sony

brians kind of weird. i can't really say as if im any different, if not worse, but he is just kinda weird. i havent talked to him yet. i wanted to tonight, just to try to be nice to him and establish a friendship or something. tim really cares about him. alex cares about him. i think itd be worth it. im just not that great at talking to people and. ugh

i miss tim. i miss tim a lot. he used to be all i can trust but i havent seen him and i cant do any of this without him. it hasnt even been HIM, its been that thing wearing his skin. and it doesnt like me, but i cant do anything about it. i keep making sure hes fine and whenever he comes back he always thoroughly checks in but i can see how tired he looks and how worn he is and im scared hes gonna leave all over again. that hes gonna do something stupid. he has before. ive done everything to make him okay. nothings working anymore. im so worried.

brians not here. i barely even know brian. i dont remember him at all from before everything happened. i know he was sweet from how tim talks about him and what i saw from the tapes but i dont KNOW him. i dont recall interacting with him at all. he and alex are all i have left but i cant do this i cant keep doing this to alex when i cant even be sure i can trust them. im so nervous and sickly again

i dont know what to do. i keep finding entries and tapes and i cant remember anything. im so lost all over again and i dont know what to do im so tired i keep hearing knocking i dont i dont know