Finding Gaby

Seriously think I was happier.

Only logged on because I was trying to find a post I made about Grey's Anatomy secrets from like forever ago and gave up after 5 mins of scrolling. Nice to see this site is still broken as all hell.

Update? I'm old as fuck (37) still single (3 ex's in 3 years, holy shit), working a job I seriously hate but making a decent amount of money. And I have two cats and a decent apartment. What would 27 year old me say about that?

Wow.....ok back to logging off and not coming back for a few years.

catch me on Twitter or Instagram!!!!

I messed everything up.

I don't even want to go into the details of how amazingly I messed everything up.

In short, I scared her off.

The weekend was amazing and we had a great time. It was the after, once we were back to our regular lives that I fucked it all up.

I have too much drama with friends all up in my business that she wants no part of. I made the mistake of letting these friends take so much control of my life. She really wants no part of that drama at all.

I let her know I was disappointed with myself that I didn't let anything happen and she didn't realize that I had those expectations, and that put her off as well. She went into this as a meeting between friends and nothing more, maybe the possiblity down the line, but not in this meeting.

It's a big mess she wants no part of. And I really really messed that up. Even though there was nothing there to begin with except me with a stupid crush and a girl not realizing how deep I was in this, my heart is breaking.

She wants to keep things platonic, and I'm an idiot for agreeing to that.

I value her friendship, I wanted more.

I scared her off.

I'm am idiot.

So when this fanfiction fails completely the day we get there...at least she'll have somewhere to sleep because fuck if I'm taking the couch lol

I still can't believe she booked one bed. Well I guess she's optimistic? What am I getting myself into? Oh boy.

22 days until this trip, and 2 days until I post my resignation for my current job.

So girl I've been talking to has secured an Airbnb for the weekend we're meeting up and get this- IT HAS ONE BED!!!

She has stated that's she isn't gonna jump my bones, and that this is so that we can save some cash for the trip.

I'm mostly active on Twitter and Instagram now.

So..update?

I turn in my two weeks on Sunday! Im moving down to Spartanburg South Carolina in June. Starting my new job in July.

And in a 24 days I will finally be meeting the girl I've been talking to for 8 months. (I'm fully prepared to walk away from this with yet another best friend, but am hoping for more. We'll see).

Holy shit so much is changing, and it's happening faster and faster than I'd like, but then again, I was complaining about 2 weeks ago that it was moving too slow.

Does tumblr no longer have titles for the text posts? I can't figure it out on mobile.

Oh well.

I got the Amazon job, and I've accepted it.

Sadly it doesn't start until the summer, but come summer 2021, I'll be moving to South Carolina! And finally getting out of the store

MBA is still fucking hard as hell and I'm considering not finishing, but we'll see

And girl in Tennessee? We're still talking. But now I'm not sure if it's because we're just being friendly or it's because she also likes me but covid is putting a damper on anything ever happening. Not sure where this is going, but I'm crushing hard. I'll give it past the holidays to see if anything comes of it.

And that's it.

Seriously what has happened to this site?

I interviewed for Amazon the other day, and I got the job.

Which is great because Im starting to hate my current one.

I should get my offer letter in a few weeks with more details on the location and compensation.

Still chatting with the girl in tennessee, but the last few days have been...weird? She stood me up yesterday. The part of me that always wants to run is getting ready to run from this. Not sure what to do. I really like her, we've been talking everyday for the last 60 days, but I'm pretty much convinced nothing is going to happen. Maybe I should start to back out, or maybe consider this nothing more than a friendship.

Oh well

Not sure why I bother since I haven't logged in Months!

Still at work, still in grad school. Half out of the closet (surprise! I'm a lesbian! Everyone saw this coming except me)

"Met" an incredible girl (woman? Female? Person?) over instagram of all places, and we've been chatting every day for over a month now. I'm smitten. No clue if she is, but considering she's still talking to me...

We've also done video dates and chats. But here is the kicker, she lives 9 hours away next state over. Were it not for covid, probably would have already met up or made plans to, but I don't see this happening as we're both slightly paranoid about covid.

Got into grad school. Gonna get my MBA.

So here is an update.

Graduated with a lovely 3.789.

Got an internship with Disney, and then that was cancelled due to covid-19. Which sucks because it was a salaried position in Hollywood Studios.

Applied for grad school, and I'm on furlong from work.

Everything was great and now it all sucks.

Update to come soon.

Holy hell i've been away from this mess for almost 6 months.