my heart is a fish

Loved that Rawfield, in the moment of stress of processing the death of someone she knew and worked with and was friends with for years, fall back into the easy framework for understanding the world she learned as a member of the Trust. She's upset, and in her upset defaults to tallying Steve's crimes (leading Merlin, Guy, and Barbara to their deaths) and saying because of them he owes the Crew a debt that he needs to repay. It shows both how upset she is that she's falling back into those though patterns even though she deeply detests the Trust and what it represented, but it also shows the appeal of that way of thinking in the first place. It's much easier to process a loss if it's something concrete someone has to pay for in a concrete way; the lack of moral abstraction is the appeal. There's a clarity that is appealing especially when you're grieving.

Important to remember that Norengrave was dragged away from New Year's celebrations (stewing moodily and slightly drunkenly over a plate of olives) to have that teletheric conversation with Merlin. From S3E1:

His week just keeps getting better and better

What incredible act of faith in Merlin giving him a fresh ultraboc was on the part of the Biological Man. Merlin had just struck him in anger and admitting to meaning to hurt him when he did it, even as the Biological Man tried to say that he didn't. Merlin and he had been having conflict for weeks. Merlin was currently in the middle of trying to kidnap the whole crew and use them as sacrifices to travel to a different cosmos. He'd said so many hurtful things and proven that he was not in his right mind by virtue of the thought patterns he was verbalizing. And the Biological Man knows better than pretty much anyone how much power is in a fresh boc, because he helped install them into the Ship's boc array and watched them overwhelm and destroy the equipment meant to measure their energy output.

There’s a beautiful parallel/counterpoint happening between Merlin in s2e17 Grace and Merlin in s3e16 Vector when faced the with prospect of Dot sacrificing themself.

Re: Unend doodle ideas, one of the most distinct visual images for me in recent episodes was Mother Artifice in the pool like a jellyfish trying to put on his water wings.