femme-archive

I think I realized something about myself. I think I debunked my hoe persona. I don’t see sex as casual, as fun as it sounds. I don’t genuinely want a string of detached sexual encounters. I see sex as intimacy, connection.

I want emotional intimacy first before I can enjoy the sex part, before I can feel safe enough for the sex.

So being with someone only for the sex doesn’t work out well. I can pleasure myself. I don’t really need you for that. Sure sometimes I fall into the pothole of using sex for validation on my worth and attractiveness, but ultimately, sex is something I can give to myself, no other person required.

I want emotional intimacy and connection in life. I want to build life with someone I trust. I want to love each other even while we haven’t fully figured ourselves out. Love each other through phases and stages of life.