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For Ukrainian, I'm grossly underqualified

For Russian, I'm grossly overqualified

Or grossly underqualified for both

This is how the occupation and the information vacuum created by the Russians makes you feel.

Recently I was able to remember my culture, language, and I was able to see more of the truth, to logically piece together what actually happened in 2014, and not what Russian propaganda is telling us.

So yes, maybe not always, but now when I look at Ukrainians who are not afraid to say that they are Ukrainians (and in the occupied territories you can’t say that, you must believe that you are "Russian" and say that you are "Russian".), then I no longer feel that I'm "not Ukrainian enough." I feel at home looking at them.

it's weird seeing young writers be like:

"Hihi-haha, I know nothing about war, but I'm writing a book about war!!! It's so funny!!!😂🤣."

Um... do some research??? About Ukraine, for example...

There are so many Ukrainians and articles online, so many people who talk about the terrible things that happened during the war (which is still ongoing). And so many Ukrainians you can ask about things you could do to write a better book.

And the Russians and the people I live next to in the occupied territories are gloating.

"For Starobilsk"

Does the fact that Russian soldiers were sitting there matter to you?

They did everything right.

You, russians, occupied Starobilsk yourself, killed people yourself, and are you angry that someone dared to kill people there besides you?

What stupidity.

Real stupidity.

You are to blame, no one is to blame.

First you kill people, mock them, rape, torture them, and then you are angry that your soldiers were killed so that this war would end.

Occupied by Russia since 2014±.

I'm scared, I'm hurt(mentally, I mean...), I'm tired.

But it's not safe to talk about it. I don't want to end up like those who talked about it here.

It's very apathetic to live here. Yes, we hear a lot of lies here and can't distinguish them from the truth.

We live in an information vacuum.

People say "It doesn't matter, we'll never know the truth anyway."

I'm terrified to see how broken my peers truly look, how much the sparkle in their eyes disappears when the conversation turns to the future, work, family, further education.

I don't want to be a part of it. Of the cycle of Apathy.

You know, right now it all seems so absurd to me that I'm starting to think that right now someone will tell me this was all a joke, and I simply didn't know about it or I misunderstood everything.

As if in fact "all people are kind and wish me well", but I don’t understand it and they are about to admit that they were joking, and the military will lay down their arms and go back to Russia.

Btw, Google only opens here with a VPN.(for a long time, actually. Maybe for a few years already) They blocked it.

If you see them, don’t take pictures, don’t look, don’t talk, walk as far away from them as possible, but don’t run, just walk.

If you see their car, leave. They might pick you up, but they are also terrible and crazy drivers. Yes, they really are terrible drivers. They do not bear any punishment.

There is so much I want to say, but so little I can say.

They're scary because when they do bad things, they're cold and formal. How insensitive do you have to be to be so cold and formal while doing terrible things?

If You See This, Please Don't Spread It Too Much.