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    Just a small announcement that my activity will be spotty. I’ve been super unmotivated in life lately and have to really force myself to even meet my own two post quota. But ! I’m always down for talking / plotting !! Threading just isn’t strong with me rn. And I’ll still be working on those starters I owe ! I have some kinda written in my drafts currently.

  《Family Headcanons—— !! 》   《@rubldus​ sent:  💕😤⚰️🌟 //U KNOW I HAD TO DO THIS also saru hates all of his family but?? i'm interested in who he hates the least???  》

What are your muse’s thoughts on parenting and being a parent even if they aren’t one?

     Fushimi’s thoughts on parenting as a whole are rather  ABSENT  to be honest. He doesn’t really have much of an opinion. Like some people might be inclined to be wary of moms or dads because of their own experiences with a bad parent but he isn’t despite coming from a household with  TWO  differently abusive parents. This is mostly because he himself knows that it would be wrong to hold this comparison to others’ and he’s met caring parents before that loved him ( i.e. Yata’s mom ). At one point he even  WONDERED  what it  was like to have a parent because his own were so horribly absent that it simply didn’t feel as if he had any— one was neglectful and the other abusive. Fushimi’s disconnect from them goes so far as to never call them mom or dad but instead “ that woman ” and “ that man ”.

          Overall his thoughts are that one shouldn’t have a kid unless they’re  READY  and actually want one. Although he’s incredibly negative and has stated before that kids should learn heroes that come to save them  AREN’T  real, he also doesn’t believe they should go through what he has. They should be raised with love.

     As for his thoughts on being a parent if he  WERE  one, well... He thinks it’s a mistake. Fushimi firmly believes that if there were anyone that shouldn’t ever be a parent it’s himself. It’s all due to how he was raised and how he  IS  that leaves there little belief that he would be a good dad. The truth of it is that he’s terrified of messing up— of fucking up the kid(s) and leading them to be the same as him or  WORSE  ! He knows he has issues and that things aren’t wholly right in his head even if he functions relatively well. Apart from the trauma his father gave him, there’s the fact he would see hallucinations of the damned man !

               It’s a quiet hope for the kids to please,  PLEASE  not be anything like him.

          He would truly love it if his kid grew up a little angel and overall the complete opposite of himself but that’s probably such a  SLIM  chance. It’s sad to think about how much Fushimi doesn’t want to be like his father. It’s practically the one thing in life that he wants and it would be a prevalent  FEAR  if he had a child. Honestly, he’d never forgive himself if things went wrong but the fact is that he wouldn’t be a bad parent ! Even if he thinks it shouldn’t be allowed of him, he’d be so insanely protective and just a little bit spoiling and you’d see this  INCREDIBLE  gentleness no one knew was possible of him. But there are other areas he’d lack in that would need his partner’s aid such as anything emotional. He’d try but...well he’s just not a sympathetic person and struggles immensely with others’ emotional situations.

How would/does your muse handle unruly, difficult or dangerous behavior from their children?

     It’s not that Fushimi is a mean parent but he strikes me as the kind where one word is all you need to  KNOW  that you’ve fucked up ? It’s that natural ‘ no nonsense ’ and intimidating look that he has along with his lack of patience. If his kid is misbehaving he’ll put them in line quickly whether it means taking something away and  NOT  giving it back no matter the tears or restraining them himself until they calm down and stop making a fuss. He tries his best to not snap at them due to his constant fear of being a bad parent and  BELIEVING  that if he did, it would set him on that path. It’s hard. And were it any  GROWN  person he absolutely would have let them have it. He tries to correct them from the moment they start acting up so that it doesn’t continue or stick, but if his partner insists it’s okay in moderation he may allow it.

          I’m not too sure what qualifies as dangerous behavior, but like I said before he’d be extremely protective of his kids. If they endangered themselves in any way or if something happened he’d be so  SHAKEN  and that could be displayed in a multitude of ways. It’s one of the only times he might actually yell at them. Afterwards he’d keep a close eye and probably limit what they’re able to do whether in his sight or not before he can  TRUST  they’d be okay on their own again. He doesn’t deal with these scares too well.

How would the loss of a family member affect them? Does it vary based on type of family member?

     Well we do see how he handles his own father’s death which was... Not the best thanks to his hallucination at the time but overall Fushimi just  DIDN’T  care. Iirc his only thing against it was that he died from ridiculous circumstances ( not eating right ). He’s so far removed from his family that any one of them could pass away and not affect him in  ANY  sort of manner. The only reason he has lasting effects from his father’s is because the man abused him for  YEARS.  There’s the trauma and psychological aftereffects but that’s it. He’s not mournful and he’s not inclined to care in the slightest. If his mom were to die, maybe he’d show up to the funeral out of customs, but he wouldn’t shed a tear. This certainly doesn’t vary from family member to family member since again—— he’s so  REMOVED  from them. He doesn’t know anyone so personally to give a crap and he’s not sorry for it either.

          Aya is probably the only one Fushimi would have some kind of reaction to since, as I stated in another hc, she’s the one person he hates the  LEAST.  But even her death wouldn’t have him crying or thinking over it for very long.

Who is your muse’s favorite family member, why?

   《UNPROMPTED—— !! 》    《@changeborn​​​ sent: KISS 》 

     There went an unheard chuckle— one kept on the  INSIDE.  Quiet and amused. Just another one of the multitudes of expressive forms that Fushimi tended to keep to himself. Though this ‘ found family ’ of sorts had helped him to loosen up, he still hated to be so  OPEN  at times. Small fears fed by the events of his past that one day they too would ultimately leave or betray him despite the hesitant trust he’d placed into  EACH  one of them. All aside from an unwavering bit he’d granted to none other than their King. So seldom did he call him by title for all his humble manners. They were equals and each important in their own right. Why would  ANY  one of them try to place another any higher ? It was something he could only help so much however— it was fact ! They weren’t  CHOSEN  by the Slate to hold such a hefty burden.

             A blessing in its own way for Fushimi who could  NEVER  yearn for the crown.

     Yet despite being in such a position of power, there were still times when Nagare was inexplicably... cute ? Likened to a docile kitten in a way. And although the little bit of laughter remained caged away, there was a  TUG  at the corner of his lips. This much he would allow. “ Hm... Is that what today’s mission is ? Rather demanding, don’t you think ? ” Though they both knew such a goal would never be selfishly assigned. Nagare wasn’t one to abuse his power like that and Fushimi’s comfort was of the  HIGHEST  importance. Nonetheless, the blue eyed male looked over his PDA, pretending for a moment to check the criteria of a nonexistent mission as he hummed once more to himself in ‘ debate ’.

          “ Well, you failed to specify  WHERE  the kiss needed to be, so you can’t complain about what I choose. ” Spoken in a manner that grew quieter as he went on, though they were the only two in the base. Everyone else had taken leave to run personal errands. Knowing their return was yet a  WHILE  to come, Fushimi smirked to himself as he slowly rose from his spot to saunter towards the male. In a swift motion he leaned in close and paused for the briefest of seconds. He was only a breath away. But in the  NEXT  moment redirected his route to place a chaste kiss to the other’s forehead over his bangs.

                                          “ Satisfied ? ”                                                     —— Could one grow any more smug about it ?

     “ They’re not  NEARLY  as quiet as they think they are. ” An annoyed grumble with no attempt to hide the small glare as he looked at a group of students. Though they spoke in hushed murmurs there was only so much that could serve for an ‘ interesting ’ topic. Whether it was anything about one or the other or  BOTH  wasn’t much of his concern, though. With a click of the tongue he turned back to the work before them— an assignment meant for  PAIRS  or approved groups. It was one of the ( gradually increasing ) instances in which there hadn’t been an individual version provided for him. Thus, Fushimi was  FORCED  to participate with one of the few people he was coming to not mind. A decision he was pondering worthy of regret.

          “ Isn’t this enough for today ? I can’t concentrate like this. ”

Family Headcanons [X]

    That’s a super tough question considering Fushimi  HATES  his entire family. He comes from a genetic pool of geniuses that breed a lot of infighting being as competitive about their intelligence as they are. ( It’s a large reason why he himself can’t get along with  OTHER  insanely smart people ). And apart from mandatory social gatherings, I don’t believe he would have ever had much chance to  MINGLE  with other members. There was a point at which he got along with his cousin Aya, but they too were swept up and pitted against each other that ended up leaving a  HUGE  strain on their relationship. While Aya so badly craved his attention and validation, Fushimi by that point was  DONE  with her.

                                      Point blankly, he didn’t care about her.

     A student of Shujin known for being perhaps the biggest loner in school. People have long since stopped in their attempts to  INCLUDE  him and even the teachers have taken to assigning him individual work when it comes to group projects. In the case that they don’t provide a separate assignment, he gladly takes the  ZERO  for refusing to work with others because so rarely does he actually work in a team. Despite going to a school known for producing scholars and athletes alike, Fushimi holds  NO  desire to make anything of himself. In fact, he only drags himself through the days because his mother forces him to attend.

          Needless to say, he didn’t care for the rumors that began circulating one day regarding the transfer student they would be receiving. He did his best to  CLOSE  his ears to the matter and just set pencil to paper. Yet they just kept coming. They wouldn’t shut up. It became a hassle and everywhere he went seemed to whisper of  THEM.  Thus, Fushimi looked into this guy himself. What was the truth behind all these rumors and why would the school take in such a risky kid ? He’d always held a knack for hacking and so it wasn’t an issue at all to pull up a record or the rest of his history for that matter and...

                                            That’s where things  DIDN’T  add up.

     There was something  ODD  about it. Comparing the supposed ‘ criminal acts ’ to everything else made it seem as if these were two separate people. Then again, it wasn’t unheard of for someone to lead two different lives. Who would have thought such a  BOTHER  could end up something interesting ?

OPENING JUNGLE APPLICATION…

As endless means of sight, it allowed the KING a full view of the boy via the webcam installed within the computer, and it bade him pause for a moment - childish though the emerald beast was, his lamentations tonight were to be directed towards a certain BOSS that risked the enjoyment of the world.             The minuscule cybernetic creature would hop closer, a bobble head filling the screen as though it was truly getting far too close to a lens.       The functions of the young man’s machine would slowly return to normal, sans the parrot, who continued to speak in gentle tenor, and all progress made to enter his servers.

                           “ | | I am a J-rank, Nagare Hisui, this is merely a skill of mine. Just as you are utilizing your own - they are impressive.      While I cannot allow you to join our party, as the game has already begun, I would like to ask… is this something you enjoy?          I could provide missions of higher quality, if so.   Perhaps we could accompany each other, you are not a new player, after all. | |”

There should have been indignation, that a single individual meant to foil even a single one of the KING’S machinations, and yet… he had noted this user plenty of times before, the games he played, the lack of presence within the chat groups besides varied snide remarks…                                     The night’s ‘raid’ would not be interrupted, but both of their friends lists were disappointingly derelict.

                                                                             - - I BELIEVE IN THESE DREAMS..

     It was strictly confined to his screen and yet the ‘ closer ’ the mascot came the further Fushimi felt inclined to draw himself  AWAY.  There were the strongest undertones of something dangerous here and he wasn’t one to let it go amiss. But that phrase rang loudly in his mind—  J-rank ! Blue eyes widened as his voice was nearly held in a vice grip of  FEAR  within his throat. The parrot talked on and with each second that grip loosened. For as threatening the situation was, he didn’t seem to be in any trouble just yet. Rather... was it the opposite ?

          “ What...? ” Nothing made sense ! He hadn’t planned for anything like  THIS  !

     The more his brain tried to make sense of everything the less sure of anything he became. There were so many unknown variables that had just been presented halting  ANY  solid solutions. A J-rank— that’s what he claimed to be— not only knew him but had this kind of power ? Just how could that be and what  WAS  the extent of it ?

     Just a quick post to address this ! Apologies to anyone still waiting on starters or replies and any asks they’ve sent in. I  PROMISE  I’m working on them it’s just a little hard for me to be active because I work a night shift that I’m having to butcher to fit my new availability bc my job won’t change it right now. On top of this I run multiple blogs that I’m doing my best to balance with a new rule of getting at least  TWO  things done a week on each.

HOW DARE YOU CROSS OUT J RANK!!

FULL NAME : Saruhiko Fushimi NICKNAME :  Saru, Gloomy Fushimi,  Mean / Bad Glasses, Traitor TITLE : Third-in-Command of Scepter 4, Head of Information, Hidden Weapons User, J-Rank

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╳   FLAWS.

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♔   STRENGTHS.

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🖌 SKILLS & HOBBIES.

art | acting | astronomy | animals | archery | sports | beach combing | belly dancing | bird watching | blacksmithing | boating | calligraphy | camping | candle making | casino gambling | ceramics | racing | chess | music | cooking | crochet | weaving | exercise | swordplay | sparring in general | fishing | gardening | ghost hunting | ice skating | magic | engineering | building | inventing | leather-working | martial arts | meditation | origami | parkour | people watching | swimming | puppetry | pyrotechnics | quilting | reading | collecting | shopping | socializing | storytelling | writing | traveling | exotic dancing | singing

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