Blue Away,

Happy birthday babe I love you always

Sometimes I don’t remember the point and I really want to snap and be like what the fuck is going on here. But how far is that going to get me? It’s never got me anywhere before so it definitely won’t help now but what is the point exactly? I’m forever dancing around the same circles, trying my best not to step on your toes but you act hurt anyways. No matter, you’re the one that’s hurt and your the one that claims the victim card. I don’t want to be the victim, but I’m defiantly not the perpetrator every single time we raise our voices. You don’t look where your going, you don’t think before you speak. I’m going to go ahead and say you have little self awareness and it makes you really selfish, self centred, all about and only about you. I don’t get the mentality. You know that you are your only priority and you flex that, causing harm to me, poking me in my unhealed wounds. And I’m the one that’s causing this? I don’t see your point but I sure as hell feel it as it slices through my skin.

Please can someone help me I don’t know what to do, I feel over loaded with negative emotions and I only have escape on my mind. I don’t feel like I have control and I’m scared