Coin Operated Girl

“Sometimes, I feel the past and the future pressing so hard on either side that there’s no room for the present at all.”

so you did not so much fall in love as love tipped her chrome-crowned head into your lap, and the mechanical whirr of her hair as it slipped into place softened into something that sat still in your chest, rough and quiet and full, and                you let it.

“You get a strange feeling when you’re about to leave a place. Like you’ll not only miss the people you love but you’ll miss the person you are now at this time and this place, because you’ll never be this way ever again.”

“When I was in college, a teacher once said that all women live by a ‘rape schedule.’ I was baffled by the term, but as she went on to explain, I got really freaked out. Because I realized that I knew exactly what she was talking about. And you do too. Because of their constant fear of rape (conscious or not), women do things throughout the day to protect themselves. Whether it’s carrying our keys in our hands as we walk home, locking our car doors as soon as we get in, or not walking down certain streets, we take precautions. While taking precautions is certainly not a bad idea, the fact that certain things women do are so ingrained into our daily routines is truly disturbing. It’s essentially like living in a prison - all the time. We can’t assume that we’re safe anywhere: not on the streets, not in our homes. And we’re so used to feeling unsafe that we don’t even see that there’s something seriously fucked up about it.”

“My solitude is sacred. I won’t let anyone take it from me anymore—”

“I want to calm down, to rest, to outlive this nonsense.”

Tell me if you ever cared,