A Kiss, Sweet Mother

my friends warned me that tesblr was dead asf before i came back, and holy shit they weren’t kidding

if you are an active tes blog, can you reblog this? 👀 i’d like to see who’s all still active (and if there’s any spaces i or others could join!)

I've been a little busy the past couple months, but I am usually here! and I have a BUNCH of tesblr moots who are really active as well!

"character doing a c+ job of breaking the cycle of abuse" is such a crunchy dynamic forever. what if i'm giving my all to give you a better life than i had and i'm succeeding but "better" just isn't quite enough. what if my blind spots and deeply ingrained trauma and inexperience mean that you will be indelibly scarred by me despite my best efforts. what if my abuser's influence still bleeds through at times because i know nothing else. what if i go so far in the opposite direction to avoid it that i hurt you in ways i couldn't have anticipated. what if my undeniable love and unforgivable shortcomings came part and parcel with each other. what if your love and gratitude and resentment and pain came part and parcel too. what if we both knew you deserved better but i was all you had. what if we had to move forward and reckon with that. what then

"Write character relationships that are normal" WRONG ☝ CODEPENDENCY BEAM 💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥