pwoaaa

I just want to live a normal life like a normal person

I still get those nicknames like "feminine"

"The toy" "raping machine" and many other names about my looking

I hate my life so much i was keeping that for a long long time for years i was holding my self from suicide

But this is the only thing I'm thinking in rn

First of all , i was always a toy for pedos my face was a toy to those they used to kiss me with strange acts and they used to wipes my lips with thier fingers even worse put thier fingers inside my mouth and when i say this keep in ur mind that i was getting this when i was about 5 till 12years old

Second of all : my dad is a big issue used to tortured me with cigarettes burns that i still have it till now on my back chest and my hand , used to hit me for the The most trivial reasons like i didn't get a full mark ,i didn't wash my feet after coming back from school, i laughed to loud , i cried , and more

Third of all , i didn't get a hug since i was 5 years old 13 years later and i still didn't get one even when I'm asking my mom she used always say that i have to grow up and this is for girls

Forth thing, i always wanted a doll/plushie but my parents always told me that this is for girls i only want one to hug it i need a hug a warm one it could make all the bad though disapearing immediately

Fifth, i always Cuted my chest and shoulders to feel Relief