Fat 2 PHAT

Well, after what feels like weeks and weeks (because it has been!) I finally see some movement on the scales! I’ve lost 5lbs! and 2 inches! LOL Every little helps! I can now fit in to a pair of shorts which I bought 2 years ago and never could! (does that me i’ve kinda gone back in time? and i’m 34 again?) 

I got a new phone and the touch screen actually works! #spolit so I have finally got snapchat! Please add me for daily updates and random silliness! :D

My snapchat ID is Crapbabble! 

Sorry about that pic!

And I have a new video! https://youtu.be/4dMXztqYHE8 Check it out, I’d love to hear what you think!

Caz

So, for the past 3 weeks I have been ingesting at least one slim fast shake per day, usually 2, and on Saturday daytime I thought right Caz! Time to stick to it rigidly, no extra “healthy” snacks for you! Bigger commitment needed! And even though i’d previously said “when this tin is empty, i’m quitting SF On Saturday: bigger commitment - Bought 2 new tins of the powder! 

And then Saturday night came. My good friend Matt, who has heard me say on many occasion “i know, i must do something about my weight” (usually while eating something which is calorific!) And knowing my weekly hours of exercise as zilcharoo! Matt, being happy of my recent turn around decided to cook me a delicious meal, all made from scratch and containing not 1g of sugar! AND we had chocolate brownie for dessert! Which was both sugarless and vegan! 

The meal was sooooooooo nice! Salmon and Butternut Squash Curry! It was ‘Yumsville, Arizona’, at the end of the night I thanked him with sex. JK he is gay, otherwise he would. LOL (thats my story and i’m sticking to it! It MY blog!!)

Anyway, on Sunday I carried on as normal, had my morning slim fast shake, continued... All afternoon sugar was just on my mind, and then I was browsing the internet and looking at “full body workouts”, and became more focused on using your workout time more effectively in order to burn fat! Which is my primary need! (OK after stopping smoking, but this is about my fatness right now!) So I was watching this presentation by a guy called Shin Ohtake (me right now) he’s got a workout program called ‘Max Workouts’ (full body functional exercises) 

In Shin’s presentation he mentioned how sickened he is about big companies who shamelessly invent diet products that don’t work but to just make money... Which I kinda already knew, and in SlimFast’s defence, I was at a total loss 3 weeks ago, and I did meal replacements just because I had no desire to make anything or think of anything, so I put my diet in SF’s hands, and at least here I am, in my fourth week AND STILL GIVING A SHIT *fireworks* So ‘SF’ served it’s purpose. 

So yesterday, my afternoon shake was harder to swallow, especially since, for the first time in over 3 weeks, I actually checked the sugar content. 30g!! Per serving!! WTF! I know ‘Slim Fast’ has all those vitamins in it but, so does a bloody MULTI-VIT capsule and i’m pretty sure they have no calories or sugar in them!? And Matt’s words ran through my mind that that moment “you don’t actually need sugar, at all!” I forced it down!

Fast forward to this morning, I came down to make my shake, and no hassle, no drama, I simply couldn’t bring myself to make a shake. Like while I was sleeping the decision was made for me, and I was being told after the fact. 

Is this what they call listening to your body? Well I have...So, I thought I’d come write about it...And now my job is done.

Ciao for now <3

Fat2PHAT!

P.S. Here’s a lil “advert” I made, like a teaser for my Saturday night diary entry! Short and hopefully naturally humorous! Not me, the vid. Which contains me. So... please watch! 

Hello world!

My name is Caroline, i’m 36 and about 4 weeks ago I decided to start a video diary; which i’ve been uploading to YouTube ever since!

I’m just getting used to all this technical malarky! And I’ve now got YouTube, a FB like page, a Twitter account and now a Tumblr!

The context of my diary is in the area of taking control of my life, since I’m pretty sure that I am now what the world classes as an “adult”.

The themes no doubt explored in my blog will be: Self acceptance and self-belief, cultivating and maintaining a healthy lifestyle! Not giving up, kicking addiction and procrastination in the balls. Generally making better life choices and hopefully honing that thing I believe you call self-discipline?

Let me tell you, for the past 10 years I have been, shall we say, burning the candle at both ends! But now I’ve really realised that life is too short to waste it worrying about the superficial and not matching up to the status quo! I believe that life can be what you make it! And this is my attempt at change. I am striving to put all that theory, analysis and data which i’ve been collecting about the world, about myself and about my place in said world, IN TO ACTION!

It’s time for me to empty my GIANT pot of bad habits in to the trash can of life, and empty, permenantly!

Or die trying.

The journey starts here, live from physical rock bottom! Join me as  I attempt to kick sand in the face of addiction and procrastination!

Fat 2 PHAT!

Caz

Short clip from last night! My good friend Matt really wants me to try the no sugar diet! After this meal, I might just try it! Full vid coming soon! 

Hello!

So, the weekend is in full swing and you may be taking to the streets to wreck some havoc and partake in a beverage or two. This set up can be hard for the regular dieter! 

Now, luckily for me, I am not a regular drinker! Being that it is jam packed with what most people call “empty calories”. That being said, last weekend I did head out with a group of good friends and needless to say we blew off some serious steam! :-)

Did I drink too much? YES. Gin & Slimline tonic? NOPE! Surely, not a cocktail? No, not A cocktail! Try 6! 

OK OK, but did I indulge in late night junk food? N...Yes. Yes I did.  Do I feel guilty and ashamed? Y...No. Not at all. Why?

Because although I refer to it as a “diet” for familiarity purposes, what i’ve embarked upon is not a short-term remedy, its a change 4 life. And I have been in similar situations in the past, where silly choices have led to feelings of guilt and before the empty wrapper is in the bin, i’ve already started to think about what i’m going to snack, or even FEAST on next! 

So if you slip up, enjoy the slip, don’t take a step back followed by a head first nose dive in to the pool of pity! 

Remember, you might have an hour of feasting on “shit”, but there is 8760 hours in one year. So don’t let yourself be fooled! Just smile, enjoy, and in the morning continue. Don’t give up on yourself. You’re worth the time and effort.

Fat 2 PHAT

Here’s a video from last week, what I do when I “fall of the diet wagon”, make a vlog. A drunken rant if you will! LOL enjoy

it’s called making better choices for yourself. SO what do you do?

Everyday this week I have woke up early, and thought “i should be going to the pool”. Then, before I know it, the session slot is over.

So I've spent the latter part of the morning, and early afternoon thinking - “ill compensate for not going to the pool, by doing “this” (skipping and free weights)

Then, I’ve spent each evening thinking, “well i did do “this” today, but I would have felt even better if i’d gone to the pool’.

Finally, on day 4 of my week AKA today, this morning; while the session is still in progress and while I stand here with my morning coffee and fag i realise…

II NEED TO STOP THIS PATTERN!

SO, instead of thinking and feeling, i’m just going to go to the fucking pool! 

LOL