sapitus napitus

(I'm still sick but I am now thinking about Alaska)

"Yeah. We're tough. I'm just glad I can have a small break with you..." Sapnap finally did pull away, sniffing. His eyes were averted, not wanting to show Bad how much he was struggling.

"Of course my little Ember. I'm happy to provide you with that solace."

They paused, blinking, tilting their head a bit when Sapnap asked them if they could ask him a question about morals. They raised a brow at that before giving a small nod with a hum.

He paused. "... I don't talk to Quackity. He hasn't been here, and wouldn't let me explain last time, so I... I just... Even when I don't have to take care of Karl, I never see him."

He squeezed his eyes shut, trying to ignore the ache in his throat. He couldn't cry, not in front of Dream and especially not with XD in his head. No, no. He shook his head.

"That doesn't matter!" He yelped finally. "It has nothing to do with Tommy or anything, it has everything to do with Quackity being-" He huffed.

Sapnap didn't love Quackity any longer. Not after everything that had happened. Not after this. That didn't mean he was suddenly going to do something drastic. No, he'd find someone else to- to...

His expression faltered.

"But yes. Tommy went through hell too. I'm not going to compare them like Sam and Quackity are. Leave Toms out of it."

He rubbed his eyes slightly.

"M...Mom.. She... She might watch me.. but.. but.. Sir and Warden say she wishes i were executed so... so.. i.. i don't know..."

His voice waivered keeping his eyes to the ground, as he flinched once more.

"It's.. probably best if i stay... I deserve this... Maybe... Maybe I'll die... we never tested out the starvation death... maybe.. maybe my limbo will change from dying of starvation..."

He muttered quietly as he started to feel himself disassociate.

"Oh I said that aloud..."

He blinked before looking up towards Sapnap.

"Shut up. Shut up. No- No fucking dying. You're getting out of here." He promised, hands balled into tight fists. His nails dug into his palms, but he barely noticed the pain.

"I don't wanna hear about you dying, or your limbo, or anything. I don't want to-" He huffed, body relaxing enough to lose the horns.

Sapnap didn't have the energy to smile though. But the offer of a hug, the open arms... he darted forward and hugged onto Bad, burying himself against his father.

"Just so tired..." He muttered. "I'll be okay. We'll be okay..."

“Mm I get that… you have been through so much… and at such a young age… you have every right to be tired…” he murmured, his hand now gently carding through their hair. Honestly, even though Bad hadn’t been as involved in their son’s life nowadays, he still cared. He would always be there for him, no matter. Squeezing them gently, they relaxed their hold but didn’t release them yet; not planning on breaking until Sapnap did.

"Yeah. We're tough. I'm just glad I can have a small break with you..." Sapnap finally did pull away, sniffing. His eyes were averted, not wanting to show Bad how much he was struggling.

His hand slowly, slowly reached out, before tapping Dream's shoulder a bit. He recoiled like touching the other burned, jaw clenching softly.

"Shit. Don't-"

Sapnap felt his own panic surging, choking himself out. Bile rose in his throat, mouth snapping shut as he stared at Dream.

Quackity.

On one hand, he should have known. Quackity had become a real bitch recently- but this- this was different. This was way different. His breathing stuttered, shaking his head a little. "That- fucking-"

Sapnap felt a part of his heart die, shoulders slumped and body shaking. He'd already lost so much, and now he had to contend with he'd lost Quackity again, and Dream wasn't even his friend anymore.

"Quackity. Fuck. Fuck!"

Sapnap stood quickly and turned away from Dream, hand covering his mouth. His breathing was labored. "I- I can't just- God, I don't know what to do..."

As Sapnap gently tapped him he recoiled from it, moving to hid his face in his legs. He couldn't stop the crying. He was afraid in general, of everything right now. Flinching ever so slightly as he heard the voices. Going slightly rigid he moved to put his legs down and sit with his back towards the wall. As if he heard someone tell him to do it.

"I'm sorry sir... i-i won't... i won't hide my face anymore..."

It was painfully clear that Dream didn't hear Sapnap's voice. Rubbing his eyes of the tears he just sat there with his eyes to the ground.

"Aww... How unfortunate. He didn't even hear you. How does it feel knowing Quackity did allll of this to him. I mean you said you hated Dream right? You dropped him without any sort of remorse to it... And the funny thing is, he still sees you as a friend but knows you don't feel the same!"

A chilling voice ran through the air around Sapnap's ears. A voice only he could hear and yet knew so well... XD's voice.

"It's been months and look! Look how much things can change in 8 months! The last you visited he was at least the same person you knew but what is this here? It's a shell of the person you knew."

A laugh broke out as the air grew heavier around Sapnap.

He squeezed his eyes shut, trying to ignore the ache in his throat. He couldn't cry, not in front of Dream and especially not with XD in his head. No, no. He shook his head.

"That doesn't matter!" He yelped finally. "It has nothing to do with Tommy or anything, it has everything to do with Quackity being-" He huffed.

Sapnap didn't love Quackity any longer. Not after everything that had happened. Not after this. That didn't mean he was suddenly going to do something drastic. No, he'd find someone else to- to...

His expression faltered.

"But yes. Tommy went through hell too. I'm not going to compare them like Sam and Quackity are. Leave Toms out of it."

-- @flamxd

"Dad-" He muttered, before going quiet. "... realized it's been a while. How are you?"

-- @flamxd

Impromptu Inbox Ask (not really since I asked for it lol) || ALWAYS ACCEPTING // @flamxd

😇The netherborn had been... dealing with quite a bit since everything. He had been in the process of feeding Rat when they heard the knock at the door. Replying with a 'one moment please!' He finished up what he was doing before making his way to the front door. The demon approaching the door, pausing as they caught scent of a familiar scent.

Opening the door, their white eyes widening a bit behind the slim white frames of their glasses upon seeing that their nose had been correct rather than playing tricks on them. "Sap! Hi!" They retorted, their tail swaying slightly to the side as they studied their son; their gaze softening a bit at their words.

Sapnap didn't have the energy to smile though. But the offer of a hug, the open arms... he darted forward and hugged onto Bad, burying himself against his father.

"Just so tired..." He muttered. "I'll be okay. We'll be okay..."

-- @flamxd

❝ lay down. you need to lay down. put your head in my lap. ❞

❝ i think i’m about to pass out. ❞

❝ what happened to you? come inside. come inside. ❞

❝ i know it’s late, but… i need you here. ❞

❝ [name]. you’re bleeding. ❞

❝ the more you freak out, the faster you’re going to bleed. just take it easy. ❞

❝ just keep talking to me. ❞

❝ you’re safe. it’s just a panic attack. just squeeze my hands, okay? ❞

❝ can you talk? ❞

❝ stay with me— hey. [name]? oh my god, please don’t do this. ❞

❝ please don’t leave. ❞

❝ you’re not gonna die. i’m not gonna let you die. ❞

❝ i know you want to sleep, but you need to stay awake for me. ❞

❝ it’s okay. just go to sleep. i’ll be here when you wake up. ❞

❝ it hurts. oh my god, it hurts— ❞

❝ it’s not as bad as it looks, i swear. ❞

❝ i know it hurts. just hang in there, okay? ❞

❝ i’ve got you. you’re safe now. ❞

❝ i need you to tell me what’s wrong. what are you feeling? ❞

❝ it’s okay. it’s alright. let it out. ❞

❝ there’s nothing to be embarrassed about. you’re sick. ❞

❝ let me make you some soup. ❞

❝ let me make you some tea. ❞

❝ i didn’t want to worry you. ❞

❝ it’s okay to cry. i know it hurts. ❞

❝ wrap your arms around my neck. i’m gonna carry you. ❞

❝ i’m gonna take good care of you. don’t you worry. ❞

❝ please help me. please. ❞

❝ stop moving, just let me hold you. ❞

❝ breathe with me. in and out… good job. just keep doing that. ❞

❝ i can’t feel my hands— ❞

❝ i can’t move it. i think it’s broken. ❞

❝ i can’t see. ❞

❝ i’m not gonna let anything happen to you. ❞

❝ don’t look at it. just keep your eyes closed, and breathe. ❞