his brother muttered, but that didnโt stop
"no no she will show up.โ
after charles was done speaking it went silent then someone spoke up. it was max
he looked at arthur then his eyes went to his friend then back to arthur and shrugged. "i mean, it's not the worst plan he's ever had."
"but what happens if she's dating someone? by how you described her and the way youโre in love after one look i donโt think you can be the only one falling at her feet.โ
oh. he hadnโt though about it that way
charles aused and his jaw hung open slightly as he momentarily thrown off by the possibility
"well then i'll...i'll figure it out" he said, his confidence faltering for half a second before he brushed the thought away. "but come on, she'll want to talk to me at least."
"right, because you're so irresistible.โ arthur deadpanned
nothing like brother lovely and support right
"yes exactly.โ he said ignoring the sarcasm that was given
meanwhile max just laughed shaking his head. "all right fine, let's do it. but if this blows up in our faces it's on you leclerc.โ
โdon't make us regret it.โ the younger leclerc muttered, clearly still not entirely on board
the boy hopped up from the couch, already buzzing with energy. "okay so we'll do it tomorrow night. club, drinks, flashing lights, loud music the whole deal."
"you're really betting everything on this girl showing up arenโt you?โ his brother raised his eyebrows
and yes he was. charles was all in on the plan but it was true, he didnโt know how or if girl was actually going to make it to the party
the next day the was finally taking place and normally this was the exact kind of night charles usually thrived on, but not tonight
tonight he had a mission
and he was determined to complete it. standing at the top of the dj booth he scanned the crowd
but no matter how many people he saw, none of them were you
"so i take it she's not here.โ maxโs voice broke him out of his thoughts as he smirked and put his arms around his friends shoulder
he turned to see his friend standing there, and with an amused smirk
he didnโt want to give up hope "no she's here.โ he nodded but it was more to convince himself than max. "she has to be, definitely.โ
the verstappen man chuckled, shaking his head "dude, you don't even know if she lives here. she could be a tourist just passing through."
"she's not a tourist." he huffed firmly. "thereโs absolutely no way. she didn't have that vibe, plus i think she wouldโve ask for a picture."
"oh very humble, and different how?"
immediately when that question was said be paused for a moment, struggling to find the right words. "i don't know, but she is."
after two hours max returned back to charlesโs side giving him a nudge "you still looking for her, huh?โ he followed his gaze, raising an eyebrow
"she has be here." a sigh left him boy
he was absolutely starting to get a discouraged as he ran a hand through his hair
"maybe she's not the party type.โ arthur chipped in, now standing next to the two other men
charles furrowed his eyebrows and shook his head. "no way. she is the party, she's probably just running late."
his friend brother groaned "or maybe she's at home completely unaware of this party you threw for her."
"no, she knows.โ charles argued with him brother stubbornly
but the younger leclerc was all out of hope and imagination. he knew this woman wasnโt going to show up. why would she? "how charles?"
not really having an answer, he shrugged just wanting to be done with this conversation โbecause she just does arthur.โ he responded his eyes still scanning the crowd, hoping for a glimpse of your gold jewelry that sparkled in the sunlight yesterday
the anticipation was driving him crazy, but he wasn't giving up. he couldnโt
"you know,โ max said after a moment, "she could be anywhere.โ
humming in agreement arthur bluntly speaks up โeven if she lives here, she might not even be single. she probably has a boyfriend since she sounds completely out of your league."
he shot his brother a look. "wow thank you for the hint of confidence."
arthur shrugged. he didnโt care if it was harsh or tough love, his brother seemed in way over his head and this was a recipe for disaster
he didnโt want his brother to get hurt, that was all. even if he wasnโt going the best way about it, he cared of him and had good reason in why he wasnโt being supportive "just saying. you might be chasing a ghost."
the older leclerc gave a long sigh. "even if she doesnโt show up tonight, iโm going to find her."
he was trying to stay positive, but it was clear someone wasn't so appreciative of his dedication and determination
"and then what?" arthur snapped, making his brother whipped his head towards him
now the brothers were face to face. "what do you mean?"
not wanting to get involved in the sibling feud anymore, max began walking away. and the two leclercโs continued โlet's say you find her, ok then what's your plan what that?โ
he started off, his voice and body language way more aggressive than intended โare you just going to say 'hey, i threw a whole party hoping you'd show up because i'm obsessed with youโ because that will totally make them want to fall in love with you."
charles stared his brother in the eye, keeping his words to himself
he didnโt want to let his anger get the best of him and say something he regret. if anything he was in the wrong, not arthur
this was out there, for sure. a plan that was ridiculous and extremely extravagant
with neither of them speaking they fell into a silence, one that felt uncomfortable and the clear result of disagreements and tension
and as the party kept growing, charles kept his eyes on the crowd
but donโt feel fooled, his hope faded with every passing minute. he knew he had to admit the truth now
out loud and to himself. and that was probably the hardest part
because now he felt stupid "she's not here.โ he eventually accepted the fact and said it outloud, breaking the silence
seeing the way his brotherโs face dropped made something inside him shift, and he honestly felt a bad
"it's not the end of the world char. you'll probably see her again if she lives here, and if she doesn't, then thereโs plenty of other women in the world..โ
charles tried to conceal the frown on his face, but was not doing a very good job
โnot like her. iโm telling you arthur, sheโs special. if I feel like this just from seeing her for five seconds, i already know i would feel even stronger getting to actually talk to her.โ
all his brother could do was sigh โlet it go for now, and enjoy the party, ok charles. go get a drink, talk to someone and ho knows? maybe you'll run into her when you least expect it."
he nodded reluctantly, but his mind was already made up. even if you werenโt here tonight, he wasn't giving up
"sure, but the night's not over. i'm going to see her again.โ
so he stayed exactly where he was. The rest of the night he stood on the dj booth watching the crowd, waiting and waiting
waiting for you to come to the party
he hadnโt realized how much he had poured into this night
it was four in the morning, which mean the party was long over by now
and yet he lingered, staring at the empty corners where your presence should have been
even as the night began to dwindle down he stayed in his spot by the dj booth, where he could see everything
just one the one thing he wanted to see
the image of you strutting into the room kept replaying in his mind
but now charles sat alone in the fading echo of the laughter and music
the last of the champagne glasses being cleared away by a few tired staff who didnโt linger a second longer, once they realized he wasnโt speaking to anyone
he hadnโt left, couldnโt leave, because all night he had held onto desperate hope.
hoping that you would appear
it really was crazy, now that he was thinking about. be memorized by a woman you saw walking for one second and then throw a whole party for her the next
why did he even think this stupid plan would work?
the feel of failure and embarrassment hurt more than he cared to admit
all he wanted was for you to walk through the door, and underneath the sparkling and flashing lights
to smile at him, dance with him. anything, just show up
but you didnโt. you never arrived
he exhaled slowly and began gathering what he could
stacking chairs, gathering empty bottle and cans. his movements felt automatic from how numb he was feeling
this was stupid. so stupid, and dumb
no way you would actually come to a party, even if it was to you. because letโs not forget, it was one you didnโt know about
but as he walked outside to throw away his trash bag, his heart nearly stopped
there you were
he went silent immediately, his body tensing up
in hopes to not startle you he moved carefully making sure to slowly pick up his feet. make himself looks presentable
and friendly. certainly not like a creep
but as he stepped closed her was pulled out of his own thoughts and noticed you
really getting a good look at you, you werenโt in the heels or fancy outfits that look perfectly tailored to your body
your elegance that seemed untouchable didnโt seem to be there
leaning against the wall was you in loose, wrinkled, obviously worn clothes
you were arguing quietly with someone he couldnโt get a good look at. it was very obvious you were emotionally hurt
tears were streaming down your face, and your voice kept cracking
charles didnโt understand what was happening or the person you were now
but he stayed anyways. watching the way your body moved with tension. how your hands moved sharply
then with a final yell from you, all of a sudden you were alone again
now standing against the cold wall, exhaling and he figured it was probably be the fight had drained everything from you
charlesโs heart tightened in his chest. he knew he had to talk to you
but his mindset on why had changed. it wasnโt to get your number, or to flirt horribly with you
all he wanted now was to make sure you were okay
to comfort you and listen to whatever he needed to, in order to make you feel better
he approached slowly speaking softly, hesitating slightly โare you okay?โ
you turned to him with wide eyes for a fraction of a second before fixing your mask, putting on a neutral expression. โiโm fine.โ you mumbled
charles didnโt buy your comment. he took another step closer. โi saw you arguing with someone, that didnโt seem fine.โ
in a whisper you reply โitโs complicated.โ
you shake your head and wave him off, hoping, and thinking heโll leave
and to your surprise he doesnโt. charles tilts his head, shrugging his shoulders โif you want to tell me, i have time.โ he looks around to the empty ally โlots of it.โ
you hesitated and then gave him a look โyou saw me didnโt you? earlier today?โ
โyes. i did, how do you know?โ
shooting him a look you tilt your head to the side โno oneโs that invested in a story of a stranger. certainly not me.โ
โmaybe i happen to be a good person.โ he shrugs replying with a teasing tone
but what he was saying was real. โto be fair you were just arguing with someone in an ally at four am.โ
โa formula one driver being a good person. thatโs a bit unheard of.โ you tease him right back
โwouldnโt you agree charles leclerc?โ
his eye widen. he didnโt think you knew of him. in fact since speaking to you in this ally way he was sure of it โso you do know who i am?โ
โwho doesnโt? this is basically the city and country of you. everyone knows who you are, itโs a little impossible not to here. so what do you want to know, apart from if Iโm ok because i think you got an answer.โ
โok, well if i canโt ask that, how did you end up here? in monaco?โ
you walk over to him slowly, starting your story off slowly and gently โi just did.โ
not quite catching on where this is going, charles raises any brow โwhat does that mean? you donโt remember orr you donโt want to tell me.โ
โthe second one.โ a whisper leaves you, along with shame and embarrassment
he doesnโt judge or make a face though. he stays silent and open the space for you to continue
and you do. โi never stay in a city for more than a week. thatโs when people begin to ask questions and put pieces together. the way i dress and carry myself is all an act.โ pausing for a moment you let yourself take in what you have always been too scared to say out loud
your confession doesnโt stop there โi do it because it makes me feel important. when people smile at me or stop in the street to look at me it makes me feel like i belong. i can pretend that someone cares and itโs nice to have that. because iโฆ..i donโt really have anyone.โ
charles froze at your last words, he wasnโt expecting someone like you to admit this
โyou donโt have any family or friends.โ he asks softly
you shook your head, trying to keep your chin held high so tears didnโt stream down your face. you didnโt want this famous man seeing you cry โno friends or family.โ
โiโve never really felt accepted anywhere, certainly not by my family because they never loved me the way i needed. i got in a fight with them and they kicked me out, not letting me take anything, leaving me no possessions or money.โ
โi did what i could and made a plan to make myself play a part. i get in where i want, get what i need and people notice me. i never tell people my name but people want me at their events. i has little money, no friends, no one, and now i have what i need but itโs not enough. when iโm dressed up, when i pretend to be someone thatโs fancy and needed only for a night, but in the end i walk back to whenever i am for the night and no oneโs waiting for me. all of a sudden the eyes on me earlier donโt count, nothing doesnโt matter anymore.โ
your lips pressed together to form a thin line as a single tear escape from your eyes
though you didnโt want to cry, you had already bared what felt like your entire soul to this man
no crying in front of him was a rule that seemed silly to you now
and charles felt like someone had stabbed him straight through the heart. he wasnโt at all expecting you to be so honest, but he was glad you were
in such a short amount of time you felt like you had a bond forming with this charles. it wasnโt intended or expected
which was better than anything. it was real and formed off of listening and talking
you were able to connect with him, and he was able to see a you that wasnโt the fraud and faux model version
he didnโt care if you put on a show earlier, or if you lied. you did it to get by
now that you had conceded and showed your truth to him, he felt it was only right to do the same to you
taking a step closer, he crossed his arms slowly โyou know i threw a party for you tonight?โ
โyou what?โ that makes you perk up, double checking if you heard him correctly, surely he didnโt actually mean that
except he did. he absolutely and wholeheartedly mean the words he said
โyeah, i threw a party for you. this whole thing a was a for you, in hopes youโd show up here. i thought you would because to my mind at the time you seemed like the type to always be drawn to these environments.โ
โlooks like i wasnโt half wrong.โ he shrugs with a slight smile, making you smile
โyou really did that, for me? some flashy girl you saw strut in the city once?โ it sounded crazy to even say out loud, let alone think about
but here you were, and here was charles admitting his crazy scheme to you
โi did. but i donโt care about any of that now?โ he said softly. โi donโt care about the act, or how much money you have. i care about you. all of you, not your image, not the smile you show to everyone else. i care about the you sitting here, right now telling me this.โ
you blinked, stunned. there was no way he was telling the truth
โthis isnโt a joke or a lie, did you actually throw a party because of me?โ speaking slowly you sounded very confused
charles cleared it up immediately โno no, not because of you. i said i threw it for you.โ
his hand found yours โiโm being so serious. come inside, i will show you.โ
you hesitated, feeling conflicted by your logical head and your emotional heart. but his gaze held no pressure and no judgment towards you
that made you follow him. your feet moved into the empty club
the glittering lights of the party still reflecting off the walls and mirrorballs. your eyes glanced over the remnants of alcohol and confetti scattered across the floors
charles smiles softly, glancing at the remnants of the night. โthis was all for you,โ
he spoke quietly, grazing gently over your fingers โevery detail and every song, it was meant for you.โ
you shake your head, laughing nervously. โiโฆ.i canโt believe this was for me.โ
โit still is.โ with direct eye contact, you felt your chest tighten as his words sank in. he let go and walked to the music system
a soft piano piece flowed from the speakers, filling the the room
charles extended his hand once more a smile tugging at his lips โdance with me.โ he spoke softly, his eyes never leaving yours
shyly, you placed your hand in his. he guided you to the center of the empty room
he pulled you close, so close his chest was pressed against yours
โyou have me now.โ he whispered โyou donโt need to pretend with me. you have me, and i donโt want to go anywhere.โ
you leaned closer into him closing your eyes, feeling the pulse of his heartbeat beneath your ear. โiโve been waiting for someone my whole life to say that.โ you sigh, voice trembling
the world outside faded to nothing, the music swirling around your ears
you didnโt feel invisible or alone. that a feeling youโve never felt before, but one youโve been craving not to feel for your entire life
charles spun you slowly in his arms, guiding you across the sticky floor โas i said before you have me now, and i plan to stay. for the real you. all of you.โ
โeven though that scares me, i think i could get used to monaco and the racing scene.โ
โoh can you?โ he teases softly โyes i can. and you too of course charles.โ you go quieter, looking in his eyes
โthank you for throwing this stupid party.โ
earning a soft laugh charles looks down before shaking his head
โthank you for being at the right place at the right time. i know youโve had a rough night but iโm glad it led me to you.โ you lean you head on his shoulder
his hands grip tighter on yours โthis was that last hard night youโll never have, or have to pretend your someone youโre not. i like who you are, and i want to keep seeing you.โ
โi want to keep seeing you too.โ you whisper, and keep your face pressed to the divot of his collarbone
the two of you stay like that, close and swaying, completely immersed in the world of each other that you both created. one you play to stay in
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summary: following landoโs drunken party and broken promises you realize youโre done being alone in motherhood. you express your feelings and know itโs time to go. lando doesnโt grasp the situation, his true feelings towards you, or maturity until itโs too late
real life | 4.1k words
( warnings: online hate, postpartum depression, co parenting, custody arrangement. this is the pt2 to โcolor me blueโ sorry it took so long, some interesting things have happened but here is it. thank you so much for reading, and more are on the way! )
โiโm saying the only option left for me is to leave.โ
your soft spoken words echos through the night, haunting your own ears as they carry across the sky
neither of you move or speak
you canโt. you feel like if you say more youโll fall apart more than you already have
lando just stares at you. he feels like thereโs nothing left to say
his mouth opens like he wants to argue and deny your opinion but nothing comes out. he plays it off as if heโs tired
but really he knows thereโs nothing he can say that will get you to stay
truly he know he wonโt be able to change for you. and maybe thereโs a part of him that actually doesnโt want to change
his silence is the nail in the cofffin for you
it tells you everything you need and are going to hear
you can sit around and wait for him. so you donโt wait for him to. now you live for you and your daughter
which meant leaving on your terms
you turn and walk back inside. no yelling, slamming or yelling anymore
if heโs not wanting you to stay, then he wantaing you to go. you know this is why best for you daughter
but most importantly itโs whatโs best for your emotional and mental. you canโt sit away in an apartment by yourself while your baddy daddy is out partying
you need help
in more ways than one. with yourself internally and with your baby for childcare. and you accept that
something inside you has already shattered and your movements are calm as you head straight to the bedroom, not paying any mind to lando as he follows a few steps behind you
his movements donโt mirror yours at all. he stumbles around clumsy and unsteady
itโs like he doesnโt know where to put himself anymore, but it hasnโt fully hit him yet
the gravity of the situation isnโt setting into his brain as he watches you pull a suitcase from the closet and set it on the bed
but it is when he finally speaks up
โwhatโwhat are you doing?โ he asks quietly, with a hoarse voice
he sounds confused because he either doesnโt know where he is, or he genuinely didnโt believe you were going to leave
โiโm leaving lando.โ simply whispering you donโt even look at him as you fold your daughterโs tiny clothes into the case
her onesies, pajamas, socks and shoes are so small they barely fill a quarter of the bad
โi told you Iโm done with this and with you.โ
he runs a hand through his hair, pacing once before stopping at the edge of the bed. โitโs four in the morning baby. please youโre tired. this is just, this is because we argued.โ
you keep your cool and donโt react in any other way that undisturbed
โno itโs not lando. this is because iโve been begging you to see and help me for months and you havenโt. no one has. not your family, not your friends, and certainly not you.โ
you move to the crib and gently lift your daughter, who stirs but doesnโt cry โweโre not staying somewhere we arenโt wanted.โ
the one month old settles against your chest while you kiss her forehead, your throat tightening for just a second before you swallow it down.
lando sits on the edge of the bed his elbows on his knees, watching you like a show
this isnโt a tragedy for him. at least it definitely isnโt right now
when you pass him to grab her diaper bag, his shoulders start to shake. โwait, please.โ he whispers
but thereโs no edge to it, no defensiveness and no real emotion
heโs no asking you to stay because he loves you and will do better. he stopped you because heโs drunk and doesnโt want to be alone โplease donโt leave.โ
you know him. you tell yourself heโs only doing this for himself, not because he wants you here
pausing at the door you look back to him. โsay bye to your daughter for tonight.โ
those words get him standing quickly, stumbling forward with tears spilling freely now. โiโll do better. i swear. iโll help more, iโllโiโll get up at night, iโll learn everything, i just please donโt do this. donโt take her away from me. sheโs my baby.โ
you turn slowly, and when he sees your face, something in him breaks even further
โif she was your baby you would have learned how to take care of her and support me after I had her. but you didnโt. i โm not taking her away from you but iโm not doing this alone anymore.โ
he shakes his head crying harder. โi didnโt mean to hurt you.โ
โiโll call your mom in the morning and tell her whatโs going on. our lawyers can figure out a custody plan.โ
his breath stutters. โlawyers?โ
he reaches for you, but you step back before he can touch you
โi love you.โ he says desperately. โplease.โ
you look at him for a long moment, then down at your daughter, and back at him again. โi wanted to love you.โ you whisper
โbut i wanted you to love her really, thatโs why i stayed as long as i did.โ
without another word or glance towards lando, your feet move you out the door
and into new beginnings
lando awoke in the afternoon with a pounding headache
but it wasnโt the headache that had him panicking. it was because the room felt quite, too quiet
he laid under his pillow for a few moments to check he was correct in what he was hearing
which was nothing. no crying, no rustling from you, no movement and sounds
rolling onto his side is when he notices you and his baby are gone
his stomach drops as it all comes flooding back
you calling him, his promise to come home, how late he stayed out, the arguing when he got home, your tears
everything hits him
hard and all at once. he sits up abruptly, scanning the room, heart racing
the diaper/travel bag for the one month old is missing. her knitted baby blankets no where to found
and your side of the closet looks bare. too bare.
he remembers you saying you couldnโt do it anymore and walking out door. but what he really remembers is how he left you
there was no fight or protest put up
โno.โ he breathes heavily, panic flooding into his veins โno, no, no.โ
his chest tightens painfully as he scrambles for his phone โfuck. fuck fuck, this canโt be real. fuck. no please, please.โ
begging and pleading he calls the only person he can stomach telling what happened hands
โmama.โ he sobs broken the second his mom answers
he tries his best to breathe and get the words out but itโs not use. everything meshes together an comes out in huffs and mumbles
โsheโs gone. she took the baby. i donโtโi canโtโi donโt know what to do.โ
cisca listens to her son and doesnโt interrupt him, letting him get out what he needs to
she lets him ramble, cry and spiral as he tries to explain the situation through broken sentences and guilt ridden sobs
when he finally runs out of words, only heaving with tears she steps in
sighing heavily the woman speaks slowly carefully, not wanting to upset him more โlando, baby.โ she starts off quietly โiโm sorry this happened, but i understand why she left.โ
โyou what? mum no please.โ
she doesnโt let him say anymore as she continues, calmly but firm. โyou donโt help her. you havenโt in her pregnancy, and nothings changed since she gave birth.โ
โmum thatโs notโโ he starts, but she cuts him off. itโs not all his fault, she knows that
itโs her too. โlisten lan.โ
cisca huffs, her next words feeling increasingly heavier โi havenโt been kind to her either, you know that, sheโs knows that. i didnโt like the way you too met and i only tolerated her because of my grandchild. how i treated her is something i will regret for the rest of my life.โ
lando canโt deny that truth, but it only makes his sobs grow louder. โwhy would you let her go? why wouldnโt you stop her?โ
โitโs not my job to. no one was going to be able to stop her sweetie, and we shouldnโt.โ the woman sighs heavily โshe left because you donโt understand, and it seems you still donโt get it lando.โ
he presses the phone harder to his ear, feeling desperate for answers now
โunderstand what?โ
โthat sheโs been doing this alone.โ
the woman takes a moment โyou two werenโt ready to be parents, and you made her be a mother anyway. but you didnโt become a father, you didnโt step up when she did.โ
โeveryone in our family is at fault. no one defended her, or offered to help her with the baby or herself. we never showed support or told she was doing a good job. not one of us watched the baby so she could shower, or sleep, or feel human.โ
her words cut deeper into the wounded lando was already bleeding out from
lando slides down the bed, collapsing against the mattress as he cries. โi didnโt mean for this to happen.โ
โi know you didnโt.โ cisca shrugs โbut you donโt think, and i love you son but feeling guilt and even accountability doesnโt erase the past. you need to respect her decision.โ
the call between him and his mother ends shortly after
his mom words sink into his ears as drops the phone, curling into himself
lando sobs into the sheets that still smell like you and your daughter. watching the rest of the day go by he lays in his bed and cries
cries for his baby he didnโt wake up for, for all the times he didnโt protect you
and for the family he had with you, that he didnโt realize he was losing until you were walking out the door
he couldnโt believe this happen. he didnโt mean for things to be this way
you sit cross legged on a soft blanket underneath a tree with your daughter between your legs
the seven month olds chubby hands wrapped around a squishy toy she keeps trying to shove into her mouth
she babbles happily, slobber dribbling down her chin
as for you, your eyes keep flicking toward your baby and around the park
lando should he here any minute, itโs your day together
both of you agreed to get together one day a month to give updates, tells stories, and show pictures of your daughter
though last month lando was so busy with racing he wasnโt able to meet
he always made time for his daughter, and the weeks he had her, nothing else mattered, even if it was a race weekend
but when it came to you, he knew you needed your space
and after he won the championship he was running around doing interviews and celebrating with the baby, friends and family, that he didnโt want to make your move things around to fit his schedule
so this is the first time youโll be seeing him in two months
you tell yourself youโre calm and that itโs normal to feel nervous like this
itโs not like you still have feelings for him but he isnโt some random man you partied and slept with
not anymore at least
heโs the man you had a baby with and dated for 8 months
however all of those things get pushed to the side as you get pulled out of your mind
because you see him. lando walks toward you slowly, wearing black pants and a fitted green button down
a small smile appears on his face when you two shortly make eye contact
in his hands is a small bouquet of a colorful flowers, wrapped in brown paper. wildflowers, which are your favorite
he stops at the edge of the blanket, smiling nervously as your daughter looks up at him and immediately lights up
reaching out with a delighted squeal the baby waits for her father to sit down
lando drops to his knees beside the blanket without hesitation, setting the flowers down and scooping her up, pressing kisses to her cheeks as she giggles
โhi my angel.โ his accent still strong even in a baby voice โi missed you so much.โ
you watch him talk and cuddle your daughter, noticing your heart swelling and being pulled in different directions but you let it go
after a moment he glances up at you, and hands the flowers toward you. โoh, also these are for you.โ
โoh.โ hesitating for a moment you stare at them beforw grabbing them them
โthank you.โ
he stays looking at you for seconds longer than intended
and you definitely noticed but decided to act like you didnโt and not say anything
smiling he gently lays your daughter on her stomach and pulls out more toys from his bag, dangling them in her face
the three of you spend the next hour playing simple games
stacking blocks only for her to knock them down, clapping when she manages to sit up on her own
you and lando talk about milestones while she attempts to roll over
but she really just sways from side to side, barely lifting a hip off the ground
the two of you speak about how sheโs started trying new foods, a mix of purees and small solid portions
you laugh on how she hates naps unless the room is completely dark and quiet you update him on doctor appointments, the new routine youโve settled her into
he tells you about racing and life since winning his first ever world championship
pulling out his phone lando shows you pictures of him and his daughter on their first vacation post season
one of her wearing baby sunglasses and a bucket hat playing in the sand while max and lando hold her, another one of them wearing matching outfits at dinner
finally he shows you a picture of her and his mom both wearing a world champion hat
he tells you after how heโs moved apartments to be closer to the park and your place so exchanges are easier
he laughs when your daughter grabs a toy and chucks it
when she finally starts becoming tired you cradle her, gently rocking her side to side
you know she wonโt go to sleep but your maternal instincts canโt let her lay on the ground, sheโll get fussy
lando and you watch as the seven month old lays in your arms, silently looking up
he sighs breaking up the comfortable โi want you to know i got the flowers because i miss you.โ
you stiffen slightly upon hearing those words. you think thatโs all but itโs not
โi miss your smile.โ he continues with a soft sincere voice, his eyes fixed on you. โi miss us. iโve been thinking about this for a long time, and i donโt want to dance around it anymore. i want us to get back together. i really want to raise her together, me and you, as a family.โ
you look down feeling overwhelmed, but your heart betrays you as it skips a beat
lando notices how your cheeks flush and his face brightens with a smile, feeling like he already knows you answer
โthatโs a yes, right?โ he says softly, smiling.
you donโt answer right away but you , quietly sigh, a frown appearing โno.โ
landoโs smile fall just as quickly as his heart does to his stomach โno?โ he repeats the word confused
โwait what? but, youโyou blushed. youโre telling me you donโt feel anything?โ
โi never said i didnโt. i do miss you too but i canโt do that again.โ
you slowly shake your head โiโm sorry lando.โ listening to you, he frowns. โi donโt understand. what do you mean?โ
you take a slow breath, inhaling and exhaling deeply โiโm not throwing myself back in the ringer. i canโt handle more of the fans, comments, articles and the all hate towards me. iโm off social media now, completely and i want to keep it that way. i wonโt put myself back in an environment where my body, face, voice, and everything about me including my parenting is torn apart every day.โ
โit nearly destroyed me, and now that our baby is really conscious i wonโt let that happen ever again.โ
lando looks like heโs about to open his mouth to respond, but he doesnโt get the chance to as you keep going
he tenses when youโre voice quiets even more, almost as if youโre tying to be careful
โlando, i know youโve probably changed, in being a boyfriend. i definitely see the changes youโve made as a dad, and i know youโve worked on yourself but i canโt erase or forget what happened between us. i will never be able to forget how alone i felt with you and how invisible i was to your family.โ
he tries to hold it together but he canโt. his eyes fill with tears
โi know, i know i do.โ he whispers, feeling desperate and like his heart is cracking at this point
it takes him a second to continue with the right words โiโve done so much work and i hate i made you feel that way. truly my biggest regret and worst choice of my entire life. iโm going to therapy parenting classes and i know that canโt take your pain away but i want you to know I have my priorities straight now. you and her and the most important things and people in my life i swear to you. iโm not that person anymore and i never ever will be.โ
swallowing back your own trembling voice you blink the tears away hard. โi believe you lando.โ
โbut i still wonโt ever get back together with you.โ
the man across from you closes his eyes and you can see his boy is consumed with only guilt shame and disappointment
โso thatโs it?โ he huffs sadly while looking down โfor us romantically, yes.โ
he looks devastated, hands shaking as he rubs his face
โweโre still co parenting.โ you whisper, trying to ease the tension and heartbeat that he feels. โweโll still see each other, and iโll give up our court order custody agreements. you can come over or take her anytime you want, we donโt need lawyers.โ
โi donโtโโ lando tries speaking but gets choked up โi donโt know how i can see you knowing i love you.โ
it hurts your heart to see and him soak so deeply, but you made a promise to yourself
you had to keep that promise and take care of yourself. โi really am sorry. but we can meet like this. for her.โ
tears spill down his cheeks. โok. i just donโt want to lose you.โ
a frown appears on your face as you slightly grimace. you reach out to him, hesitating before resting your hand over his. โiโm sorry but you already did lando. six months ago.โ
he nods slowly, breaking down quietly as the reality settles in
thereโs no coming back for you and him. it hurts his entire soul to admit and accept that, but itโs one he know he has to
you sit there together in the afternoon sunlight, two people bounded forever by the child between you
โitโs not just you and the hate though.โ
lando lifts his head up, your chest hurting from seeing his red eyes
for a moment you donโt say anything, almost afraid youโll say the wrong thing or upset him more
but he inhales, shakily, and relaces a gentle hand on yours. โitโs ok. iโm listening.โ
โsomewhere between pregnancy, life after birth, and everything that came with being your girlfriend, i lost myself. i stopped being a person and didnโt even know how to function. i was needed. all the time by everyone and i love our daughter more than anything in the world, but i didnโt recognize myself anymore. i needed to find my spark and her again.โ
he swallows hard. โand have you?โ
you nod, a small smile tugging at your lips. โyes. iโm happy, lando genuinely. i didnโt think i would be this soon, but i am. i like being on my own and choices that are completely mine. i really needed a new title that wasnโt just being a mom or your girlfriend. iโm glad i found it.โ
his brows knit together in curiosity. โwhat do you mean?โ
โiโm going back to school.โ you smile confidently โiโm studying to become an ultrasound tech.โ
widen his eyes slightly he tilts his head โreally?โ he whispers with excitement
you laugh softly, thinking of the irony of everything. โi remembered what it was like to be pregnant and how nice an reassuring the doctors, techs and nurses were. hearing her heartbeat for the first time is a sound iโll never forget. ever, and i want to be part of that for other women. i want to give them that moment and to see their faces light up i want to be around that kind of excitement.โ
lando nods slowly, emotion washing over his face. โthatโs amazing.โ he says quietly. โit suits you. it really does.โ
he shakes his head, pausing for a moment before letting out a shaky breath. โi know i have to accept that i messed this up. i really messed things up for myself and between us, it sucks to know that iโm never getting you back.โ
you donโt interrupt him or speak after he does you just nod and take in his words
after a moment he looks you straight in the eye, speaking confidently โlet me pay for your school please. all of it.โ
โlando no.โ
he interjects, begging โplease.โ he insists. โplease let me do that for you.โ
you shake your head firmly. โno. i appreciate it, but no. i have my school handled and i have a job. iโm a daycare teacher where our daughter goes to. i get to see her sometimes and learn how to become a better mom. iโm okay and happy with where i am.โ
โok.โ trying to accept your decision he smiles sadly. โitโs really good to see you doing things you want and like. iโm really happy youโre not sacrificing yourself.โ
you glance at your daughter, who stirs in your arms and lets out a sleepy babble โshe gave me a lot.โ you say quietly. โbut i canโt pour from an empty cup.โ
lando nods. โi see that now.โ
he hesitates then adds more โiโll pay for everything else.โ you look back at him, easing your eyebrow โeverything else?โ
โyes, iโll provide your rent, food, bills and obviously everything our daughter needs. thereโs no arguing about that one.โ
you open your mouth to protest, but the look on his face stops you
itโs clear heโs beating himself up over his actions in the past still. you pause and let him continue
โthis isnโt me trying to control anything.โ he speaks up quickly with his hands held high in defense โor buy my way back in. itโs my responsibility to take care of you and her.โ
with a genuine smile on your face you nod โthank you.โ you whisper. โthat means more than you know.โ
thereโs a seconds of silence before you speak again, your voice soft โiโm sorry things had to turn out like this. i know youโre a good dad. i think you wouldโve been a better boyfriend than you were before.โ
he lets out a small, broken laugh. โyeah. i think so too.โ
โItโs okay.โ he shrugs his shoulders after a moment. โyour happiness matters more than whatever i want. truly. i donโt want you shrinking yourself for ever again, for anything.โ
your throat tightens. โthank you for saying that.โ
he looks toward your daughter just as she wakes fully, babbling and kicking her legs. he smiles, reaching over to tickle her belly until she giggles loudly.
โhey, angel.โ he murmurs to her with a smile โyouโve got the strongest mama in the world donโt you.โ
listening to his words makes tears gather in your eyes
you lean in, kissing your daughterโs cheek, lando doing the same from the other side
lando pulls you into a gentle and respectful hug. he holds you and your daughter with strong arms as you hug him back, just as softly
โi hope weโre okay.โ he says quietly and you nod against his shoulder. โwe are.โ
just as youโre done speaking your daughter laughs between you, grabbing at you and landoโs face
even if you and him arenโt together, in her eyes everythingโs ok
and thatโs all that matters. sheโs all the matter
summary: dating an f1 driver has many perks, unfortunately for you, your older boyfriend understanding internet terms is not one of them. though thereโs an age difference, max makes sure to brush up on his social media knowledge
texts + social media
(warnings: age gap and everything that comes with that. reader is 20 and max is 28. suggestive language, max being confused by his gen z girlfriend. also more fics coming soon, and โcolor me blueโ pt2 will be out tomorrow!)
summary: the sport of f1 and racing in general, brought you and lewis together. twenty years later, youโre still in love and hosting a dinner party to celebrate. both of the closest of your friends from this sport are invited. together you announce the closing of a chapter, and the beginning of a new one
real life | 7.7k words
( warnings: brocedes, mentions of infertility and miscarriages, families being split up )
( also holy i had no idea it was this long, no wonder it took me such a while to write. anyways i hope you enjoy this and thank you so much for being here and reading my stories. weโve already gathered over 250 of us in such two months which is insane to me. pls donโt ask for a pt2 as this will be a mini series with other short parts, but you can ask to be on the tag list in the comments! i love you all and literally thank you for everything )
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lewis adjusts the cuff of his shirt, standing in front of of the mirror with a blank but content face
his hair is already done, in the same way he's worn it for years now, proudly done by you. as for you, you sit on the edge of the bed slipping on earrings
mostly watching his reflection instead of your own you speak quietly
โfifteen years.โ a smile makes itโs way on to your face. โmarried for fifteen. together for twenty.โ
he looks up, meeting your eyes in the mirrorโsounds unreal when you say it like that.โ he replies with a slight laugh โweโve truly lived like three different lifetimes already.โ
you hum in agreement โwe have had three weddings, one every five years.โ
โdo you remember the first one?โ
his smile widens, nostalgia hitting him hard โhow could i forget. you cried through the entire ceremony.โ
โi did not cry through the entire ceremony.โ you protest gently, frowning โi only cried during the vows. and when you smiled at me oh and i guess when i walked down the aisle.โ
lewis laughs softly, shaking his head. โyouโre proving my point.โ you stand and walk over to him, resting your head against his shoulder as you look at the two of you reflected back
both of you are obviously older now. there are lines at the corners of your eyes that werenโt there at twenties
โwe were practically babies when we got together.โ he says quietly, moving to grab your hand
thereโs a moment of comfortable silence as you both stare at each other
after a moment you glance at his outfit clock and inhale. โso,โ you begin, keeping your tone light โhow many people are we expecting tonight, officially?โ
โletโs see. toto, susie and the kids. george and carmen. kimi and his family. bono, angela, fred, charles and alex, plus his family. uh and then seb and his lot as well as jenson.โ lewis lists off everyone he can think of off the top of his head
he pauses. โi donโt know the exact number but itโs a lot of people.โ
you nod with a hum, not saying anything
but the look on your face told lewis something was off. after twenty years of wearing being together he knew all your tells
and this. this was definitely a tell โwhat? what is it? i know i didnโt miss anyone.โ
with a blank face you mumble quietly โyou missed four.โ
he frowns slightly and turns to look directly in your eyes โno i didnโt.โ his brows furrow as he tilts his head
โyes you did.โ you insist gently, with a slight grimace on your face
he studies your face, confused. โno, iโm certain i covered everyone.โ
โthereโs four more.โ
for a second he opens his mouth to argue, but then stops. something clicked in his head and he closes his eyes. to you itโs clear heโs figured it out now
he opens his eyes and sighs heavily with a blank face โy/n.โ
the way he says your name sends shivers down your spine. in a good and bad way
you know he knows
โlewis.โ you say quietly as a breath leaves him in a laugh of disbelief. โyou didnโt.โ
calmly you nod and keep a solid composure โi did. nico, his wife and the girls are coming, no arguing.โ
lewis takes a long pause of silence as he processes the information he never expected to hear. his expression was unreadable for a moment. โyou couldโve told me.โ finally he speaks
and in soft thoughtful manner. not upset, not entirely at least
โif i told you and you said you werenโt ready to see him i wouldโve made sure he didnโt come. but i want him here. all of them.โ
the sympathy starts to settle in. โso you waited until an hour before everyone arrives.โ
a small frown makes its way onto your face. โyes, and iโm sorry. this way works best because thereโs no time for second guessing. he was such a big part of our lives, lewis. the one we created together, but also individually before we dated .โ
โi know.โ he brings his hands to your waist, gently squeezing your hips
โyouโve always kept in touch y/n, i get it.โ
you lean back into him. โi visit him all the time and their girls adore you. but beyond that, tonight matters the most because this is going to be the last night of our current normal for us. i wanted them here for it.โ
โiโm not upset.โ
you exhale a breathe you didnโt realize you were holding
relief hit you and eased the tension in your shoulders. โthank you.โ lewis smiles and looks in your eyes
โItโs going to take a lot more than my old teammate who everyone says weโre in love with each other, showing up at my house to be mad at you. and besides, we canโt be divided now, we have a mountain of years full of tears, hormones and siblings fights we have to get through.โ
the tension dissolves as easily as it formed, his comment making you giggle
after twenty years the communication and spark between you hasnโt dwindled down in the slightest. even after pretty arguments/disagreements or miscommunications
he leans down pressing a gentle kiss to your lips
when he pulls back he wraps his arms around you, drawing you into his chest
you rest your cheek against his shirt listening to the steady rhythm of his heart. you close your eyes and let yourself feel safe in the person youโve returned to again and again for two decades
thereโs no rush to speak, no need to fill the silence
after a few minutes, you smile against him. โi canโt wait to tell everyone. weโve been keeping this a secret for so long.โ
he tightens his arms slightly. โit is exciting.โ
by the tone of his voice, you can tell thereโs more to his sentence
and there is. after a beat he sighs heavily โand bittersweet.โthe news of tonight is weighing on him
you know is it. you tilt your head up to look at him. โchange always is.โ
โi want to be a dad so bad. you know that, but itโs hard for me so to let things go, especially when this has been my whole life.โ
you do know that about him
he knows everything about you and you know everything about him. which is why the only thing you can do is nod understanding perfectly what heโs saying and feeling
lewis stares into your eyes, a slow smile growing on his lips
pride and love completely consumes him and his eyes shine once again โbut iโm ready. iโm ready for what comes next and iโm ready to say it out loud.โ
his eyes drift down to his watch and he knows the first guests will be here soon
you know it too. you press a kiss on his lips, soft and a reminder that after tonight, everything will change
for the better
the first knock at the door happened right when you expected it to
you didnโt even have to look to know who it was
as you open the door, there stood toto and susie on your stop doorstep, dressed elegantly but comfortably
susie moves forward first, pulling you into a warm hug
โtwenty years for you and lewis.โ she says softly near your ear. โi canโt believe it.โ
toto follows, his grin wide as he embraces lewis. โi remember when meeting you for the first time.โ he speaks fondly with a big smile. โtwo young kids i did not think were going to last but now youโve been together longer than anyone in the paddock.โ
you smile at him and usher them inside, the house already feeling brighter with them here
as lewis walks over with champagne, quick embraces exchanged for him, before long youโre all standing near the kitchen island, reminiscing
โmy favorite memory,โ susie starts off, speaking very thoughtfully, โis when lewis had just gotten with his race back in 22 Belgium and even though he didnโt finish, you were still smiling and lewis managed to stay positive and smile throughout the day. it was because of you and no matter the adversity lewis faced, you grounded him and he only came back better. you still help him stay calm and become a better athlete.โ
toto nods and then turns to your husband โand you.โ he adds softly โyou always listen to her and make sure to mention her as a part of your team. the partnership you two have is beautiful, and i will never forgot the day you won your seventh championship. not only because you earned a spot in sharing the record, but because of the message you said on the radio dedicated to y/n. and when you jumped out of your car the first thing you did was run to her. that will forever stay with me, and even though you two arenโt apart of mercedes anymore, the memories and impact youโve left will never disappear.โ
you feel your chest warm at the words, lewisโs hand finding yours again as the doorbell rings once more
the hamilton house starts filling with voices and laughter as each guest arrives with a another person and a smile
when bono arrives he hugs lewis tightly before pulling you into one just as strong
โyouโre he reason he survived half of those seasons.โ bono semi jokes, and lewis nods intensely knowing exactly what seasons heโs referring to
as angela step through the entry way she kisses your cheek, squeezing your hands. โoh you look so good. i canโt believe itโs already been twenty years!โ she tells you excitedly and you return the energy back
soon after, lewisโs new team begins to arrive, with fred being the first
greeting you both warmly heโs followed by charles and alex, with charlesโs whole family close behind
you and lewis have gotten quite close with everyone on the grid and their families
not only have you gotten close with the current grid, but the retired drivers too
the guys and people you and lewis have grown up with. sebastian arrives with his kids, polite and smiling
then not far behind him is jenson already teasing lewis about feeling old
when george and kimi arrive, they show up together with their girlfriends, both beaming, each giving you a hug before greeting lewis
โhappy anniversary, mrs. hamilton.โ george says warmly as carmen smiles brightly as you โyou two are relationship goals, truly.โ
kimi, eli and his family enter through the door, all giving their acknowledges to you
the rookie Italian nods enthusiastically. โyeah. everyone knows it.โ
you laugh at the young boy, feeling very well surrounded with love and support. itโs now been an hour since the first of your guest arrived and five minutes before dinner almost everyone is here. except for a certain family
then the doorbell rings again
lewis looks through the peephole and stills slightly, and you know before he says anything whoโs there
as he opens the door nico rosberg stands on with his wife, their two daughters peeking out from behind them. his wife, vivian steps forward first, greeting you with a genuine smile pulling you into a hug
โhi, y/n you look so beautiful. thank you for inviting us. it means a lot, really.โ
moving aside to greet lewis, nico smiles at you too
โhappy anniversary.โ his voice is soft and laced with genuine appreciation
their girls didnโt hesitate to go to lewis
darting straight past you, they could barely contain their excitement as they jumped into your husbandโs arms
โuncle lewis!โ one of them exclaims, throwing her arms around him.
he laughs crouching down to hug them both, his face lighting up. โlook how big youโve both gotten.โ
with a big smile on his face, he shakes his head in disbelief
the moment happens naturally, without any tension or disdain. with everyone finally here and inside, lewis meets your eyes across the room and calls dinner time
soon after that everyone is finding their seats around the long table
glasses are filled with wine, soda, juice, champagne, and water. plates are empty, waiting to be loaded up, and they will be after a speech is given
lewis stands up slowly, clearing his throat as the room quiets
โthank you all for being here.โ he begins, talking slowly trying to hide his emotions โtwenty years together is something we never imagined would go by this fast, and being married for fifteen years is the most amazing achievement of my life.โ
you stand up beside him, lacing your finger together. โweโve been incredibly lucky to find each other.โ
โbut weโre also incredibly lucky to have people whoโve supported us through every season of racing and of our lives.โ
lewis nods with a smile โyouโve all been part of our story, and we thank you. for begin here through out these years in the past, joining or staying for our now, and for the whatever the future holds for us.โ
both you and lewis stop speaking and lift your glass, signaling the end of your speech
others lift their glasses holding liquid of their choice in unison
soft cheers following as dinner begins
as bowls are passed around, stories start flowing naturally leading people into memory after memory
bono is the first to speak, smiling fondly as he recalls the behavior hit witnessed from you and lewis during there late nights and early mornings
โthere were so many times iโd walk into the garage and either both of them would already be there.โ
he says for a second โor itโd be only y/n.โ
looking directly at you, the whole table listens intently while angela continues on the story bono is telling. she knows exactly what he was about to say
โshe would be in before any of the crew, going around making sure every place for snacks was filled. she already made sure everyone had food, no matter what was happening.โ
nico chipped in a story. it wasnโt shocking to you as heโd always stayed your friend
though he wasnโt friends with lewis anymore, he never missed the opportunity to speak positively of your relationship โshe was happier than anyone when he won his first championship. i remember thinking she was going to burst.โ
agreeing with a chuckle,l nodded. heโll never forget that it never day either
sebastian also agreed โand it never changed. every championship after that, she celebrated like it was the first.โ
everyone agreed and it brought a smile out of the whole table
your unwavering support for lewis and the love for the sport in general never went unnoticed. after they were done getting a laugh from remembering your celebration, jenson raises his glass
โiโve never seen two people so in tune. 99% the time, lewis knows what she needs and has it before she can even say anything.โ
you nodded linking away tears as lewis squeezes your hand with a smile
george is the one to change the vibe. he clears his throat, his expression sincere. you feel your heart soften immediately as he does this
heโs always been appreciative of getting to be lewisโ teammate at one point
you took him in, you and lewis both treating him like your son. already feeling the tears prick your eyes you inhale before he speaks
โi want to say y/nโs been a second mum to me ever since being apart of f1. but when i joined the mercedes family they somehow managed to treat me even better.โ
he pauses for a moment and the table falls quieter. โy/n was always checking in with me and still does. her and lewis will go out of their way to make sure iโm okay after a bad race. they invite me over and take carmen and i out to dinner at least once a month. theyโre sometimes more excited for my race results than they are for lewis. that truly means everything and is rare to find.โ
kimi nods quickly, his voice shy and quite โi also agree. lewis and y/n are my second parents and i know i can run to them about anything. itโs crazy how much they care, because i thought they would not like me. but i was wrong, they care more than anyone.โ
lewis meets your eyes both of you smiling from george and kimiโs word
as your eyes lock you both know thereโs no more delaying it. twenty years of being together has taught you how to read each other without words
how to move in sync without speaking, even when the moment is heavy or feels hard
you nod once and he knows itโs time
lewis inhales for a deep breath. slowly then he clears his throat and he sound pauses the gentle murmur of conversation the whole table slowly turning toward him
you can feel the collective tension, because everyone here knows there are only two kind of announcements this could be
smoothing a hand over the front of his jacket he stand
and you stand with him instinctively before sitting back down at his side, your hand still intertwined with his
he begins calm โthank you for being here and giving up a day of your summer break, i know thatโs not easy. it means a lot to us and we are so appreciative. of today and surrounding us with love and support no matter what.โ
the moment he speaks the room falls silent, people sit up straighter and listen more attentively
โmost of you know that racing has been my entire life.โ as he continues the entire room can feels whatโs coming
faces of both his former and current team principal fall
the three retired drivers press their lips in a flatline and nod, having giving a smiling speech like this before. they know
but lewis keeps speaking โracing has not only shaped who i am, but has given me purpose, direction and true family. for many years, when i looked at my future, i couldnโt imagine a version where i wasnโt inside a car. it was hard to envision myself not racing at anymore grand prixโs.โ
โiโve spent a lot of time thinking about what comes next. i finally have come to realize that when itโs time to let go of something you love, itโs not because youโve stopped loving it, but because youโve given it everything you have.โ
itโs as if the air got sucked out of the room right then and there
you feel your own chest tighten, from the anticipation of reactions, and from the words themselves
โso,โ he says softly, glancing at you for just a heartbeat before looking back out at everyone, โi want you all to know that 2026 will be my final season. after the last glad of this season year i will officially retire, starting immediately after abu dhabi.โ
for a split second, the words echo because of how silent the room is
susie closes her eyes, sighing heavily beside her toto exhales slowly. heโs nodding to himself like heโs been preparing for this moment even if he didnโt want it to come
though they were composed, not everyone had the same reaction. george blinks hard, tears gathering instantly
carmen has her hand on his back, doing her best to console him as he covers his face
charles stares down at the table, then looks up again with eyes glassy. leaning back in his chair is sebastian, a soft knowing smile tugging at his lips
jenson lets out a quiet breath, shaking his head with something similar to pride
lewis presses on, voice steadier now that the truth is out
โi want to thank the people who made this career possible.โ he says, turning slightly to begin with toto. โtoto, you believed in me not just as a driver, but as a person. you have challenged me, supported me, and trusted me through some of the most important years of my life and your career as well. i wouldnโt be who i am without you.โ
toto swallows back tears hard. โitโs been an honor.โ he quietly says, voice shaking
lewis turns next to fred. โfred, thank you for welcoming me into ferrari with open arms. for trusting me with a legacy that means so much to this sport. this chapter has been incredibly special to me.โ
lewis looks down the table, meeting familiar faces one by one. โcharles, george, nico.โ his voice softening โracing against you, and with you as teammates has been a pleasure, youโve all pushed me to be a better driver and teammate every single day.โ
nico nods his head respectfully
โand to the drivers who came before me and who I grew alongside with,โ lewis continues, glancing toward sebastian and jenson
โthank you for setting the standard. youโve shown me what greatness looks like, on and off the track.โ
sebastian lifts his glass this time. โyou did that too.โ
lewisโs breath catches for a moment before he continues. โand to the people whoโve been with me from the very beginning. bono.โ he says, turning, eyes shining. โi couldnโt have asked for a better engineer on this journey.โ
bono wipes at his eyes smiling through tears. โwouldnโt change a second.โ
โangela,โ lewis adds, voice cracking more than slightly now, โthank you for protecting me, and always taking care of whatever i needed.โ
angela nods, hand pressed to her chest, tears slipping freely now
going through everyone heโs worked with, now diverting his attention to the people he hasnโt directly worked it
โdonโt think i forgot about you little kimi.โ he lets out a little laugh, and you feel your own heart breaking along with your husbands
he lets out a contempt sigh โyou are so young and have already achieved so much. the pressure put on you this season was an immense amount but you showed exactly why you earned a spot in this sport. my wife and i are honored to have had you in our home, and your family in our lives.โ
lewis looks around the table, taking the appearance of everyone in. โthank you all.โ
you feel it then, the moment turning toward you
you follow the same habit lewis does, smoothing your hands over your dress as you take a breath, heart full to the point its now physically aching in your chest
โi just want to say thank you.โ your voice falters out from how hard its trembling
lewis places his hand on your back, and you inhale shakily wiping your tears โno amount of words can truly tell you how much we love all of you. truly thank you for supporting him, and for supporting us no matter how long or little we known you for.โ
glancing at lewis makes your cheeks turn a slight shade of red
he still makes you nervous and manages to have you acting like a teenage highschool girl, even after all these years of being with him
โiโve watched this man give everything he has to this sport for decades. iโve seen the sacrifices, the joy, the heartbreak and iโve never been prouder of him than i am right now. this next chapter is something weโre stepping into together. knowing we have all of you with us makes it less difficult.โ
you reach for lewisโs hand again, squeezing gently. โthank you for being our family.โ
you let out a long exhale, your smile small at first. though itโs not long before it grows into something bigger and more positive
you glance at him, and he looks back at you with that familiar look
the one that insinuates itโs your time to shine now. he always give you quiet encouragement, itโs what has carried you through every hard moment and year youโve ever had together
โthereโs something else.โ you gently add on, carefully speaking
the room stills once again. a few people exchange looks, not sure where this was headed. though a few had ideas
as you sigh, everyone hold their breathe. now they know thereโs more
you take another breath, then lift your chin trying to gain the confidence you need to say this. โwe havenโt said the reason yet.โ
trying your hardest to contain your smile your eyes flicking to lewis before returning to the group
a second of silence passes, and you can see the women hold their breathe
most as of them have either caught on or have an idea
โitโs because weโre expanding our family.โ you finally let your smile free and let out a small squeal
instantly gasps fill the room and the reaction of support and love become overwhelming
chairs scrape against the floor as susie and vivian rush forward to you, the others around the table cover their mouths
all the women especially light up, eyes wide, smiles breaking across their faces in unrestrained joy
the sound makes your own smile grow brighter, all the giddiness bubbling up as you almost laugh
lewis is embraced by toto and congratulated by all the other men
his current and former teammates and grid partners find their way to him with big smiles and open arms. hugging the way men do
after separating and everyone returned to their seats it was lewisโs turn to speak again
โweโve always wanted a family. a big one.โ he speaks softly
you nod swallowing the emotion in your throat from past experience. both of your mind go to those difficult memories โit hasnโt been an easy journey.โ he adds with honesty
โweโve had infertility struggles. weโve lost pregnancies and after being told i could never get pregnant we werenโt sure it would ever happen for us.โ
the faces in the room soften, a heavy feeling of empathy entering every heart
โbut,โ you continue smiling wider now โour dream has finally came true.โ
to ensure there was no speculation you were pregnant lewis reaches down and lifts a folder from beside his chair
holding it up proudly he shows a few piece of paper โweโve adopted.โ
shock hits the room and becomes louder with the cheer that follow. congratulations are said from every direction and adult
โweโre going from a family of twoโฆ..โ you trail off, your voice shaking from being over joyed โto a family of seven.โ
โseven?โ charles repeats out loud while jenson covers his mouthโoh my god.โ
with wide eyes kimi looks around, not sure if this a joke or not โare you serious?โ
you laugh at his kiddish confusionโvery serious.โ
taking a step forward, you begin to explain before anyone can even ask. โwe originally planned to adopt a teenage girl. we have everything lined up, from home visits to meetings and paperwork. the day we were supposed to finalize she wrote us a letter.โ
your voice softens at the memory. โshe told us she had four siblings. they were separated and all in different foster homes.โ
lewisโs arm slips around your waist as he continues, his heart heavy with emotion
โthe moment i read that letter, i couldnโt stop thinking about them. how they were all separated and we were about to separate them even more. theyโd already lost.โ
you smile softly, recalling how he called people nonstop all night. โso he tracked them down.โ
nodding he lets out a quiet laugh. he holds his head high, with a proud smileโand we found every single one.โ
you take over speaking again, finally revealing their agesโso, weโll be parents to a seventeen year old boy, a sixteen year old girl, an eight year old girl, a four year old girl, and an eight month old baby boy.โ
hugs of congrats and comfort are given as arms wrapping around you and lewis. laughter and tears mixing freely from every eye
nico is the last to pull lewis into a tight embrace, holding him longer than the rest. โi know how much youโve wanted this.โ speaking quietly he smiles the emotion very evident in his voice
โiโm so happy for you.โ
with teary eyes lewis nods โi am too.โ he replies softly. โmore than anything.โ
while they talk, youโre swept up by the all the women, including nico and vivianโs little girls.
susie pulls you into a hug first. โthis is so incredible.โ she beams
angela wipes her eyes, smiling brightly. โthose kids are so lucky to have you.โ
next youโre pulled in by vivian. โyouโre going to be an amazing mum. you and lewis are the most deserving and nurturing couple ever.โ
laughing softly, alexandra speaks up โfive kids. youโre a superhero already.โ
carmen grins and agrees โtruly youโre one of a kind. and just so you know weโre all babysitting.โ she declares. โnon negotiable.โ
kimiโs mum veronica nods. โyes, youโll need breaks. all of us will be here to help.โ
you bring your hands to your heart, pride and strength filling every inch of your body. โthis means more than you know. i will absolutely make our kids know all of their aunties.โ
smiling warmly, pascale takes your hands. โthatโs all we could ever ask for. itโs been an honor to have met you, you already are the best mom ever.โ
verconia hugs you speaking once moreโthank you for taking care of kimi when i canโt.โ
being similar in age, she was the women outside of lewisโs personal team you had grown closest to
when she was away youโd look after kimi, in many ways. youโd prepare and give him meals, find him after races, give him the comfort and warmth only a motherly figure could give
โhe appreciates you more than you know. all he does is talk about you and lewis. remember you are already a mom.โ
hearing that from a woman you admired and saw as your closest friend, felt like an accomplishment of the highest honor
she whispers gently to you and your heart swells like never before
tears prick your eyes again, overwhelmed but deeply grateful. โthank you.โ you manage to get out. โi really needed to hear that.โ
as time began to pass, coats were starting to be gathered and hugs are exchanged
congratulations are repeated over and over with the same sincerity they had the first time, maybe holding more weight the next times around
people thank you and lewis as they leave. one for inviting them in general, two, for trusting them with such a personal moment
and three for letting them be part of your and lewisโs life in the first place
each goodbye felt emotional and exciting at the same time. everyone, even the kids were able to understand theyโve witnessed the closing of a era and the beginning of another
one that was beginning as quickly as tomorrow
susie has already left earlier, apologetic but smiling as she explained she needed to get the kids to bed
youโd waved her off immediately
how could you hold it against her, knowing that was going to be you and lewis in less than twenty fours hours
as the house thinned out, only a small group remains. toto sits back in his chair
his hands wrapped around his glass of alcohol, his usual commanding presence now softened by emotion
or maybe that was just because he was around you and lewis. a natural effect
lingering around the table nearby Sebastian smiling and reminiscing with you and jenson, while george and carmen stay close together at the end
george kept fidgeting in the familiar way he does when heโs nervous
that was something you quickly learned about him. and once you found that out, you never forgot it
nico sits quietly off in the side, watching lewis with an expression that held a million sorryโs
george clears his throat. โcan i say something?โ he asks meekly
lewis nods immediately. โof course.โ george steps forward, hands clasped together, eyes already shining. โi justโฆ..i wanted to thank you.โ his voice already wavering slightly as he looks at lewis
โfor being the teammate you were to me. but you are more than that. thank you for being the role model you never even tried to be.โ
lewisโs smile is soft and swallows his tears, his throat burning from trying not to cry
โi grew up watching you.โ george continues, glancing at you briefly before smiling again. โchasing you around paddocks, begging for autographs. i was this annoying kid who wouldnโt leave you alone.โ
carmen laughs, nudging his arm. โyouโve told him this story at least a hundred times.โ
you laugh too waving it off gently. โoh you know we donโt mind. ever.โ
lewis chuckles. โi remember, for sure.โ he says fondly, placing a hand on the younger manโs shoulder
george swallows, trying to hide heavy emotion in his voice. โyou showed me what it meant to carry yourself with integrity, to fight for whatโs right on and off the track. to lose and still be kind, and i wouldnโt be the driver or person i am without you.โ
then he turns to you, eyes softening. โand you truly are my mom.โ
he speaks quietly and that work strikes a chord in your heart. itโs surreal to accept you will finally get to hear that word more now
โfor more times than i can count, you were there comforting me. more than my real parents have and not only have you helped me but youโve extended your grace to carmen as well. youโve both helped carmen and i figure out how to survive this world.โ
nodding carmen softly speaks up โyou were there for me when i didnโt know who to talk to and the reason i feel like i belong.โ
your chest tightens as you step forward, pulling both of them into a hug. โweโre so proud of you.โ
these two were like yours and lewisโs first human kids. โweโll always be here for you.โ
lewis says joining in on the the hug, resting his arm briefly on georgeโs back. โyouโre family, truly. that will never change, doesnโt matter if iโm on the grid or not.โ
โand we still have a few race left on the track together, iโm not leaving you just yet.โ
he nods with a deep frown on his face, and you canโt bring yourself to see his or carmenโs sad faces anymore. you moves towards them with open arms, holding them tightly
โoh you guys.โ your own face falling โjust because he wonโt be racing and weโll have five kids doesnโt mean weโll leave all together and never return. we will always be integrated in some form of racing and weโll make sure to cheer you on. but please know, our door is truly always open for you two. we love you both so much.โ
your words hit them hard, lewis feeling choked up as well. you hold them for a bit longer
after a few more quiet words, george and carmen say their goodbyes, hugging you both once more before heading out into the night
sebastian steps forward next, hands in his pockets, his expression thoughtful and sincere. โi wonโt make this long.โ he says gently. โmy family is in the car waiting for me but i need to say this.โ
you can already feel tears building again, and donโt try to hold them back this time
sebastian continues intently โlewis, you are and always will be, remembered as the greatest this sport has ever seen. not just for your wins, but for how you changed it. you changed the conversation surrounding fashion, and other important aspects. you used your voice. youโre calls for action have opened door for more diversity and allowed so many people or color and women to find a place in motorsports.โ
lewis shakes his head slightly overwhelmed with the praise โthank you seb. youโve been apart of that change too, and i will always be grateful for your support and presence in our lives, on and off the grid.โ
tears slowly roll down his face โthank you for pushing me, and for respecting me. youโve really been a big part of this journey.โ
sebastian turns to you โyou y/n have always been there celebrating and lifting him up. but most importantly protecting him. you two showed the world what real partnership looks like.โ
your voice trembles as you respond. โwe were only able to do any of that because of people like you sebastian.โ
the man smiles at your response and pulling you and your husband into a hug
โthe sport is better because of you two. never forget the impact youโve made, because the hamilton touch will always be etched into the history of f1.โ he sighs quietly before letting go and leaving
only toto and nico remain
toto exhales slowly, sounding melancholic โi always knew this day would come, i just didnโt want to see it.โ he say rubbing his hand over his face
lewis smiles sadly. โneither did i. but i canโt and donโt want to race forever. it feels right.โ
toto looks between you both. โyou built something extraordinary. on and off the track, please know that.โ
nico stands stepping closer to lewis. neither of them speaks, and you can feel the haunting history of everything theyโve been through fill the room
โiโm really happy for you, lewis.โ nico nods with a sigh โthis, this is what youโve wanted. i know it is.โ
emotion clinging to in his throat he hums in agreement โit is.โ
they reach out for each other, sharing long and genuine embrace. years of rivalry and respect melting into a single act of connection
toto doesnโt bother hiding it anymore. his face crumples, tears spilling freely as he lets out a shaky laugh that sounds more like a sob
โi always knew this day would come.โ he turns to you first and to be honest i had a feeling it would be tonight.โ the comment and delivery gets lewis and nico attention
you listen intently with soft eyes and crossed arms as the man continues speaking
โi kind of figured it would be something big the moment you announced you were having a big dinner instead of renewing your vows with another wedding.โ
nico nods beside him, eyes red from how many times heโs wiped away his tears tonightโme too.โ
he admits quietly. โi havenโt been invited to the two anniversaries after the wedding, only sent letters and pictures from y/n afterward. when i got the invitation i knew it was because you had something big planned.โ
โbut the moment i walked in tonight, i knew you were announcing your retirement.โ
lewis swallows hard, hearing those words from his former best friend
his own eyes become glossy, as he realizes how much heโs missed his mercedes family. you know what heโs feeling by look on his face and reach for his hand instinctively
the four of you end up standing there for a moment
itโs finally hit all of you. the destruction thatโs been caused because of 2016, the weight of everything feeling unsettling. itโs silent before toto opens his arms
โcome here.โ he murmurs
it turns into a group hug, grounding and full of emotion. everyoneโs arms wrapped around whoeverโs shoulders. toto struggles to keep his tears in, knowing you, lewis, and nico were his golden trio
this was a long awaited moment. one that needed to happen, and finally did
no one speaks
because no one needs to. the four of you can feel the words and emotions being exchanged through touch. the silence is heavy but filled with shared memories
years of celebrations, triumphs, heartbreaks, setbacks, anger, confidence, and warmth
it was the warmth of a family. the first one you and lewis were apart of in formula one, and objectively the most memorable one
eventually nico pulls away first, wiping his cheeks with the palm of his hand. โso.โ he says softly, his voice trembling โtell us about the kids. when do they move in?โ
you smile through tears. โtomorrow, thatโs why we wanted to announce it tonight.โ
both men freeze instantly. โtomorrow?โ toto repeats in a stunned manner, eye going wide
lewis nods, breathless laugh escaping him. โyeah tomorrow. theyโre moving in tomorrow as official hamiltons.โ
nico lets out a stunned laugh, shaking his head. โthatโsโโhe cuts him off slightly โwow, thats insane, youโre both amazing.โ
โwe actually have the rooms ready. for a while now.โ lewis adds, squeezing your hand
totoโs hand flies to his chest. โyouโre joking, when did you have time for all of this?โ
โwe made time. we did them two months ago, and have been hiding them ever since.,โ you say softly. โplease, we want to show you.โ
you lead them down the hallway, the house suddenly feeling different now that the future is no longer classified as up head
the first door you open leads to a room painted in sage green with warm neutrals. posters leaning against the wall waiting to be hung
โthis is for our teen boy.โ you step slowly inside the room, the other following
โhe said he wanted his space to be age appropriate but still tie in his interests and made him feel like a kid. like our kid.โ you whisper the last three words
nico steps inside carefully, eyes scanning the room. โyou really thought of everything.โ he murmurs
the next room is a perfect encapsulation of a coastal beachy aesthetic. warm tones of blue, yellow and orange in every decoration and details of the room
shells and string lights draped along the headboard. โthis is for our other teen.โ lewis says quietly. โsheโs very creative and loves art.โ
toto wipes at his eyes again. โi canโt believe this is happening, and so quick too.โ
you show them the shared room for the eight year old and four year old girls
itโs bright and filled with lots of colors and patterns. their beds and shelves already overflowing with books and toys
finally you arrive at the nursery. the vibe is much different than every other room
the crib is off white, a navy blue rug sitting underneath. the walls are covered in blue striped wallpaper. everything about it exuded calmness
the moment lewis steps inside, something
felt different for an inside him
he stares at the crib for a long moment, before he covers his mouth and then his shoulders start to shake.
โhey,โ you whisper, moving closer as he breaks.
burying his face in his hands, sobs fall from of him โiโm really leaving.โ he chokes out quietly
โiโm actually leaving racing next year. and iโmโฆiโm becoming a dad tomorrow.โ
โweโre getting five kids and our baby is going to be in this room.โ
you move to be in front of him, your own hands now cradling his face as well โitโs real lewis.โ you whisper, tears streaming down your own cheeks. โitโs okay. itโs all okay.โ
feeling emotion wash over him too, nico stands beside him, one hand gripping his shoulder. โyouโve given everything to that sport.โ he says firmly.
โit gave you so much, but thisโโ heโs forced to paused now getting choked up himself โthis is your next victory lewis.โ
toto nods โyouโve wanted this for so long. iโve watched and listened you talk about family for years. becoming parents doesnโt take anything away from your legacy, it adds to it.โ
lewis laughs weakly through tears. โi know. iโm justโgod iโm scared and excited and sad all at once.โ
โyouโre ready to be a dad. i know youโre scared my love but you know you want this more than anything.โ pressing your forehead to his you speak softly
โand we get to do this together. youโre not alone, in parenting, in retirement in anything. iโve been by your side for twenty years now, iโm not letting that change.โ
after a long while, the emotions settle. hugs are exchanged again, quieter now, steadier.
toto straightens his jacket, sniffing. โi truly couldnโt be happier for you both.โ he says sincerely. โyouโre going to be incredible parents. please bring the kids by whenever you want. youโre always family to me and to the mercedes team.โ
โthese kids are already so loved.โ nico smiles solemnly
with a slight laugh he adds gently โif you ever need any advice or time iโm here.โ his eyes drift from you to lewis and they make direct eye contact โfor both of you.โ
they say their final goodbyes at the door, lingering around way longer than necessary
both were affected way more than they were going to let on. but they knew how important being parents was to you and lewis
and they knew how amazing you were going to be
they had never seen a couple more compassionate, caring or prepared
hugging you both one last time nico and toto gave their congratulations on last time before leaving
when the door closed shut, the house was silent again
for one of the last times. for the last night it was only you two living there
lewis exhales deeply, shoulders relaxing. โitโs really the last night of being just us.โ you smile reaching for him. โyeah, tomorrow weโll be parents. to five kids, can you believe it?โ
โwe donโt do anything half way do we. all going all in, all at the start.โ he laughs softly, pulling you into his arms
music plays faintly, though of you remembers turning it on
you sway together anyway, moving slowly as you lay your head on his shoulder. he holds you close by the waist, melting into the softness of your skin
this intimate moment between you two in the middle of your silent candlelight living room, is a memory that will be forever cherished
โhereโs to twenty years.โ he whispers softly against your lips
โand forever on.โ you reply, pressing a kiss to his lips, laying your head on his shoulder
once you pull away you both laugh quietly as you crouch on the floor
your parental duties had started already with to blocking outlets, securing cabinet locks and padding every sharp corner that could be found
and you and lewis couldnโt be happier to be parents
summary: scrutiny is engraved in the world of formula one, but itโs not the drivers who face the most hate. itโs the wags. having had a baby with lando you expect him to stick up for you, expect him to understand even. you quickly find out, heโs just a man, and certainly not the one you thought he was
real life | 4.2k words
( warnings: mentions of body shaming, arguing, gaslighting, lando is emotionally unattached, postpartum exhaustion, ignorance )
your one month old daughter is warm sleeping heavy against your chest
her tiny fist is curled into the fabric of your shirt her face pressed into your body. you hear lando moving around humming quietly to himself
โbabe?โ he calls out, his voice slightly louder than you wished
โyes lan?โ but your voice is soft. instinctively so, as youโre afraid you might wake her just by breathing. speakingโs even worse
he appears in the doorway a moment later, halfway dressed but still decent looking
wearing dark trousers, and button down thatโs still unbuttoned, he pauses when he sees you, the sight of you and the baby immediately slowing him down
his shoulders relax and his face softens. sometimes he forgets the life he has, and seeing you two brings him back
a reminder sheโs really here and this is real
he walks over sitting at your feet on your shared bed. โyou sure you donโt wanna come?โ he asks gently
speaking softer he looks down at his daughter, gently rubbing her head โitโs nothing crazy, just dinner and a couple hours of talking.โโ
you shake your head โno iโm exhausted.โ you admit quietly with a small voice, not wanting to share more than you have to โand i really donโt feel like dragging her out this late.โ
he nods, sensing slight tension from you so he stands up not pushing. โyeah. that makes sense.โ
exhaling he leans forward to press a kiss to your forehead he murmurs. โiโll bring you something back to eat. whatever you want.โ
โyou donโt have toโโ
โi want to.โ he interrupts your sentence softly. โand i wonโt stay out long i promise. iโm not partying or drinking itโs just dinner.โ
you nod, even though a small part of you still hates being left alone at night. you hate how quiet the apartment feels when itโs just you and the baby and your thoughts
lando carefully leans down, kissing your daughterโs tiny head. โbe good for mama iโll be back around eleven, yeah?โ he whispers softly at the sleeping baby
he kisses you quickly before grabbing his jacket and keys
for a moment he pauses and likes back at you one last time โif you need anything, anything, just call and iIโll come home immediately.โ
youโre propped up against pillows in bed, your daughter awake now but calm
her wide eyes dart around your face as she stares up at you like youโre the most fascinating thing sheโs ever seen. and to be honest you probably are as she hasnโt seen much, seeing as sheโs only one month
little noises from her fill the silence, letting out soft coos hiccups, and an occasional sleepy sigh
your arm is numb from holding her but you donโt move. you donโt want to disturb the peace for her and quiet for you
with your free hand you open tiktok, wanting to do some mindless scrolling. something to keep you awake while your daughter is up still
most of it is cute baby videos and some recipes youโll never make. But of course thereโs f1 content, random clips circulating from races you barely remember attending, your pregnant body a blob of nausea and nerves back then
then a video pops up titled โranking f1 wags by styleโ.
you makes you pause and unfortunately curiosity wins and you sigh, watching the video
normally you donโt interact or even entertain any f1 fan pages but this creator seemed very sweet
and with your baby awake in your arms, what else were you supposed to do. the creator started and was smiling brightly, talking about outfits, and aesthetics. they complimented this oneโs elegance, that oneโs confidence and you find yourself relaxing, smiling a little even
hen they get to you and the immediate shift in their tone and body language makes your stomach drop
โand then thereโs y/nโฆโ
the smile disappears from their face as they trail off and pick their sentence back up again โiโm sorry, i just donโt like her at all.โ
you freeze but they donโt stop there they keep talking.
keep diminishing you and tearing everything about you apart. how youโre boring. how your relationship with lando started weird because you met partying
how they honestly liked you at first but now? now youโre just disappointing
โthey have a baby now,โ the creator continues, dragging their words sounding exhausted from just saying your name . โand she just shows up to races in anything. she always looks tired and messy. Itโs like she doesnโt even try.โ
your chest tightens while the person keeps going and picking you apart piece by piece
comments about why is your hair always like that
questioning if you even own any makeup. addressing their hatred for the way you walk the way you talk
mentioning the way you hold your baby is unsafe, how your daughter is always crying and unhappy with you. the things you say in interviews are not polished enough, you look disheveled and not glamorous enough
towards the end of the video your vision gets blurry and you donโt really remember watching the video anymore
but you were still able to hear their words. โlando deserves better.โ they conclude, speaking ill of you so casually, like theyโre talking about an outfit of yours they donโt like
your thumb moves on its own, scrolling to the comments
which was a big mistake. your eyes locked onto the hundreds of comments agreeing with the creator
calling you lazy, ugly, saying motherhood ruined you and youโre ruining motherhood, giving new moms a bad reputation. but then lando gets brought into the picture and the language they use with him is much different, it hits you in the chest like a punch
many comments all saying lando is such an amazing dad, such a provider
noticing how heโs so patient with his daughter and prasing how soft he looks and acts with the baby. then thereโs people still finding a way to hate on you, saying he deserves someone prettier and more put together
someone who didnโt baby trap him
that specific one makes you want to throw up. you bite down on your lip hard in an effort to suppress any sobs that try to come out of you
tears drip silently onto your daughterโs blanket and you close the app
the room feels too quiet again and your emotions feel too strong to hold back now
but just as youโre about to break, your daughter squirms, then starts crying. looks like she beat you to the meltdown first
itโs soft at first, like sheโs just uncomfortable. But then it quickly grows louder, sharper and way more desperate
โhey, hey.โ you whisper, panic creeping in as you bounce her gently. โitโs okay. mamaโs got you.โ
you try everything that a parent could for their baby
rocking, shushing, bottle and breastfeeding. walking around the bedroom with her in your arms, ignoring your own aching legs
pushing her around in a stroller, laying her down in her carseat and crib, playing all different kinds of noise
but no matter how many things you try, nothing works
her cries only get louder and they cut through you, suddenly youโre crying too
just as hard as she is it seems
you feel like youโre failing at everything all at once. you check the time and itโs 11:30 pm.
lando shouldโve been home by now
your hands shake as you pick up your phone and call him. it rings. and rings and rings. no answer so you try again
but this time it goes straight to voicemail
your daughter cries harder in your arms and honestly you feel like joining in with her at this point as your own starts slip free now
exhausted, you sink back onto the bed clutching her closer
โplease.โ you whisper quietly and it feels like your heart is breaking โjust please come home.โ
your eyes find the ceiling and you look up at it, rocking your daughter, trying to keep yourself from throwing the towel in, or worse
time flies by and before you know it, 4am rolls around
sitting upright in bed, your eyes feel endlesstly heavy and your shoulders slumped forward as you cradle your daughter against your chest
she finally went to sleep around 10 minutes ago. however you donโt know what helped
in all honesty, her tiny body was probably exhausted from all the physical stress of screaming and failing around
that theory didnโt feel hard to imagine imagine because the effects were hitting you hard too
every muscle of yours was screaming for rest and if you were looking back you donโt remember the last time you actually slept for more than three hours
the apartment was silent and you felt like one small thing would shatter you
and almost as on cue, the front door unlocks
itโs loud and the heavy footsteps that follow tells you lando is drunk off his ass
though you know heโs coming your way you donโt move. you canโt, youโre too tried, but your stomach twists instantly
his keys drop onto the floor, and as he makes his way towards your shared bedroom a laugh slips from his mouth
everything about him at this moment radiates carelessness and you stay silent trying to keep yourself at bay. to pretend youโre fine and like the night hasnโt taken everything from you already
you close your eyes, your jaw tightening as the door to your bedroom slams open
lando stumbles in, shoes half off already. his jacket slung over one shoulder, and he doesnโt notice your expression
or notice how stiff your body goes when he steps closer. he reaches for the light switch and flicks it on without thinking, bright warm light filling the room
this gets your attention and you wince sharply, not being able to ignore him anymore
your heart leaping into your throat as your daughter stirs, petrified she might wake and start crying again, your free hand flies up, frantically waving
forming silent desperate words you mouth for it to turn it off
he stares at you confused for a moment before it clicks, fumbling to switch it back off, mumbling a quiet, sloppy apology
but it feels like the damage is done anyway
your pulse skyrockets as you hold your breath, waiting to see if she wakes
after a long, terrifying moment of you frozen, praying she stays asleep, her breathing evens out again and you let out a breathe of relief
something in you snaps
you canโt bare to be in the same room as him, let alone sleep in the same bed as him
carefully you stand and gently lower her into the crib. smoothing the blanket with shaking hands your eyes lingering for just a second longer than necessary because sheโs the only thing keeping you grounded
then you straighten, and walk out of the room without a word
your steps fast and silent as you push through the apartment and out onto the balcony
the night air hits your body, slightly calming you. monaco glitters beneath and you grip the railing so hard your knuckles turn white
chest heaving as you try to keep your breathing quiet, controlled.
behind you, you hear him follow
โbaby?โ he says softly sounding genuinely confused. โwhatโs wrong?โ
he wraps his arms around you from behind, pressing into your back like this is just another night. like nothing has happened and he didnโt shatter every promise he made before walking out that door
you shove him off of you hard enough that he stumbles back a step
turning to him with tears already streaming down your face you whisper shout his question back at him, anger shaking every word as you fight yourself hard to not scream
โwhatโs wrong?โ you repeat his idiotic question back to him, the anger evident in your voice and body language โwhatโs wrong, lando? are you serious right now?โ
lifting his hands up in defense his brows furrows and itโs like he genuinely doesnโt understand what upset you
โhey, hey i didnโt meanโโ
and it just makes you even more mad. because that was the issue
โitโs four in the damn morning.โ cutting him off your voice cracks as you gesture toward the apartment behind you. โfour! i have been up for hours with our daughter who has been screaming until she was red in the face. i called you because i didnโt know what else to do, and you didnโt answer. what happened to call me and iโll come home immediately huh? you promised me lando. you said werenโt going to drink or party, that it was just dinner with the guys and youโd be home at eleven.โ
he runs a hand through his hair, swaying slightly, trying to smile like itโs no big deal. โokay, okay, i get it, iโm late, but if youโre tired why didnโt you just go to bed, yeah? since youโre so exhausted.โ
you let out a broken laugh, harsh and disbelieving, shaking your head as fresh tears spill over. โi couldnโt go to bed.โ you snap back quietly. โnot with her crying and you out partying doing who knows what!โ
throwing your arms up you huff before bringing your hands to your hair
โwhat iโm trying to explain, is that i donโt get to just go to bed. i am the one who is always up and does everything. i have to feed her, i have to change her, i have to rock her, and i have to be the one to listen to her cry while you go out with max dousing your in liquor and iโm over here crying, feeling like my heart is being ripped out every time she wonโt settle.โ
your voice gives out, and for a split second you feel like sobbing and walking away
but you donโt. you stay put because you need to get these words out, youโve been holding in your disdain for his lazy and childish behavior for too long
still, you let the emotions show, bearing themselves faster than you expected
โlando even when you are here iโm still the one who has to wake up every two hours. itโs the same routine for me every single day wether weโre in the paddock at a race or your sitting next to me on the couch. i clean her bottles. i wash all her tiny clothes that somehow never stop piling up, and sometimes im folding while pumping or breastfeeding. i make sure sheโs okay, all the time, every second, even when i feel like i might collapse. itโs always me, me, me who does everything and still i get no credit. i donโt remember the last time i felt like myself or have genuinely smiled. and i certainly donโt think iโve ever gotten any praise from anyone how about how good of a mom i am or anything along those lines throughout my whole pregnancy.โ
landoโs smile fades immediately, and his posture stiffens as he realizes this isnโt something he can joke away
you swallow hard, looking at him through tears, your voice dropping, raw and trembling. โand itโs not just that. iโm not just physically tired. iโm emotionally tired. iโm tired of feeling invisible. iโm tired of feeling like iโm doing this alone even when youโre literally here.โ
your hands shaking as you press them to your eyes. โi canโt do it anymore.โ you whisper the words over and over โi canโt. i canโt.โ
something changed and his drunken state cracking as he stepped closer, now serious
โhey.โ he says firmly, reaching for you again but stopping when you flinch. โno. donโt say that. iโll step up whatever you want me to do, iโll do it i swear. iโll be better, just tell me.โ
you shake your head slowly, tears sliding down your cheeks unchecked looking at him. โiโm not just talking about our baby.โ you say, voice hollow. โiโm talking about us. i shouldnโt have to tell you what to do to step up, thatโs still me doing something and picking your slack.โ
he freezes and his face drops โwhat. wait what are you talking about?โ
โif i already feel like a single mother,โ you continue quietly, every word feeling heavier to speak out โthen i might as well actually be one. at least then iโd know what to expect, i wouldnโt be waiting up at night hoping you come home at the time said you would.โ
the silence between you two stays present for a few minute
in no way had he expected this from you, and certainly not now, not in this exact moment
your shoulders slump down as you sigh. it feels nice finally explain your feelings, but the amount of push and pull internally and with lando is draining the life out of you
nothing about this feels rewarding, all this is only leaving you hurt
โpeople hate me.โ you whisper the words falling out before you can stop yourself. โthey hate the way i look. they say that i let myself go and ou deserve better. they call me ugly and lazy but praise you for being a good dad while they tear me apart as if iโm nothing. like iโm not a person with feelings, like i didnโt grow a whole human inside of me and give birth a literal month ago.โ
at the end of your spiel your voice cracks as you as you look up at him
with eyes pleading you turn desperate โdo you have any idea how that feels, lando? to grow a human, give everything you have to being a parents and still be told youโre not enough? to be picked apart by people because you donโt look like a supermodel anymore after giving birth
the only thing land can do is stand there
heโs stunned to say the least. his mouth opens and closes like heโs searching for the right words but ultimately remains silent
you let out a shaky breath, stepping closer, desperation not being a strong enough word to describe the emotions your feeling right now. you beg him softly. โsay something. please. i need you to say something.โ
he finally exhales, rubbing a hand over his face like heโs the tired one here
the way he sighs sounds like heโs the one whoโs been awake all night holding a screaming baby
and when he looks at you his voice comes out flat confused in a way that make him sounds like he couldnโt care less. about this conversation or you
โwhat am i supposed to say?โ he asks with a blank face โdo you want me to fix the internet or something?and you knew about the dinner.โ
thatโs when something in you truly cracks, but itโs not even anger anymore
itโs more disbelief mixed with exhaustion, and your laugh comes out broken as you shake your head at him
โreally lando.โ you whisper harshly, tears spilling faster now. โi just told you and youโre doing the same shit. this why iโm done.โ
he frowns going into defensive mode immediately. โwhatโs that supposed to mean?โ
โit means you always do this.โ you snap quietly, hands trembling as you gesture between the two of you. โyou make it sound like iโm mad about one thing so you donโt have to look at the whole picture. this isnโt about dinner, lando. i donโt care about the dinner.โ
โreally because it sounds like you do.โ he scoffs lightly. โi asked you if you wanted to come. you said no.โ
you cut in sharply, voice shaking. โstop. stop twisting it. this isnโt about me not going to some stupid dinner, itโs about everything else. itโs about the fact that you havenโt listend and applied any word iโve said. the fact you donโt see me. you donโt see what i do for you or our daughter. you donโt see how much i carry every single day.โ
he opens his mouth to interrupt but you donโt let him
โyou donโt wake up when she cries,โyou continue, tears streaking down your face but you let that bother youโyou donโt even ask you to hold her or let me have a night to fully sleep. i can be sitting right next to you, exhausted and shaking, and you donโt move. you donโt know how to dress her. you donโt know what size clothes she wears. you donโt know how to put her car seat in the car. lando, if something happened and i wasnโt there, you wouldnโt even know where to start.โ
his jaw tightens, his eyes snapping up to lock onto yours โthatโs not fair.โ
โi donโt care what fair at this point, itโs true.โ you sob back. โand the worst part is you donโt even try to learn.โ
you take a moment, letting out a shaky breath your chest aching as you press a hand against it. โand you donโt defend me. ever. you let these people tear me apart while you stay silent. you let them call me lazy, ugly, a bad mom, and you just let it happen.โ
he looks away, arms crossing over his chest like heโs had enough of this
โi saw a video tonight. there were hundreds of thousands of comments all agreeing and saying the same things. that i trapped you that you deserve better and i look like a mess. but for you its that youโre such an amazing dad while iโm nothing.โ
your voice breaks completely as you choke out the next words. โand i just realized you like it lando.โ
โyou fucking liked the video. not only do you never say a word defending me, this time youโre feeding into the narratives about me.โ
thereโs a long pause between you two, where he just stares out over the balcony like heโs waiting for this to pass
heโs hoping youโll walk away and go to bed
when he finally speaks, his tone is detached and he sounds annoyed
โi donโt even know what video youโre talking about, i just like things i probably didnโt even watch it. and you think i donโt get hate i deal with that too all the time and sorry but thereโs nothing i can do about it, so i donโt get why youโre yelling at me like itโs my fault.โ
thatโs when the sob rips out of you, loud and uncontrollable
your whole body feels like itโs folding in on itself as you shake your head. โbecause i need you lando.โ you cry. โbecause iโm being burned and youโre saying itโs too hot instead of saving me or putting the fire out.โ
your hands come up to cover your face as you break down completely, words tumbling out between sobs. โi hate you.โ
โi hate you lando, for doing this to me. i didnโt even want to be a mom yet, i wanted a fling something fun. thatโs all this was supposed to be. but then you insisted to pull out. when i found out i was pregnant, it was too late to do anything about it, so i made the choice to keep her. because i knew i could love her, and i knew we could give her a good life.โ
you look up at him through tears eyes red and pleading. โbut i didnโt know iโd be doing it alone.โ
he stiffens immediately going into defensive mode โI didnโt want to be a dad yet either.โ he shoots back
โbut i stepped up. iโm not sitting here complaining.โ
โbecause you have nothing to complain about lando! you yell back in a broken whisper
โyou do absolutely nothing. nothing to care for her. you get to sleep, get to leave and you even get praised for showing up for just literally five minutes. but iโm the one who does everything. i donโt get to leave her, or sleep if sheโs crying. i am everything to and for her.โ
your chest heaves as you continue, words spilling faster now. โand even after being her only form of life support, i still show up for you. i go to your races and stand in the paddock exhausted but smiling because i know how much your career matters to you. and even though i donโt have time to show up for myself istill go. because you matter to me lando. yet not once do you even try to show up for me.โ
you shake your head slowly devastation laced into every line of your face. โyou donโt show up for her either. and that hurts more than anything.โ
he stands there silent again. you can tell heโs distant and checked out of this conversation
and quite frankly heโs been checkout of this relationship for longer. his arms are still crossed, his face full of nothing like this is happening to him instead of because of him
โyou donโt understand,โ you whisper hoarsely. โand i donโt think you want to.โ
your voice softens then. heartbreak now replaces anger as you wipe your cheeks with trembling hands. โiโve tried. iโve tried to make this work with us for her iโve waited and waited for you to meet me halfway, and you never do.โ
you take a shaky breath, decision settling heavy but solid in your chest. โi canโt keep doing this, so iโm done.โ
he blinks hard his eyebrow furrowing
Not that caught his attention. heโs back on this earth, turning to look at you โwhat are you saying?โ
you swallow hard, tears falling again as you straighten your shoulders
โiโm saying the only option left is for me to leave.โ
summary: no one expected lewis to date someone younger, let alone more successful than him. but it was no surprise to the fans he found someone who knew fashion. making you and lewis the most stylish couple in and out of the paddock
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( warning: age gap of 10 years, suggestive language, i got a little lazy with the comments towards the end iโm sorry :(
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outfitsoff1: World famous fashion designer and CEO of SolureCouture, is in the paddock today! welcome Y/N to the F1 world
lewishamilton: My loves new collection Adatrix now completed. itโs been an honor to work beside the woman I love and to see behind the scenes of her beautiful work.
she the absolutely most talented, dedicated hardworking person I know and to see her consistently meeting her goal and raising the bar for herself is such an incredible thing to witness. she is such in inspiration and she cares so much about the fashion industry, I owe my latest looks and wisdom to this goddess.
^user: hmmmm i feel like you should be. this is not shocking heโs dating a designer
user: the fashion industry just won today like actually
user: oh i just know the magazines will be fighting over them
user: i just threw my phone iโm actually shaking
user: OF COURSE IT WOULD BE HER
^user: if anyoneee is going to date her, lewis is genuinely the perfect person
user: yall keep it cute now
user: anyone being disrespectful WILL be reported
^user: me too because i donโt play
user: AWWWW he finally has someone
^user: she better not break this manโs heart because I swear. he needs a good relationship
^user: only thing you have to worry about her breaking is fashion standards and these peopleโs necks
^user: TRUEST THING IโVE HEARD ALL DAY
yourusername: my favorite mannequin of all time <3
lewishamilton: honored to have that title
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outfitsoff1: Lewis hamilton and his newly announced girlfriend y/n today at the 2025 Miami Grand Prix. The pair are wearing custom coordinated outfits designed and made by y/n herself, source is from Lewis
user: outing myself right now but i was so mad hes dating someone but she actually pulled through
^user: now why would you even admit that
^user: oh girl theyโre coming for you
user: unmatched aura
user: serving this hard already, oh sheโs ready
user: THE MIRRORS?? HOLY
user: her matching him is making me melt
user: hard launch final boss
user: yayyyy a new couple to obsess over
^user: if youโre a new fan of y/n prepare to see looks like this every single race
^user: might as well glue the jaw shut now too
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yourusername: now presenting the Adatrix 2026 collection for SolureCouture
thank you to everyone for supporting my art and for being the vision. my designs tell the stories of the ones who made this possible, you the fans. the goal is for everyone to see themselves at the top, and feel the success building within them everyday
the sky is the limit, become the new trend by today
user: iโve seen enough, make her a co chair in the MET
^user: THAT WOULD BE SO GOOD
^user: ohh girl i like the way youโre thinkingโฆ.
user: adatrix is such a cool name
user: the concept of her whole brand is actually groundbreaking
user: iโm crying so hard at the caption
user: hi, iโve recently just started following you and your work, who makes your designs, genuinely asking?
^yourusername: hi my love, all pieces are made directly by hand and i make around 60% of the clothing myself. i like to think i can do it all but unfortunately i need to eat and sleep :( so I do have an amazing team of 6 incredibly hard working people who handmake the rest of the pieces that iโm not able to!
alexandrasaintmleux: you are such a visionary
eglehulkenburg: your growth is unreal, congrats angel
lilymhe: you are absolutely a talent to watch
^yourusername: thank you. it means the world to me for your support, custom fits for all coming soon!
user: we need more designers like you
user: this collection is true fashion
carmenmundt: ugh my darling i hope you know how unique you truly are. one of a kind
lilyzneimer: what a beautifully done collection!
flavybarla: youโre unstoppable
^yourusername: omg you all are too sweet. thank you for welcoming me with open arms and for your support
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outfitsoff1: Lewis and Y/Nโs custom outfits from todayโs race at Silverstone, once again made by Y/N
user yes, she made this one too. and the next one, and the next and the next!!
lewishamilton: iโm just lucky she lets me wear her art
^yourusername: youโre the inspiration my love <3
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outfitsoff1: oh they did not come to play tonight, Lewis and Y/N at the FIA end of the year Gala. I think we know what brand theyโre both wearingโฆ.!
lewishamilton: now that the season is over i want to thank my everything for being with me this season
thereโs been ups and down of my career but iโve never lost sight of myself, because of her. her mission and impact is one i feel everyday and it brings me to tears even thinking about what sheโs done for every community sheโs been apart of yourusername
New York Times: History has been made as a new director of the Met Gala has just confirmed. After 40 years, the current director and woman who started it all, Anna Wintour, has officially retired her role. With Anna Wintour stepping down, luxury fashion designer of SolureCouture, Y/N L/N has been hand selected by Anna herself to be new director.
Y/N will be the second person to ever hold this title, and is the first black women, and youngest women to ever hold such position. She is now the head chair and her husband, Lewis Hamilton is to be a permanent co chair, with other co chairs switching every year
NEWLYWEDS LEWIS AND Y/N HAMILTON EXCEED EXCELLENCE IN FASHION AND LOVE
January 2026 Issue
Y/N and Lewis Hamilton open up about their recent wedding in our first print of the new year. The couple are both known for their very expressive choices in clothing and are all about rewriting boundaries.
Lewis, 41 is a Formula One driver and has been in the sport professionally for over 18 years. His unique outfits at the time in F1 caused a whirlwind of criticism for breaking the boundaries back in 2015.
Y/N, 31, has been interested in fashion sinxe she was 8 years old and has been designing since she was 20. Sheโs quickly rose to the top of the industry with her distinctive and eccentric designs, becoming the most requested designer in demand. In 2020 she created her own fashion called SolureCouture.
The pair began dating in 2023 and announced their relationship earlier this year, and sealing it with rings in November 2025. Inside are more and exclusive details from the couple about their private wedding, what the future holds for them and what it means to be a black couple redefining the culture of expressive dressing, together.
lewishamilton & yourusername: our first collection together, and itโs as husband and wife!!!
working on our 2026 Madella collection with lewis has been the best experience of my life. as you know i do all the designs myself and work hands on with making a majority of pieces by hand. my team is very small, but just got expanded to one more.
thank you lewis for becoming a permanent part of my brand and mission in rewriting what the word fashion means. we have both worked worked endlessly together to create this and he is so talented. get you a man who is so invested in your career he will learn how to sketch and sew!!
Anya is live and ready to show you everything. Watch her strip, dance, and perform exclusive shows just for you. Interact in real-time and make your fantasies come true.
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summary: meeting your boyfriend through formula one as his race engineer, you and him gain quite the popularity for being a couple. since youโre so adored you two decide to put your relationship to the test by doing a fun interview for youtube
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( no warnings or looks specified. also i want to say thank you so much to everyone who reads, likes, comments and reblogs my works. it means a lot to me, and for those who send me messages i do see them and it makes me so happy. all the support and love for my works means more thank you know, and i do see all the messages i just donโt know how to reply! but thank you to everyone!! more stories are on the way! )
you and alex sit in a studio with bright lights on you, both of you in chairs with your somewhat casual clothing on
his hair is fluffed up, and your hair is done in a more relaxed and elegant style than you normally wear
your micโd up, heโs micโd up, and he keeps bumping his knee against yours like he canโt sit still
but he might just want to be touching you
knowing him it was probably both
alex holds his questions and cue cards dramatically, shaking them like heโs about to perform a magic trick. he eyes were locked on you and he smirks
โyouโre nervous.โ he teases, leaning into your shoulder. โi can tell. you think iโm going to embarrass you.โ
โoh baby you donโt need a quiz for that,โ you let out a little laugh โyou do that everywhere.โ
alex gasps putting hand over his chest, mock offendโme? embarrass you? i am an angel. i am, uh what do the kids say these days. demure.โ
โdemure?โ you huff with wide eyes
โoh yeah? tell that to the guy you pushed because he tapped me on the shoulder. oh! or the time you accidentally called me โhotโ on the team radio during a race.โ
at the second thing he he groans and hides his face in his cards while everyone laughed
โokay.โ he peeks over at you through his hands โthe first one i still stand by because why was he touching you, but the second oneโฆyeah that moment got me a lot of shit but i love you and iโm never ashamed of showing it.โ
โperfect answer. because i thought it was cute and i didnโt mind it at all.โ
he drops his hands and the smile he gives you is smug and soft at the same time. โi knew it. you loved it.โ
one of the producers claps her hands โokay you two! weโre about to roll in just a minute, alex, youโre asking first, and remember, youโre competing so donโt help each other.โ
the red light told you the cameras began rolling and the producers gave a thumbs up
as soon as it started you scooted away from him dramatically, but he pulled you back immediately
โare you ready?โ he asks with a smirk โhit me.โ you tease, cracking your knuckles
he wiggles his eyebrows. โlater.โ
โalex albon, enough.โ
โokay, okay.โ he laughs โwell i guess I donโt need to do my introduction do i y/n l/n?โ
with a smile you roll your eyes and give the camera a wave โtoday weโre going to be doing the gq couples quiz.โ
your boyfriend nodded then turned to you holding the cards up โok first question, what is my go to post race comfort meal?โ
you pretend to think really hard, tapping your chin. โhmm. i donโt know.โ
โprobably the giant cheeseburger you inhale like you havenโt eaten in nine days?โ
he points at you with both hands. โcorrect. what can i say.โ he flips to the next card. โquestion two, when did we meet?โ
โoh, easy three years ago. i got promoted to your race engineer.โ
โmm hmm yes.โ he nodded and tried to fight the smirk growing onto his face. both of you knew what question was coming after
which of course alex did not want to read โand what was my first impression of you?โ
you grin. โyou thought i was a bitch.โ
loudly groaning, his face falls into a grimace โay my love i did not say that exact word. i was annoyed because never looked at me and avoided me!โ
โin my defense was trying to be professional!โ you shrugged nonchalantly
โyou were so professional i thought you wanted to quit on the spot when you met me.โ he laughs, nudging you with his shoulder. โbut we got over both of those things didnโt we.โ
he leans in with a smiles trying to kiss your cheek and you swat him
โweโre competing against each other, back fo the game mr albon.โ he rolls his eyes playfully and reads off the next card. โwhat is my biggest racing pet peeve?โ
feeling confident you scoff and give a wave with your handโoh this easy.โ
itโs not like heโs told you this a thousand times or after every race โdrivers who complain even though they won or had a good race.โ
his eyes light up and you know heโs about to go on a rant. a dangerous one at that
throwing his head dramatically he groans in an annoyed toneโcorrect. i despise that because it shows theyโre ungrateful andโโ
you cover his mouth to cut him off โok next question before you get cancelled.โ
he licks your palm like a child leaving you shocked and slightly disgusted โew, alex! what the hell.โ
โwhat? you put it there.โ
you give him a glare that tell him youโre serious but he only beams at you
though inside heโs nervous because he knows how bossy and lowkey scary you can be
he found that out the hard way when he disobeyed your orders to give a position back and costed himself the whole race
โokay, okay iโm sorry.โ he smiles shyly
as he looks down to read the next question his entire demeanor changes
the smiles on his face slowly faces and he stares at the card in silence before saying it out loud โlast one for my portion. what was the moment i realized i had feelings for you?โ
your breath caught in your chest a little. you werenโt expecting that question
nor were you able to tell this story without tearing up. alex looks at the camera with a frown already knowing whatโs coming
you answer quietly, your voice beginning to tremble โwhen i stayed with you after the qatar 2023 race.โ
the room fell quieter, and even the producers and camera crew grew emotional
alex turns back to you with a sad soft glimmer in his eyes, his hand moving to rub your thigh gently
โi knew as soon as i saw this question, you were going to cry when answering. but yeah, that was a really tough race. for everyone truly.โ
whispering you nodded as tears silently dribbled down your face โit really was.โ
โthat race was so hard brutal on everyone, with regulations and the heat. but the reason it makes me cry everytime is because alex fought so hard that day and by the end he was so exhausted. everytime we spoke on the team radio i could hear the pure exhaustion from his voice that seemed to get worse as the race continued. it was a hard listen and even harder to see him struggle but yeah i stayed with him after.โ
he nodded slowly, speaking soft โyou walked me into the medical center.โ
the difference in the air was noticeable. he didnโt speak to the cameras, he spoke to you. in that moment it was only the two of you in the room
โyou helped carry me there and held my hand while they checked me. you stayed by my side throughout the rest of the night and waited for me at the paddock to done with all my media duties even though it was so late. and we it was time to go we walked out together and when i apologized for ruining your day, you told me not to be stupid, because i was youโre my driver and you werenโt going anywhere. that was the exact moment i knew i admitted to myself i had feelings for you and wanted more with you.โ
โyou almost got me crying.โ you tease through your teary eyes, obviously joking as you were full on crying
โbaby you are crying.โ he says proudly. โyouโre a very sentimental and emotional person, thatโs something i love about you .โ
you smile at him and he smiles back with affection, a look and action he doesnโt bother hiding anymore
the producers clears their throat. โokay y/nโs turn.โ
you sit up straight and shuffle your cards. โok mr albon question one, what is my exact coffee order?โ
his eyes widen and he perks up with excitement instantly. โoh oh i know this! an iced caramel latte, two pumps vanilla, light ice, and vanilla cold foam.โ
โhmm, incorrect.โ
with a loud gasp he throws his hands up and shouts โwhat! how thatโs literally exactly what youโโ
you cut him off with a smirk and tilt your head at him โyour forgot the size.โ
โoh my gosh of course. i know it though itโs a large!โ alex points in your face with a big wide grin that makes me giggle because of how determined he is to win this โyes thatโs correct.โ
โnow you get the point.โ you raise your eyebrows and he claps loudly โyes! see i am an attentive boyfriend.โ he declares proudly, talking straight to the camera
โyouโre way too competitiveโ you mutter, trying to hide your laughter
โok next card. do i have a superstition when you race?โ
alex looks to the camera with a blank face before turning smug. โyou think i donโt know this? yes you do, you kiss the inside of your wrist three times when i get in the car. โ
you blush and look down at your lap โthat is correct, and do you know why itโs three?โ
โi watch you.โ he shrugs simply. โyou think i donโt look for you every time before i get in the car?โ
your face gets hot and he notices that way you use the cards to cover your face but he looks delighted โanswer the question.โ you huff now all flustered
โno, no.โ he leans close whispering, feeling cocky he the reason youโre like this โ youโre blushing.โ
โshut up.โ a giggle leaves you while he sits back and doesnโt hide his laugh at all
โuhm no i donโt actually know why itโs three times.โ he watched you nod โitโs for i love you.โ a soft smile its on your face
alex hums and grabs your wrist without saying anything
then he leans down and kisses your wrist three times, before kissing his own. after two of you donโt say anything else
you move on and read the next question with a smile like nothing happened โwhat is my favorite travel memory of us.โ
โohh no, no iโm not answering this one.โ he rolls his eyes and crosses him arms
seeing him pout made you side eye him โiโm gonna tell the story anyways so you might as well just say it yourself so you can get the point.โ he caves in and decides to speak
โfine. itโs when we missed our flight and got stuck at the airport for hours.โ
โnow you need to say and explain why we missed our flight.โ you smirk and watch him scoff โwe didnโt have our passports.โ
putting your hand up to speak, you sit up with a proud smirk โyeah and itโs because he forgot them.โ alex immediately throws his hands up reaching to grab your handโthat is not true!โ
โyes it is.โ you swat at his arms and continue telling the story
โi said i was going to keep track of them because i didnโt want them to get lost or forgotten, but alex insisted he could do it so i let him. low and behold he forgot them, and we had to run all the way back to our house which was two hours away from the airport.โ
โlies!โ he protests now grabbing your hand dramatically. โthis is slander! defamation!โ
you shake your head and hold up the next card. โokay you got the point moving on. be serious now. when did i start liking you?โ
โmiami 2023.โ he sheepishly smiles, an you both feel your face redden. โthat weekend after the race we both partied, hard. we were both all over the place but you definitely more to drink than me so I made sure you got home and you couldnโt stop smiling and tapping the whole way back.โ
he meets your eyes and the tension between you feels the same as it did two years ago
โyeah. thatโs when.โ
alex nods takes your hand without asking and squeezes once
you give him a wink before looking back to the camera as the the producers speak up
โokay, now weโre going to do a bonus speed round. both of you will answer the questions at the same time and, whoever answers first and correctly wins a point.โ
alex drops your hand and cracks his knuckles like heโs preparing for battle
โoh itโs on.โ you roll your eyes at his words and crack your neck โok sure. I think you forgot youโre going against the person who is the reason you succeed in a race.โ
โyou may help me succeed on the track but I help you succeed off, i got this in the bag.โ
the first question from production was one you both were expecting โquestion one, who said โi love youโ first?โ
โalex!โ you shout instantly just as alex does โy/n!โ he says loudly
both of you yelled an answer at the exact same time, but only one of you was correct
you both whip your heads towards each other and stare intensely โyou definitely said it first.โ you argue with wide eyes
he shakes his head violently. โno no no! you did, in the hotel hallway!โ
โuhm i only said it because you said it!โ you exclaim throwing your arms up
โwoah only i said it because YOU said it!โ alex gasps and perks up so hard he almost jumps out of his chair
the crew is laughing so hard as you and alex debate who is correct
unfortunately you two wrote the same answers which meant no one knew the correct answers โwell we both get a point.โ alex smiled
โwhat was your first date?โ
you slam your hand down on your thigh โwe volunteered at an animal hospital!โ
he points at you โthatโs wrong!โ your eyes widen so big you thought they were going to pop you
โwhat!? no itโs not, iโm right!โ leaning forward you scoffed in his face as he smirked โit was the animal hospital and the animal shelter. we went there after.โ
โoh my god whatever, i still get the point!โ
shaking his finger in a sassy manner he leans back with a cocky smirk โah ah. you get half, i get half.โ
when it was time for the next question, the rivalry between you two continued
โlast question, who gets more jealous?โ
โalex!โ you both say before before the question ends
โi got that one for sure!โ he looks to the camera and production for confirmation on his win, but they couldnโt give that
โboth of you truly said it at the same time, you both get a point.โ one said smiling
you choke on your laugh, and alex holds his head and his hands trying not to fall over from laughter
โyou guys are getting the real us. this is actually us being tame too.โ he declares then put his hand on your knee โi love you.โ
โi love you too, but i won.โ
he leans in and kisses you, soft and quickly before pulling back with a smirk โi definitely won.โ he whispers
you smack his arm, laughing but he catches your hand, lacing your fingers together
only until the news that you tied was given though โyou had the same exact amount of points. from all portions.โ
alex lets go of your hand, throwing his up. but he doesnโt let go of his smile
โguess that shows how equally in love we are with each other.โ he shrugs playfully, letting his humorous side show once more
you beam, the both of you now looking at each other โthis always happens.โ
as itโs the end of the interview he gives a wave to the camera while you blow a kiss towards it
โweโre alex and y/n and thank you for watching, our gq couples quiz.โ
you say the last line and alex walks over, lending his hand out for you to stand up. you gracefully grab on and share a quick kiss
walking off set alex mutters something in a teasing tone, thinking the cameras are off
โyeah thereโs no way the breakup curse from doing this video will be getting us. weโre actually in love. โ
summary: being single for your whole life, you go on love island directly after highschool. on there you catch the attention of a certain mercedes driver and he's not entirely quiet about his admiration for you
real life + social media
(no warnings really, reader and kimi are both 18 then turn 19)
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yourusername: and that's a wrap on my journey with love island season 7!
though i didn't find love...like at all, i did find lifelong friendships with the girls and learned lessons i will carry with me. going from high school graduation straight here was genuinely the craziest thing i've ever done, but definitely a testament to how age shouldn't hold you back from going after what you want. it was truly an honor to be on this show and though being the youngest islander had it's challenges, i have gained experience in so SOO many things. ๐
i definitely know what to not put up with from a man (thank you ace for that one! )
even though i'm leaving with having no boyfriend
STILL, i know he's waiting for me somewhere. hopefully my first one will treat me better than the men here, no tea no shade guys
huge huge thank you to everyone who supported me and all the love i've received from my fans! and for listening to all my talk about F1 allll season :)
i love you all so so much. guess i'm on to other adventures now!! ๐บ๐ด๐ ๐ฆฉโ๏ธ
kimi walked to the media pen for his post interviews, still slightly dazed from the result
there's champagne soaked into his suit, and the faintest look of flush on his cheeks that hasn't faded since he got out of the car
he had just won his first race, making him a first time grand prix winner
and all truth be told he was still trying to process it
greeting a young woman, the interviewer, smiled wide and began speaking"kimi, congratulations. this is your first p1 grand prix win since you've been in formula 1, can you tell us what's going through your head right now."
rubbing the back of his neck, he smiled and tried to keep his giddiness at bay
"um, a lot." he said with a laugh. "it still doesn't feel real. i think, you know, you dream about this since you're a kid, but when it happens it's like wow...okay. it's actually happening."
kimi smiled shyly, nervously pacing around
the interviewer nodded and took a deep breath, mirroring for him to do the same
as he did she smiled, asking another question "you had insane pace today," the interviewer continues. "it looked like after lap 28 everything just seemed to click, did you expect to be able to fight for the win?"
he shook his head instantly. "oh no, no. not at all. i mean, we had good data, good feeling, but a win? i didn't think that was in the cards today. the team did an amazing job. our strategy, the pit stop, just everything was perfect. i guess they gave me the chance i just took it."
he spoke like it was so simple and easy. managing to stay humble so how he did it so much, he almost unaware he just did something unforgettable
"well you delivered brilliantly." the woman now, "as this is your first win, especially after such a tough weekend before, what was your motivation going into this race."
now, kimi expected the question but still he didn't know how to answer in a way that wasn't make the whole paddock laugh
"uh a bit of everything you know." he smile slowly, his words getting faster with excitement "training, of course but uh i also i watched some tv and then someone from there inspired me."
totally not expecting the answer she got the interviewer raised an eyebrow. "that's very interesting, you got it from tv? what show?"
hesitating, his eyes dropped to the floor and his cheeks became slightly flushed
"love island." he admitted after a moment. though he was clearly embarrassed it was definitely a genuine and sincere response
along with half the media pen, the interviewer immediately laughed and let out a little "love island? kimi antonelli is watching love island?"
kimi shrugs cheeks warm. "it's done now but it was on and i got invested."
"okay, okay. i mean it is a very entertaining show, i myself watched this season." the interviewer smiled "so then, who's the islander who inspired you?"
at first he didn't want to answer but then he clears his throat looking everywhere btu the camera "y/n."
the interviewer smiles even wider and the boy knows exactly where this is heading
to be fair though, he wasn't entirely opposed to admiring this in an interview. a part of him wanted you to see this
"y/n? really?"
kimi nods, his embarrassment now shifting to become pride. "yes. she's very cool, ambitious and i would say the smartest there. i think, i don't know, but i think i was inspired by her because she knows what it's like to be this young and have people watching everything you do. though everyone else was older than her and it sometimes made it difficult i say she handle it really well. it's a little what i go through sometimes.
his words are spoken with a very honest and soft in the way he said it. something that makes the media immediately lean forward
"do you see yourself, maybe reaching out to her?" the interviewer asks
kimi looks surprised by the question, but he decides to answer it anyway "i may yeah. when i was watching the show she said she relates to me so it would be nice to meet up with her and talk. she talked lot about pressure on the show, and pushing yourself even when people think you're too young. it made me think and i feel like we have a lot in common."
"well kimi, i think you just made her fans year." as some of the other drivers heard the conversation, he quickly cleared his throat quickly. "uh, anyway, about the raceโ"
she politely cut him off with a smile "no, no hold on. we'll go back to racing don't worry." the interviewer teases. "but i have to say, kimi that was very unexpected."
giving a helpless laugh the boy felt himself blushing and getting flustered. "sorry."
"please don't apologize it's adorable. now, looking forward, this win puts you in a very strong position for the second half of the season. what's the plan?"
hearing the question about his season he comfortably slipped back into race mode, trying to keep his mind off of you
"though it was a very great race i will always say keep improving. there is always stuff I can do better so i will keep learning. but yeah the car feels good, the team's in a great place so i'm not thinking too far ahead. i just want to stay consistent."
"well hopefully we can you as a world champion one day?"
he gave a gentle smiled "i hope so, but one step at a time." the interviewer nods. "well thank you kimi antonelli, congratulations winner."
kimi nods back with a blank face, though cheeks still slightly flushed
even as he walked off his face was blank
but his mind wandered back to you and to saying your name outloud. he couldn't help but smile to himself
and lucky for the fans, one of the cameras caught it
sitting in the studio with your fellow castmates made it feel like you were in the villa again
the energy when with them was real and over the top. it was something you'd been missing since being in a hotel room with your family
speaking of, your whole family, mom dad and sister were all out exploring L.A with you while you did press
you were sat on the couch in the center, surrounded by your fellow islanders, amaya, bryan, nic, olandria, chelley, ace, iris, pepe, and huda
with your legs crossed and mic clipped to your dress, you were prepared for the question about the dram you had with some
still, you getting used to the fact that millions of people suddenly know your name
as it started the host mostly talk to the others as they were all in established couples on the show or were in the finale
however, since you left one day before the finale you were wanted there as well
and maybe the fact that you were the fan favorite of the show could've been a factor too, but you didn't want to seem to arrogant
towards the end host turns to you with a smile "all right, y/n. it's been one week since the finale. how are you feeling now that everything's settled a bit?"
you laugh softly. um...overwhelmed. you nodded and smiled "no it's been very good though. truly everything has been so amazing, it's just a little weird being home and not having to yell 'text!' every day."
amaya turned to you and laughed, the others all agreeing
the woman interviewing you all, smiled cautiously and right then you knew where is was going
"as you know, you were the fan favorite of this entire season."
trying not you blush you nod and give your best attempt at keeping a composed face
"so you've gained the most instagram followers out of the whole cast, with over 7 million people now following you. and i'm sure your phone is absolutely insane right now still." the host laughs. "how many dms are we talking? hundreds? thousands?"
with a giggle you groan dramatically. "oh my gosh so many. like too many. i genuinely didn't even know you could hit the limit on instagram notifications."
the host leans in with a teasing grin, "and how many of those are from celebrities?"
the group immediately oohs, and you cover your face with your hands feeling embarrassed
"no comment!" you say quickly. "i'm not exposing anyone."
behind you nic shake your shoulders in a friendly manner "oh come on! give us one name."
amaya sitting beside you gives you a look before clearing her throat. the rest of the cast furrows their brows not quite sure what the woman was going to say
that made the host perk up. "oh? is there something we should know?"
you know what's about to say but you don't stop her maybe a part of you wanted her to say it
"she's not saying who messaged her because she's waiting for a message from someone specific."
your eyes close and your face scrunches up as you prepare yourself for the reactions
the rest of your cast mates get extremely loud with cheers as they know exactly what name is about to be said
"from kimi antonelli." amaya saying with a smug smile
you immediately feel heat rush to your face with embarrassment and maybe some hidden excitement
"i hate all of you." you mutter, face red as the host gasps
"so you have seen his interviews?" the host asks you nod slowly, cheeks burning. "yes. i've seen that one."
"and?"
you breathe in try to stop smiling, but completely fail
"and he's very sweet." you admit, trying to speak steady "i didn't expect him to talk about me like that, and it means a lot that i can inspire him."
"now you've mentioned on the show many times that you're a fan of kimi. do you think that's why he started watching the show, and how did liking him first start?"
the question like this was honestly something you been dreaming of getting asked
but you would never let anyone know that
you wanted to play it cool and act happy but composed about it. you didn't want to scare the boy off
"well i can't really be the one to tell if my mentions of him are what got him watching the show, but he definitely knows of me." your eyes wander around the room as you nervously giggle "though as for being a supporter of him specifically, i've always loved mercedes. i talked about it on the show with a few others expressing george and lewis being my favorites. but now that kimi's with mercedes i've also kinda become a fan of his too."
everyone gives you a look and iris even elbows you gently "kinda?"
you groan again knowing that wasn't the full truth
"okay, yes. he has quickly become one of my favorites now, if not my favorite. i mean he's insanely talented and dedicated and he's already won his first race so quickly into his rookie year. i think my gravitation towards him being my favorite driver at the moment probably stems from him being my age. the fact he's doing so well with he's had so much pressure on him is very impressive and i respect that."
"very good answer, i like that. now y/n we were told there's an unseen clip of you being told the results of a race by production. shall we play it?"
you pause as you hear those words
"i mean you're going to play it anyways aren't you?" a nervous giggle left you
the clip began playing and it started off with you and jeremiah sitting around the firepit laughing at something that happened earlier
one of the producers were heard calling your name and you got up, walking over to them
you looked nervous as the woman held her phone and had a serious face. to be honest you were fully expecting for her to tell you they were kicking you off the show, for what, you had no idea
but then she sighed and spoke "we got the results for the race. kimi had a dnf."
you sighed dramatically "oh my god i totally thought you guys were kicking me off."
then as the words set in you threw your back "wait kimi crashed?" the woman nodded and you crossed your arms and pouted
"noooo. i'm actually going emo for the rest of the night."
the clip then cut to you walking into the dressing room and changing into sweats and a sweatshirt
none of the islanders knew what was happening, and no producer stopped you. as you walked back out to the firewire you dragged your feet with your head down and the islander were genuinely concerned
until one of the producers whispered what and happened and everyone broke out into laughter
"it's not funny." you mumbled, trying to hide your smile
everyone was laughing at this point, production and camera crew included. hannah hugged you while still hysterical "all this for this some racing boy, really?"
"he's not just some racing boy. it's his first year and he's the youngest on the grid, this is a serious matter." you said huffing
the video ended and just as they were in the video, the rest of your islanders and the host were laughing. you included, as your shoulder moved from hard hard you were giggling while hiding your face
to be honest you forgot about the moment, and seeing it again showed you how dramatic it was
but that was the fun of the villa. the host gathered herself and continued the interview. when it came down to the last minute she turned back to you
"sooooo, final question. if kimi antonelli were to ask you out, what would you say?"
everyone around you gasped and oohed, but you buried your face in your hands again shaking your head
everyone around you gasped and oohed, but you buried your face in your hands again shaking your head
"i will not be answering that."
chelly grabbed you by the shoulder and smiled proudly "that means yes."
the host beams. "well you heard it here first! thank you to the cast of love island season seven for being here with us today, make sure you watch the new season to be caught up with all the drama."
"and y/n's journey with kimi antonelli. will he see this to and ask her out, follow us to stayed updated!"
the other islanders cheer and tease you as the camera pans out
you're laughing, hiding your face knowing that he was for sure going to see this
with how many fans you have, and your outward support for formula one, there was no way the video was not going to make it back to him
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yourusername: what a fun time L.A was! my family and i had a blast here and it was amazing to reconnect with my other islanders again
please go watch my interviews when they come out because i had to do like sixty. next stop mallorca!
kimiantonelli: "age shouldn't hold you back from going after what you want"
P1! MY FIRST WIN! thank you thank you, what a great weekend for the team and i am so proud of myself. thank you so much for the support, i hope to keep bringing this energy for the rest of the season.
yoursername: congrats on your first win! the person who said that quote must be very very wise ๐
^kimiantonelli: and pretty too!
^user: BYE. YOU GUYS ARE NOT SUBTLE AT ALL
user: YALL SEEING THIS TOO?
user: they literally need to get together
georgerussell: very well done mate! your pace was phenomenal but I think your interviews were better ๐
^kimiantonelli: i don't want you to comment ever
^georgerussell: oh kimi kimi my man you're not living this down ever. hopefully you can bag her then!
user: the matching planes the captions....hmm either this is the start of their love story or their already dating
user: your honor, a new ship has been declared
user: WHY ARE MY WORLDS COLLIDING WTH
user: this is a little embarrassing kimi. just ask her out
^user: no no no no no you're being mean : (
^user: he's shy, cmon we know this
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yoursername: ah you're in mallorca!?
^kimiantonelli: i am! i know a certain someone is also here.... maybe we could meet up
^yourusername: yeah! my family and i are here for two months i'm sure you could visit us. we're staying in a private airbnb, my family wants to meet you too!
^kimiantonelli: oh perfect. i'm sure they will be as great as you are, and my sister has been dying to meet you
^yourusername: please don't tell me she's watched the show. that is not for little kids kimi :
^kimiantonelli: ay no no! she's seen your tiktoks. i'm the one who has seen the whole show. you're very funny, and i can't believe you've never had a boyfriend. hopefully that will change soon ;)
^yourusername: oh very smooth mr antonelli! let me know if you know or have someone in mind ๐ค
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yourusername: where's my sally (seaman) tonight?? ๐ชฉ
you and kimi are sitting on the balcony of the villa you're family is staying at
the two of you were sharing one bowl of fruit you keep passing back and forth as the sun was setting
your birthday was yesterday and his is today, only one day apart. it was almost like the universe did that on purpose purpose
he had on a white linen shirt, sleeves undone, and his hair messily curly from air drying
as for you, your hair was up in a pony, and had an oversized tshirt covering your suit
bare legs tucked underneath you, sunglasses perched on your head. your phones were somewhere inside left there on purpose
it was an intentional decision for it to be just you two, and nice to talk like normal teens
just two kids sitting and eating fruit while watching the sunset. something neither of you had done in a while
"kimi." you murmur, spearing a piece of mango with your fork and holding it up to his lips. he leans forward and bites harshly, showing his humorous side
he softly laugh. though you were still getting to know him, you found yourself feeling light whenever he was with you
and little did you know that he felt the exact way
for a moment he went silent, eyes lingering over your face. it was as if he was studying you, and memorizing your every facial move
"you look so pretty." he murmurs "the prettiest when your happy."
you blush, turning to smile at him"i am very happy kimi. it's peaceful here, there's no pressure from anyone or anything. you're not working and i'm not being filmed 24/7. it feels like we're just teenagers."
"we are." he nudges your shoulder lightly and you giggle slightly
then he stood up, watching him cross the balcony without any hesitation
he disappears inside for twenty seconds, maybe less, then comes back with two small gift bags
"i thought we said no presents." you laughed shyly, half nervous
he sits back down in front of you, knees touching yours this time. "i guess i lied."
you grin and tilted your head "actually. we lied. hold on." this time you were the one to shuffle inside
once you had what you needed you handed him a box.
"ok who first?"
he happily gestured to you. "birthday girl first, even if it's past."
you blush, opening the ribbon slowly, carefully and almost shy. which is not something you ever feel
but things were different with him. everything felt new and exciting. but warm
inside was a gold chain, thin with a a tiny race car and palm tree charm. one symbolizing you and one for him
"kimi." you breathe, holding back tears
"you said once on the show." his voice soft, eyes locked on your "that you had a charm bracelet when you were little bit lost it. so I thought this could be a nice starts for you."
"for us. can i put it on you?"
you nod, with teary eyes. sweeping your hair aside his fingers brush the back of your neck
he hooks the clasp carefully, feeling like it might break if he breathes too hard
but nothing breaks. not with him. your heart only softens, and opens up even more than you thought it ever could
you don't take your eyes off him as you place his gift in his lap. he opens it slower than you did
his eyes locked on you. inside is a photo frame
it's of the two of you on the beach from yesterday. you printed it this morning and slipped it into a frame you found at a local market nearby
at first glanced it looked like something simple. you him both sunkissed in the water
your arms were around him while he slightly lifted you up. both of you were smiling like you've known each other forever
kimi ran his thumb over the glass. but as he flipped it over there was much more
on the back was a map. there was a mark at all the spots and activities you and kimi had done over the month
but in the form of a race track
he looked up and you saw something in him noticeably changes
the boy's eyes softens and he stared in your eyes. the look you two shared, spoke a thousand words
he shifted his body closer, grabbing your hands"i have something else for you."
"yeah?" you shyly nodded and waited for him to continue speaking "i like you." he started off quietly
"not because of tv or the fame or media. but because when i watch you laugh and interact with my family i know you're someone i want to keep. these past two weeks with you have been the best of my life and i don't want to leave here without you knowing my feelings towards you."
your breath catches, neither of you noticing how your fingers are fully laced together
he continues, eyes never leaving yours "and from swimming with you in the mornings, you falling asleep on my shoulder during the boat rides, laughing from sallowing water while snorkeling. i keep replaying every moment you laughing at something i said, or the way you sing songs you don't know, or how you hold my arm when you're cold. and i realized something. i know don't want this to end when we leave mallorca."
you blink fast, trying not to ruin the moment with any tears
"ยก want more sunsets with you." he says. "more breakfasts. more seasons. i want you in my life not just on holiday."
"will you be my girlfriend?"
it doesn't even feel like a question. it feels like something that was always coming
a love story written in stone already
you lean forward putting your forehead against his
"yes." you whisper excitedly
his eyes close, his brain absorbing your confirmation to his request. you repeat it firmer this time, smiling through the tears falling down your cheeks
"yes of course kimi. i want that and i want you."
he exhales with relief so pure it steals your lungs. then he leans rapidly wraps his arms around you, tackling you on the chair
both of you are giggling, being the teenager you're meant to be
your lips meet as he leans down and at first it was passionate and desperate
but after a few seconds it settled into a few pecks that weird filled with joy and fun. your youth was evident
you pull away only when breathing becomes necessary and he rests his forehead on yours
a small giggle escapes you "well damn. if that was only the girlfriend speech I can't wait for the wife one."
kimi rode his eyebrows "i can get the one written up by tomorrow if you want."
nudging him softly you both laugh knowing he wasn't really joking
though being kimi antonelli's girlfriend felt like the most natural thing in the world. and you definitely hoped the wife title would follow later on in life
but for now, you were just two rowdy, giggly teenagers falling in love, for the first time
and all on an island. he are to make sure you got a better rerun of your love island experience, and he definitely stuck to his word
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yoursername: at the place my first and LAST boyfriend and i fell in love for our one year. i love you <3
summary: after getting married very young you and lando get divorced after seven years of marriage. still flirtatiously communicating on social media, fans bring up cute moments that have you and lando rethinking your decision.
social media + texts
( i tried to do my best with the culture aspect of this, but pleaseee tell me if something is inaccurate or offensive. i do different readers as my best effort to be inclusive especially for those who don't get represented as much. hope you enjoy this! )
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yourusername: divorced, but still wifey material ๐๐
landonorris: oh and of course youโre wearing my favorite saree on you ๐
^yourusername: last time youโll be seeing me in it!!
^landonorris: i think iโll miss seeing it on the ground more than seeing it on
^yourusername: ohhh take a hike norris ๐
user: MOTHER IS SERVING
user: the divorced glow is real and in full effect
user: oh I'm sick
user: never wanted this day to come
user: i didn't know think they were actually being serious with this
user: my world is collapsing as I'm typing this
^user: what are these weird drops of liquid pouring out of my eyes right now....what is this feeling
^user: no same. normally I'm not one to ever be parasocial or idolize celeb relationship but these two were so pefect. i think it's because they were together before land was even in f1
^user: THAT MAKES THIS EVEN WORSE
user: ok i know I'm supposed to be sad but she looks incredible
^yourusername: thank you!
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landonorris: back on the market boyssss ๐พ๐๏ธ
formulaonegossip: itโs official! after a year of publicly discussing their journey with seperating, y/n and lando are now legally and completely divorced.
the first talks of ending their marriage began last year when they did an interview together addressing their relationship, casually announcing they were working on filing for divorce. now, the two have made posts both declaring they got it finalized. though they are done, the two seemed to be in high spirits and said it was a mutual decision they both wanted.
different from our normal announcementsโฆ..and while we donโt know the complete reason for the separation, we wish the two a happy life now apart! ๐๐ค
yourusername: erm no the hell i didnโt. when he basically admits youโre the best>>>>
landonorris: in words of drake โbest i ever hadโ
^yourusername: iโm the only one youโve ever had ๐
user: BRING HER BACKKKK
user: she's soooo pretty it hurts
user: crying, screaming, throwing up, sliding down the wall, rocking back and forth, wailing til i lose my voice, pulling my hair out, banging my fist on the ground
^landonorris: hello? are you ok
^user: no. and it's because of you
user: the greatest devastation of my life
^user: mourning them like they're my husband who died at war
user: boy we know you chose that caption yourself
user: heโs so bad at hiding he still loves her
^user: no theyโre BOTHHHH shamelessly flirting
user: my mother
^landonorris: sheโs no oneโs mother ( yet )
^y/nnorris: KNOCK. IT. OFF
user: bro said โex wifeโ and made it a joke like they havenโt spent the past 10 years together
^user: heโs so obviously in pain
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yourusername: big 26 for this weirdo. i hope you know i still have that stupid ass coat. donโt get too drunk tonight ๐ ๐ฝโโ๏ธ๐ฅ
^yourusername: THESE ARE NICE WDYM? itโs not my fault iโm photogenic, also i literally posted DOUBLE than what you did
^landonorris: whatever. guess iโll accept it
user: these really show how long theyโve been together
^user: they truly grew up in love ๐ฅบ
user: i need them back together now. it's not even funny, and it never has been
user: Y/N AND LANDO QUIT THESE GAMES
user: if you can hear us please save us
user: wtf is he doing in that golf picture
^yourusername: he does it literally EVERYTIME he goes golfing, says it's the "only" way he can get the correct angle.
user: how come we've never seen ANY of these
^user: she's his wife....
^user: WAS. SHE WAS HIS WIFE. nvm it's too painful i'm living the delusion word with you. but yeah they've been together for 10 years, i'm sure she has many many more
user: the differences in their post, omg so cute. they are so perfect for each other
^user: she really got to see a different side of him
^user: i know she misses him bad
^user: oh they both are absolutely regretting their decision. i think their posts and comments show that very clearly
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landonorris: horrible race and horrible result today. on lap 10 i crashed was not able to finish the race. this is not the way i hoped for this day to go and itโs been unfortunate the way things are playing out
user: err lando i donโt think you can say thatโฆ.
user: the divorce regret is showing
user: no y/n in the paddock = no good races
user: biggest lost of the year ( this isnโt about racing )
^user: yeah him and y/n divorcing was truly the worst thing that couldโve happened to him
user: YOU MISS YOUR WIFE JUST ADMIT IT
^user: pls omg. he needs to put us and himself out of misery and go win her back
user: no comment from our queen ๐
user: damn, itโs really over guys
user: so is now appropriate to ask if HEโs the one who's okay?
^user: lowkey no but you did anyways so ๐
user: dude you have two races left pls pull through
user: thereโs no racing career without y/n
user: he knows it doesnโt have to be this way right? like baby youโre the one who got divorced but still flirt with her and you both posted each other. GET AFTER THAT
user: the dress. the hair. the makeup. everything really
^user: how many words in devoured
^user: ATEEEE
user: iโm surpressing a crazy ass scream bro
user: so so fine and for WHATTT
user: how the hell is she single bro
^user: probably not for long
^user: hi lando i know itโs you on your burner
landonorris: uhm no, i say things with my chest ๐
user: if I say what iโm thinking iโll be banned
user: HOTTEST WOMAN ALIVE
user: so no one is gonna mention how BOTH lando and y/n are in paris? at. the. same. time.
^user: I SAW THAT
^user: please let this be what i think it means
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georgerussell: i knew your happiness about the divorce was too good to be true
^landonorris: yeah gotta be honest I donโt know why we went through with it in the first place
alexalbon: yay now you can stop sulking
^landonorris: iโve not been sulkingโฆ.
alexalbon: yeah ok. me when iโm in a delusional state
user: ARE YOU IN PARIS??
user: her face card is actually insane
user: i knew this day would come
landonorris: so youโre saying youโre a psychic, will i win wdc this year??
^user: no.
landonorris: ok i donโt like this game anymore ๐
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landonorris: this is a very bold post my love
^yourusername: omg says you ๐
carlossainz: i am going to unfollow you, i do not want my eyes burning when instagram is supposed to be fun
yourusername: sorryyyy carlito ๐
carlossainz: maybe iโll let it slide because i know how much you two love and miss each other ;)
user: MOM AND DAD BACK TOGETHER??
user: girl. how could you let this go to begin with
user: thank you for the new lockscreen ๐
yourusername: my pleasure!
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landonorris: i was being serious when i said we might have to run it back.
as you know y/n and i got divorced a few months ago, and though we thought it was the right decision at the time we QUICKLY realized it wasnโt. this girl has been by my side through every race in my f1 career and the years way before that. she is truly my number one fan and her not being there actually made me want to quit the altogether ( donโt let mclaren, legal or my pr team see this )
but truly she is the most importantly and valuable thing and person in my life and to call this woman my wife for the past seven years has been an honor and something i clearly took for granted. as of now we are dating but JUST KNOW the divorce papers are being ripped up as iโm typing this
i love you y/n. hereโs to loving each other for eleven years and manymanymanymanymanymany more ๐
user: lando thank you for not being stupid anymore
^user i was about to punch him
user: literally like holy you know you still love her
user: Y/NLANDO DEFENDER TIL I DIE
^user: theyโre truly a couple worth fighting for
user: ascending with happiness
user: perfect timing! living will be easy again
user: wait the way his post matches her aesthetic and her post matches his. thatโs my endgame right there
^user: awww stop i just noticed that too
user: they just make sense together
^user: iโm so happy theyโre back together because i truly couldnโt imagine them with anyone else
^user: it would be on sight if lando ever brought someone else in the paddock
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yourusername: lando lando lando. after knowing you for fifteen years, being together for ten and married for seven i know youโre the only person for me
we stupidly let our love go thinking we had gotten married to young and maybe needed other people. but we couldnโt even last a few months apart, and in that time we actually never lost communication. so though we were and still are legally separated, our hearts are still bound to each other and i will never be able to be without you ever again
he is the best decision iโve ever made and after seeing all the fanpages and edits ( iโve seen every single one ) we realized we threw ten years away for nothing
so twenty six is not for being single but i am still hot! as of right now weโre just dating, but JUST KNOW a wedding post will be here in the future
summary: after two years max breaks up with you out of the blue. doing so in the worst way possible, leaves you confused and to pick up the broken pieces of yourself. in the end you get the last word, or words.
texts + social media + real life
( warnings: language, manipulation, unhealthy power dynamic. max acts horrible in this. hella mentions of y/n, but no looks specified )
f1coupleupdates: well, the news we were not ever expecting has just hit instagram
confirmed by max verstappen and y/n, the two have broken up today after being together for two years. both made posts on their instagram story just a few minutes apart, sharing the news of their departure towards each other
other than what was said in the posts we have no other information about what happened between them. what do you all think about this very shocking news?
user: posts of literal despair and agony this evening ๐
user: for my mental health the stories were ai
^user: someone hacked them
^user: yes. iโm going with this storyline because no
user: i am NOT buying it was a mutual decision. the way y/n said this โsensitive topicโ shouldโve been handled privately obviously means max fucked her over in some way. i hope we find out what happened because he definitely did her wrong
^user: totally second this. no way their responses are that different if they both equally wanted to be done
user: frick my fricking chungus life!
user: worst friday night iโve ever experienced
^user: i need an olivia pope sized glass of wine rn
^user: iโll bring the popcorn ๐ช
user: NOOOOOO. his post is such man post tho
^user: like max. we all knowww youโre the one who decided, you can give up the nice guy act nowโฆ
user: THEY WERE SUPPOSED TO BE ENDGAME
^user: what am i supposed to do with my life now that my favorite wonโt be in the paddock anymore
^user: iโm being so serious, iโm not watching anymore
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for you the world had stopped spinning
ever since last week, when he ignored that first texts of yours you knew it was over
but only in your stomach and heart. your brain didnโt want to believe it
you couldnโt fathom how he could do something so cold hearted to you. how he could simply wipe away all your memories together
all the night tangled up in each other, the stupid inside jokes you had, the days youโd bask in the warmth of the sunlight with him because he said he loves the way your skin shines underneath the hot rays
after making the insta post you donโt remember dropping your phone
one second itโs in your hand as you type away, a thing you didnโt even want to post
the next itโs laying next to you while tears flowing from your sobbing broken form. his texts were enough to crack anyoneโs soul
and it just so happened it be yours.
you didnโt understand how your relationship went from kissing at dinner to seven days of no calls and unread texts
to now somehow being forced to move out tomorrow, and needing to sign and nda
those seven days you spent convincing yourself that max was just stressed, overwhelmed or busy
that it wasnโt personal. it wasnโt you, that it couldnโt be you or your relationship
and yet here you are
sitting on the floor of what was once your shared apartment with him, your back pressed to the couch, knees pulled to your chest, shaking so hard your muscles ache from the tension
honestly it ward hard decide what hurt more. the way he did it or the face he didnโt even bother to look you in the eyes to do it
as you sobbed with a spiraling mind your phone buzzed again. and again. and again
at first you think itโs him. which in your broken and desperate mind you think maybe he regrets it
that heโs calling to say it was a mistake. maybe he didnโt mean it. maybe
no. you had to push those thoughts away because it wasnโt him
itโs everyone else. the whole world. who learned at the same time as you, and you didnโt even get a choice in it
not in what happened, the way it did, or when it was announced
but one text caught your eye.
it was kika
kiks: hey hon, flavy and i just saw the posts, weโre going to be there in five minutes ok. i know this is hard, but weโll support you ๐
as you read it you wiped your cheeks, smearing tears that wouldnโt seem to stop falling
you want to reply, truly but your fingers couldnโt even grip your phone tight enough
without trying to you stare at maxโs thi bfs around the apartment
youโre suddenly noticing all the things he took little by little without telling you. clothes, a few trophies, his toothbrush, the watch box he kept beside the bed
he mustโve been planning this. for days. maybe weeks
and he didnโt say a word until he was ready. ready for everyone to know
including you. he didnโt care about your feelings. it honestly made you cry harder
the knock on the door startles you so badly it sent a new wave of panic straight through your body
forgetting it was your friends you take a breath, pulling yourself upright with shaking arms. โitโs us.โ flavy calls through the door voice soft but you could hear the nerves. โplease open up, honey.โ
your legs barely work as you feel like you drag your body over
when you pull the door open, flavy doesnโt even hesitate she wraps her arms tightly around you and you collapse into her immediately
clinging to her like sheโs the only thing keeping you standing, kika is right behind her
both already have glassy eyes. they shut the door behind them gently, carrying you back over to the couch
hearing your sobs that in a way managed to get louder and more heartbreaking, the girls held you tightly sharing a look
they had no idea what happened, only that your posts and maxโs seemed to contradict themselves
โoh, sweet girl.โ kika whispered reaching out to brush hair from your damp cheeks
you try to say something, anything, but all that comes out is a shattered sob. flavy tightens her hold, swaying you slightly, rubbing slow circles on your back
โweโve got you.โ she murmured softly in a comforting tone. โyouโre not alone.โ
after what seemed like an hour you finally had calmed down to only silent crying. the two girls guided you to your bed
โdo you want to talk about it?โ flavy asks softly, though you can see the anger and protectiveness in her eyes
you take a shaky breath not even sure if youโre ready to relive this still bleeding wound โheโฆhe texted me, after ignoring me for a week. all he said was he was sorry at first.โ you managed to get through it, voice cracking and barely above a whisper. โand right as he was telling me he went and posted the story at the same time. we did not even agree. i had no choice. god and the things he said to me, makes me question if he ever really loved me. i donโt understand how heโs able to do this so easily.โ
kikaโs jaw clenches, trying to hide her disgust. she laid next to you on your other side, taking your hand gently so she didnโt overwhelm you
โwhat exactly did he say?โ
you swallow hard, tears starting again. โhe said..โ this time you couldnโt it back, the texts were burned in your brain at this rate
โhe said thereโs nothing i can do stop it,be he canโt give me the love i deserve apparently. then he said iโm better off without him and that movers are coming at 8am and i have to move out.โ
flavy felt her body freeze. for a moment her and kika both went completely, utterly still
they could not believe what they were hearing. you and max seemed like the perfect couple and never never argued or had any issues with each other
but what they didnโt know if that you couldnโt really go against him
max wasnโt abusive or toxic, but he was quietly manipulative. in such a sneaky way you didnโt even realize
the girls inhaled sharply, their composure cracking just slightly. โhe said that?โ
you nod, covering your face with your hands. โyes. and the worst part is we were fine. i donโt understand. he just left last week and i thought, i thought maybe he was stressed and busy with work orโโ you cut yourself off
โi donโt even know what i thought, but i didnโt think he would just,โ you paused as your voice cracked โi didnโt think heโd throw everything away like this.โ
โand he said heโs sending me an nda that i need to sign otherwise heโs basically gonna sue me. and i didnโt even get a reason just that iโm better off without him. what did i do wrong, how did it get to this point?โ
at those words kika squeezed your hand tightly, reassuring you she was there was you
flavy listened intently, her own eyes shining with tears of sympathy and fury. โyou didnโt do anything wrong. none of this is on you.โ
โhe didnโt even come home.โ you whisper. โi canโt help but think he wasโฆ.maybe he was with someone else? is that why he couldnโt look at me? why he doesnโt want me?โ
โabsolutely not.โ the girls huffed shaking their head firmly donโt you dare put that on yourself. heโs the one who did something wrong and is hiding. heโs the one who chose to run away.โ
you feel yourself break again at that word coward. because itโs exactly what he is
the way he disappeared, how he went silent, the way he made it seem like it was something heโd been waiting to do this
kika pulls you into her chest this time, letting you cry against her shoulder while flavy strokes your hair
โi loved him. i really thought, i thought he loved me too.โ you choke out in a hyperventilating way โi found a ring.โ
โyou what?โ
breathing heavy you make eye contact with them โhe would always say he was hoping to marry me, and two weeks ago I found a box with a ring in it. my exact one i described to you guys.โ
gazing at each other they furrowed their eyebrows โhow did he know that? we didnโt tell him.โ
โno i know i know. i just saying how is he going to get me that and then leave me like this. with a stupid nda.โ you sobbed throwing your head back
โhoney you are the sweetest, most genuine and kindhearted person to ever exsist. you are lovable and capable of anything.โ ๏ฌavy insists with a firm but caring tone
following, kika sighed softly โheโs the one who doesnโt have much going for him after this. he couldnโt keep up with how amazing you are, thatโs on him.โ
brushing the tears from your cheek, they whispered โweโre here for you. for as long as you need. you donโt have to be strong right now.โ
you want to believe it but you shake your head as youโre not ready, not yet
โwhat if i never get over this?โ you whisper and flavy cups your face gently, forcing you to look into her warm, steady eyes. โyou will.โ she says softly. โand weโll be here every step of the way.โ
kika leans her head against yours, grounding you. โdonโt let him take your power ok beautiful.โ
โok.โ you whispered brokenly with a frown. it was hard for you to believe their words. but, you knew deep down it was true. you were going to get over this
if he thought he won, he had no idea what you were capable of
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yourusername: a good start to passing time as i have decided i will be stepping away from social media. i will no longer be posting, and i donโt know when iโll be back but i need to do this step for me.
as you know things in my personal life have been shaken up and i need this for my overall health. ๐ค
user: will never get over how quick these two go together after him and y/n broke up
user: SIGHHH. i canโt stand these two
^user: yeah me too, but hopefully they will be better as parents
user: him and y/n announcing things on the same day..
^user: WHAT? WHAT DID SHE POST
^user: go check her page
user: omg poor y/n
^user: more like poor max. she just blew up his whole life and probably ended his career with her post
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yourusername: after not being on social media and staying silent, my NDA is finally up after 5 years
during these past years of not being able to verbally express what happened with a certain part of my life, i wrote it all down. i wrote down everything single thought i had about this person, every memory, what i wish iโd done differently, how i want to move forward, how i did move forward. i wrote day and night sometimes staying up all night because I couldnโt clear my mind of this person. i wrote when i was angry, scared, confused, broken, depressed, remorseful, guilty, excited, hopeful embarrassed, confident, content and inspired. i wrote filling journal after journal, sealing letters and i wrote until i couldnโt anymore.
all my emotions + everything i experienced in this letters, poems, stories, memories, and entries are now in my new book.
โEasiest Way Outโ touches on the entirety of my silence and time away after my public relationship & breakup. this is for the people who will never get the answers they want or deserve, and i wrote this because i am included in that group of people.
It is out now in your local and big bookstores, as well as on every online reading service. thank you. ๐
flavybarla: my girl! i am so so proud of you, iโve literally been waiting for this day to come. i love you <3
^yourusername: i knoww you have been waiting, i know! thank you so much for being my literal life support. i love you so so much girl ๐ค
^kikagomes: awww there are genuine tears in my eyes right now. from sitting with you sobbing, to now watching you release your first book. your power was not stolen ๐ฅบ
^yourusername: stoppp it! i think about you saying that every single day, you inspire me so much. i love you, thank you for being one of my closest friends
danielriccardo: so happy people finally get to read this masterpiece of yours
^yourusername: your support means the world dan ๐
user: holy shit.
^user: thereโs no way heโs not freaking out rn
user: YOU HAD TO SIGN AN NDA. WTFFF? FOR WHAT AND WHO MADE YOU DO THAT
^yourusername: hi yes, unfortunately iโm still not legally allowed to release what was in it or who served it to me, but i am able to say i signed one!
user: the first post back being an announcement of her book that is basically exposing max is toooo real
^user: i meannn if he was a bad boyfriend then yes!
^user: this is very much iconic behavior
user: max max max. iโm shaking my head at him
^user: is it bad to say i always kind of got controlling bad boyfriend vibes from him
user: oh not at all, i got those too
^user: i mean he literally admitted in an interview that y/n doesnโt work because he provides for her, and that is was HIS desire for that decision. very controlling
landonorris: canโt wait to give all the guys this book, especially max. you played the long game and won ๐พ
^yourusername: thank you lando. honestly I hope he doesnโt read it as he already knows what I said to him and what I wanted to. thatโs why he left so quick. but iโm happy i now get to shared what i couldnโt before <3
yourusername: first night of the tour was a successs!
yall showed up and showed out, thank you to all the fans for coming, my f1 and real family for supporting me throughout everything and being there.
and huge shout out to my boy for being so so loving and encouraging. you truly are a man and sometime i feel like youโre not real because of how perfect you are. i love you
because of him iโve written a song and he told me to release it. sooooo my new song โtearsโ IS OUT NOW!
^user: i was getting there but i was not at all expecting them to be dating for them long
user: TEARS IS ABOUT OSCAR??? WTF
user: โa little respect for women can you get very very farโ
yourusername: ugh youโre so sexy i canโt even be mad
^oscarpiastri: youโre saying iโm sexy? i gotta show you i love you more.
^yourusername: omg boy i didnโt think you could show it anymore. and the caption, IVE TAUGHT YOU WELL
pierregasly: was not expecting this
^kikagomes: babe i literally hinted at it many times
charlesleclerc: happy for you two ( alex told me three months ago )
^yourusername: of course she did ( i told her to )
alexalbon: new mom and dad yay!
^oscarpiastri: weโre both younger than you??
yourbsf: NOW THIS IS A MAN!! HE KNOWS HOW TO APPRECIATE AND LOVE A WOMAN
^yourusername: RIGHT! ily
user: the hat in the 1st pic has me knees weak
user: i actually canโt believe this
user: shocked canโt even compare to what i feel rn
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yourusername: โtears run down my thighsโ
oh oscar. guys when i tell you this man is sooo obsessed with me, i love it and i love him. happy six months. thank you so showing me what REAL love is already. also that DAMN balaclava ๐ง๐ฝโโ๏ธโโก๏ธ
oscarpiastri + yourusername: everybody say heyyyy mr and mrs piastri!!
to oscar: you are so amazing at everything you to do, with f1, to cooking, and loving me. your laugh is contagious and i canโt believe Iโd get to spend the rest of my life with such a respectful, romantic, and responsible guy ๐ thank you for giving me real love, i donโt know what i did to deserve you. โ love y/n
to you: loving you has been the best two and a half years of my live. youโre so inspiring, with your music, kindness and dedicated attitude towards everything. iโm so happy i get to treat you the way youโre supposed to be treated, and you can show me how to have fun with living life. hereโs to forever. โ love oscar
thank you to everyone who came to celebrate a wonderful day of our love with us. ๐ค
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summary: after witnessing a crash, you can't help but check in on your ex, which leads to reminiscing on your past relation
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( second pov, no use of y/n, and no looks specified )
you really hadnโt meant to turn the tv on
for hours you had been cleaning your apartment from top to bottom, tidying everything as one does on a usual sunday
but you also knew the other usual thing people did on sundays. you weren't oblivious. it was something you had went to for five years of your life
no matter how hard you tried to push away the desire to turn it on the tv, your brain and body weren't on the same page
your thumb hesitated on the remote, hovering over the channel you told yourself not to check anymore. but formula one was such a huge part of your life you couldn't forget it
you told yourself youโd stopped caring. as watching would only open the part of you that still softened at the sound of his voice
but you also knew this was his home race and how important the monaco circuit was to win. there was this small, stubborn part of you that just wanted to make sure he was okay
so, like always you gave in and turn the tv on
the channel replaced the silence and your ears were immediately filled with the sound of commentators announcing lap numbers and pit strategies
for a while, it was easy to pretend it didnโt mean anything. you didn't even find yourself smiling when you heard his name
it was just meaningless watching from a habit that you couldn't seem to break
so you moved around your apartment, half listening while you wiped down shelves and folded laundry. you didnโt even realize the way your hands had stilled when the tone of the commentators shifted
the sudden pitch of panic in their voices made your heart stop as the worst you hated to hear most, left their mouths
โoh and weโve got a huge crash, charles leclerc has gone off into the barriers!โ
you stood there and it felt like the world froze. the towel in your hand slipping to the floor as your heart felt like it stopped
eyes stayed fixed on the tv screen, scanning of wreckage, the smoke and the broken car
your chest tightened in such a way it felt like it couldnโt expand enough for you to even breathe
for a moment, all you could do was whisper to yourself hoping the words alone could protect him
without even trying to, your mind brought you to the memory of every race youโd ever watched by his side. the way heโd look for you after crossing the finish line everytime. no matter how the race went
when he smile at you like you were the only person who exsisted in the world
but now, with him not answering his radio, and the idea of him not walking away made your whole body ache
when they finally showed him being pulled from the car, alive your eyes filled with tears so fast you couldnโt stop them from falling
relief had hit so hard it almost knocked you down
you sank onto the couch, hand over your mouth. he was okay. thank god he was okay
for you hours you stayed motionless on your couch until the race was over
the hours began to blur together as you sat there with your phone in hand, refreshing for updates or just anything in him
but all you could find were statements about the crash, saying he was being taken to the hospital
however. as hours passed and the sky had turned dark the headline youโd been wishing and waiting for finally appeared on your screen
charles leclerc has been released from hospital, healthy and conscious following heavy crash
to be honest, you didnโt know what you were doing here or why. you hadnโt seen him in a year
after the breakup between you and charles neither of you had exchanged any texts, calls or social media interactions
though it wasnโt out of anger for distaste for each other. it was quite the opposite actually
some would argue it was a fast decision but the truth was you and charles were silently and emotionally drifting apart from each other, long before anything happened
when it was time, you both agreed it was for the best and no hard feelings were there
the no contact may stem from the fact that there wasnโt a huge horrible reason for the breakup, like infidelity or anything
you both wanted to stayed together but deep down you knew it wouldnโt work out in the end, career wise
because it had been such polite breakup you still respect and honor towards him. and the thought of him alone and hurting was unbearable
so before you knew it you were in your kitchen again, pulling things from the pantry like your and his favorite shared snacks
you moved automatically like your body had never forgotten the way you used to take care of him
you hadnโt even texted him to warn you were coming because you didnโt know if heโd want to see you, but deep down you knew the truth
your hands trembled as you stood outside the apartment you hadnโt been to since that night
the night you and him said goodbye and heโd kissed your forehead whispering dans une autre vie ( in another life ) against your skin
never did you think youโd be here again
for a second all you could was stand, uncertain if this was the right decision. but your knuckles hit the door before your brain processed the action
and there was no answer
you tried again louder this time. but still, all you were met with was silence, which saddened you
the light was on, you knew he was home. sighing softly, you pressed your forehead to the door. maybe this was a mistake, maybe he didnโt want to see you
but for some reason, you still didnโt leave.
raising your hand to knock once more, softer this time, you said something as well
it was barely above a whisper, but it was there. and it was something to let him know it was you at the door, not just anyone
โbambi. itโs me.โ
for the first time in a year that nickname only you two knew left your mouth, and hit his ears
on the other side of the door charles froze
ever since heโd gotten home heโd been sitting on the couch, head resting in his hands, replaying the crash over and over
his body ached, and the world was spinning. he hadnโt answered the first two knocks because he assumed it was a neighbor, or a delivery
but that name, your name for him, made everything in time and in him stand completely still
there was only one person in the world who had ever called him that
once he had fully processed he stood up almost too fast, heart slamming into his ribs. he didnโt even think crossing the room, he just headed directly to the door
the second he saw you, charlesโ face softened and his eyes searched yours
โi havenโt heard that name in a long time.โ he said quietly, a faint smile curling at the corner of his mouth. โyouโre still the only one who ever called me that.โ
you felt something flutter inside you at the real sight of him. his voice still had that warmness to it
โyeah.โ you whispered, fingers fidgeting with the strap of your bag. โguess some habits donโt die.โ
an awkward silence grew between you as you stood in the doorway, staring at each other. but it wasnโt cold, the looks were full of things left unsaid. truly a yearโs worth of words between two people who had once known everything about each other
he finally stepped aside, his voice barely above a murmur. โdo you want to come in?โ
you nodded sheepishly stepping past him into the apartment. the same candles you used to light after race weekends were lit and lined up along the counter
charles closed the door behind you, turning to face you with an unreadable expression. โwhy are you here?โ
his tone wasnโt accusing or rude but quiet. like he trying trying to hold in all his emotions
you looked down at your hands, taking a moment to gather your thoughts, then looked back up at him. โi wanted to make sure you were okay.โ
he frowned slowly shaking his head, giving you a reaction you hadnโt completely expected โwe havenโt talked in a year, and iโve had crashes before.โ
realizing he was right you stayed silent for a few moments. but then you met his gaze, giving him, a reaction he hadnโt expected โi still care for you char.โ
your voice was quiet as you set down the basket of goodie on the counter
the man didnโt respond as he watched you, knowing you had more to say. so her let you
โi canโt just erase five years of loving you. i know how important this race is to you no matter how many times you do it, and for you to crash especially that bad. i know youโre hurting charles. but also.โ you paused, letting out a deep sigh โthat was a huge crash and one of the worst ones ive ever seen. to not hear you answer your radio and see you being carried out looking so limp scared me. i felt it, right then, and the thought of losing you and having to feel that foreverโฆ.โ
your voice cracked at the end as you trailed off โi canโt handle losing you.โ
he stood across from you frozen, speaking carefully. โyouโฆ.you still care that much?โ
you frowned faintly, shrugging your shoulders in an attempt to brush off the tears gathering โof course i still care. i always will.โ
for a couple beats he didnโt say anything, only took in your words and appearance in front of him then
then he exhaled lightly โi was thinking of you the whole time. i hoped and wished with everything in me, you didnโt see that. iโm sorry you did anyways.โ
after that comment you both moved toward the couch almost instinctively
he sat next to you, leaving a space between. he studied you with those gentle eyes that had always made you feel seen
โhow are you, besides this.โ
he hesitated speaking, not sure what to talk about but you shrugged. โitโs good, different. i work a lot, i travel sometimes.โ
he hummed thoughtfully, eyes flicking down to his hands. โthat sounds nice.โ
โand you?โ you asked glancing at him
a small smile appeared on his face, but it didnโt reach his eyes. that let you know it it was fake โitโs good too. a lot of racing, training, traveling all my the usual.โ
โbut it not the same.โ
silence between you two grew again. you didnโt ask what he meant by that comment, you didnโt need to
though it was silent, it was softer this time. your fingers brushed the seam of the couch, and you both seemed to slip somewhere between the present and the past
drifting off into all the memories you and him shared during those five years
โdo you remember.โ a small laugh left him as he spoke lowly โwhen we got lost in milan that night?โ
instantly covering your mouth, you tried to bite back a gasp โoh my, how could i forget? we were looking for that restaurant, and somehow ended up in the middle of a dance class.โ
his face seemed to lighten up at the memory. โand you made me dance with you.โ
โi didnโt make you.โ you teased. โyou wanted to and made me act like i pulled you into my shenanigans.โ charles shook his head chuckling quietly โokay, maybe, but you were terrible at following my lead.โ
the laughter lingered then charles looked at you for a long moment, his expression dropping inti something serious
โi miss you.โ
he said it like a confession, not entirely expecting anything in return but he needed to let it out
โi miss the way we were.โ he continued, his tone soft and sad โthe dancing while cooking, when weโd stay up all night and talk outside, when youโd steal my hoodie and pretend it was yours. i miss us.โ
your chest ached hearing those words โcharlesโฆโ
part of you knew it was coming but it still didnโt make it any less unwanted. he leaned forward slightly, eyes full of something heavy. โi want us back.โ
you shook your head gently, forcing a sigh past the feeling to hold your breath. โwe canโt.โ
โwhy not?โ
โbecause we had our time. we didnโt waste our love, it was beautiful. but maybe itโs supposed to stay that way, with the was, in the past. iโm not the same person anymore. and i donโt think you are either.โ
not being able to keep together he swallowed hard, looking away. โso what now?โ
knowing yo unsure broke his heart all over again you frowned faintly. โiโll sit with you.โ you whispered
โwe can pretend weโre the same us we used to be, for only a couple minutes.โ
his eyes flicked back to yours โjust a couple minutes.โ he repeated
after seeing you nodded he reached for you silently, and you let him. his arm slid around your shoulders, gently pulling you to him until your cheek rested against his chest
you both exhaled at the same time, the familiarity of the intimacy making the tension melt away
โremember when i tried to teach you french?โ he murmured against your hair
you smiled. โyeah and you gave up after two days.โ
โbecause you kept saying oui like it was the only word you needed.โ scrunching your face up you teasing him with a faint smile โyeah, because it kind of is.โ
he laughed quietly, his chest moving under you. โyou were actually good though. do you still remember any of it?โ
you tilted your head up slightly, a playful smile tugging at your lips. โmaybe.โ
โcan you understand this?
he hesitated for a second then whispered, his fingers gently brushing up and down your โtu me manques.โ
( i miss you )
the words lingered between you as he assumed you had no idea what that meant
but then his breath hitched as you made contact with him whispering back โmoi aussi.โ ( me too )
you looked up at him, and even though you didnโt say anything else your eyes spoke the rest.
for a few long moments, you just sat there, softly speaking small french phrases
eventually, silence returned but it was no longer awkward. it was peaceful, as the comfort of a language that had always sounded like love when he spoke it, brought you two closer
you stayed like that until the clock on the wall ticked quietly past midnight. you could feel reality returning
the one that said it was time to go you shifted slightly, sitting up. โi should probably head home.โ
his arm fell away reluctantly, fingers brushing your hand one last time. โyeah.โ he said softly his voice almost breaking on the word
you stood smoothing your hands against your coat, trying not to look at him too long. โthank you for letting me stay.โ
he rose too, standing close enough that the air between you felt electric again. โthank you for coming,โ he said quietly.
you smiled faintly, eyes glistening. โyouโre welcome.โ
tilting his head slowly, his eyebrows furrowed โweโre okay right.โ with a soft nod you whispered to him โweโll always be okay.โ
he hesitated his next words, then decided to just say it. โiโll always love you, you know.โ
you didnโt respond. just reached up, touching his face gently, and he leaned down without thinking
his lips met yours, making the kiss was soft, almost hesitant. it wasnโt a kiss of passion, those the feeling were there. you both knew what it really was
when you finally pulled back, he exhaled shakily with a pleading tone โplease donโt leave.โ he murmured
as much as you wanted to fulfill his request and stay with him in your own bubble, you couldnโt. it was time to back to the real world which included your own separate lives
โgoodbye charles.โ you whispered brokenly, as you hand slowly slipped from his
summary: kimi finally brings you, his secret girlfriend to your first race and does everything to make sure things are accessible and comfortable. fans are quick to make speculations and assumptions, but your protective boyfriend makes sure to defend you
real life + social media
(this is my first post and i don't know how to do this but i needed to get this idea out of my head. hopefully it's good and you like it! )
today was the first day you were attending a race.
his home race to be exact. of course you was nervous, but you had kimi by you side. as you two walked through the paddock, the boy held your hand tightly, walking just half a step ahead
kimi glanced over at you every few seconds, making sure you were okay with the noise and the pace of your movement
"baby, are you doing alright?" he asked softly, leaning close so you could hear him over everything
you nodded, smiling shyly with a soft sigh "yeah. i just didn't realize how loud it would be." your tone was teasing, but kimi could tell nervous your were
after dating for two years, he knew all your tells by now, and so did kora
your big golden retriever service dog gave away the emotions you were trying your best to hide "i know it's a lot, but i already talked to the team and they all know. they have everything you might need and if you ever need anything else just tell toto, okay my love? he'll help."
your lips curved into a grin, touched by how thoughtful he'd been throughout this process and your whole relationship
"you really thought of everything didn't you." you face scrunched up and you gave him a big smile
"of course i did." kimi replied, his voice softening. "it's your first race, and we're revealing our relationship. i want it to be perfect."
you squeezed his hand gently. "thank you, kimi. i love you."
"i love you more." he whispered while tapping your knuckles three times
the closer you got to the mercedes garages the more nervous you became. all your other working senses are normally already heightened, because you couldn't see
but today and right now, everything seemed to be ten times higher
the sound of the fans screaming, the smell of oil, the feeling of the heat. everything was there, but thankfully kimi was too. he gently gave your hand a squeeze and a kiss on the head to ground you
when you finally reached the mercedes garage, kimi slowed down and guided you carefully over a small step. "okay, we're here." he whispered quietly. "toto's coming to meet you."
"oh, wow." you murmured with a nervous laugh. "that sounds so official, should i stand up taller or what?"
kimi smiled and shook his head at your humor "no my love. you are perfect the way you, besides you are almost the same height as me i can't have you be taller."
the two of you shared a hushed giggled and moments later, a warm voice greeted you
you could feel a presence in front of you and made sure to put on a smile "ah, kimi. and you must be y/n it's lovely to finally meet you.
turning slightly toward the sound of the principal of mercedes voice you nodded "thank you. it's really nice to meet you too, mr. wolff."
"oh please, call me toto." he said kindly. "and don't worry, everyone's very excited you're here. kora too, we love our paddock pets."
at the mention of her name kora barked and gave her owner a nudge on the thigh with her paw
it was her way of making sure people acknowledged you too. earning a laugh from kimi, he looked at his girlfriend and your dog "she's loving the attention already." you giggled
toto chuckled quietly, then spoke once again "well, you two are welcome here anytime. george and carmen are around too if you'd like to introduce them before things get busy."
kimi nodded, already planning for them to meet the girl he'd been privately dating
all the drivers knew he was dating someone as he always talked about you, but he never showed any pictures. it was a mutual decision between you two
leading you and kora gently through the garage, he always made sure to explain the surroundings. "george and carmen are right over here."
finally in front of the couple and the dog, george greeted you with his usual friendly energy "ah this is the famous girlfriend kimi is always talking of. we were beginning to think he made you up."
rolling his eyes kimi scoffed but a laugh was earned from you
"nope i am very much real, its nice to meet you too. trying to bite back a laugh you smiled and could feel the embarrassment radiating off your boyfriend
next to him, george's girlfriend, carmen stepped forward with a polite smile and held out her hand. "it's so nice to meet you."
for a second it went silent between the four of them as carmen wasn't sure why her hand wasn't being shook
kimi noticed after a few seconds, once he took his eyes off of his girlfriend to realized carmen obviously didn't know you were blind
"oh, sorry." kimi said softly looking between george and carmen "she can't see your hand, i forgot to tell you."
carmen's eyes widened in surprise as she gasped loudly. her cheeks were flushed pink with embarrassment "oh my gosh, i'm so sorry!" she said nervously, quickly lowering her hand
next to kimi, you were laughing and waved it off "oh please, don't be at all. i didn't realize you were reaching out, it happens all the time."
the moment eased instantly as george grinned. "don't worry, carmen forgets people have peripheral vision sometimes, let aloneโ"
"no no george, you didn't even tell me." carmen elbowed him lightly
kimi smiled and squeezed your hand letting you know it was time to walk again "ok, please do not overwhelm her before the race starts."
you shook your head at how protective he always get of you. "it was nice meeting you two, i'll see you soon."
not knowing where they were anymore you spoke kindly hope your voice was in their correct direction
as you made your way with kimi toward his driver's room. the noise of everything faded away and you immediately relaxed
kora laid down on your feet as you sat down, while kimi paced around doing whatever he was doing
fingers brushing over kora's fluffy fur you smiled to yourself. "so this is where you hide before races, huh?"
kimi chuckled from across the room. "yeah. glamorous, right?"
"oh totally." you teased, wondering what it looked it like. "i bet there's pictures of us all over isn't there?
replying with a warm chuckle he teased "did kora tell you what she sees." the dog huffed then kimi's voice dropped to a softer tone "do you need anything baby? water, something to eat?"
"just you, my love." you smiled sheepishly as you heard him changing
he turned toward you voice, smiling as he zipped up his suit. after a moment he walked over kissing you passionately "you have me, always."
taking your hands, he placed them in his suit explaining what it looked like for you
as you felt the texture of his race suit under you fingers, your brows furrowed "this feels so weird." he tilted his head at you and agreed
but you shook your head "no that's no what i mean baby." a small sigh left your lips "well the suit yes, but i mean me being here. people seeing us. like i just can't believe i'm actually here watching youโ"
you caught yourself with a little laugh "well, not watching, butโ"
kimi didn't let you finish, as he brought your hands to his mouth, gently kissing the tips of them "you are watching." he corrected, mumbling. "just in your own way."
touched by how easily he said it, you felt your heart warm. though you two had been dating for so long, you always found yourself smitten around him
"you always know what to say don't you antonelli." your head laid in his shoulder slowly
pressing a trail of kisses on your collarbone the boy spoke quietly "that's because i love you."
when the time came for the drivers' parade, you stayed behind with carmen, who offered to show you around the paddock while kimi prepared
kora walked happily beside you, her tail wagging as her harness clicked lightly against your leg
per your request carmen described everything in detail as you walked. from the colors of the flags, to the fans waving from behind fences, letting you know your surroundings
you listened closely, imagining it all. "i mean it sounds beautiful." you teased softly
"it really is." carmen smiled glancing at you. "i can't believe kimi kept you hidden this long."
your laughed lightly. "we just wanted to keep things private for a bit. we've been together for two years now, actually."
"really?" carmen gasped. "that's amazing. congratulations!"
"thank you." you said shyly. "today's actually our anniversary." gasping carmen squealed excitedly "no way! that's so sweet. and he brought you here for it?"
you nodded, remembering when he first brought up the idea to you "actually, he's been trying to get me here since the first race. i kept saying no because of school and i was nervous with flying. but since it's his home race and i know how important this is to him I decided it could be fun."
"how important this is to him? i think you're more important to him. he definitely just wants to show you off, he's totally smitten with you. you can tell."
your cheeks began to feel warm as you hadn't thought of it that way
"yeah your right. he's so different with me, way softer. i think he worries a lot more than he admits."
the two of you and kora walked a little further, talking about the season, the friendship between kimi and george and how long you've had kora's
obviously fans noticed you walk in with kimi, and whispered as you walked with carmen but no one said anything. not to your face at least
the race began, you sat in a comfortable seat inside the garage next to toto
because you weren't able to watch the race, you were allowed a headset to be able to listen to the commentary, to know what was going on
kora laid on your lap, and occasionally perked up if she heard kimi's name or voice through the radio
your heart pounded with every lap announced, you fingers absentmindedly running through your dogs fur for comfort
though you couldn't see the race, you could still feel the adrenaline and pure excitement of the experience
then came a familiar voice on the radio and you could hear how serious he sounded "uh, someone please tell me, how's y/n?" kimi asked
everyone on the mercedes team turned to you and toto, looking for an answer but you shook your head, not wanting to speak
toto's laugh came through the channel. "kimi, please focus on driving."
"ยก just want to know if she knows what's happening." kimi protested with slight defiance in his voice. with a huff the man radioed back "you're not going to stop unless you hear her voice are you."
the boy agreed and you let out a laugh. speaking intk into the headset your voice was soft but firm. "i'm good kimi, now please focus on driving my love. i'd like you in one piece."
finally satisfied with hearing your voice, the boy let out a silent breath in his car "copy that."
the final laps were now here as kimi defended his lead.
"one more corner." someone muttered behind you
"come on, kimi." toto said quietly leaning forward, his arms crossed tightly
you clutched kora tighter barely breathing as the roar of the crowd grew louder through the feed. then a few minutes the voice of the announcer in your headphones practically screamed
"and through goes kimi antonelli! the first year rookie wins his first grand prix and home race!"
a second later through the static of the radio and the garages celebrating, kimi's voice crackled through with excitement. "woohoo! yes! oh my god we did it!"
the entire team shouted back, the sound nearly deafening you
then kimi's voice cut through again, breathless "is my girlfriend there? is y/n there, can she hear me?"
you pressed a hand over her mouth, smiling so hard her cheeks hurt. toto leaned toward her mic "yes, kimi. she's here and she's very proud of you."
"tell herโ" kimi's breath hitched realizing he could tell her directly "i love you y/n."
you giggled shaking you head as you tried to stop your voice from trembling. "i love you too kimi."
the garage cheered again everyone around you clapping and aweing at the sweet exchange. toto patted your shoulder warmly. "alright, let's go greet our winner."
kora barked, jumping down and once she was ready to moved carmen joined on your side
the sound of the crowd outside was soft loud you thought they must've been right in front of you. your ears were met with waves of shouting, cheering, and cameras clicking
kora stayed in front of you, pulling in her leash guiding you. you stood for a few minutes, while you waited
then, over all the chaos you heard his voice again, he was breathless and cheering
as he got colder you barely had time to turn toward the sound before kimi ran straight into you, lifting your body off the ground. you clung to him as he spun you around
"kimi!" you laughed breathlessly. "put me down!"
spinning you one last time before setting you back on her feet, his hands still on you waist
your cheeks were flushed as your heart racing from both the excitement of his win and the joy of being so in love with him
"i can't believe it." you smiled with a voice full of pride. "you did it baby you actually did it."
"we did it." he corrected loudly. "you were here. that's why i won."
not going to argue with him you leaned forward instinctively, wanting to kiss him only to bump lightly into the hard surface of his helmet
immediately pulling back you busted out in laughter"oh my god, i didn't know you still had your helmet on!"
the boy broke into hysterical laughter, though he was the one feeling embarrassed "ah i forgot it! i'm sorry!" he said between laughs quickly pulling the helmet off.
"there." he tossed it aside to a team member and took your hands gently
he placed them on both sides of his face. "here. now you can feel me smiling."
your thumbs brushed over his cheeks moving to trace the curve of his grin, and unknowingly you matched his expression. he was still a little breathless, but you were glad you could feel how happy he was even if you couldn't see it
"you're smiling like an idiot." you teased softly throwing his head back he scoffed "it's because you make me nervous!" he chuckled
right then and there you felt like your heart melted, even more so when he leaned in kissing you hard
kimi pressed his forehead against your once you pulled away. "thank you for being here. he whispered. "i wanted to win for you and kora."
toto walked over and tapped his shoulder letting him now it was time for him to go. kimi sighed dramatically.
"guess i have to go do the media part now."
"go, my champion. i'll be right here.'
he kissed you forehead quickly before running off, still grinning like a child
toto and carmen stayed beside you, describing what was happening as the podium ceremony began
"okay, kimi"s walking up the steps now." carmen narrated soft her voice full of excitement. "george is beside him in p2, and now they're spraying champagne everywhere now. oh god, kimi just got george right in the face!"
you laughed clapping her hands together. "i can hear them screaming all the way from here. they sound like they're having too much fun."
"kimi's got the trophy now." carmen softly added. "he's holding it up.
the crowd went wild and you smiled softly, imagining it all. the golden sun glowing down in him, the spray of champagne, your boyfriend's wide giddy smile. "he deserves it, every bit of it."
after all the post race interviews and debriefing kimi went through he was finally back
the mercedes team gathered for their group photo -as both kimi and george had brought home a podium finish. someone called out to kimi, who was still clinging to your hand
"come on antonelli, it's team photo time!"
kimi grinned and tugged you along with kora. "come with me, please." he whispered, slightly begging
"you want us in the photo?" you asked surprised he nodded proudly, though you couldn't see it" of course. you and are are also part of the reason I got my first win today."
the team looked over at toto who only nodded approvingly. "they are apart of the team. get in."
kimi jumped up and down in excitement before he and kora guidedyou to the middle of the group making sure you and kora were seated right next him
you could hear everyone laughing, the sound of the camera clicking repeatedly.
"smile!" someone shouted
you both smiled proudly as kimi held up a one before quickly realizing you weren't looking at the camera
he let out a little laugh, before gently bringing his hand to your chin, directing your face towards that camera
a small giggles made its way through your lips but you waited to laugh with him until it was over. after the photos, kimi leaned down and whispered "thats going on instagram by the way."
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fwaggossip: looks like we have a new wag alert! kimi antonelli's girlfriend who goes by the name of y/n was seen walking with carmen through the paddock. she was also seen with a service dog the whole day
the girl was seen kissing and celebrating with the mercedes driver who took p1 after the race, and they even spoke to each other during the race on the radio!
hopefully we get to see more of her, but the length of their relationship is still unknown, stayed tuned for more updates!
^user: there's literally no reason not to be a fan of her, you're just a jealous person who's delusional
user: her and carmen being friends already tells me all i need to know! give me a show about these two now
user: they're so so adorableeee
user: THE RADIO MESSAGES?? OMG
user: why is she wearing sunglasses the whole day??
user: yeah and at night too, like you're not all that girl
user: it's giving attention seeker
user: bro why does she have a service dog at an fl race those things are fake half the time
^user: hmmm let's think!
^user: maybe because she needs it? like i doubt she would willingly slap on a vest and call it a service dog for giggles
user: a little confused as to why she had a headset and talked to kimi, they've never let carmen do that
user: i heard she didn't shake carmen's hand
user: was this before or after she acted like carmen didn't exist?
user: doubt she did ignored carmen, she seems nice
^user: nope it's true! i was at the paddock yesterday and saw the whole interaction. carmen held her hand out tried to shake her hand and kimi's girlfriend just stood there, and kimi and to step in and told carmen to put it down. then his girlfriend just laughed, rude if you ask me
the next morning kimi sat at the kitchen counter of your shared apartment
his hair was still damp from his shower as he scrolled absently through his phone, while you and Kira were still curled up in bed sleeping peacefully
his notifications were insane. every other post on his explore page had his face your face, or kora's face
kimi couldn't help but smile scrolling through pictures of him on podium, you and him in the garage, and finally the team one
he liked them, feeling himself get giddy at the sight of a photo someone had taken where you kissed his helmet
kimi laughed softly, remembering how embarrassed you both felt, but happy it looked so cute. he was about to lock his phone when curiosity got the best of him. he check the comments first
and at first, it was the same thing of fans being happy saying they love them together and they're so cute
then he went to twitter and it was mostly just clips of his radio, screenshots of his smile when he kissed you,
but then he scrolled further. people were analyzing every second of your interactions and movements
and his heart sank
his eyes scanned over the hundreds of tweets saying your stuck up, kora is a fake service dog, and how you think you're all that with your sunglasses
kimi's jaw tightened. he kept scrolling and each post made his stomach twist
they were screenshots of you, zoomed-in pictures, people judging you for how you stood, how you smiled, even the way you spoke to people
then one tweet stood out. it was a video of you not shaking carmen's hand
underneath it someone was going on and on about how they witnessed the whole thing and how rude you are because of this
kimi's blood boiled. he dropped his phone onto the counter and pressed his hands to his face, taking a sharp breath. he didn't want to do anything career ending, but he had to set them straight
the internet was so quick to judge, and he couldn't let bad narratives about you just continue
after a moment, he picked his phone back up and opened instagram, knowing what he had to do
you are my light, good luck charm, entertainment and i can't believe i get to be with someone so amazing. you have been through the toughest things, but you still show up everyday smiling and continue to amaze me.
a few years ago she lost her vision completely, she has a service dog kora who is the sweetest most loving dog and might actually like my girlfriend more than me, she helps her navigate public places. she wears sunglasses sometimes when she's in new and busy environments, and that's why kora is always by her side
my girlfriend is the kindest, funniest, and strongest person i know, and i'm proud of her.
i absolutely will not tolerate any poor comments towards or about her or kora. you do not get to call yourselves a fan if you're speaking ill or disrespecting them.
and to y/n, thank you for being my brains in school while i was your eyes. i'm so grateful you bumped into me that day, here's to many more years, i love you.
