You Know You Have Fibromyalgia When...

I'm using every last spoon today. It seems like it's been this way for a while actually.

Having to consciously remind my body to relax is exhausting. Every few minutes I can feel my body start tensing up again.

Seriously. Fuck my life. Am I doing this to myself?! How come every time I almost catch my breath I get shit on again. I'm so over this shit.

I'm not doing so well today. Yesterday was a nasty pain/migraine day. A lot of things are going on w babe this week. I'm not sure where we stand. This anxiety has go to break sometime right?

I'm having such a hard time right now. Dealing with my own situation and issues is a lot for anyone. I feel really frustrated and kind of alone. My friends and boyfriend have their own lives, I get it but still I just feel like I ant talk to anyone. I'm working when they're free and I'm free when they're busy. I have so much alone downtime I don't know what to do with myself.

Today, I showered. I wanna make sure everyone knows that this is probably the equivalent to lifting a house. So that's why I'm back in bed even after my 5 hour nap before the shower.

Anxiety is sky high with the living situation. Don't get me wrong, I love my parents and sister but I need my own space. I'm so stressed being surrounded by things that have no purpose or meaning to anyone. All these extra things are adding to my anxiety and definitely not helping with my healing process.

Home alone. Bored as hell. And things inside my head are going downhill real quick.