actually, growing up is feeling like i turned sixteen two days ago. iāve been eighteen for years. fifteen year olds seem so young. wasnāt i fifteen just a few weeks ago? all my friends and i are still twelve. iām closer to thirty than to being a baby. i never got to be a kid. i never grew past eight. i canāt talk to my mom. i want to sit in her lap forever. i want to decide everything for myself. i need someone to tell me exactly what to do. the week is going by so slow. an entire year has passed.


























