i have been meaning to make this post for a while. by 'a while', i mean months. maybe two. maybe three. maybe four. i lost count.

thing is, i lost motivation a long time ago. last year actually. i had an account before this (for the mutuals who had figured out my previous account, i'm talking about another account before that, where i wrote and posted a lot of fics in a very short time). i had deactivated that account around two months after i had opened it. it wasn't like i had a bad traction on my fics. they would usually get around 800-1000 notes within a week or so.

thing is, i would post fics on that account often. too often. sometimes i would post two fics per week. which, quite naturally caused me to feel completely burnt out in just two months.

i had impulsively made a decision to deactivate on that account. which i still regret till this day. on that account, i had a completely different identity, so please don't try to connect me to any previously deactivated account. i wasn't a very well known account either, so i doubt anyone would know my previous account.

i opened another account a month or to before i opened this one. didn't post any stories, but gained a few writer mutuals. before i deactivated that one too to focus on my studies.

which led me to open this account. it was fun at first. i published a fic, gained quite a lot of traction on it for a new account, gained a bunch of lovely mutuals who i can proudly call my friends today. it was great, everything i wanted, but better.

but... the entire reason i ever opened any blogs on this app was because of my love and passion for writing. but somehow, that flame of passion is flickering. it's dying. slowly, but steadily.

no matter what i try—by reading more, forcing myself to write, watching movies—nothing, absolutely nothing is helping.

you know that feeling when you think you can do something? or you know you can do it—for whatever reason it maybe, you simply cannot bring yourself to do it? it's similar to how i feel towards writing. i can force myself to write, i definitely can do that. but it's not the same as actually wanting to do it of my own accord.

this entire mindset of mine has reflected into my writing. i know some of you love certain works of mine, but i loathe them. absolutely abhor them from the bottom of my heart. yes, even the reader favourite 'fatal obsession'. till this date i have no idea why you guys liked it so much.

if anyone made it so far into this stupid monolouge of mine, congratulations, you're a very patient person. i truly admire your tenacity.

perhaps i have yapped too much. i'll come to the point now. i'm closing this account. is it forever? who knows? i may come back, if that passion for writing ever comes back. which may be never. i know, i had promised two long fics, but if i try to continue writing them, they will turn out terrible. absolute abominations, worse than even those cringe bts oneshots available on youtube. which is... saying something.

special thanks to (i'm really sorry for tagging you guys unnecessarily on this long ass yapping session of mine) my lovely friends who had made my stay on this account extremely enjoyable: @senazzzz @livthelobster @blueberrybeomgyu @heeambi @dollyyun @cunty4hee @cunty4riki

signing off, angel

I understand and respect your decision of leaving (I really hope you'll come back one day stronger and feeling better than ever), but please don't delete this account or any of your works here! I personally am a huge fan of your Fatal Obsession work, and I feel like other people also should get a chance to read this masterpiece and I won't be lying by saying I'm not bummed out by the fact we'll not be getting the fatal obsession part 2 (not any time soon ig) but like I said I respect your decision.

Anyways, hope you do well and be prosperous and achieve the best of things you wish and desire.

LOADS OF LOVE 🫶🏻🎀✨️💋😫💜🫂🖤🥹

- the first anon who asked for a FO part 2 🫶🏻

hi sweetheart <33 i PROMISE i was gonna answer it a lot sooner but tumblr decided to be a bitch and delete my long ass essay that i wrote in response.

first of all, i wanted to say that i have no intention of deleting my blog or any of my works. guaranteed, i had thought about it a lot of times—more times than i can count, honestly. nevertheless, after a lot of thinking, i had ultimately decided not to. while i will never understand how my worst work (fatal obsession) is so loved, i'm glad it is eitherway <33 since, it is afterall the result of my hardwork—even if i hate it a bit too much.

following which, i'm sorry to have once again disappointed everyone who was excited about a part two by giving them false hope about it. as an apology, (kind of a half hearted apology, soryy about that) here is the draft of it (ignore the word count, i promise i had written more but forgotten to update it 😭):

also, to add on to the original post of me leaving this platform (as a writer!!!) i wanted to say that writing anything that exceeds 10k is a problem for me. doesn't matter if the main plot is yet to be written, or the first 10k is just meaningless introduction of the actual plot, it's really hard for me. fatal obsession was supposed to be longer, atleast 15k, but after it hit 10k, i just... blanked out. i simply couldn't write anything else.

another fic in my drafts (sweet venom) is supposed to be 30k minimum, but i blanked out after 10k. i don't know why, but i simply don't know what to write. even if i know what will happen in the rest of the fic i just... can't put it into words. it's become really hard to write in general for me.

either way, i'm really sorry towards everyone that read fatal obsession and wanted a part two. i do hope to come back with my passion for writing completely renewed, as writing had been my dream ever since i was around... 10? when i do, i promise to serve really good fics, which both me, and the rest you would love 🫶🏻

ILOVEYOUSMYOUHAVENOIDEAHOWHAPPYIAMI'MLITERALLYJUMPINGANDWHATNOTAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHTHANKYOUSMFORSTARTINGWITHFATALOBSESSION2

HELPPPP i love asks like this–

in which, you are loved. just a little too much.

GENRE — psychopath au, criminal au, stalker au, unhealthy obsession au

WARNINGS — DEAD DOVE DO NOT EAT, noncon, multiple character deaths, individual warnings are in individual chapters

NOTE — READER'S DISCRETION ADVISED!!! you are responsible for what you consume, so please, proceed with caution. goodluck! trust me, you're going to need it.

MINORS DO NOT INTERACT

FATAL OBSESSION — l.hs (11.8k words)

even if your best friend seemed to have found the love of her life, the one that keeps her the happiest, while also treating you, and everyone else with respect—you can't help but feel something was... off about him. you didn't dwell on it much—something which proved to be a fatal mistake on your part.

FATAL TROUBLE — l.hs ft. p.sh (loading...)

despite heeseung being in jail, the feeling of him still being around, somewhere, somehow—it never went away. you even got a therapist, but nothing helped. they called it paranoia, ptsd—what not. then the murders happened. but still, no one believed you. there was only one option left. taking matters in your own hands. was the decision stupid? well... you would find that out soon enough.

I'll eat up every-single-bit of it 😭😭😭😭

😔🎀💔