Love, Me.

just had clinicals today and I wanted to debrief some of the emotions I was feeling. I was so anxious thinking about going into the ED today. last night, i was thinking how today won’t be so bad as long as i don’t go into the ED and lo and behold… as soon as I walked into the conference room, Natalia and Liz were like guess where you’re going, Connie…………… (in a happy voice, lol). I was like…

i don’t know what it is, but today, i’m feeling pretty sentimental. my feelings feel like they’re right at the surface. talking about giving birth and my kids has me in my feels. maybe i’m about to get my period soon? lol i’m not sure. today was week 1 day 2 of the January 2023 session. learned about analgesics in class, and i also learned that hydromorphone (Dilaudid) is basically heroin. and…

sometimes (ok, let’s be real, MOST times), i can’t believe i’m a mom of three. i’m 32yo, currently in nursing school, mom of 3 beautiful kids, with a loving husband, and a house. the other night, Joie happened to be napping while we were eating dinner (G, A, and I). we ate side by side and when we were done, we were just sitting at the dining table – kids on their ipads, and me on my phone – and…

we moved into our first ever (purchased) home this past weekend. man, highly anticipated and so thankful for this place. We got it repainted and it makes a world of difference. I’ve been so tired because I haven’t been getting much sleep. I haven’t been doing much of the unpacking (or packing for that matter), and I’m super thankful that Chris has been handling it. school is getting busy. last…

do it damn well.

22:59/28 January 2021I was studying parts of the microscope earlier today or yesterday for microbiology and I thought I heard chris coming out of the room and was like… a little bit uncomfortable to be studying parts of the microscope. I was uncomfortable because I was ashamed. I’m 30 and studying parts of a microscope!? I’m pretty sure like 6th graders do that. and then I thought, why? why is…

setting him up for success

to be honest, I really have not prioritize my relationship with God at all. it’s been a long time since I feel like I’ve put forth any sort of effort at all, and in the past couple of weeks, I feel like God’s been speaking to my heart. I guess it started with the “lecture” that my FIL gave to me and Chris. this was really meant for just Chris, per my FIL, but I was there listening anyway. he…

I’m so dramatic. this was probably the longest week ever. I started feeling tooth pain last Sunday (8 days ago), which quickly escalated on Monday afternoon. I went to see Dr. Song to see what’s going on and in a few words she said that I have a tooth infection and I may be able to salvage it but we’re not sure. She gave me antibiotics, told me the pain would be pretty severe and that I will…

Chadwick, 20/20 in 2020

Chadwick Boseman, King T’Challa, The Black Panther, passed away 3 days ago – 8/28/2020. He was only 43 and had lived his last 4 years quietly battling stage III (progressed to stage IV) colon cancer. he was diagnosed at age 39 of stage III colon cancer… why? Lord, why? I didn’t know much about his work or him before he passed away, to my dismay. he was a christian, and from what I’ve heard/read,…

this Tuesday, I start school again. wow, that’s literally a daunting thing to say at the ripe age of 30. I know 30 isn’t even that old, but honestly, it feels old to be starting school again. my brain isn’t ready, my psyche isn’t ready, my emotions and mentality, hate to break it to you, don’t feel ready. I tried a couple of study sessions just to try and “exercise” my brain and remember what…

Andrew posted on IG and FB a little bit ago that RG passed away. it’s so surreal to me that someone once so healthy became so unhealthy so quickly – someone that was so lively is no longer has any breath in his lungs, no beat to his heart.

RG, you were the best boss anyone could ask for, and you changed my life – gave me confidence I never knew I had; trusted me, showed me grace, coached me.…

“You’ll see I wear only gray or blue suits,” [Obama] said. “I’m trying to pare down decisions. I don’t want to make decisions about what I’m eating or wearing. Because I have too many other decisions to make.”

“God’s unique gifting is in you in a particular sense. God’s unique image is in you in a general sense. God’s unique gifting is in you in a particular sense. Don’t try to be somebody else; don’t fail at being somebody else.” – Ravi Zacharias.

this morning, one of our trucks was stuck on the highway in stand-still traffic due to a fatal accident. damn, it hits hard. death hits me harder now than when I was younger. I have no idea who this person was, but it still feels like a dull jab to my side. yet another reminder of how fragile life is.