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“ You are only mine, only mine .”Jake’s fingers entwined with yours. The subtle scent of his cologne imprinted an unforgettable mark on your heart. “ I love you.”was only you could say.

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You are resting your weary limbs on the familiar sofa. Your cozy room was well furnished. An empty flower vase reminded you of beauteous moments spent with him. It’s been 1 month for the flower vase being unattended. Office works now rule over your schedule. But today your room’s air is redolent with memories of  Jake.Balefully your company’s C.E.O uses the same cologne as him. His sudden arrival gave your room a glimpse of emptiness. The empty congratulations, bouquet, the invitation to office party slipped of  your memory. What remained was the fragrance, unanswered questions and urge doing the impossible. The tortuous calmness engulfed the room.You suddenly found your self  in a garden. Your head  was resting on a shoulder. A leather jacket was covering his strong musculature.

“Jake, what was the first time you fell in love?”

“The day, I first came to Sydney. [ pause] A girl was sitting alone in the bus stop, waving goodbye to someone. ”

“ WOW, you didn’t even think twice.”[ you pouted with disappointment] you gulped down the comparison between your first love and you.

“ She was wearing a red dress, paired with a red bow”. locking his eyes onto yours he continued, “she had beautiful eyes.”

Your cheeks flushed at his intense gaze.

“ I see. [ stuttering ]..she must be really beautiful.”

He didn’t reply at your comment. He cupped your face and held your eyes for a moment. He had surely studied your anguish, disappointment, probably a glimpse of your hidden tears as well. Then he pressed his lips to yours. It was a deep kiss, overflowed with sacred love. You held his jacket for support. He pulled back after a few celestial moments. He pulled you in his embrace and whispered in your ears,

“ You are  very beautiful , dear. Very pretty.”

The moment felt unrealistic. Your heart felt heavy with his love. You never thought your fate had planned something that serene. Fate had a terrible  sense of humour. It gave you a glimpse of love only  to snatch it from you, leaving you fumbling for it. He left but forgot to take back what he had used to fill the void in your chest. Terrible as it sounds.

Your eyes flung open at the phone’s vibration. Phone’s display bragged C.E.O’s call. With an exhale you let go of the past’s venomous hands.

“ Hello, Actually I called to inform you our tomorrow’s office party was canceled. The Sim Company had taken over our schedule. It has declared an urgent meeting to discuss our project. I’m sure you are well aware of the importance of the meeting. I’m expecting you at 8:00 in the office. Be well prepared.”

He hung up. His words lingered in your ears for a moment. You let go of the echoes of the past. You revisited your project and forced your eyes to close.

Jake was your joie de vivre. His every words adorned your pulse of life. You used to find tranquility in his presence. You crossed road with him at the time when tears had found their permanent residence in your eyes. Your monotonous life had never offered you anything but abyss of grief. His encounter with you filled your soul with overwhelming happiness.  He elided the tears from your eyes, filling it with courage and joy. He devised an oath of not letting you cry ever again. His memory weighed heavy on your chest. You enfolded the pillow in warm embrace. It lacked his harmonious heart beat. Many girls had their wallpaper designed with his ethereal face but he had his devoted to the quiet girl at the back of the class. She was leaning over the window, completely unaware of the fact that someone is taking a picture of her. Jake had carefully adjusted his camera lens to capture your eyes, glistening with the ray of the sun. His memories tenderly held you and comforted you to sleep.

“ Jake, how is your mom?”[ concern claiming your face ]

“Same as before. Angry because I refuse to pursue law. She never understands me.” His head was buried in the warmth of your lap. Snuggling as if it had finally found a gentle sanctuary. Your fingers were gently weaving through his tresses. A peaceful exhalation released the suffocation building inside his chest. You replied after thinking for a minute.

“ I understand. Our parents sometimes create overwhelming pressure on us. But it’s okay you know. If you talk with her gently I’m sure she will understand. Why don’t you tell her about the revolutionary plan of creating a lavish dog shelter… .”

He didn’t utter a word. His hands brushed against yours signaling to continue your movements in his hair.  You waited for few moments. A sudden happiness brightened your face as if you had found the cure of cancer.

“Jake.. even if something very bad happens, you should never let go of your dreams. I will be there with you always. Do whatever you feel. You can always count on me. You will not get rid of me easily.”

Jake slowly faced you staring intently into your eyes. A soft smile crept into his eyes.

“ Y/N.” His words pulled your attention back into him. His face glowed with inner peace. He wove his hands through your hair creating a tender spell. His eyes held your gaze for a minute or two, then he exclaimed,

“ promise me you will never leave me.”

The night was enveloped in calmness. Stars crowded the  black sky. The cold breeze caressed your cheek, probably it silently mocked you then. The air was filled his whispers of perfume. He took your face in his hands and brushed his lips against your. He gently rubbed your ears to comfort you during the kiss.

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Love now feels a fascinating Joke to you. Even after 30th January night your mind was busy finding any glimpse of untruth in his eyes. But memory fails you. All you can remember was his truthfulness when he looked at you. His pain when you got hurt. His urge to protect you. You thought may be that was what they call love. 26th of January, your missed calls and unseen texts baffled you with some horrendous possibilities. His sudden disappearance  made you suspect something very bad might had happened with him. Very  bad! After 96 breathless hours, you got your answer, yet some remained unasked.

Your mom’s arrival demanded your presence at the airport. Your eyes were busy scanning the airport, then…..

His hands were entangled with a beautiful girl. He was walking side by side with her. Your mind started criticizing your poor eyesight. The closer he came to you, the harder it became for you to breath. His gaze caught you red handed. Your heart broke into myriad fragments when he averted his gaze. Your feet felt numb. The air sang a symphony of sarcasm. You choked on your tears. You felt numb. Suddenly a pair of hands grappled your coat. Your vision had blurred when you turned to meet your Mom’s enraged eyes.

“ What the hell are you thinking? Ignoring your mom. Don’t forget who had given you roof before. Ungrateful brat! A little money came in your pocket and you started thinking yourself as queen! Huh!”

She grinned her teeth.

You just stared at your mom. If it was Jake he would have seen your inner turmoil. But your mom’s hands held your cheeks forcefully and asked,

“ For whom are you waiting? Take me to the Delight cafe. Someone is waiting for me there. Don’t you dare to ruin our date with your melodramatic feelings for your dad!”

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The sharp sound of your alarm woke you up. The empty bedside was yet to become your habit. Your forehead still expects a morning a kiss. Idiot! The clock ticks six. You woke up from your bed and waddled to the bathroom. Your chest tightens seeing your reflection. Your empty eyes were staring at you with disgust. Skin more pale than usual. Dry lips. Nothing but an unloved face was standing on the other side of mirror. The warm water drenched your body. You were missing a strong pair of biceps hugging you from the back.

“NO, JAKE! I WILL SHOWER ALONE TODAY, YOU CAN’T INVADE MY PRIVACY.”

Jake was leaning against the wall. He came closer and tugged a hair strand behind your ears. He admired your facial features. His whisper filled you with ‘ Bad Desire ‘.

He held your waist and take you in his arms. You can clearly memorize his trails of kisses. How he always took a moment to admire your naked body. Your cheeks used to heat up against his wet cheeks. His hands used to worship each and every curve of your body.  It is the only time when you are with him you never feared judgement . Your guards were always down for him. He used to arrange his words,

“ I will never let you go.”

The water drops hitting the floor, eternally leaving the the pipes where it was caged f. It was free. Did it enjoy the freedom? The windows fogged due to hot shower. You had lost count of time. You can still differentiate hot tears from the hot water.

Your cell phone screamed to catapult you into reality. You dried yourself with a towel. You hurried to pick the phone up. Your mom’s message enlightened your phone’s screen.

“ you have forgotten to send us our electricity bill.”

You immediately sent the money with screenshot. There was no else message. No one to ask how you were? Just work related messages.  Except your C.E.O and your mother no one even calls you nowadays. They both only call to take something from you. Selfish? At least they are there. Loneliness is actually the worst disease. It longs for company which it fears the most.  

Without your notice a dress had enveloped you, preparing you for the meeting. The clock ticks 7:00. the bus stop is 30 minutes away and it takes 25 minutes to the office. You were supposed to reach at 7:55. You did not check the time when you reached office. Your assistant informed you to head the room 13.  You went to the washroom before, and lost your balance. Gravity’s violent persuasion threw you on the ground. A searing jolt coursed through your ankle, leaving a trail of throbbing pain. You could not wake up for few moments. A sharp pain numbed your feet. You waited for god knows how much time. Then slowly the ground relinquished its claim and you slowly woke up. You did not realize your ankle was bleeding. You rushed to the room 13.  the door creaked open.

“Excuse me.. apologies for my late arrival…”

Words stuck at your throat. Your vocal cords became heavy with sudden overpowering emotions.

“As long as I’m alive I will never let you cry.” was one of the hundreds of his broken promises. How does it feel Jake to know you’re the reason for her tears? You have broken the promise , severely.

Someone cleared throat. The sound catapulted both of you in present.

“ please take a sit. Miss Y/N. I think we should start our meeting.”

You averted your gaze to take the sit beside your C.E.O.. Creative Director, miss Y/N.

You’re focusing on your trembling fingers and the unease in your stomach.

“What happened to your ankle?”

You rose your head at the voice that used to navigate the labyrinth of your soul with ease. You couldn’t utter a word. You knew if you even open your mouth a deluge of emotions will break through. You stared blankly at him. He swallowed something,a lump of cry maybe. He as usual studied your face and from the depth of satchel a bandage came out. He knelt down like he used to when promises used to make sense to you. Holding your feet in his hand he rubbed the side of the wound. Your skin caught fire with his touch. His finger brushed against your ankle’s skin making you frenzy with unnamed emotions. The whole 17 staffs were watching their scary Boss’s this unexplained behaviour. They were sure without witnessing it with their eyes they would never had believed it. Jake carefully placed the bandage on your wound. Your wound believed in his promise of healing. You’re too stunned to speak at this point. The world seemed to have blurred, Jake was only on focus.  He looks up, the same deceiving eyes , filled with care. Like a master cartographer he mapped the terrain of your face charting the depths of your emotions. He took his seat.

He commanded to start. The room filled with whispers but nothing conjured your mind. Your mind was only replaying him, again and again. When it’s your turn to speak, you could not find your voice. His gaze fixed at you, once again hearing the unspoken words he said,

“ The deal is final.”

“Sir, but we haven’t heard their presentation...”The secretary protested.

“ I believe the director of the project. Thank you Park enterprise for your cooperation.” Jake stretched his hand for handshake.

You can feel the heaviness of other’s stare. You were just shocked, confused and may be disgustingly happy. Your inner voice spoke with a hushed tone dripping with verbiage your mother had used against you. You reflected your foolish  vulnerability for him inside your heart. Your mom was right , a shame like you should have never been born. When your attention came back to the world , the people were slowly disappearing from the front door. You felt a small tug on your right sleeve. Your assistant Jungwon was pulling you. You couldn’t help but look at Jake’s  ferociously decieving eyes. He was giving death stares to Jungwon. The eyes express nothing but ‘what you thought before’ jealousy.

When you reached your cabin you fell on your chair. The turmoil in your mind was doing nothing to dissuade the pain in your stomach. His thoughts conjured your mind. It is replaying in a loop like a broken DVD. The time took it’s own pace, but yours has stopped. It’s still stuck on his eyes, deceiving eyes.

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“how much you love me?”

“ like the depth of your eyes.”

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Your consciousness landed on earth by the sound of your assistant’s voice. He was making you aware of the time. You unfolded your frame and headed home. You strolled along the road savoring minimal details of the road. The sky was a black canvas painted with brush strokes of clouds. The crescent moon placed alone. Cold winds were passing by with their friends. The honking vehicles created the same old  menace. The neon lights revealed the deepest darkest secrets of the pavement. The road was as usual filled with haste. People were trying their best to minimize the time of their reaching home. But you have no hurry. They have home, but you have an apartment you reside on. Their haste is a testimony of someone’s anticipation for them. Yours on the other hand is made with unfamiliar, silent bricks. The house has now become endowed with insidious memories of him. The voice in your mind was busy persuading you to take a new apartment. The broken DVD is never silent. Who filled it with Jake’s pictures? Jake’s deceiving eyes embarrassingly claim every hole in your heart. Now his sudden arrival had restored the wounds. Is he really playing with you? Knowing your weakness, he is taking advantage of you? Is he again going to leave like before? Is he going to again break your not at all healed heart? What does he want from you? Unanswered questions filled your mind. You don’t know whether you’re sad because you could not see through his eyes or you really fell for him. Maybe both.

Your life was never a bed of roses. With your continuous encounter with parents fighting you had taken a silent oath of not trusting in love. That was the reason maybe you are devoid of any acquaintance. But Jake, he was different. He tried his best to reach every bar you had set for your future boyfriend. You were sure he will never leave you like others did. With him you used to feel seen, heard and understood. His love was a masterpiece crafted with care and devotion. When your mom started finding happiness in other men’s lecherous company, you thought you will be wiser.  Choosing Jake made you feel love really exists in this world.

Who says eyes don’t lie? Everything can lie.

When you entered your apartment , you were surprised to see a bouquet of flowers waiting for you. A note beside the flower drew your attention. You picked it up.

‘Dear,

I’m glad you have not changed your home’s password. I know I owe you many explanations. But for now just take my apologies. There is a necklace that you were hoping to buy when *we* will grow up. I guess I have grown up. I don’t know whether you will accept it and I know I don’t deserve to force you to take the necklace. I’m now here dear, I will fix everything. I really wish you could trust me. I’m once again very sorry. I love you love. I really love you.

Yours,

Jake ‘

 The words clutter your mind. Warm tears kissed your temple. They started pouring out after staying long inside your heart. Sorry just a sorry, that’s what he thinks you deserve, ‘I will fix everything.’ how much broken promises you will make Jake? Why? Your heart ached with sorrow. It is tired Jake. Please….

You cried yourself to sleep. You woke up with your alarm.

You are sure you have nothing in your fridge right now. Other days you might had rushed to the office cafeteria, but today your arrival will confront you with some rumors about yesterday. Jake’s behaviour had surely become a great topic of gossip.

“ dang it! One rameyon and I will be happy.. please god, just one.”

Your eyes widened with shock finding your kitchen table filled with different kinds of rameyon packets. Fridge is restocked with every veggies. The worst of all there is your favourite blue berry pancakes with a note saying,’ I know you are tired to make any breakfast. Just reheat it. It’s made yesterday night. I’m sure it’s safe to eat. Don’t worry I didn’t came in the morning.’ no need to doubt the authenticity. It’s him again. You hate how you have made yourself transparent. He knew you way better than anyone. It hurts. It hurts more to know an apparent stranger knowing you that good. You felt a strong emotion rushing through your body…. You were missing him….badly.

His strong arms enveloped around you. His nose was snuggled your neck. He sniffed your scent and whispered “ a little bit more. Please.” your in vain tries to free you from his arms used to make him chuckle. “No Jake. I need to make breakfast.” You softly  pecked his lips and pulled back. He opened his eyes and admired your face for a moment. The moment he loosened his grip to properly taste your lips, you freed yourself and headed towards the bathroom. He could not help but smile at your cuteness. When you came out of the bathroom you found the table decorated with your favourite blueberry pancakes.

In your office cabin,

An envelope was kept on your table. You were really disappointed to find out it’s not from Jake. It’s an invitation of your C.E.O’s daughter’s birthday. You had to attend it today at 6: 00. You were kind of relieved. You were honestly not prepared to go your apartment once again. Whatever he does makes it unbearable for you to cope up.

RECAP: Sunghoon was getting married in 1 month. To make him a perfect husband he asked Y/N , his old friend to train him. They are now in a temporary relationship. But both of you are falling for each other hard. He doesn’t got along with his fiance. One night after leaving his fiance he reached a bar tracking your location and found you and Heeseung sitting together. He felt jealous. Memories started coming back.

Sunghoon’s eyes were busy analyzing the closeness between you and Heeseung. Your occasional smiles narrates a story of deep long emotional bonding. He was monitoring all your movements and keeping it side by side with his Y/N,the way you present yourself to him. The dazzling lights loud music seems to beating on his chest. All he ever wanted to do now is punch the Man’s face take you with him. But he retreats. Of course! His love might be enough to keep you happy, but it is short lived. He can give you his heart but he has to take it back from you. The thought of taking it back from you sends chills through his spine. His chest tightens with the lump of thoughts about future.  The heart dedicated only for the beautiful girl in front starts throbbing in his chest, afraid it might loose her. He turns around and traces his path to the exit.

“Sunghoon!”

The voice, it is the voice that he can recognize even if the whole world starts screaming in his ear. It is the word he had always wished to hear from you in ice-skating school. He always wished someday you would call his name and would tell him how much you love him. But it never happened. You have always calmed him down in his dream. You have always given  him hope to listen to his will, unknowingly, silently. He always read your eyes. How his achievement gave you pride was never unknown to him. He has been always in love with you deeply. From the very beginning.

Now you are calling his name. He turns around only to face expected questions,

“ What are you doing here?”

“ I was just strolling and randomly thought of entering the bar[ scratching the back of his neck]. i haven’t noticed you[ a fake smile covered his face]”

You knew he was lying. His behaviour was vaguely similar to the little ice price who was telling our mentor the reason of his absence. You were about to ask him about Ueno but Heeseung interrupted.

“ who is he?” Heeseung stared deeply in your eyes.

“Boyfriend.” Sunghoon said. Heeseung shifted his gaze towards Sunghoon. Sunghoon continued,

“I’m her boyfriend.”

Heeseung’s jaw tightened. He clenched his fist and averted his gaze towards you. His gaze was intimidating. “ I’m astonished! You never volunteered any information about your Boyfriend”

You lowered your gaze. “Sorry sir. Never got time.”

“ I see.. May I know you name, Mr. Boyfriend”[ he said mockingly ]

Sunghoon was paying no attention to his mockery. His sole focus was how you lowered your head. He was studying you.

“ Park Sunghoon.” He said meeting his gaze. He was getting angry. Your expression told him how uncomfortable you are. He stepped beside you. He squeezed your shoulder to give you comfort.

Heeseung’s expression became more intimidating. He stared at him from bottom to toe and faces you.

He looked at your frightened expression and softened his gaze. He never realized his voice has made you that uncomfortable. He became embarrassed. He takes your hand and presses it softly,

“ umm..Y/N.”

You looked at him.

“ I’ll get going now. See you tomorrow. Bye.” you studied Heeseung’s face. It didn’t felt scary anymore.  A familiar expression covered his face, you bid him farewell.

Before going Heeseung glanced at you and offered you a comforting smile. You smiled back. He left the bar. You immediately took Sunghoon aside.

“Honestly! Boyfriend?”

He ignored your question and cupped your face. He pulled you closer to his chest. Your heart beat gave him an unspoken comfort. He stared at your eyes and caressed your cheek. His soft finger brushed again your soft skin. He said with sweet comforting tone,

“ you are my girlfriend… for 1 month… remember?”

 Of course you  remember. How can you forget this 1 month is tearing you apart. You are being flooded with love for that 1 month. But the happiness has lease for 1 month only. The fate is definitely expressing it’s hate towards you. You sometimes wonder how can something that is fake, meant to be fake, can feel that real. His eyes had always been your favourite book. You never got a chance to closely read it back in school. Though you always hoped for reading him close, flipping his pages, knowing him better than anyone. Now he is in front of you. His eyes! As if waiting for you to read it. You’re drowning in his eyes. You wonder why his eyes are begging you to not let him go. It is asking you to hold him, see his raw emotions, kiss away his pain. It is asking you to dive into his comfort. It is telling you to be a part of him. You averted your gaze. You are loosing your control over you locked emotions. His eyes were acting as a key, desperately trying to open it.

It’s bad! Really bad! His eyes can lie too. You thought to yourself.

He sips a drink from your glass. The alcohol makes his emotion more raw. His eyes are now desperate for you. He pulls you closer to his chest and envelops his hand around you. You heart has skipped a bit. You feel like crying. You wanted to pull back , slap him and say what he was doing to your poor heart. But you didn’t do anything. You hug him back. The utmost comfort you are feeling right now is exhilarating. You wanted to stay like that forever.

Silence envelops around both of you. It is a familiar silence. It spoke a lot. It understands both of you without judging your feelings. Sunghoon was first to broke the tranquility.

“Let’s go. It’s getting late.”

He rubs your back with his hand. The hoodie didn’t do anything to stop the butterflies in your stomach. You broke the hug and asked the bartender for bill. He assures you about Heeseung paying the bill.

You were not drunk. You have sipped not more than 2 times. Sunghoon was walking beside you. It was silent at first, then out of nowhere he brings out the plushie he has brought for you. He pulls it in front of your face.

“Your replica.” he smiled widely. His fangs held your stare for a little long.

How gorgeous his smile is!

But he is holding a monkey plushie.

“ you think I look like this.” you said pouting.

His eyes were never leaving your lips. Then the alcohol! It was the culprit!

He crashed his lips against yours. In the middle of the pavement, under the vast sky he was kissing you. His lips were soft. Tastes like alcohol. He kisses you hungrily. His hands rounds your waist and hold you a little higher. You were on your tiptoe to match his height. The way his lips moved against yours felt like he was holding it for too long. He bit your lower lips and pulled back. He stared at your lips for a moment then dragged you in the dark alley. He pinned you against the wall. You parted your lips to say something, but he again crashed his lips against yours. This time it was deeper, hungrier. You can feel his intense emotions. You surrounded your arms in his neck for support. You kissed him back. His heart was beating against your chest. He lifts you a little in the air. The his lips trailed from your lips to your neck, then to your collar bone. Then suddenly the realization hit him. He pulled back immediately. His face became a light shade of pink, his ears were red.

He can mumble only few words.

“Sorry. I got carried away.”

You wanted to say, go on. Why did you stop? Kiss me until my lips are sore. Feel my skin. Love me.

But you couldn’t sat anything except it’s okay. You both were walking side by side in solace. Then you spoke,

“ You are a very good kisser”

He looked at your red lips, a little swollen. It was reflecting the light coming from street lamps. It was luring him for once more. But he was little on his senses now. He muttered thank you and intertwined his fingers with you. He wanted this moment to last long, very long. The cold wind cools down the heat of your body. The walk became calm and beautiful.

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[ Time skip]

You are sleeping beside him. He was staring at your beautiful face.

He wonders everyday how can someone be inhumanly beautiful and calm at the same time. You lips was always attracting his gaze, your bare skin touches his. he was staring for 1 hours, then you moved a little, and hugged him more tightly. He put his hands on your chest and drifted into the dream land.

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Mr.Lee Heeseung was the head of the murder mystery department. He is your guide and teacher. He is the son of the CEO of a big company. He mostly stay out of station. He has come specially to visit the 7 burglars mystery. You were in charge of that. A girl was brutally murdered and the day after 7 burglars were seen dead on the same spot with a note that said a mysterious number. It was inscribed in blood. The police had given up this case. Your department mostly you and Heeseung are busy finding clues after clues.

Sunghoon has left for a business trip. He will be back in two days. You didn’t even want to go home in these two days. His scents lingered in your house. His pillow, his clothes all stacked up in your wardrobe. It reminds you of him. Of his gorgeous smile. His cuddles. How he cared  for you in your period cramps. His failed attempt of cooking. His dad jokes. You terribly miss him. The two days felt like two month. Sunghoon’s narrative is no different. He always stares at your pictures he clicked without telling. Your smile, your pink cheeks, your cute hands he had clicked all of it. He misses you even more. He starts his days with a good morning text and ends with good nights. In these two days he has saved your photo as his wallpaper.

[ End of 2nd day]

‘ pick me up at 5, my love, I’ll be waiting.’

He texted you this morning. ‘ My love’. yes he calls you that very often. And it never ceases to give you butterflies in your stomach. In spite of your hectic schedule you surely will be there to pick him up. You can’t wait for the clock to tick 5.

Your office allows a easy access for entry and exit. Especially for you. You are one of the very known mystery solver.

“Mr. Lee, I need to go to the airport at 5. can I ?”

“Why?”

“ I need to pick up someone”

“Who? Your boy friend?”

Yes, Yes, Yes, He is my boy friend. I need to pick him up, kiss him badly. You thought to yourself.

“yes..” you lowered your head with shyness.

He wanted to get a little angry but your strawberry cheeks vanished all his anger. He had to bite his inner cheek to restrain him from smiling.

“ I’ll drove you. The murders are really dangerous. After your recent interview in New York  times you need to be extra careful.”

“NO.” you said almost instantly. You are really excited about his arrival. You are really missing his lips. And after that day it is even harder. You need to kiss him. Heeseung will be an interference.

“Then you can’t go.” he woke up from the chair and decreased the distance between you. He whispered in your ears,

“ it’s either with me or you can’t go. Now it’s your choice.”

You were quiet accustomed with his proximity with you. You both were working together for a very long time.

“Okay,,, I’ll go with you.” you pouted unintentionally. Heeseung couldn’t help but smile at you cuteness.

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[ in heeseung’s car]

“so.. your boyfriend can’t come alone. Miss Babysitter.”[ he emphasized the word boyfriend]

“Well, no.. actually,… he just told me to come.. we haven’t met for long. Probably that was the reason…”[ you said defending your ice prince]

He chuckled.

You are staring outside. The scenery outside the car is really nice. You didn’t dare to look at Heeseung. Well it is really embarrassing to pick your boyfriend in your teacher’s car. You respect him a lot. He is a brilliant problem solver.

“ Are we going to office after?” you asked hesitantly.

“Do you want to go?”

“NO.” You said in reflex. Then  you covered your mouth dying of embarrassment. You honestly didn’t want to go. You wanted to wrap your arms around Sunghoon and touch his lips with yours. You were about to give some vague reply, he suddenly cuts you off

“Okay, we will not go then.” He said so casually that first you could not believe your ears. You became really happy. You smile didn’t miss his eyes. He bit his bottom lip to refrain himself from looking at you.

The rest of the ride was silent. You were terribly excited.

[In the airport.]

“ I’ll be standing at the parking lot, I’ll drop you and your boyfriend home. Don’t be late princess.”

He said looking at his watch. You are barely in right mind to listen to his words. You rushed inside.

[ Exactly 5:00 p.m]

You looked around. You spotted Sunghoon at a distance. But… who are they?

Ueno and his mom.

Ueno came running towards him and hugged him tight. You were standing far away. Tears started colluding in your eyes. Your chest tightened. You wanted to run…but you kept rooted to the ground. You forcefully turned around. Your best efforts are concentrated into hiding your tears. Your voice was shaky. Your breath hitched. You wanted to run to someone’s arms. You wanted to get comfort. But the comfort lies at his arms. And he was now probably in another one’s arms.

You felt pain. A sharp pain cut through your chest. You are telling yourself it’s okay, he belonged to her. She should be in his arms. Whatever is happening is good for you, probably best. The anxiety engulfed you. Your limbs were giving up. The world suddenly felt hazy. Darknees. All you can see was darkness.

Then you felt  hands around you, the familiar one. You blacked out.

Sunghoon POV

I was very happy for meeting Y/N. I have already wasted enough time, I can’t loose anymore. She will come to pick me up. Probably with a bright smile. She looks beautiful when she smiles. It’s terrible how my eyes were finding her. How my heart could not bear a second. Finally the plane landed. What I am going to do when I will first meet her. Maybe pick her up. Kiss her whole face. I don’t know. I’m going crazy. My jaws tightened, when I saw my mom with Ueno. I was not in any mood to start any conversation with them. I haven’t even told them I’m coming. May be I should just slip by. I need to see my Y/N at any cost. Now! No they were approaching. I can feel someone’s arm around but I don’t care now. I have to fucking get you. Y/N there she is. Red cardigan, red lipstick. She is looking flawless as always. But her eyes….she is in pain. Why? She turned around. I jerk off the hands around me. My mom guarded my way. None of their words are entering in my brain. I gave a lame excuse of urgent meeting and ran towards her, love of my life. I didn’t care to look back. I caught her on time. She was fainting!

End of POV

“ AMBULANCE! AMBULANCE!”

Sunghoon frantically screams. It attracted many people, but none stopped to help, then Heeseung came forward. Seeing you in that condition his brain freeze. He basically dragged Sunghoon in his car and raced to the hospital like there is no tomorrow. The whole car ride was silent. Sunghoon was crying. His tears are falling continuously. Heeseung was equally frustrated.

The car stopped before the hospital,

[ time skip]

You woke up only to find Sunghoon gorgeously taking his beauty sleep. He looked ethereal. You are staring at his angel like face. Then suddenly memories clashed in your head one by one. He is not yours at all. That thought gave you sudden pain in your chest. You moved a little to ease it. He woke up from the minimal vibration.

“ you…woke up…”

You saw his face. His eyes were red, swollen from crying. His nose and cheek has taken a light shade of pink. He looked as if someone had punched him in his face, not once or twice but for million times. He was looking at you as if you are a mythical creature came back to life. He pulled you in his arms. You didn’t retreat. Didn’t think twice just hugged him back. He whispered in your ears,

“ I  missed you a lot. I thought..I might loose you.”

You practically melted in his arms. It took you few seconds to regain your composure. you whispered back,

“ what do you think I will die that easily? Idiot..”

Your hands ruffled his soft hair. His black silky hair felt soft in between your fingers. he pulled you back and laid you in the bed. He laid just beside you. Both of your faces were so close to each other that you can feel your heart dancing in your chest. He gently brushed his nose against yours and drifted into dreamland. It’s really funny to think how badly you want him. How terribly you have fallen for him. You know you’re running head long in danger, but you don’t care. For him everything is worth.

You woke up with a sweet voice. She had probably the 2nd most beautiful eyes you have ever seen. Of course after Sunghoon. She was wearing a uniform of nurse.

“You have a very caring boyfriend. I’ve to admit. He didn’t listen to any of us and insisted on staying here, whole night.”she turned around and said to Sunghoon, “you don’t have to wait much long. She will be released today.”

A smile carved onto his lips. A shy smile. He nodded. He was looking down. He was really happy. He is really a baby, a beautiful one.

“so. How are you?”

Heeseung’s voice startled you. He looked straight into your eyes. He was staring deep into you soul. His expression neutral. You can feel Sunghoon’s body stiffened.

“Can I have a moment alone with Y/N?Mr. Boyfriend” Heeseung's voice steady and calm. Sunghoon averted his gaze towards me.

You gave him the sign you will be okay. He gently kissed your forehead and left the room. You didn’t realize Heeseung’s fist clenched.  

“I have submitted the papers Yesterday. If you remember princess we thought 6  murders were involved but surprisingly only 4 has been caught. 4 of them are great stubborn. After torturing them in chambers, they claimed two of them never met others in person. The significant men were wearing a suit pitch black. The also claimed they have seen them multiple times in multiple murders. They don’t mercy at all,and…”

“and?..”

He paused and continued

“ the two men ate human flesh.”

“but the bodies had no such evidence.”

“ they claimed there had been 8 people who were murdered. 2 of them were finished  or eaten. And.. the gang members who were murdered had a photo of 8 people together. Almost all members”

“Ridiculous. May be they were trying to fool us. It could happen those two have left the group.”

“no, princess. We had found two unknown DNA samples there. The blood were of 9men ,not 7.”

Blood drained from your face. It’s just you have also thought the gang consisting of more members, but this truth..it startled you. If it was not lee Heeseung telling you probably would have kicked the speaker’s ass. But heeseung’s eyes tell you he is serious. Serious as hell and frightened. Heeseung is a genius. He can’t be joking now. Suddenly Heeseung took your arms and gently squeezed it. “don’t get that tensed princess. I just came here to warn you for extra safety. I don’t feel good.” He pauses for a moment and continued, “ The doctor told me you overworked yourself. Don’t do that. At least now. Your safety is very important. We can’t be vulnerable now. If you anytime think you need help. Call me without any hesitation. I’ll arrange bodyguards for you, if you ask.”

“ no, Sunghoon is a good fighter, I don’t need any body guard. Plus I’m also trained.”

He forced a smile. He nodded, and bid me good bye. Sunghoon entered almost immediately,

“ He is a freaking psycho. I’m telling you. Yesterday he nearly killed me thinking I did something to you. He is a freaking moron. Lunatic.”

“Sunghoon.” your eyes looking at his with pure love and hope.” promise me you will save me.”

“of course I will save you love. But suddenly..why? Anything wrong?”

You took his hand and rested your heads on there. His thumb brushed your cheek. “ Just an assurance.”

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.

When hospital was releasing  you the doctor told Sunghoon to seriously took care of me. And he also told him to make me happy in the bed very frequently. Because that will help release dopamine, oxytocin, thus helping me in recovery. It was awkward. really awkward. But whatever..well, he seemed concentrated than ever. It felt as if he was going to do it today only.

He opened the car and you entered. The strong smell of lavender filled the entire territory. Lavender is your favourite flower. His lips curled to make something like smile. His eyes were pleased with your expression.

His perfect fingers wrapped around the steering wheel. You looked outside. The city looked ethereal. The trees seemed to wave you goodbye. The soft music in the radio calmed your entire body. You laid back. Eyes closed. Your mind drifted to the yellow pages of memory. Memory is betraying. It can’t be trusted. It is never as fidelity as fly in amber. But it is soothing. You remembered how you felt about him, back in days. Admiration, respect, care. You felt all for him. He felt so far yet so close. His eyes always contrasted with his smile. You always felt a hidden pain in his eyes. Thriving for best. It felt he was hiding great depth in his eyes. It’s weird how you remembered the feelings you felt from his eyes, but not his eyes. Now his eyes tell you a different story. It tells you how happy he was, how he was enjoying all of the moment. May be Ueno is responsible for this change.

“Sunghoon, you will be a great Husband.”

The words left your mouth without any warning. One thing about Sunghoon is, after talking with him there is never an after thought. Your tired body welcomed sleep.

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[ in your room ]

Sunghoon made you a chicken stew and rice. He was looking at your enamoured face. He always loves how you get so excited when he cooks any food. Whether it is good or bad… she will devour it. Sunghoon was busy admiring your features, raw happiness.

You  looked terribly beautiful. His eyes were scanning you from head to toe. The red cardigan looked as if it was made for only you. Your hair was falling on your neck. It left him speechless. He was wondering how beautiful can someone  be. Then, he stares at your lips. A pinch of soya sauce made it more …delicious.  He was wondering how his chicken stew would taste in your lips.

“Sunghoon! Don’t you wanna take a bite?” you stretched your spoon to feed him. He was on cloud nine. Your necklace was placed carefully in your neck. You were wearing nothing underneath. Your bare neck with hint of cleavages were playing with his feelings. You were telling him something , but he was not paying attention at all. His gaze shifted to your waist, your leg was covered with bed cover. He could only imagine how you have crossed your legs.

 You noticed him swallowing the lump in his throat. The way his Adam's apple moved up and down , threw you in a frenzy mode. He was--

Very hot.

You licked your lips for the extra sauce and he couldn’t hold it anymore.

His lips crashed against yours. You can feel his desperation. You gasp. He rubbed his thumb against your cheek. You kissed back. He tasted like strawberry. Probably the lip balm. He was eating you, devouring you. He pulled for some air. Then reached for your cheeks with lips. He trailed down your neck, your collar bone. Then he reached for your neck. He softly bit you in your neck. You flinched with the bitter sweet pain. His one hand went inside your cardigan. He was slowly moving his hands against your soft skin. Then he pressed your hardened nipples for once. You were unbuttoning his shirt. Then you went to unzip his pants then you put your hands inside his boxer. He moaned in your mouth. Then he pulled you closer and undo your cardigan. You were moving your hands around his abs. He put both of his hands around your neck and laid you down. He opened your sweat pants threw  it on the other side of the room. Then he opened his boxers. His big friend came out. Well you remembered hazily he was big but that much. You’re not sure if it’s anyway gonna fit. He understood your confusion and confronted in husky voice,

“ You have already taken it inside before love.” [ a smirk formed in his lips]

It was all covered in pre cum. It was looking really…Delicious. You put it inside your mouth. He groaned. You were rubbing it all in your tongue. He tasted a little acidic, sweet.  Well let’s say you knew how to give a fuckingly insane blow job and you did. And he…went insane with the pleasure.he was moaning. Oh god his moans were also beautiful! He was tucking your hair beside the ears. He ripped off your panties.

“ open your leg baby girl.”he whispered in your ears and you did.

Then he licked your clit. He pulled his tongue inside out. Then he rubbed it with his hand. You were moaning mess now. He bit a little.

“AHHH…Sung..HOON! “

He was now in paradise. He positioned himself between your legs, the pushed it inside all at once. It went deep. You flinched in pain. He gently rubbed your back and kissed you.

Then he slowly pulled it outside. He then took his speed. Inside - outside. You yelped in pain. It was so good. You were really surprised that the bed could hold it that far. You reached your limit.

“Sunghoon!! I’m ….clo..se…”

“Hold it for a little long baby.”

He doubled it his speed. You dug your nails on his back. After sometime he too reached his limit. His paced slowed down. He jerked a little and put your lips inside his mouth. He said in your mouth,

“inside?..[ panting]”

 You just nodded. You have no energey for talking. He came inside. He was hot.

You closed your eyes and slept in his arms.

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[ Next morning ]

You woke up naked in Sunghoon’s arms. He looked so good in his morning messy hair. You admired him for a minute and then tried to wake up. He holds you tighter.

“a little more, please… love..stay like that”

His hot breath brushed against your neck. You moved your fingers through his messy hair. Then you pressed a kiss on his forehead. You woke up unwrapping his arms. Then you went to the bathroom. Sunghoon was looking your naked body being gracefully carried by you. It’s the best sight of all time.

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.

You were busy eating the pancakes made by this tremendous handsome man, then suddenly he broke the silence.

“ so that nasty monkey looking creature has given you 5 days leave to have rest. He told me in the hospital.”

You threw him a confused glance.

“ Well, the one who calls you God damn PRINCESS”

“you sometimes call me princess.”[ you said biting your pancakes]

“NO ! HEESEUNG. LEE HEESEUNG.”

You laughed at his expression.

“Honestly ! I’m surprised you remembered his name,[ laugh] he is definitely not monkey looking. He his really handsome.”

Sunghoon glared at you.

“So, princess, you have a boy friend remember? For freaking 1 months. How dare you call someone more handsome than this.”[ he gestured at his face]

Your expression suddenly changed.

“ we don’t have 1 months. 8 days are only left.”

Sunghoon knew it. But hearing it from you gave him chills. He was absolutely not prepared  to leave you. He can die to live with you, but he… Sunghoon suddenly felt tears in his eyes.

[ door bell rings]

You opened the door. Yeji was standing there with a bouquet of roses. She happily held it in front of you and entered the room.

“ huh! 2 plates I see.. my pretty lady got a boyfriend.”

“ well.. you came from Seoul? I thought you will come after graduation.”

“ yah I was supposed to. But my bro is getting engaged, so, you know.”

“ You have a brother? You never told me.”[ you frowned]

“ well, cutie.. he is a little too silent. And spent most of the times outside the house. Never gave me any tea to share. Plus he is like a lot lot different from me… let’s leave my moron brother for his fiance, you girl..Jesus… you are looking extra sexy. I’m so sad you got a boyfriend. Otherwise I would have taken you.”

The word boyfriend made you a little uncomfortable. You looked for Sunghoon. Maybe he had went in the room. You have forbidden him to come outside in front of your guests. You have a very small circle of friends. There were never any bestie in your life. You were highly uninterested in showing your relations in front of them. At least not the fake one. Among them Yeji is the closest. She is sweet, kind, fun , out going. You love her.

“ so higness, who stole your heart? Lee Heeseung?”

That is the time Sunghoon came outside saying,

“ NO! IT’S ME. PARK S----”

He paused seeing Yeji.  Shock would be an understatement to describe his condition. He was standing there open mouthed.

Then you heard Yeji’s faint voice,

“BROTHER!!!”

Be my Girl friend”

“Whattt!!! have  you gone nuts? One month from now and it’s your fucking engagement.”

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The story begins  in an aeroplane. 27th of March it was. The eye of the Heaven was shining brightly. The clouds were playing their fun cosplay in the lap of the tranquil vast sky. Humans who have taken a leave from their haste, must have been deciphering the cloud’s fun play. The world outside the plane was calm, undisturbed. This calmness heavily contrasted with your inside. There were hurricanes inside you. The man beside you was the one to blame. Not just because how well he was flipping the pages with his hands, a work of art it is. Green veins peeking from his fair skin was clearly teasing you.

Many a women would have sold their kidneys to sit beside him but here you are, waiting for any disaster to happen so that your seat gets exchanged. A plane crash did not seem much of a bad idea for you.  well if you ask why ? the answer is simple..you know him. His presence is taking you on the memory lane, you have stopped going many days before.

You had a massive crush on him back a days. you can vividly picturaize your first day at ice skating class. You are all at sea in alien surroundings. The confident girls never took notice of you. You were just standing there, hearing their whispers, not about you but about a mysterious figure, “ice Prince” as they called him. His coming was a great news for them. Your introvert ass was busy minding her own  business, then suddenly your gaze shifted. Following the crowd when it finally stopped you saw a boy, blue jacket, yellow gloves. He had a plain expression on his face. Both of your eyes meet for a second. Electricity run down your spine. You immediately averted your gaze. He was an excellent student and you are well an average. You were practically one of his admirer back then. How he gracefully moves on the ice had always made you loose focus. You were unsure if Greek Gods can beat his young visual. In your whole entire life you have never talked with him. But you took great pleasure listening to his stories from your Mom. I must not omit to slate that your Mom and his Mom were saloon friends. His mom always showed off his achievements and your mom as a silent listener engulfed all of it. Then she gossiped with you. How he was a picky eater, how he loved fruits all sort of things were on your lips. But one day he left..the school. You heard from the air he was a trainee under Hybe Labels. Good for him you thought. Just like that the crush gradually vanished and you started focusing on studies. That’s it. You are neither his ex nor childhood best friend nor rival. You are just ..well an existence he was never aware of. No exaggeration, no romantic trope. That’s it. An one shot story.

Now after 5 years you are again beside him. He has become more handsome. He really had surpassed your expectations. His dressing proves his wealth. His muscles are more defined. Honestly he has become too hard to ignore. You were just amazed how he had surpassed the Greek gods may be. Your thoughts were interrupted by air hostess’s voice. She was approaching Park Sunghoon.

“Sir, what item from the menu you would like to order?.”

“A black coffee with no sugar.”[ he said almost immediately]

You instinctively made a disgusting expression at his choice. Honestly! A black coffee! Sugarless! Eww.. is that  humanly possible to digest? You thought to yourself

The air hostess must have noticed your face, she spoke with a sweet chuckle,

“you are sure to not get Black Coffee, What else then mam?”

Sunghoon’s gaze concentrated on you. That’s all your brain need to stop operating. Wow. You are sure to have your name on the Guinness book for dying in the plane. The reason must be your 340 beats per minute heart beat. You can only mutter an indecipherable sound.

Your POV

Great! you suggested youself to start a webinar on "how to embarrass yourself". A criminal reporter is  out of words. What can be worse?

“ A caramel frappucino, with extra chocolate drizzle.”

Sunghoon’s words caught you off guard. You are unsure if it’s a magic world you have entered. You have expected him not to recognize you but he remembered your order of the cafeteria! ‘Surprised.’ would be an understatement for your condition .

“Okay sir. You both seem to be very close.”air hostess smilingly pointed out.

“yes , we know each other since childhood.”[ Sunghoon smiled brightly. His fangs enhanced the elegant smile]

You were just sitting there dumbfounded. Now your enemy( your brain) forces you to only  mutter a faint thank you. Say something else. Idiot!!!! you are losing a great opportunity to start a conversation. Well Sunghoon did not let this opportunity slide.

“You are still as shy as I remembered. Getting nervous in front of a air hostess? It is very unusual for a brave criminal reporter.”

You are still surprised at his comment. You pouted then frowned.

Your pout made sunghoon sure that there can be nothing cuter than this sight. Your red lips made him anxious..well a little shy as well. It could not escape your eyes. But you shrugged it off.

Sunghoon’s cheek became visibly red. You averted your gaze and said,

“you still remember me. That is quiet surprising. And you know my profession is more surprising”

Your honey like voice melted him.

“I saw your picture on the New York Times. That’s how. Plus I don’t tend to forget things easily.”

“oh! That’s good to hear. By the way what’s your destination?”

“Los Angeles.”[ he said focusing in your beautiful eyes.]

The plane is going to Los Angeles only. You thought you are getting a little too personal. So you just nodded and  brought your attention to the outside.

He seemed to read your mind and started explaining,

“University of California. I have a programme to attend there. And you?”

You were kind of relieved that he did not think it as invasion of his privacy.you replied,

“ Highland Park. My friend’s wedding. …”

The conversation gradually converted into a friendly one. The invisible wall you were creating in between suddenly seem to vanish. How much he remembered you kind of surprised you. You started feeling comfortable. The conversation went on through the whole plane journey. You found yourself giggling at his dad jokes. He started teasing you time to time. You were surprised to see how you both were similar in many ways. It almost felt like he is your soulmate. You both ended up exchanging numbers. In the air port you bid him good bye and parted ways.

When you finally retired at the bed in your friend’s house. You could not stop thinking about him.then suddenly..

Your phone buzzed. Message from Sunghoon.

‘ reached home safely?’

‘yup… abt you?’

‘of course. I told every murders I’m miss Y/N’s friend. They let me go without any word’

‘LOL!’

The conversation continued. You were very careful not to wake Liz up. Then with a good night the chat ended. It became almost a habit of you two to text everyday. He became well acquainted with your friend’s wedding bouquet landing on your hand. And you giggled at his  funny description of a student at the university.

Life started going at it’s own pace. Nowadays your workload doesn’t seem overwhelming. Chatting with Sunghoon was a reward after a long day. The converse was often mixed with flirty signals, funny jokes. It felt as if you got a long lost friend.

May be life wasn’t that bad after all. You have not told any of your friends about your this new found accompany. It’s just you and he..(uwuuu)

You were aware of your rekindled emotions towards him. The temptation was yet to be inevitable. You were glad to confide in him. That’s enough.  then oneday…

[ your phone ringed]

{unknown number}

‘hello?’

‘hi. I’m Mrs. Park. Sunghoon’s mother. Remember?’

“oh. Aunty. Yes yes I do remember. Any problem?”

“no, no, I actually wanted invite you. I personally sent your mother the card and thought to call you?”

“Oh , great. About what?”

“ your mother didn’t tell you…no worries… Sunghoon’s engagement party. 28th september. You have to come . I will not hear any excuses.”[ a faint chuckle was heard from the other side]

You felt your heart has been pierced into myriad fragments. Tears started to clamour into your eyes. You somehow managed yourself and with a shaking voice said,

“oh. Okay . someone is calling. Thank you auntie.”

You ended the call in haste.

You collapsed on the sofa. The cushion felt unbearably hard today. You are trying hard not to cry. Probably you are ashamed to break in front of yourself only. Sunghoon was never more than a friend to you, then why does your chest tightened at her mom’s words? Why the words are repeating itself like a broken radio. You thought he didn’t even know your name. Now for his small attention you are feeling weak…. That’s hideous. He is none but a friend to you. Why are you like this? Why do you fall in love that easily. Why your heart is that fragile?

But nothing stopped the outburst of emotions. You cried yourself to sleep.

[6:00 p.m]

Your eyes opened with the sound of calling bell. It felt as if someone  has gone crazy. You opened with much annoyance. The door opened revealing a tall figure silhouetted against the splendour chandelier’s luminescence.

Sunghoon…

Your sight seems to reassure him of something.

“ You are alive.”[ he said with a sigh of relief]

“why would I die?”[ you are sort of angry with his comment. You have just composed yourself  and then his arrival is kind of too much .]

He read your eyes and audaciously entered your house and retired himself on the sofa. He turned on the T.V and said,

“ I’m having a movie with cookies craving.”

“then what are you doing here?”[ your expression was pretty terrifying]

He wrapped his hands around your waist and positioned you beside him. Your heart skipped a beat and your brain froze. He let out a chuckle at your surprised expression. You blushed and averted your gaze.

‘5 centimeters per second’ was playing.

After a long pause, you managed to mumble a sentence,

“Your mom called me today.”

His hands were still enveloping you. His head was on your shoulder.

“So , mom told you..about..my engagement.”he said without looking up.

“ YUP..Congratulations.!!”[ you said putting on a fake smile and faux enthusiasm]

Another long pause.

He raised his head and almost forcefully put your head on his shoulder. You tried to resist but he grappled your sweatshirt and said,

“Please, stay like this.”

His voice felt unbearably hurt. So you obeyed. He sniffed your messy pony tail.

“your shampoo smells nice.”

You didn’t reply.The unspoken comfort in his warmth was somnolent. Can’t it be this way? What will go wrong if we stay like this forever? Why this has to be temporary? Why does it feel so real, so good?

You fell asleep.

[7:00 a.m]

Your eyes opened and widened instantly. You are in Sunghoon’s arms. His warm breath was caressing your nose. You are looking at him this closely for the first time. His angelic face seemed ethereal in the morning. You felt he must be some fallen angel. You wondered how perfectly his moles were situated. Then gazed at his lips. His lips were pink, with a faint glimpse of read. He had a kissable lips. You mentally slapped yourself. He has a fiance now!!!!! You tried to wake up .He is wrapping his arms around you so tight that you can’t even turn aside. Somehow he turned the opposite side, and you were relived from his arms. You slowly, conscientiously left the bed and about to head to the washroom. Then suddenly.

‘Got YOU!!!’

You flinched and lost balance. You fell on the ground hard.

“AHHHHHH!!! SUNGHOON !!”

He could not cease laughing at your condition.

Your butt hurts. You are about to wake up from the ground , like a flash he came and took you in his arms.

“That’s how I carried you in the bedroom yesterday. And that’s what you get for not thanking me.”

Well, your heart has forgotten to beat..it is busy admiring Sunghoon.

“ I have already made the break fast. SLEEPY HEAD.”[he said teasingly]

“banana pancakes with banana milk. I haven’t had it for so long.thank you so much.”[ you said shoving one pancake in your mouth. ]

He admired your happiness for a moment. The suddenly he spoke,

“ I’ve something to talk Y/N.  It’s serious. “

Suddenly the air between you two shifted. He didn’t hold the mystery for long. With a serious gaze he uttered,

“Be my girlfriend.”

You almost choked to death on your pancakes. You rose up from the chair and scolded

“Whattt!!! have  you gone nuts? One month from now and it’s your fucking engagement.”

“ I know. But… you know I never had a girlfriend….the extreme work pressure never allowed me to have one. I don’t know if I’m prepared to marry or not.”

“ so you are not marrying your girlfriend?”

“Nope. She is one of my father’s colleague's daughter.”

‘’how bad can it be?”[ you face palmed yourself”

“terrible! But I wanted to get prepared before marriage. Be my girlfriend for one month.please”

He said with pleading eyes

“why me ?” you asked .

“ you are the only female contact in my phone except my mom. Plus we both resonate well.”

“Well, NO…”

you said sternly. Probably you did not want to mess up your feelings more. It’s better to forget him.

“please Y/N. pease.” he said with pleading eyes.

“that’s a lame request. How do you know I will be a proper girlfriend.”

He stares at your soul. His eyes are fixed on yours. He becomes serious this time. He rises from the chair and pins you against the wall. He spoke in the manliest voice possible.

“ cause I know you will.”

The voice was alike a mafia commanding his sex slave to do her job. You got turned on. your nipples hardened. The proximity between you two is wetting your panties. Your breath hitched at the thought of him.  You lowered your head to hide your desperation.

“ I take that as a yes.[ his soft hand brushed one hair strand from your face] so…baby girl or honey which nickname suits better?”

The hormones has done their work. Your shy self suddenly turned itself into a bold one. You came closer to him. There was almost an inch of a difference between both lips. Holding his chin with one hand you whispered ,

“whichever you want..”then you flee to the washroom.

Sunghoon was left alone on the hall. Your smell still lingered in the air. He was greatly relieved at your yes. But when you came closer his crotch hardened. He became restless with your whisper. He also went to the bathroom to…you know….

 After your whole bodycare routine, you found yourself in front of  blushed Sunghoon. Probably your hotness takes it’s peak in bathrobe. You have got this expression many times before. but this time it felt a little different.

You are a criminal reporter. You have solved deadliest cases. So you are undoubtedly a perfectionist. You always make proper plan before you take step. When Sunghoon told you to prepare him, you took it seriously, a little too seriously. Out of the blue you asked,

“let me get this straight. Have you ever slept with a girl before?”

He shook his head.

“kiss?”

He again shook his head.

You face palmed yourself. That is not you are expecting from a fuckingly handsome man. His innocence made you laugh. But you composed yourself. Bathrobe barely covered your shimmering legs. One above another as you kept it. Your cleavage was attracting his eyes vigorously. He tried to focus on your face. But your bright red lips and wet hair was pouring fuel on his burning desire. You noticed how it is getting awkward, so you took Sunghoon's shoulder and made a eye contact.

“ We don’t have time to get shy……you have to learn it before your marriage. And,,you are the owner of this idea.”

Sunghoon knows it was his idea. He need to get prepared before it is too late. His heart was throbbing in his chest. He simply nods. And nerves himself for his next words,

“ so baby? Would you love to watch a movie?” he shutters.

You let out a chuckle. You could not help but melt at his cuteness.

Life is a great mystery. The boy you have never thought looked at you…was in your arms now. You should have been happy. But it is all temporary. It is sure to end. 1 month is all you have. The comfort in his arms feels to pierce through your heart. The warmth feels sharp. Your chest tightened thinking how he is unaware of your love. He knows you but you are unknown to him. You wanted to take his arms and ask him directly in his eyes, does he feel the warmth too. Can he feel how comfortable it is. How real it feels. Was he that unaware? You console your feelings thinking that it was just mere attraction. It will go sooner or later. It will go. It has to go.

You thought acting around him, being around him would vanish your feelings. You saw it on tik tok. No woman can tolerate a man, right? Boy you were wrong.

The more you spend time with him. The deeper the connection was growing. How he was attentive to your all words…how he remembered your choice of drink…how he always ate the left over pizza crust..how he always peeled your shrimps…. everything seemed a little too real. Too hard to ignore.

He always made your favourite breakfast according to your craving. Spending time with him after your tedious job felt like a holiday. Fun jokes, solemn moment everything…just…perfect…

It was 19 day to his engagement. You are feeling a humungous grief building inside your chest. Like every day you woke up in his arms, joked around and went to office after giving him a good bye hug. But as the day is approaching evening, your grief is becoming unbearable. You went to a bar. Sunghoon had a business meeting, he was supposed to come late. You took shots after shots. After finishing 5th bottle of the liquor you passed out. The bartender called your emergency contact and Sunghoon picked up.

Within 15 minutes he reached the bar and started finding you. The dazzling lights are blinding his eyes. He recognized your hair. You are lying your head in such a way that the hairs fell across your face. He tied your hair in a ponytail and picked you in arms. You are sleeping like a baby. He was busy adoring your face.  Then suddenly you woke up,

“you..are..so…..hanndd…ssoomeeeeee….”[ you said half dozed. Pointing at him]

His heart skipped a beat. He carried you to his car. Then you wake up and picked a chocolate lying in the seat and shoved it in your mouth. His friend gifted him before his engagement as a gift. Now you put another half in your mouth in such a way that 1/3 part was hanging outside your mouth. You signaled him to bite and so did he. It was an aphrodisiac chocolate, …. it was 5 times more powefull.

The chocolate did it's work. After 5 minutes you felt your stomach squirling. You felt horny. You were drunk. you easily opened your jacket and relaxed your shoulders. You are now in your bra and shorts. It’s a bra from victoria’s secret. It provides a half sneak peak into your nipples. Your nipples hardened at the action. You started moving your hand around  your bare chest. Throughout the whole time you thought you were in dream and the guy beside you is not real. Your this misunderstanding with reality cost you lot. You started fingering, yes and in front of him. You occasionally moaned with pleasure. He was getting fucking distracted with your behaviour. Thank god the road was serendipitous. He reached home and covered you with his jacket. He took you out of the car and reached the door. You were stumbling. Your one hand was on his shoulder. He opened the door and put you on the couch.

“the dream feels too real..” you mumbled. And without wasting a second you crashed your lips against his. He followed. He started to press his clothed hard dick against your clit. While chocking your throat he pulled out from the kiss. You started rubbing his dick. Then slowly but steadily you desperately opened his belt, revealing his hard cock. The tip of the cock is filled with his pre cum. Veins were bulged out from his big thick big cock. You started sucking his tip without wasting a single minute.  It went deep inside your throat. You liked from side ways. You thwarted in and out. Then you sucked his balls, while messaging his penis. He threw his head out of pleasure. Then you woke up again crashing your lips on him. He did not go slow on you this time. He started biting your lower lips , almost devouring you. His hand moved around your whole body pulling you closer. A soft moan escaped your mouth, in between kisses. You pulled out for air and he started sucking your neck, finding your sweet spot. There he left some biting marks. He then bit one of your nipple while playing with another. Then he pushes you on the bed and hovers over you.for a moment he admired your naked body then teared his t shirt. You ran your fingers on his abs as he was sucking your nipples. Then he went to your clit and put his tongue . Rubbing your pussy with tongue. He bit you a little .

“Sung..h..oon.., ahhh….it’s so..goo….d…”

That moan was all that needed for him to take the speed. He started  fucking you so hard with his tongue only. The room became a hot mess with your moans. Then Sunghoon positioned you before him and put his dick inside you. Your hip rubbed against his. You felt pain first then it turned into pleasure. You have been fucked before, but it never felt that good. He was thrusting  so good. You both were moaning now.

“I’m comm…iii…n…ggg….ughhh, I can’t…”[ you panted heavily , you are on your edge..so as Sunghoon.

“I’m too…ahhhh…” Sunghoon said breathlessly.pleasure was evident in his voice.

You both cum at the same time.

“i wish it was real..” you said before dozing off.

 You were so tired you fell asleep immediately.

[ 6:30 a.m]

You woke up beside Sunghoon. Like every other day his arms were enveloping you..then..you noticed… you were naked….and so as he..you wanted to scream..but you can’t. the 5 bottles of hard drinks made your voice so dry. Your head was heavy as hell. You then realized..wait…NOOOOOOOO!!

THAT WAS NOT A FUCKING DREAM. WE HAD SEX LAST NIGHT…….WHAT THE……

“AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH”..You screamed on the top of your lungs.

Sunghoon woke up at once.

“what on earth?????... I see princess is woken up now. Still not over last night..?”

You hit his head and almost shouted,

“GET THE HELL OUT OF MY ROOM..NOW!!! WEAR A FUCKING PANT.”

He was about to say chill darling, but in front of your raging eyes, he couldn’t say a word. He left the room. Before leaving the room he quickly pecked your cheek.

“Good Morning kiss, bbye,..” he flee out of the room,

You were not angry with him. His peck seemed to have cooled your rage. You felt shy now as you remembered last night. You freshened up. And went out of the room. Sunghoon was ready at the table with 2 bowl of pho.

“you knew how to make a pho?”you smilingly said.

Your smile was his weakness. His ears became pink. But you didn’t notice. You were too busy savoring the noodles.

Then he broke the silence,

“free today? Let’s go to the mall.”

 “okay” you mumbled with a mouth full of meat.

Time skip. In the mall.

When you entered the mall, a movie poster caught your eye.

“let’s go to movies..’

You dragged Sunghoon there. And luckily it was not a house full cinema, you got a ticket. The hall was mostly empty. It was some lame Rom Com movie. The couple behind you were making out. You both had a great time cringing, laughing. You felt a deeper connection with him. After the movie ended you both were heading to an ice cream parlour. Then suddenly he spoke,

“thank you Y/N. all thanks to you..I learned how to kiss, have sex… oh my god. I can be a perfect husband now. Don’t you think Y/N?”

Then suddenly the reality hit you… he was right…you have almost ignored the fact that he was doing it all for his fiance. He was not yours. You knew it. But still your stupid heart didn’t listen. It fell. Fell even deeper. Now it feels you are drowning. Your feelings are unjustified. You knew it all along…still you made the biggest mistake..love was hurting you…badly. you wanted to rewind the timeline and make this month an never ending one.  Tears started clamouring in your eyes.  Then suddenly,

A sweet voice called Sunghoon. You looked up to see the owner..there you saw  a beautiful lady. She was wearing a pastel colour dress, pink lip gloss, hair curled perfectly.

You looked at Sunghoon for her identity but found him completely enamoured by her beauty. He didn’t even blink. His cheeks and ears were flushed then it hit you…she was…his fiance.

( Disclaimer: I could have just written wonyoung as her name..but no, I can’t do that to my wony. Let’s name her Ueno..you know the one from silent voice..yaaa let’s continue)

Curiosity glistened at her eyes. You being beside Sunghoon had visibly confused her. Sunghoon immediately explained,

“My Friend. "

The lady smiled, It’s a smile of Hera. Perfect would be an understatement. She is gorgeous. Then they started chatting. You glanced at Sunghoon. He was clearly melting. You have never seen him that shy. He was always so confident around you. Then his that side…it was reserved for her only. You took a leave from them.

You strolled around the pavement. Your head was filled with his contrasting two sides. How he is so different for her. How she is perfect. It is good. You should be happy. But you felt like vomiting. You mindlessly entered the bar nearest you.

Loud music was engulfing your body. You can't have the liquor you had last night. Cause it carries memory. You knew for sure the taste will take you to the last night. You are minding your own business then suddenly you came across your colleague. Lee Heeseung. He spotted you and took a chair to sit next to you. You both started chatting and taking shots of soju. His fun jokes made you occasionally smile.

But you were unaware of Sunghoon’s gaze. He was watching you two all along. His fist tightened at the sight.

Sunghoon’s POV

Ueno is really pretty. But…I don’t  know why I never felt easy with her. The small talk could never become a conversation. So I thought may be I was just shy. So I choose Y/N to train me. But now, it feels even worse. I can’t concentrate on her single word. My mind was just drifting away to her, Y/N. The pictures of her brushing my hair with her hand, her giggles keep distracting me. Even when Ueno gave me ice cream I could not take it. I was just hoping it ends soon. I wanted to run to her.  See Y/N. My Y/N. I tracked her phone location to surprise her with a plushie, that looked just like her. But here I am dumbfounded. Looking at her with someone else. She looked happy. What was this feeling? Jealousy? Am I falling for her ?again?