𝕯𝖊𝖈𝖔𝖒𝖕𝖔𝖘𝖎𝖓𝖌

antique metal syringe

1985

Just playing around with some rope. Excuse the dodgy front phone camera quality.

do you think radio towers make deals with the wind to blow over and spare them?

through the window // april 2026

Oil on canvas, 41 ⅞ x 55 ⅞ in

so when someone comes along and urges him to sin, he can't stop himself because it feels even better to give up control to someone real and tangible instead of the empty prayers to a God that never answers him. even if it gets him sent to hell, someone can finally tell him exactly what to do and feel, and it feels good in every way because he's fully seen and not only forgiven, but encouraged to stop controlling himself, even though he knows it's wrong. for once, guilt and shame aren't enough to save him. he can't control his shame, and all he's ever wanted is to lose control.

Figure 3-10. Eye Gouge

CALEB LANDRY JONES in ANTIVIRAL (2012)

North American Hunting Club, For Big Bucks Only, 1989

TEXT ID: you dangle on the leash of your own longing; your need grows teeth.

cigarette incense lingers in the air