HE WAS AWARE THAT THE TWO WOULD eventually need to hold this conversation. the way in which the two left things was troubling, all to be blamed on minwoo. he shouldn’t have kissed the younger male. boundaries should have been respected, and he should have focused on restoring their friendship as opposed to bridging a romance yet again. all in all, though, he never follows the logic. rather, a man of emotional intentions. but, with namsoo standing before him, he could not focus on the negative thoughts of his consequences. would namsoo visit him if anything bad would be said? why would he come at this hour to just break minwoo’s heart? namsoo isn’t a bad person like that. no. he’s sunshine; an angelic spirit that he still wonders how he got so lucky with having someone like him in his life.
before he could say anything to greet the dancer, words halted at the tip of tongue with namsoo taking charge and power of the conversation. he wasn’t expecting words as so from the other. dark orbs drawn to the taller male, the rapper had to grip the door handle in order to remain balanced, chest tightening from all that was said. did namsoo just say he still loved him? has the kiss been bothering him as well? minwoo was taken back by it all, but he remained still not wanting to react in a way that would startle the opposite. he had to remain calm.
he did not know what to say, though. instead, he took a step back allowing for namsoo to enter into the dorm. while locking the door, he was careful while sauntering over to the seating area, careful to not make too much noise to bother the other members that remain in the dorm that night. soon, minwoo would not worry about such a thing, for he has already found his own place. he just needs to take his belongings over to the new space. he sits down, glancing at namsoo knowing that he has to speak up. “i honestly was not expecting this tonight … i thought i fucked up by kissing you.” his leg bounces up and down from the nerves, but he tells himself to stop and appear more relaxed. “i still love you too, namsoo.” a deep breath before a chuckle followed. “shit, it’s insane how i still feel strongly for you even after many years. but, you are just so incredible, and i would be a fool to not love you and want you.”
if he didn’t think too much about what he wanted to say, the words would flow more easily out of parted lips, there was no need to hold himself back after the kiss was shared between the two. who knew he missed the feel of minwoo’s lips on his, it sparked something in his heart, something that didn’t die all those years ago. and frankly, namsoo was happy that he pushed himself to come out tonight, even though the moon would soon go down and the sun would replace the dark shadows that seemed to follow the two with every movement. the dancer wasn’t sure what to expect from min after he spoke, never giving the other a chance to start the conversation for once since they’ve known each other.
it was time for namsoo to take control, to speak his mind and hopefully get what he wants in the end.
with his hands grasping one another, in almost a prayer movement, he walked inside the dorm quietly; not wanting to wake up anyone who might be there sleeping. slipping his shoes off at the doorway before walking into the living room, it was dark just like how it was in unity’s dorm. hopefully, the night is different than before, hoping that some kind of happiness could lighten up the room. the silence seemed too much for namsoo, eyes never leaving minwoo as he leaned back on the couch, back hitting the corner of the cushions that connected to the handle, fingers messing with one another. “i think you fucked up by leaving right after.” he whispered, smiling faintly as he tried his best to stay positive even though he felt the butterflies fill his stomach. his breath hitched in the back of his throat, min’s confession making bright eyes widen in shock before he could collect himself. his faint smile turning into a sweet one, tears building up in his eyes once more as he slowly let out a sigh that he didn’t know he was holding. “you still love me...i never thought i’d hear these words from you again. my heart is pounding.” scooting closer to the older male, namsoo wasn’t sure on what to say but he knew he wanted to be closer. “i want you by my side again, i know that’s a lot to ask for so suddenly, but i want that...i want you.” his voice dropping to a whisper again.
