Schrödinger's gay

https://archiveofourown.org/series/5856301

FemShep/Joker slow burn, mutual pining goodness

⭐? Director's cut thingy? 👀 I wanna hear all about what you're excited about!!

Ooooooh I'm so excited to get one of these!!!! Really hard to decide what to talk about though.

Actually I think I'm going to talk about the latest part of the fic (Safe) because I used it to explore a topic I often don't find in media.

Generally, I've found that my little Maisy Shepard has been a great way to explore thoughts and feelings around my experience with late diagnosed, "high-masking" autism. A big part of that is that I've always been touch-averse, but I didn't realise I was because there were exceptions. I've always had one, maybe two people I felt okay being close to, usually my mum and a very close friend. I'm still more aware of myself when I'm say, cuddling, hugging or holding hands with someone, but there are some people I'm okay doing it with (my housemate is essentially the little sister I never had, and I've turned into her pillow, plushie and stress ball).

All that to say, I've seen fics where touch becomes something grounding for Shepard (Ale's fic is one example, and it's beautifully done), but never ones that represent how I feel about touch, where little by little and seemingly for no reason, one person will become safe and reassuring to touch even when no-one else is.