Que c'est beau la folie

If you’re reading this, it’s too late. The positive vibes are already coming for you, get ready. You have no choice but to have a good day now.

I hate this disorder. I hate the fact that I’ll always hate my body. I hate the fact that I actually love to eat but eating makes me feel more disgusting. I hate that no matter how hard I try my body is just never good enough. I’m tired of never feeling beautiful. I’m tired of feeling that my body is not worthy to be loved. I’m tired of always being hungry. I’m tired of denying myself food. I’m tired of falling into the same restrict/binge cycle and never making any progress. I just want to love myself for who I am. But I just can’t.