Game of Love - Hwang Hyunjin SMAU
A/N: Here’s the long awaited backstory 😭 i’m so sorry
Warnings: Mentions of SA, swearing, threatening, violence, let me know if i mjssed anything
6 years ago - Sophomore Year of Highschool
You’d been together since sophomore year. The two of you met in biology. It was the first day and Hyunjin had arrived late to class, which you would soon find out - per usual. The last seat open was the one next to you, none of your friends were in this class so you’d chosen one away from the front, where you could keep to yourself. He’d accidentally dropped his pen, and when he leaned down to pick it up you couldn’t help but catch a glimpse of his bracelet.
My Neighbor Totoro, your favorite movie ever.
“Totoro..” You mumbled, he stopped briefly before leaning back up. “Hm?” The male had looked up to meet your eyes, curiosity and maybe a hint of excitement laced over his expression. “Uhh.. your bracelet, that’s my favorite movie.” He looked down at it, messing with the charms saying: “Really? All my friends clown on me for it. It’s my favorite too.” A smile sprung over your lips.
The two of you shared a longer than intended, conversation. Turns out you two had a lot in common - similar hobbies, the same favorites when it came to movies, drinks, places, it was perfect.
Hyunjin you’d learn was his name, and you’d soon meet his friends. It wasn’t long before you two found yourselves in a committed relationship. And for your first one ever, things were going really good.
A year later - December 20th
It was winter, the cold nipping at your skin. Hyunjin’s scarf was wrapped around your neck, and half around your face. He’d left it at your house the night before, rushing him out of the window when you heard your parents arrive home. They weren’t the… most supportive..
They weren’t supportive at all. They were strict, more than strict, and they hated Hyunjin especially. Why? You’d never know, but you loved him. The two of you had been together for an entire year now. You’d met most of his friends, Felix, Chris, Ryujin, his sister Yeji too. They were all great people. But there was one in particular you’d never met, and it always seemed a little strange. Anytime anyone in the friend group would mention his name, not even being able to finish their sentence before Hyunjin shut it down or changed the subject. Anytime you asked about him, he pretended to get distracted. If there was one thing he was good at, it was changing the subject. Eventually, you let it go.
You walked in the double doors of the school, heat flooded your body and it wasn’t long before you were peeling off your winter clothes and stomping the snow off your boots. Immediately, there he was at your side. His hair slightly overgrown, dark eyes and his taller figure made its way over to you. He didn’t reach for his scarf but instead hugged you. “Hi baby, you staying warm?” he said as he pulled back. You were in the midst of taking your beanie off, “I’m trying” and a laugh escaped as your boyfriend fixed your messy hair. Then you remembered, “Oh! Your scarf.” The fabric unraveled from around your neck and as you went to hand it to him, he put his hands up. “Keep it, it’s yours.” A confused expression wiped over your face, then he said - “I’ve seen your closet, that shit’s bare. You need something to keep you warm when i’m not there.” He took your hands into his and you smiled.
In the midst of your hectic and hateful home life, endless nights of stress and screaming and arguments, you had him to turn to only hours later. He kept you stable, afloat.
But of course, not every good thing can last.
The school bell chimed, signaling 5 minutes until classes started. “I’ll see you later pretty, okay?”
That name made you melt. You bit your lip, trying to fight a cheesy smile as he kissed your forehead and smiled back at you before turning and rushing off to class with Jisung. You yourself, turned the opposite way to head to your own class. As you walked through the doorway, an odd feeling washed over you, but you couldn’t quite put your finger on it. Nothing seemed out of the ordinary, the class was just as loud and hectic as it usually was 2 minutes before the final bell rang. A pit grew in your stomach, and you didn’t understand why. You shook your head and made your way to your seat, setting down your bag and throwing your now discarded winter clothes next to it. Class was also just as boring as usual, something about quadratics, something that you quite literally couldn’t care less about. Your head nodded forward as sleepiness started to take over. That was until your phone buzzed. You pulled it out of your pocket, expecting Hyunjin, Jisung, Hongjoong, your parents, anyone but what you saw.
Unknown: Hey! This is yn right??
Your eyebrows furrowed in confusion.
You: Uhm yes, who’s this?
Unknown: Oh, sorry. I’m Yeosang, one of Hyunjin’s friends.
You: Oh, i’ve never heard about you before.
Yeosang: Yeah, we don’t see each other too much…
Yeosang: But we caught up the other day at my house, and he left something. I know his schedule is pretty packed so I was wondering if you could come swing by my place to pick it up?
You froze, but you being the kind and trusting person you were, you agreed.
You: I don’t see why not..?
Yeosang: Cool! Just swing by after class, i’ll send the address.
The phone screen dimmed, still remaining on the chat until it went dark. That odd feeling again washed over you, but yet, you ignored it. You were just picking up something for your boyfriend. And now that you think about it, maybe Hyunjin had said something about a Yeosang. You had no reason to be worried or cautious.
- Later, that afternoon -
When the school doors opened, you could tell the air was just as cold as it was this morning. You quickly threw on the scarf and beanie , making your way to the address Yeosang had sent. It wasn’t too far, walking distance, and surprisingly on the way to your place. Each step you took was another second a sense of dread started to build up inside, though there was no evident reason as to why. But if there was one thing you learned that day, it was that you’d never ignore your intuition ever again.
It was only a few seconds before the door opened, and revealed what you could only assume to be Yeosang. He seemed to be only slightly older, also in highschool but maybe a year ahead. He had slightly wavy, brunette hair. Smooth and blended layers framing his face that came down to his jaw bone.
“Hey! Y/N right?” Yeosang’s voice was sweet. It was deeper than your average highschooler. Definitely not as deep as Felix’s, but still there was a noticeable difference. You nodded in response. “Mhm, so what was it that Hyunjin left here again?” You waited on his response, his mouth opening briefly to say something. Except you never got a response.
Instead, you noticed his eyes trailing up and down your figure. Then, it all happened so fast, too fast for you to process, to think, to react, to do literally anything. Yeosang’s grip was sharp and rough. He was stronger then you, and before you knew it the cold hair had been sucked away from around you as you stumbled into his apartment against your will. Your life flashed before your eyes, your body felt cemented to the ground. Infact however, it was nothing but his harsh and strong hands keeping you pinned. You were stuck, and there was nothing you could do.
That night, everything was taken from you. Your dignity, your self esteem, everything. It felt like it sucked the life out of you. He’d threatened you to keep your mouth shut about this. You didn’t know who this guy was, but what you did know was he was crazy. You had no idea what to do
The next week, you spent every night jolting awake every hour or two. Nightmares hit, Yeosang’s threats came flooding back. He’d threatened your safety and your reputation in the school, he’d threatened to tell your parents everything. Everything to do with Hyunjin, your relationship, where you’ve been.
How the hell did he know that?
Was all you could think. He’d taken everything from you in such a short time. The worst part was that you had no idea why he was doing this, the two of yall had never even met. What kind of motivation could he possibly have? More weeks passed, you grew distant from everyone, but the person who noticed the most was none other than your very own boyfriend. It’d be a lie to say it didn’t cause issues, there were a couple small… not to say arguments but frustrating conversations between the both of you. Eventually, you couldn’t take it anymore. You broke down, and you called Jisung.
“Hello?” the voice came out the other end of the speaker. And it sounded confused but worried. It was late, you never called this late in the night.
“Jisung-“ You could barely get out his name before breaking down. “Woah woah yn what’s wrong?” He seemed to get panicked on the other end. Your chest felt like it was caving in, you were sobbing, everything around you felt so far away. You coughed, before managing to get it out. “J-Jisung, Yeosang he…”
On the other end, silence. Jisung had no idea what you could have been saying. “Slow down, yn. What happened? What did he do?” Another sob broke from your throat, it was harsh and rough. “Jisung he.. a few weeks ago.. he pulled me into his house and he assau-“ Your sentence was interrupted by another sob. Jisung went still on the other end. You hadn’t finished your sentence, hell you didn’t need to. What you managed to get out was enough for him.
That entire night was a blur, you remembered he came over and kept you company during it. He found out about the threat from Yeosang, you were able to tell him everything. “I don’t know what to do…” you whispered out in broken syllables. “If my parents find out… if he finds out i told you then i’m dead.” Jisung’s arms were warm as he gently and slowly embraced you in a warm hug. “I do think though…” He trailed off as he pulled back, brushing your hair out of your face and wiping your tears. Then his voice picked back up, quieter, more careful: “You should tell Hyunjin, whenever you can..” You squinted your eyes shut and lowered your head. It was the right thing, deep inside you knew he’d find out if you didn’t tell him, and you loved him dearly. Hyunjin would only blame himself and be upset for finding out that way. So you nodded, running the back of your hand under your eyes once again. “I’ll tell him.”
But, that day never came. Your parents had found out about it. It was unclear if they just found out, if you’d accidentally slipped up without realizing or if it was Yeosang’s doing. But that was the day that everything changed, by the next month you were in another country. You’d gone zero contact with Hyunjin as well as any of his friends. No goodbye, no proper breakup, nothing. He’d tried for weeks to reach you, months maybe. And every single time, he ended in zero luck. Eventually, he accepted it. He grieved, he was angry, devastated. The girl he loved slipped right through his fingers. One day, he’d gotten sent a message from Yeosang. It was weird, because Yeosang rarely ever texted first. That’s when he was told that he’d been cheated on and abandoned. Hyunjin didn’t wanna believe it, he wanted to give you the benefit of the doubt. However, with everything that was happening, there was no other explanation for him to grasp.
That grief turned to hatred, realizing just exactly what you did. Cheated, fuxked his friend behind his back and left the country. Cutting him off with no contact. Your name quickly spread around the friend group, there was a select few who didn’t despise you after that (mainly because they knew better or didn’t believe him) but a majority started to resent you, right alongside Hyunjin. And just like that:
A year, thrown entirely away.
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