shot through the heart.

“i wouldn’t spit in his face, you’re right- i’d probably flake, unfortunately. and jia unnie deserves an award for dealing with our company for so long. honestly, anyone who’s been with the company for longer than five years deserves an award. including me- i flew here from canada to deal with this. it’s fucking, sorry, freaking- you’re a sunbae, can’t say that around you or byungchul would make me perform dream girls or something again- hilarious to me, honestly.” talking with sian had just brought the pettiest parts of her personality her personality, which was a stark contrast from the girl from minutes ago who just wanted to get out of the room where sian was arguing. maybe it was the sense of being able to talk about their shared feelings of “done with this bullshit”, or hyejung just felt validated enough to say those things. if she was able to say the word ‘canada’ and only feel a little bit of a sting, that’s when you knew hyejung was out of it.

it was nice to rant about byungchul for a bit, instead of crying because she didn’t get a choice or working herself into the ground. most times, she was so tired of byungchul’s way of managing her and her labelmates that she couldn’t say anything at all. not to mention, he was her ceo- hyejung couldn’t go around telling everyone that she thought he was a bitch (even though most people would agree.)

      an award for dealing with byungchul, that would be something. “well, she has a pretty clean record, at least now. back then, she had a bunch of dating scandals because of how warm and friendly she is.” mostly with him, yeah, but still dating scandals nonetheless. he, on the other hand, was a handful to deal with. the contrasts between his songs and his behavior was pretty funny to him. but hey, he was romantic at heart. it just took special people to bring it out of him. “hey, i won’t tell anyone.” he shrugged. “profanity doesn’t bug me. pretty sure everyone knows that.” he was always being censored at shows, it happens.

Collaboration single coming September 1.

* ♡ ˙ ˖ +  ◜- this whole situation was hilarious- she hadn’t even wanted to be here. siyoung didn’t, jia didn’t, no one except for byungchul did. the role had obviously been meant for someone older, not someone her age. she still didn’t know how exactly he’d held up against an angry siyoung, seeing as she was already scared, though she knew the anger wasn’t directed to her. “please, if i fall asleep again now, you won’t be able to wake me for the next century.” she sighed, adjusting her position so she was still comfortable, but she could face siyoung properly.

“damn it, let me live out my fantasies. in my wildest dreams, i’d be ceo of bc and not overworking everyone, giving them all comebacks and stuff.” perhaps she hadn’t gotten ALL the details down yet, but hey, it never hurt. “ooh, stylist-unnie is going to throttle you for that.” she smoothed down the blonde strands of hair.

      as everything progressed into the mess that it was, siyoung sometimes thought it would have been best if he and jiyoung just released the song without a music video. at the very least, it would have saved a lot of them a lot of anger. even the angel choo jiyoung was angry and that was saying something. he had only ever seen jiyoung angry a couple of times. but they were all so memorable that it made him shudder at the thought. if he was angry, then jiyoung was probably a lot worse. and he didn’t want to go out and witness whether or not she was showing that to the other staff members.

      "have you ever seen jia angry?” he asked after a moment of silence. it was one of those things he was curious about, since everyone he knew was aware of how patient and kind the idol was. “she’s got a higher chance of killing someone than i do when she’s mad.” it was a joke for the most part, but jiyoung really was terrifying when rage consumed her. it rarely ever did so one can imagine how horrible the situation was for it to. he rolled his eyes at the comment. “she can try,” he challenged.

» ;   YURA FELT her frustration build up. she kept her smile, however, sitting back to calm herself. once the mention of her sister was there, she immediately felt ashamed for pushing him to order a heavy and expensive meal. she felt ashamed and couldn’t even look at siyoung in the eye. so it was for their collaboration, huh… a pang of jealousy hit her but it wasn’t like the ones she felt when she was younger. what the years did do was help ura get over her childish crush on the older. she was vulnerable and weak at that time and he was there. that was it.

“fine,” she said unwillingly. “if it will make unnie look good…” she glanced at the waitress and informed her that the other would be ordering kimchi stir fry. she nodded and left the both of them. and alone, she didn’t really know what to talk about with siyoung. she wasn’t a fan of small talk no matter how much she had to endure it every day of her life since becoming an idol. “i…” would she allow herself to apologize and bring it up? she looked at siyoung, biting the inside of her cheek. “i…when you guys are promoting, make sure to take care of her. she’s nice and all but don’t be too touchy. i can tell if it’s a meaningful touch or a weird one. make sure to remind her to eat. take her out to a nice restaurant if you guys get your first win…and…” 

thank god the soup of the day arrived with her wine and water for them both. the waitress looked at her witha smile as if she was teasing her. yura shot back a glare which sent her lowering her head to leave. she was thankful, though, for her because honestly she wasn’t sure what other kind of reminder she was going to give siyoung. she felt conflicted but refused to dwell on why. so she just ate, slurping loudly and irritably. the soup was good, thank god. 

      it was fairly easy to figure out what went on in yura’s head. either because he had known her since she was young or she was just that transparent. either way, anyone who had even the most remote knowledge of her knew that she was attached to the eldest of the choo family. and truth be told it was a bit of a frightening attachment. often, he would get the feeling that yura was ready to bite his head off anytime he got close to jiyoung. like for a hug or even a simple handshake. he wasn’t sure if that was good or bad, but jiyoung handled it pretty well from what he could observe. sibling or not, jiyoung was good with people in general. a skill he never had.

      the instructions came from a good place and he knew she genuinely wanted jiyoung cared for. jiyoung always knew how to take care of herself but that always changed when she was working. because work consumed her and she would become too busy taking care of others and then neglect herself. “i will.” siyoung wasn’t the nurturing one of the two but he could damn well be counted on to at least take care of her. knowing each other for most of their lives gave him enough knowledge about choo jiyoung. but you’d think the way yura was talking, she was a protective girlfriend looking out for what was hers. and that always raised questions in his head that he didn’t dare ask. maybe he would ask jiyoung someday.

     the first time the two of them had gone to the zoo was probably one of yeonhee’s happiest memories. it was the first time she had seen animals up close, apart of dogs and cats of course, and it was very exciting. she remembered dragging sian all around the park before falling asleep at the end of the day and having to be carried back home by him. “so we’re looking for ears that look like yours?” she asked innocently, before grinning at him. “well, i didn’t turn out too bad, so i would say you did a pretty good job raising a kid while you were a kid yourself. and i know i say it all the time, but i do love you, and thank you for everything you’ve done for me. you’ve helped me more than you could ever imagine.”

✧･ﾟ: *  —  those who needed to know about their relationship already knew. the rest of the world is not granted the luxury of being aware of mari and siyoung. but on some level, she figures that there are others who can pretty much GUESS without them having to tell them. most of their dates were in dimensions, after all. it’s the easiest way for them since they were in the same company. she’s only thankful that her dating ban had already been lifted.

a large grin tugs at her lips and she sets everything down on the table, the aroma of food entering her nostrils as she takes a seat. ❛ i’m glad you do, ❜ she says genuinely, placing a pair of chopsticks in his hand. ❛ it’s a new recipe though. it’s a little bit sweet. ❜ she urges for him to start eating first, while she closely watches his reactions.

      contrary to his public image, he was a good boyfriend. he had so much love to give and he always tried his best to give it to the special people in his life. maybe it was jiyoung’s influence. the girl showed him what kindness looked like and her family showed him what love looked like. and it always stuck with him growing up, as he pulled himself and yeonhee out of busan and brought them into seoul. but something always got in the way and a part of him is thinking he and mari were going to end up the same way as him and soojin.

✧･ﾟ: *  —  a panic rises in her chest upon hearing her words, such words that she hadn’t heart since he started therapy. ❛ darling, no. as much as you want to, you can’t do that. ❜ but then an idea pops into her head, a dangerous idea. but with her connections, with her family, it could just be easily pulled off. ❛ siyoung-ah. we should have this conversation in private. ❜ she presses her lips together. ❛ i might know someone who can help. ❜

✧･ﾟ: *  —  siyoung’s words pull the corners of her lips further DOWNWARDS and she looks at her best friend with concern coloring her eyes. ❛ yeah, i believe that. ❜ she’s met siyoung’s parents before, once upon a time back in busan. they tried to keep up with pretenses when she was around, but jiyoung knew what happened behind the scenes. back then, siyoung would lie about it too. ❛ what do you WANT to do? ❜ he asks, taking a sip of water. it’s one of those things that frustrates her—- not really being able to do anything for the people she loves. honestly, she’d be willing to just pay his parents off but she knows he would never let her. and moreover, it’s not her battle to fight.

honestly, if there was someone not only in her company, but the entire music industry,  who wasn’t done with kim byungchul’s shit hyejung would really like to meet them. she’d known what she signed up for once she began training, but it was more than tiring at this point to be viewed as a product, not as a person. she and hanli would more or less be eye candy and appealed to those fans with their new unit, and hyejung knows this isn’t even the worst byungchul could do to them. they’re almost lucky that their song and choreography would be considered almost ‘tame’. secretly, hyejung is hoping that this unit won’t do well- it means that byungchul would have no reason to do it again. but she knows that there was going to be people watching it, angry or enjoying it, and hyejung knows that there will be a lot. she can only sigh and nod in agreement.

“all kim byungchul wants is to milk us of all of our worth and money that we can give him. i’m pretty sure he whatever remains of his moral compass points towards the bank,” hyejung says with a shake of her head. “please shit on his face when given the chance. byungchul has nothing over the two of you, i’m sure. you two will win this. if not i will personally spit in his face.”

      if anyone ever told him that they actually liked kim byungchul, he would probably burst out laughing and call out bullshit. there was a special place in hell specifically made for kim byungchul and his disciples, one that he hoped they would fill soon. now siyoung wasn’t a bad guy, he wasn’t really the type to hope for bad things for other people. but byungchul could bring out the worst in people, he noticed. he was good at pushing siyoung’s buttons and it he was probably doing it on purpose. after all, it was bc who sent him to therapy for his anger issues. it wouldn’t be beneath byungchul to try to get siyoung to burst.