basilfuckingsky

English Garden

Im excited about my life right now, so excited. I had ran away from my problems in Florida, so abruptly and left with what seemed to be two complete strangers and now that I’m back with a bond tighter than any i have ever experienced with the love of my life things couldn’t feel any more perfect. Some complications arisen in my time away, as expected, and they were all unavoidable for the mowt part but, i took every situation i would have thought that i would never be able to get through in a million years with such stride! And i kept my head held high the entire time even if there were moments of weakness where i felt like giving up and let certain thinga get the best of me and certain situations take advantage of me, but i like to think i continue to fight. I’ve often felt like ending my life and doing somethings i would later regret but when im about to, i remember for the first time in my life i want to better my life, not only for myself, but for the love of my life and its scary cause i want to spend the rest of my life with one person and they dont make a manual for being in relationships. At the same time, its beautiful - the thought of growing in life with another person, a person you love and want to build a family with, is something to keep fighting for. No matter how bad you fuck up or no matter how shitty your past is and no matter how many flaws you have. Diamonds are flawed before prepared for rings that are put into boxes to make a lady super happy one day. Nothings made me feel better than knowing i have a boyfriend who’s my best friend and works so hard to make me happy and even tho he’s fucked up and did a few things he’s better and better everyday and tries harder than anyone ever has to make me happy and my appreciation for it is indescribable.