𝕟𝕒 𝕛𝕒𝕖𝕙𝕦𝕚

“i’m not leaving,” she answered, following his gaze down to his hands. reaching over, she hesitates right before his hands and instead grabs his wrist instead, urging him to look up at her. he’s warm. jaehui’s always been warm. maybe that’s why she liked him so much. miru’s hands and feet had a tendency to always be cold, but he was just so warm all the time. “i missed… talking to you too.” she almost let the you slip, but she hopes he can read between the lines.

the breakup was hard for jaehui. he had never imagined falling for miru as hard as he had. she was probably the only person he had ever been in love with and he was certain that he would never love someone as hard as he loved her. the suddeness of it all too..that made things even harder. it was like they were fine one moment, and the next she was breaking things off. he understood why she had done it, but it didn't make things easier.

why had he asked her to come anyway? why had he thought things would magically change once they saw each other? why had he thought that once she saw him she'd want to try things again? it was stupid of him to have such high hopes.

"why wouldn't you leave?" he was sure his voice was coming off as harsh. like he was mad. and he was...but not at her. he was mad at himself for thinking anything would be different. "i can tell you're uncomfortable here. i don't want to make you uncomfortable."

“we shouldn’t be doing this.” her voice is still closer to a whisper in fear of the possibility of somebody passing by and hearing them. did she lock the door? she’s certain she did as soon as she closed it shut, but now her heart’s racing at the fact that they could be caught at any moment. would it have been worse to caught while they were dating or to be caught at this point when they’re already over? “but you look nice too. i like the new song.” though it pains her to admit it, miru’s been keeping up with his activities. “it’s better than our’s.” that part is absolutely true—hell, everything that comes out from her mouth around him is absolutely true.

jaehui could instantly tell that their dynamic was insanelt different than what it used to be. he could feel her tense up in his arms, and it definitely was not a feeling he liked at all. he calmed down slightly when he felt the feeling of her hands in his hair, but it didn't last long as her hands fell back down. he couldn't help but feel like he was forcing her to be here with him..in his arms. so he eventually pulled away from her.

he found his way over to a cushioned seat that was resting in the corner of the room. he wanted to be upset with her for being so paranoid, but he definitely could see why she was. miru was finally getting everything she had ever dreamed of. he would hate to be the cause of her first 'scandal.'

jaehui remained quiet as he listened to her speak. he never realized just how much he missed hearing her voice, until it was filling the room they were in. it was always so gentle and calming to him, and even though it was filled with fear and anxiety he couldn't help but grin as he listened.

summary: jaehui is bored with how things are. he needs to really change things up. he’s hoping that the new year can help him with that.  wc: 277 (she’s a small one folks!) trigger warnings: strong language, drug mention

there’s some hesitation, but she knows there’s more danger the longer she’s simply standing out there. taking one more look at her surroundings, she opens up the door and then quickly shuts it, leaning her back against the door and letting out her breath that she didn’t even know she was holding in. in front of her eyes stands jaehui, and he’s looking at her with the same loving eyes. her legs are frozen because he still leaves her breathless though she’d never admit it. there’s too much danger in admitting it.

miru rarely gets nervous; it’s just not a feeling that come around often. however, in this room right now, she can feel her heart racing. she blames it on the fact that this is all so risky, but she knows that’s not the truth. “oppa,” she manages to get out though it’s closer to a whisper than anything. “how’d you even get the note to my stylist anyway?” there’s a hundred other questions she could be asking instead, but she can’t seem to speak them. walking up to him, she slips the note back to him. “take it home and burn it so nobody can pick it up from the trash.” the note’s gone from her fingers, but she doesn’t let go of his hand, instead clasping her own around one of his fingers.

it had honestly been a few months since they had seen each other. quite possibly a year had passed since they were last in the same room togehter. so when he found out that their schedules so nicely intertwined with each others, he knew he had to find a way to get her to meet up with him. texting her would have worked, but that was too boring. so him being the hopeless romantic that he is, wrote a note for the younger girl and found a way to get it to her.

it was getting closer and closer to the time that they were meant to meet up, and..he was definitely starting to feel those stupid butterflies in his stomach that he always got before their secretive dates back in the day. he checked the clock one last time, before finally telling someone he was going out for some air, and he made his way to the waiting room he told her to meet him at. he arrived first. of course he did. miru always ran just a little behind no matter how early she'd start to prepare. that was just a small detail jaehui had managed to notice when they were dating.

he patiently paced the floors as he waited, but it wasn't long before she came sliding into the door. turning toward the door with a shocked look, he made sure it was her before he finally smiled. her voice was soft and gentle. like she was scared of something, it took him a bit by surprise. wouldn't she have been excited to see him? to hug him again? because god knew jaehui was elated to see her and to hold her for a bit of time before they went their separate ways again. he shrugged lazily at her question before giving an answer, "i know people i guess." laughing softly, he took the piece of paper from her hand and was a bit surprised when she held onto his hand. at that, jaehui felt a wave of relief come over him. maybe she was excited to see him..but just scared for other reasons.

hello everyone! my name is ky. i was around a few months ago, but suddenly disappeared due to some personal reasons. but i’m back! and i’m back with a little bit of a better understanding with how everything works. i’m excited to be a part of the family again, and make some really rad connections for my baby jaehui. i have a wanted connections page, which you can find here. it’s still very much under construction, but there are at LEAST four connections there that i know i absolutely want filled. that being said! let me introduce you a bit to jaehui!