but i love me.

 It doesn’t really matter what I misplaced, I just know that you’re hurting, so... You already know that I’m not going to judge you for anything. I’ll be here for you no matter what.

And of course, you don’t have to talk about anything you don’t want to... I’ll be willing to listen whenever.

[ He sighs, letting go of the other’s collar and kissing him softly. ]

But I don’t hate you, and I never will, and I’ll always care about you. You’ll... You’ll never be alone. You haven’t been alone since you came to me. I’m right here, so I don’t understand why you...

Why can’t you be honest? Everyone knows that I’m associating myself with you, so why don’t you just give up on this? You said to me clearly “I’d do it again”, and that you love me, so I’m going to reiterate that-- I love you, Mitsuo Ueno, no matter what happens. I’ll always care, so... I can’t... Let you die, when I know that things will get better.  

Nothing you say adds up, and you know that. There were people you could’ve “used” who would’ve been much more helpful. And... You know that I know these things, so why are you acting like I’d just let this happen?