If you cut my heart open, you will find rivers of love.

My body is a traitor

My Kind of Crazy

Things will look better in the morning,  but I dread waking up to a reality  that I cannot face,  that I do not want to face,  Tonight I cry, complain, pout  about the unsureness that is today,  that is this tangled web that we've weaved,  the tight rope I thought I could dance on.   When I said "no strings attached",  I didn't think you'd cut them,  didn't think you'd leave,  careless and free,  didn't think I'd be left looking at the pieces of thread your body left on my sheets trying to tie them back together again,  because the truth is,  I am terrified of heights,  and balancing on a tight rope is hard work. A fear of commitment  and a need for love  intertwined together do not not make a strong enough rope  to hold our bodies naked at midnight;  in the dark I admit to myself  that I don't want this to end,  that I have long started wrapping strings between us,  that I hoped you had, too.  With the passing of seasons,  I thought you, too, would build your nest  in my attic apartment,  without me ever showing you my threads.  I know now,  if I want to walk this tight rope,  that is having you by my side,  all of the strings do have to be attached, I cannot hide each spider web I've weaved between us in my mind  from you any longer. Truth be told  I want them to be tied between us  as tightly as my legs are wrapped around you  when we sleep.  Truth be told  I am terrified you will cut them all to pieces.

you terrify me cause you're a man and not a boy you got some power - I can't treat you like a toy you're the road less travelled by a little girl you disregard the chaos while I try to control the world  don't leave me stay here and frighten me don't leave me come on enlighten me  give me all you've got, give me your wallet and your watch give me your first born give me the rainbow and the  I've never played a fair game I've always had the upper hand but what use is intellect and airplay if I can't respect a man?

But hearts don't break y'all they bruise and get better