Pony,

is anyone else feeling super uneasy energy? it’s been like this for at least 24 hours, but the more I search within the more vague the source becomes. I can’t believe I’m even writing about my feelings on this platform as if I didn’t just get a new a midori A5 notebook. It isn’t the same, plus my hand cramps up a lot. I’m preeeeetty sure this is a sign of juvenile arthritis. I should eat more calcium and minerals. I feel guilty every time I eat. It’s not like I can go to the gym or really spend time outside comfortably. That’s one thing I dislike about living in the city. Even if I didn’t though... where would I go? I don’t quite feel safe in the south. you never know what kind of folk you’ll run into in Texas. So I stay indoors and try to work on my oblique muscles and try to make it fun when I cook. 

I don't know a thing about why or how our stars aligned, I don't know for how long, I certainly do not know why they fell out, but they did and the absence (your absence) has left an imprint that I am not too proud to wear