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The most help from anyone I ever received was from 2 of my college professors which is sad

My dad literally just texted me “you need to not forget your family” maybe don’t completely disown me for staying at my fiancés house overnight then not speaking to me until I nearly die 3 months later? Maybe don’t have the last words you say to me when I move out is “no you don’t” when I tell him I love him

When they don’t understand that you want to sit in silence cause you’ve been talking all day and they just keep talking on and on and on but it’s making you mad at this point but you don’t want to be a bitch cause they’re one of your best friends

I feel like I’m trapped in an endless loop of not being good enough. I’m 19 but before I go anywhere I have to have approval from my parents with a few days notice, I can’t participate in anything Halloween, I’m still not allowed to drive and my mom says “we’ll just let me know when you want to drive” NO MY WHOLE LIFE REVOLVES AROUND YOU AND WHAT YOU WANT TO DO AND HOW YOURE FEELING. We haven’t played an actual board game together in years. I get yelled at for being too stressed and depressed to even clean my room, which only makes it worse, and get called a psychopath but can I go get a psych evaluation? No because “nobody needs that they just need to learn to control their emotions” I can never win can I? I get a tattoo? It’s the end of the world despite that passage in the Bible literally being the ceremonial law and not applying to the church now because that law was fulfilled with Jesus’ sacrifice. And then people say “we’ll that’s just life” like you can fuck off, that’s giving someone who’s trying to peel a potato without a peeler another potato and saying “it’s easy just do it”

My brain isn’t exactly stupid but the contents sure are

Every girl is bi, you just have to figure out if she’s bisexual, bipolar, or just a bitch.

Sometimes depression isn’t not caring what you look like and just wearing sweats and messy hair, sometimes it’s caring too much what you look like bc you don’t want people to see how much of a mess you are internally so you spend extra time making sure you look okay.