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“should i open up a box for personal complaint’s or am i setting myself up for disaster? will i listen to them if i do? that’s for you to find out.”

                    “ i don’t know . it kind of sounds like you’re a masochist to me . i know you and i know you’re not going to listen to them . so , unless you just love getting handwritten hate mail , it seems like a waste of paper and time for everyone involved . but maybe that’s just me ! ”

grayson: i didn't care whether you rebelled or not, i just wanted you to know that you deserved better. you deserved a mom and dad who gave a shit about you and not just what you were able to achieve. violet, you say that like it was my choice to be distant? yeah, goose and i got into drugs, but it's not like i single-handedly caused us to drift apart. you chose a side and it was pretty clear where i stood with you, i wasn't gonna stick around to fight my sister and my parents

grayson: yeah, it's nice to finally have people willing to support me. every part of me.

grayson: you're right with that one, benji is a good kid. hopefully he'll wise up and get the fuck away from this family before he crashes and burns too.

violet: i know that i chose a side. and in hindsight, i should have chosen differently. but i stand by the fact that this was a two way street and both of us could have done things differently. but ultimately i am still sorry that we ganged up on you when you needed us most.

violet: i do think that your friends should be supporting a genuine return to sobriety, though. i am glad that they love you for all of you, but i think they should be trying to help you get better in the process. :/

grayson: why do you think i've been telling you that since we were kids? it's not normal to be treated like pawns, vi. it's not normal to have to prove ourselves every day just to feel loved. it's not normal to do our parents dirty work for them just because we're their kids and they think that makes us somehow obligated to them

grayson: yeah yeah, i see that now. i'll get my shit together and try to clean up a little, okay? maybe i'll cut back for a minute in case anything else comes out

grayson: oh trust me, i know all about being a sibling, just not yours. in case you haven't realized, benji and i are fine.

violet: i mean ... honestly? for most of my life, i just thought that was you trying to get me to rebel in the same way that you always had. but i was a kid. i was obviously going to trust my parents over my brother who i was starting to see less and less of and when i DID see you, you were probably high. but i understand more of what you see now. i'm sorry for not believing you sooner.

violet: whatever u gotta do. i'm glad you also have friends here who can help you if you need. i know you can take care of yourself, but a support system never hurts.

grayson: so you acknowledge that they're shitty then? wow fuck i better write this down. can i get this in writing actually???? violet jeon talks about shitty childhood ! i can see it in the headlines now.

grayson: you're right, i have built a life for myself. and whether it's based on lies or not, it's mine and i appreciate you not fucking this one up. so seriously, thank you. i can at least acknowledge that you did me a solid, okay? all the other shit aside

grayson: ok well fuck you too then

grayson: am i the high one or is it you? literally nothing about being a sibling is sunshine and rainbows violet, we don't do it because we like it we do it because no one else is supposed to pick on us

violet: i have just been thinking more about all the shit that they have put me, you, and benji through. and like ... so much of it is not normal at all. like, you getting shipped away to europe aside, even.

violet: yeah whatever you're welcome. i think you deserve a shot at making a good life for yourself. but you really do need to be very careful because the blackmailer will seriously take that from you if they see the opportunity.

grayson: do you not realize that i've already lost everything, violet?

grayson: have you ever stopped to think for just five fucking seconds about how hurtful it is to be the black sheep of the family? and not just because of some stupid emo phase or wanting to pursue art, but to literally be shipped away because your family couldn't stomach dealing with you anymore?

grayson: literally nothing the tabloids say can make my life any worse lol

grayson: so thanks sis, i'm really glad this can make you feel better about yourself

violet: grayson, you have all of this success because of your "sobriety" or what the fuck ever. i understand that you had a rough childhood. all three of us did. that's what growing up with shitty parents will do to you.

violet: but you have developed a life for yourself, even if it is built on literal lies. and i didn't want to have a hand in taking that away too.

violet: because you know that this would become WAY more than just tabloid gossip.

grayson: nah, i don't think i would

grayson: i mean thank you for acknowledging that you've fucked me over, but do you really think this is salvageable??? i mean we haven't really been siblings for the better part of four years, violet. i don't think one tweet just ends that.

violet: i never said that the tweet would like magically bring us back together. i just couldn't bring myself to do MORE damage.

violet: if i came out and swore that you were lying, you could lose everything. like EVERYTHING, grayson. and i couldn't take all of your success from you without feeling guilty for the rest of my life.

grayson: why not?

grayson: i wouldn't think twice

violet: you wouldn't?

grayson: i saw what you tweeted

grayson: thanks i guess

violet: ur welcome i guess

her back is pressed against the headboard as she watches him make his way back from the kitchen . this wasn’t normal for her - more often than not , lilia would tell the person she was with to leave , always done without remorse . but every time she would invite max over , she found herself asking him to stay . no part of her could even explain why , but when he returns with the glasses & settles next to her , she’s forced to ignore the question yet again . ‘ are you just saying that to me because you expect to get something out of it , or ? ‘ barely gives him time to answer as she tilts her head down to take a sip from the glass . she hated this , could feel her cheeks getting warmer from the compliment & has no idea how to hide it . her body leans further into his as she moves her head to rest atop of his shoulder . there’s an evident exhale of relief when he speaks next , ‘ you’re serious ? ‘ she’s attempting to deadpan , yet the smile playing atop her features is a dead giveaway . part of her was thankful for starting a conversation , even if it’s over nothing , to mask the silence that had been filling the room . ‘ green is first … i think . are there right answers ? ‘

                    max laughed heartily at lilia’s question , knowing the girl to be all bark and no bite . at least that’s how it was in his eyes . “ expect to get something out of it ? there’s something better than this ? ” he retorted , grinning widely . he would never point it out , but he could just barely see the tint on her cheeks . anyone else probably wouldn’t have taken note of the color change , but his gaze being almost always fixated on her has caused him to pick up on minute details such as that . lilia resting her head on his shoulder caused max to relax back into the bed some more , eyes drifting shut momentarily in pure bliss . “ dead serious . ” his eyes peeked open to see her grin , his own lips turning up to match hers . “ okay , green in first place . noted , ” max started , pausing only momentarily to chuckle at her question . “ at this point in time , it’s just a matter of opinion . i’ll try to keep my opinions to myself until it’s time for my personal ranking . ” 

kai wasn’t fazed by the other’s reply, “yeah like if i’m right and i win against the blackmailer we should go on  a date,” he answers with a quick shrug, “i really don’t…” he looked around, “do you think i’m a joke too?” he asks with surprise in his tone, “we haven’t tried so there’s no harm, maybe i can text the number back.”

                    all violet could do was stare blankly at kai as he reiterated his plan for them to go on a date , completely surprised . however , the surprise being mirrored back to her in his tone caused her to rush and fix it as best she could . “ oh my god , no ! i don’t think you’re a joke at all . i just ... don’t know why you would want to go on a date with me . i just don’t understand , i guess , ” she replied , already feeling a blush burning the tips of her ears . “ next time we get a text , go ahead and try to text them back . and let me know what happens ! i am ... really actually curious . ” 

“i’ve been at these show’s a lot, it’s like a second home for me at this point but i’m glad you think i’m a piece of home.” kai wears a warm smile, new york fashion week - both his enemy and yet an event where he was reminded he only ever has one foot through the door but he plays the part of belonging very well. kai looks down at his glass, he looked around nervously - he couldn’t risk being seen with an alcoholic drink so he settled with water but little did stella know that his veins were buzzy with something else, “oh please, i’ve stayed up till 6 am before for a 12 pm show before, i’m built different.” his shoulder knocks into theirs, mirroring their look with a playful one of his own,  “i’ve worked at maybe 40? i think, i’ve lost track. you?”

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willow kicked her shoes off as she stepped through her front door, relieved to finally be home. she had been fully checked out during all her lectures today and felt a headache growing behind her brow. it was only the middle of the week, but she was ready for the weekend to start. she felt anxious for it. will scrolled through her phone to find stella’s name before pressing call, hoping her friend would be up to go downtown tonight. “hi, please tell me you’re free right now,” will blurted once she heard them pick up. “if you’re busy then… cancel? for me?”

                    stella had been home for a while , having finished classes earlier in the day . instead of actually working on homework , they had decided that tonight was a self care night . everyone needed one on at least one of the week days ! it was a necessity in stella’s eyes . but they couldn’t help the interest that was piqued after seeing willow’s name light up their phone right as they stepped out of a nearly hour long shower . swiftly winding their hair up into a towel , the phone was lifted to their ear as a little smirk decorated their face . “ i mean , other than my date with a full bottle of red wine and some french film , i am free , ” stella hummed , taking an in - depth look at their face in the mirror as they spoke . “ and wills , baby ... i am always free for you . what were you thinking ? ”

“should i start?” the question was innocent and serious as well, “like are people into that, be honest - do you think it’d help me pick up more dates?” kai’s fingers fumble with one another. “are you shading the love of my life right now? don’t know how to feel about this,” max wasn’t that bad, but even kai was fed up with how he’d steal away all his model friends - some simply had the confidence and ego to back them up, max was one of them. “oh i think it’s cute you think it could be meaningful but i just share the same traits of stupidity with prince gumball, have you ever watched adventure time?” he asks, cocking a brown in her direction. “i do like musicals, don’t get me wrong - singing is fun, but sometime’s they require a lot more work, i don’t know how you do it.”

“it’s not hurting me ? i wish you would have let me know sooner, gee golly ! come on, beauty queen, we all know i’m just here to get beaten down to boost your ego. and i do have things to do, you know.”