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As your best friend, knows how you are with boys, having to unfortunately witness you date many guys, particularly boys above your year since you both were in high school. That continued in college but you never took anyone seriously, just flirting with pretty boys to his distress.

Felix is somehow the only exception to any of these.

He's a pretty man as many people describe him. However, you've never tried anything on him until today. Not only he's your best friend but being around the same age, he's never seen you look at anyone from your year and below no matter how hot they are.

So he's left confused and nervous.

He once thought you never found him attractive as he doesn't seem to fit in your type of guy. So to say that he was taken aback with your change of demeanour is an understatement.

Normally, Felix would react to it dramatically but since he's unsure of what's running through your mind, he chose to be quiet and wait it out.

“Wow you look cute today, Lix!” you exclaim, doing him a one over.

Okay, maybe a normal compliment doesn’t count.

Felix's eyes shift away from you, embarrassment flooding his cheeks at your simple compliment. He can still feel your stare as his mind scrambles to tell you something, anything in return. He's got many, way too many and now he's overthinking too much.

As usual.

You find Felix so adorable with how shy he was at your words. Complimenting him felt just natural because he looks really good, especially today. You've never really looked at your best friend this way but your breath hitched earlier as soon as you saw him. It wouldn't be the first time so you ignored it like many times before.

Felix does surprise you sometimes but it's normal isn't it? Aside from your girl friends, he's the only guy you spend time with the most.

Platonically of course.

Now he's looking at you warily, probably thinking you're just teasing him. It became your habit the moment you discovered how he gets flustered easily.

Well, you didn’t lie cause he does look good today.

Felix has always been gorgeous to you since you were younger. That's what everyone says and you're not blind. But since you were so used to his presence, you didn't think of it much. Now though, you are looking at him for reasons you don’t even know.

You've won't ever admit it but his mullet has been haunting you since he had his hair done. His blond hair already made you look twice at him and when he started growing his hair longer? You find yourself avoiding his eyes each time he comes near.

It's one of your favourite hairstyles for guys.

Seeing him today sporting this look has ignited that — the plain white tee and light brown pants with a bandana around his neck that you wanted to utilize somewhere.

Hold up, what?

This must be the heat then, making you feel strange things the moment he arrived.

You simply wanted to stroll the beach today, texting him right away to check if he's free to join you. He quickly responded which not only caused a relief in you but also excitement. You felt giddy and a little nervous to see a guy which doesn't really happen pretty often.

You're just glad that Felix is coming since you need him. That's just it. Most likely, you'll need someone to take photos just in case you feel like it and he's the perfect person for it. Or you just wanted to hang out with your best friend.

Both for sure.

“You look pretty,” he says quietly, which you almost missed.

Felix winces internally at his attempt of complementing you in return. You’ve probably heard many iterations of this word already so it won’t mean anything. He could’ve been more creative with it but his nerves won the best of him. To his relief though, a small smile appeared on your face, almost shy which he thankfully catches.

And Felix swears it almost blinded him which the sunlight didn't achieve.

He watches you walk hurriedly towards the rocky area of the beach, away from other people. He followed, knowing you're aiming to take pictures during the golden hour. It's the perfect time to call you pretty while you're busy climbing the rocks so you won't notice how nervous he is.

Felix saying it out of nowhere almost made you slip in your step. You must be hearing things all of a sudden because of your best friend's close proximity. Being the sweetheart that he is, he's complimented you several times before. However, his words today seem to affect you differently.

Pretending to not hear him will be easier. You could use the sound of waves crashing against the rocks as a reason you missed what he said if he asks you about it later.

.

After reaching the flat area on top of the rocks, you turn to Felix who looks unsure while staring at you. He's probably waiting for some sort of answer form you and now you feel bad for pretending earlier.

"Take several shots, like paparazzi ones 'mkay?" you instruct him fondly as if he doesn't know how you want your pics to be taken already. He nods regardless, returning your smile and takes out the camera from the handbag he took from you earlier.

Doing random poses have never felt awkward to you. Especially with Felix behind the camera. The man has seen you during your pre-photogenic era and is actually the one who taught you with poses and expressions as he's a natural at it.

Today however, you're having a hard time looking into the lenses of the camera. The slight guilt from dismissing Felix earlier re-emerged and you wonder if he can read it on your face. You try to shrug it off, hurriedly taking the camera from his hands to tell him it's his turn. You didn't even wait for him to answer, immediately coming down from the rocks and he thankfully obliged, positioning himself near the edge of the rock for you to see his whole body clearly.

You may have started to regret doing so.

Felix looks ethereal from your view below. The wind blowing his long blond hair makes your hand shake a bit. You've shouted instructions through the crashing waves, hoping he couldn't see your struggle from there. When focusing on capturing his face, it took you a while to get the perfect shot because you were just staring. He's just so beautiful that you’re so taken aback at how he's making you feel by simply looking at him.

You pulled yourself back by adjusting the lenses, acting like he had no effect on you at all and took more shots than you expected.

The only thing left is a picture with you together. It became an unspoken rule between you and Felix to take at least one whenever you're together. For memories, he explained after you caught him designing a whole scrapbook last time which he refused to show you.

You didn't take it to heart when he did since he's probably not ready but that didn't kill your curiosity to see it one day. Unlike him, you only post online to record them, treating your socials like a digital diary. You tried journaling during elementary but gave it up, the laziness taking over you which Felix reprimands you about.

"Lix, let's take more pics together!" you smile at him, opening your free palm for him to take. He immediately takes it and helps you climb up, standing in front of him to face the golden sunlight.

Neither of you brought a tripod so you'd have to use your phone. You fished it from your sling bag after placing the camera back inside Felix's bag. You've extended your arm to quickly take a few selfies of you both with him automatically joining from beside you. His face is right beside yours and you're fighting to focus on the front camera.

But Felix is not making it easy. Through the camera, you notice him tilting his head slightly so he's facing you, his eyes are scanning your features, almost like he's about to kiss you. Your thumb clicks the screen faster with your heart hammering in your chest. You drop your arm and step back a bit to breathe but your foot landed towards the edge of the rock, shaking your balance.

Luckily, Felix caught your waist just in time. His touch sends a tingle around your middle, his grip around your waist almost makes you squeal. You did gasp in surprise, both from almost falling and your best friend's arms around you. The height of the rocks are not even too tall from the sand but if you fall, the chance of you landing on the rocky surface is pretty high.

"Thanks, Lix" you breathe out, staring into his eyes. Neither of you moved after, just waiting to break this weird tension between you.

Eventually, your hand shoots out to take another picture. Out of instinct, Felix pulls your body closer to his, almost protectively. You can feel his solid body, the mix of woody and marine scents reach your nose, making your knees buckle.

"Smile.." you sound breathless which raises a concern in Felix. He's too focused on figuring out what's wrong that he misses your other hand reaching around to grab his neck. His eyes widen when you pull his head closer, his lips almost touching your cheek but he did look at the camera and smiled as you snapped another picture like you didn't almost fall over the rocks.

It's his turn, almost falling backwards.

You're always actions first before words and Felix sometimes scolds you for doing things hastily. You're aware that he's coming from a good place, out of pure concern for you. You do feel bad worrying him but that's what you've been wired for. It's your reflex whenever you're in an awkward position, choosing to ignore instead of addressing the situation.

You don’t know why you did it.  Your body moving on its own before you can think twice so it kind of just happened. It's been happening since you met up with Felix and you can't explain why.

Putting down your arm, you turn around to face him, switching your focus solely on his face. No camera can ever capture how truly beautiful your best friend is. Up this close, you can see how pretty his natural freckles are. They're noticeable even from afar but you rarely see them once Felix starts using makeup to cover them up. He knows you hate it when he does so he never does it when he's with you and refrains doing them if he can.

You've seen Felix's face up close before but not like this, where he's staring right into your soul. You can feel his gaze but you haven't met his eyes yet. Your heart's been hammering in your chest and you think it'll burst the moment your eyes finally meet.

Felix may have his eyes always on you but this is the closest distance his face has ever been with yours. His eyes are trained on you, unsure and nervous as his gaze shifts down at your lips. Then suddenly he's leaning in and you did too out of instinct.

Your lips touch briefly then your mouth opens to reciprocate before Felix jolts back. You were confused when he pulled away but he's stunned that you kissed him back.

“I’m so sorry Y/N, I don’t know what came over me” he explains, already panicking but you just chuckled, smiling at him brightly. “Silly, I want you to," you drape your arms around his neck to pull him closer again. "Why else would I kiss you back?"

Felix doesn’t know what was happening anymore.

You gave him a peck before quickly grabbing his hand, dragging him to the secluded area you somehow found behind the big rocks. Lots of questions have been running through his mind. Where are you bringing him and why? He wanted to ask a lot but you look giddy so he doesn't want to interrupt whatever's going on.

Felix ended up just following you.

Like always.

You push him to sit down and lean on one rock, thinking you just want to take a break here. But then you suddenly swung your legs across his lap, cradling his face before kissing him again. He didn't repel you unlike earlier, instantly melting under your touch.

Felix's mind is still processing what's happening. That it's not a dream or a random thought of you that passes his mind unconsciously. It's actually happening — you initiating on making out with him.

Felix is lost for words; mostly nervous because he might be subpar from the other dudes you made out with. He tries his best in matching your pace, deepening his kisses as he raises both his legs to push your body closer to him. He doesn’t know if he’s doing it right but you made a pleased sound and pulled his neck closer so he must've been.

The deep rumbles from his chest causes a shiver down your core. Felix's deep voice is lethal and he knows about it, even using it to his advantage. As his best friend for many years, you thought you'd eventually get immune to it but that's not what's happening.

Hearing his grunts just magnified the electricity coursing through your body. You've been wet since earlier and when you feel him harden underneath you, you couldn't help but begin grinding on him. Felix's reaction was instant, his body freezing after releasing your lips.

But behind his subtle attempt at touching you, his body language still feels unsure.

"Are you okay?" you ask, breathless, as you pull his attention back to you. "Yeah, just don't know where to put my hands on, really" he chuckles, averting his eyes from you. He's nervous but you don't point it out, afraid it'll ruin the moment.

You cup Felix's jaw, scanning his pretty features and finding no trace of hesitation, just uncertainty. Smiling reassuringly at him, you take his hands and guide them under your sundress, hinting for him to touch your bare legs and ass if he wants to.

Felix feels more at ease now but he still didn't dare touch you yet. His hand remains suspended in the air, shaking lightly. He makes up for it by kissing you back fiercely for you to not notice his hand faltering. Felix's only goal is to keep up with you, hoping it'll be enough. Your moans push his nerves to leave him slowly, and by the time his teeth bites your lip unconsciously for more, he's fully relaxed.

Your mouth leaves his, proceeding to kiss his beautiful jawline down to his neck. More deep groans emit from him when you grab his blond mullet at the same time which makes you smile against his skin. Your lips meet the bandana around his neck so you took it off, contemplating using it on him.

Although Felix knows how you are, you don't really share your sexual habits with him and so does he. He might not be ready for it yet and you don't want to push him further.

That will need time, maybe. If there will be after this.

You drop the bandana on top of your handbag beside Felix, deciding to play with him instead. Lifting the hem of his white shirt, your hands skirts down to his lower torso but he stiffens so you pull back.

“Wait, you’ve done this before right?” you ask cautiously.

“Y-yeah of course!”

He answers indignantly but you're still suspicious. With that beauty, you know there's a huge chance that he's telling the truth. Even though you are best friends, Felix never shared his sexual experience with you. You don't know why your chest tightened a little after hearing his confirmation, that you're not his first.

Why does it even fucking matter? You never cared and he wasn't even your first, so?

Anyway, what you don't get is the reason why he's nervous and awkward around you like how virgin boys are.

After a moment of silence, Felix surprises you when he grabs your face to kiss you again. It shocked you but you responded immediately, resuming like nothing happened. You moan into his mouth, hands continue moving lower until you reach the hem of his pants, slowly stroking his hardening bulge.

Felix panicked earlier with your question. It truly isn't his first time but you're not just anyone. He's not reacting like this because you're his best friend but because it's you. He wants to be good or at least decent since you do have more experience than him. The nerves have gotten him again, afraid that you’ll stop with all this if he's not good enough.

"You sure with this?" you ask as soon as you release his lips. Felix just nodded, pupils dilating as he stared at you desperately and that's all you need. You didn't waste any more time and fumble his pants right away, pulling it down along with his boxers just enough to take out his dick.

"Your cock’s pretty.." you muse while staring at his half-hard on.

Felix quietly curses when it twitches at your compliment. Even with your constant reassurance that you're enjoying him, he's still nervous and shy if you’re gonna like his cock or not. You've had better dicks before for sure, but it wasn't that he's lacking. He takes pride in his girth and to his delight, you're drooling over it.

“So pretty..” you muttered once more and started stroking him.

Felix is a goner after that. You’ve spread his pre-cum around his head before spitting on his dick, making him gasp in between laboured breaths. You wanted to see him crumble in your hands, alternating your pace but you’ve noticed that he’s still hesitant to touch you.

"It’s okay Lix, you can touch me," you say as you grab his hand and guide it to your supple breast. In an instant, he squeezes it like he’s testing them. Then his expression brightens when your moans increase in volume.

"Fuck, Lixie, more.." you whine as your eyes close, arching your chest more to his palms. He looks satisfied with how you're reacting, deciding to do it rougher and pinches your perked nipples through your thin dress. You momentarily stop stroking his cock as a result, too distracted from the pleasure his hands are giving you.

Felix didn't even realize that you haven't worn a bra until now. He debated on parting your dress to take your breasts out. Maybe pop them in his mouth if you let him. However, by some miracle, you've recovered and resumed stroking him, faster this time while playing around his frenulum.

And he finally loses it. Completely.

"C-cumming! Shit, I'm cumming.." he moans loudly and before you can reply, he explodes in your hand.

A copious amount of cum covered your fingers while you stroke Felix some more. His eyes are shut as his cock keeps spurting more, hip unconsciously rising up thrust into your hand despite the overstimulation.

You're trying your best not to waste any drop when you remove your soaked hand from his length, raising your hands immediately to get your cum coated hand under the sunlight.

Felix was horrified at the sight of you spreading your cum-soaked fingers in the air, his eyes widening as he scans the surroundings to check if anyone's around.

"What are you doing?!" he screams out of panic, pulling your arm  back down immediately. Your little stunt took him out of his euphoria, his brain having a meltdown. Thankfully, there's only the two of you here. "'Jus wanna see if they sparkle," you pout, shrugging his hand off your arm to grab some hand wipes from your mini sling bag.

He's still processing everything when you reach out to him after, about to clean him up when he stops you. "I might get hard again" he admits, embarrassment evident in his tone and you grinned. "Would that be so bad Lix?" you tease as he takes the wipes from your hand to clean himself.

He didn't answer and instead, stood up from the ground. The shift of the playful atmosphere drives your smirk to a slight frown. You pretend to be fine with it but Felix dismissing your suggestion slowly affirms your doubts before this whole thing started.

That this might be all he wanted from you.

What happened may have changed something between you but Felix is still your best friend. And as much as you want to fuck him after, it's his comfort that truly matters to you.

He opens his hand in front of you, offering to help you again which you reluctantly accepted. There was a small moment of awkwardness, the both of you at lost on how to continue the conversation from here on.

"Do you always carry those with you?" he suddenly gestures to the wipes on your hand, cutting the tension. You shift the topic and you dramatically answer. "Of course, I'm always prepared!" you pretend to be offended to lighten up the air, causing a fit of awkward laughter between you.

Felix wanted to pull his hair with the question he just asked. He can't always be blaming his nerves whenever this happens. What's even worse is that he didn't know how to respond to what you're insinuating.

Very lame.

Now you probably think he regretted what transpired between you earlier. On the other hand, Felix is trying to refocus; to see clearly if you were being serious. He can't figure out if this was all just a quick fun for you or if you feel something for him.

He'd been delusional but instead of asking you the truth, he prefers to stay oblivious until then. It doesn't matter to him what you see him as, so long as he remains to be your best friend. There were many times where Felix thought he's going to lose that place in your life but that never happened and he'll hold on to that.

He's your best friend and will always be no matter what.

You're watching Felix as you both walk back towards the beach. He's been quiet while observing your surroundings, probably absorbed in his head again. It gave you the perfect opportunity to grab his hand suddenly, surprising him even further when you clasp your fingers around his after.

"You’re hot you know, be more confident” you blurt out, copying him as you look straight ahead. Felix stops in his tracks before turning to you. "I didn’t think you’d find me hot” he admits, gripping your hand and starts swaying it while you two walk.

"How so?" you start, though you know where this is talk is going. "I'm not exactly your type?" he voices out, sounding unsure.

There it is. A big grin breaks on your face after hearing his dilemma. The one thing he's been hiding from you for who knows how long. To your relief, he couldn't see you since you're facing the sea instead of him. "And my type is…?", you goad even more, turning to him this time.

Your best friend may be the type to pour out his feelings at any chance he gets but he's quite careful around you about any discussions of romance. Not that you're different; you're even repulsed to the topic more than anyone Felix knows.

It's a miracle that you were able to coax it out of him today. You might get the whole truth if you continue.

"Those bad boy looking ones..." he mutters, looking anywhere but you.

"Did it make you feel anything, Lix?" you add. You've pondered on skirting around but you might not have a chance to ask him these again so you push through. "Mhmm? Your type? Or the guys you date?", he nervously asks and your smile widens even further.

He's already blushing, the sunlight hitting his cheeks even made it visible to your eyes.

It's now or never.

"Both" you tease.

Felix takes one glance at you, seeing the shit-eating grin on your face and immediately pulls you into him. Your eyes widen, not expecting this bold move against you, staring at him in surprise.

"I feel like I could just show you?" he offers, suddenly sounding confident. It took you by surprise how easily he switches up. Whether it's the nerves that are pushing him or that he's finally ready to confront himself after your encouragement.

"If you want," he adds, voice a little softer as he stares at you intently.

You're still speechless after a while, too mesmerized at his beauty again that you find yourself nodding at his words. His signature bright smile then appears on his angelic face, the relief in his eyes apparent as he looks at you.

To anyone passing by, they probably think you and Felix are on a date. That doesn't really sound bad actually. With the way he's looking at you? You wanted to see where this goes. You'll always love him either way, whether as a best friend or a possible boyfriend in the future.

Which you've never had before. Seriously, at least.