Of Otakus and Fangirls

hi! when i study, i have to listen to music. because of this, i spend a lot of time finding stuff to listen to. here’s a masterposts of study sounds for anyone looking for new music :) 

soundtracks

the theory of everything

best of harry potter

ambient:

common rooms: slytherin | gryffindor | hufflepuff | ravenclaw

hogwarts library

the great hall

leaky cauldron

under the hogwarts lake

storm on the hogwarts express

hp ambient noise masterlist

pride & prejudice (fav!!)

lord of the rings

interstellar

disney

animal crossing

the martian

star trek

jurassic park

avengers

gaming soundtracks & playlists

favorite movie soundtracks 

8tracks

study like a superhero

work hard in silence, let success be your noise

yours, vincent (van gogh)

disney acoustics

jazz for the afternoon

the sky-the moon- the stars

songs that feel like hugs

stillness of the mind

coffee & tea

hogwarts

to the moon and back

pop goes instrumental

concentrate

aim for the sky

unfinished sentences

chasing daydreams

sad romantics

everything classic

winter workout

homework at hogwarts

once upon a time

avengers assemble

ultimate instrumental

a grand ball

ravenclaw | hufflepuff | slytherin | gryffindor

spotify playlists

spotify playlist recs

studying with spotify

peaceful piano

brain food

deep focus

intense studying

productive morning

a soft jazz backdrop

atmospheric calm

study vibes

relax & focus

instrumental study

white noise

ambient 

coffitivity

rainymood

soundrown

simplynoise

jazz & rain

faux fire

relaxing snow

a soft murmur

classy fireplace

rainforme

moodturn

snowymood

coding fm

ambient mixer (fav!!)

forest mood

rainy cafe

noisli

hipstersound

classical/instrumental

classical pieces for studying

6 hours of classical music

electronic versions of classical music

classical music masterpost

+ another classical music masterpost

the nutcracker act one

pictures at an exhibition

huge classical playlist

ultimate instrumental playlist

nature + ambient

stormy ocean

ocean

rain

wind (light)

wind (howling)

train

space

gentle rain

river

forest

waterfall

rainforest

thunderstorm

wind chimes

distant traffic

traffic in the rain

nature sounds

playlists by studyblrs!!

electronic thoughts by @eruditekid

drift away by @ofminervas

ascendancy by @unknown-notes

quiscence by @thecollegekid

stay calm by @mildlincrs

peace of mind by @eruditekid

classical studying by @mildlincrs

hard work time by @highlightcrs

back to school with disney by @hermionegoals

keys + strings by @noarasseo

march madness by @symphcny

0 gravity by @cmpsbls

study playlist by @studycell

finals life by @studyrelief

with two sugars, please by @symphcny

work hard, then play hard by @mildlincrs

mornings by @spacekid-studies

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Kishimoto: please let me rest

Sasuke: There's no rest for the wicked.

Sarada:

Sasuke:

Sakura: Oh. Uhm, sometimes, yes. Why?

Sasuke: If you ever feel hurt about it, feel free to call me out on it. Hell, you can punch me in the gut if you want.

Sakura:...did something happen today?

Sasuke, choking up: N-no.

Sarada: *sighs* I told Papa he was being annoying.

I’ll be turning 18 in February, so I made a list of all the practical life skills and goals I might need to focus on in adulthood. I figured I might share, just in case anyone else here might need it. Stay safe lovelies, and stay savvy.

You may be a legal adult now, but you really don’t know everything yet. Hell, you barely even qualify as an adult; you might as well still be a teenager. Don’t get cocky. And acknowledge that you WILL make mistakes, and that does not mean you’re an instantaneous failure who needs to quit life all-together. In the game of life, it’s not about how many times you stray, it’s about how many times you can rebound and refocus yourself.

Never underestimate the power of Politeness. Even if you’re at your last straw, being able to kindly and professionally explain your stress to others will save you more than you could ever know. Showing up to court or professional occasions in a suit, toning down the swearing and being polite and humble even in tough situations will grant you better things that you probably think.

Be dependable. Do what you say you’re gonna do. And if you struggle with executive dysfunction like I do, there’s still ways you can grow this skill. Set timers and reminders for tasks. Put things in obvious, findable places so you can remember to do them. Clean up your space so your brain is a bit less cluttered and you can find things and work easier. If something’s not going to plan, be honest and upfront with the person you’re completing the task for, and work out a plan. Follow up with people, hold yourself accountable when you mess up, try to be as organized as possible. Reputation will get you more than you may think in life.

The slower pace is often the more successful. Be the tortoise, not the hare. You’ll likely feel like you need to do certain things to be an adult. That is a lie. Especially if you’re Neurodivergent/Chronically Ill/Disabled in some way, you will benefit from taking the time to consider things. Ask the big questions, and think critically. Explore your interests, consider all your options, ask questions to those more experienced than you. Trust me, these things will benefit you in the long-run.

You don’t necessarily have to go to College. Trade Schools, Apprenticeships, Freelancing and other non-college oriented options are perfectly fine too, and won’t automatically doom you. Don’t spend the money, time or energy unless it’s necessary to complete your goals.

Networking and connections will save your ass sometimes. If you have people to vouch for you, you’ll be on the road to success. And if you don’t have those people right now, don’t worry. Don’t be afraid to reach out, ask questions, call or email people who can help you get the things you need. You can gain recognition by being dependable, hard-working, and polite. It won’t always be fun, actually for the most part it really won’t be, but it’ll lead to better things down the road. Compromise will be your best friend.

Romanticize life, enjoy the little things. Practice mindfulness. Learn what calms you down. For me, it’s pacing, writing, drawing, talking it out with someone, grounding exercises, having tea, and even just crying it out. Identify the things that work for you, and capitalize on them. Take the time to enjoy life whenever possible. Take the scenic route home from work. Invite someone out for tea. Walk around town just to take in the atmosphere and people-watch, not necessarily to even but something. Make a collage of comforting images or funny videos to look at when you feel stressed.

When working, eliminate distractions. Charge your phone during online class, turn off your notifications, build a schedule for yourself, give yourself breaks when needed, jot down ideas that come in the moment so you can expand on them later, get the most dreaded tasks done first, and cut toxic people from your life so they can’t unfocus you from what matters.

Take care of yourself. Negotiate when you need to. You can’t perform as well when you’re sick, whether mentally or physically, no matter how much you think you can manage it.

Set your own standards of excellence. Be mindful of others, but don’t compare yourself to them too much. You set your own goals, they don’t. Look up to others, but don’t be them. Take inspiration, but don’t rip things whole-sale. What do you want to achieve? Set your standards based on that, not what others think they should be.

Don’t base your life around a single person. I know that you’re in love, but people are fickle creatures, and it’s unwise to build a life solely based on someone else. A true partner has their own goals and ambitions. And if they’re the one, they’ll be fine with you achieving your own goals. You can build a life together once you’ve set a good foundation, both with yourself and with one another. Remember, be the tortoise, not the hare. Don’t rush to build a life with someone so soon.

Don’t be afraid to take up hobbies that aren’t automatically monetized. Remember, JRR Tolkien made Elvish and Middle Earth for fun. If you have a hobby that brings you comfort, you don’t automatically need to turn that into a career. And that’s fine! It’s often the little things in life that feel the best. Do nice things for the sake of doing them, not for the potential profit they might bring.

Identify things that bring you joy, comfort you, and help you perform your best. For me, that’s waking up as early as possible, writing letters, taking time to enjoy the scenery, writing, spending time with like-minded people, having some nice private time, and getting clean and organized. Identify what works best for you, and incorporate those into your life as often as possible.

Build tolerance and learn to keep your momentum. If you struggle to stay in the classroom or office for too long, to the point where you actively avoid it, you probably need to build tolerance. I know it sucks, but there’s some things you just have to accept in life, and uncomfortable people and environments are one of them. You don’t need to build that tolerance overnight, it’s a gradual process. Identify your coping skills, practice using them in the moment. Start with 5 minutes in the environment, then 10, then 15, and keep building up until you can stand to be there for as long as you need to. It won’t be easy, and it won’t be fun, but developing tolerance will save your ass in the long run. And by momentum, you know those times when you say “While I’m at it, I’ll go ahead and do this”? That’s an example of good momentum. Keep the ball rolling, but take breaks when needed. Stay busy during the day, that will make the evening’s rest and relaxation all the sweeter. Find these to do, and things that help you jumpstart momentum at the beginning of the day, like waking up early or getting a nice meal or drink before you start your day.

Learn to cook, do laundry, take care of financials efficiently and other basic life skills. Just trust me on this one, it will save your ass sometimes. Also, have a roll of toilet paper or a bath towel that your roommates don’t know about. You don’t realize how helpful that is until you really don’t want to have that realization.

Identify the things you need to improve on, and learn not to be embarrassed when seeking help. Let down your pride, you rarely need it anyways. For instance, I’m a very sentimental person, so I don’t like giving things away. But after seeing a compulsive hoarder, I’ve been working to break myself of that habit so I don’t end up the same way. Identify what things you need to work on, make a list of them, and start healing. We all need to do it, even if most of us don’t realize or follow through with it. Trust me, your healing process will only benefit you in the long run, even if it might be challenging now.

Learn effective time management skills, for the love of everything holy. You can’t tackle everything at once, and you can’t keep putting everything off for later. Set timers, use a calendar, set your goals correctly, learn to prioritize, take breaks after tasks to avoid burnout, stay organized as often as possible, and plan ahead while still staying present.

anthony:

me:

“What is a ghost? A tragedy condemned to repeat itself time and again? A moment of pain, perhaps. Something dead which still seems to be alive. An emotion suspended in time. Like a blurred photograph. Like an insect trapped in amber.”

“I knew that monsters were far more gentle and more desirable than the monsters living inside ‘nice people.’ Accepting that you are a monster gives you the leeway to not behave like one. When you deny being a monster, you behave like one.”

“When you see something or experience something extraordinary, you can’t go back to normal… I think that that’s the way I see the supernatural-as happening in mundane circumstances or to people who are unprepared”

“To learn what we fear is to learn who we are. Horror defines our boundaries and illuminates our souls”

“Any legend, any creature, any symbol we ever stumble on, already exists in a vast cosmic reservoir where archetypes wait. Shapes looming outside our Platonic cave. We naturally believe ourselves clever and wise, so advanced, and those who came before us so naïve and simple…when all we truly do is echo the order of the universe, as it guides us…”

And the last but certainly not the least:

the american government reacted accordingly. a full investigation was launched to hold the culprits responsible – what nation could have sanctioned such a brutal attack on so many innocents? what kind of soulless country could, regardless of vendetta, allow such a heinous crime? 

by 2002, the united states had their answer. the investigation was complete. A 600 page document known as the Congressional Report on 9/11 was released. approx 20 pages detailing the workings of the nation responsible were produced. The report was published. 

Except the name of the country responsible for 9/11 was redacted in the report. blackened out with a sharpie. It would remain redacted for 14 years. The country in question? Saudi Arabia. 

Instead of declaring to the world who was involved in orchestrating 9/11, the u.s. would hide this information for over a decade. 

Instead, they would point fingers at Iraq, whilst knowing that iraq had nothing to do with the attack in the first place. They would orchestrate journalistic propaganda in the new york times about “weapons of mass destruction” – a narrative that had been proven false by their very own intelligence officers, a narrative that had been shot down by every journalist that had ever stepped foot in Niger (where the purported ingredients of mass destruction were coming from). Regardless, the New York Times would dutifully publish the perverted stories anyway. NYT editors would say “to not invade iraq is the bigger mistake”. 

In 2003, the months of building up false stories in the media, propaganda in every mainstream newspaper, journal and t.v. show would pay off. The u.s. would invade iraq. 

from 2003 -  2011 the country of iraq would be brutalized in ways never seen before by mankind. modern, 21st century warfare would decimate the very spirit of iraq. at least 460 000 innocent, iraqi civilians murdered in 8 years. entire generations were wiped out in less than a decade. we will never know their names. 

waves of sexual violence committed upon “captured” cities ensued at the hands of american soldiers. many of the survivors, if not dead at the hands of their occupiers, would take their own lives. we will never know their names. 

in 2011, the blood in iraq is finally dry. we’ve leeched all of it. we’ve procured the natural resources we came for – it’s time to head out. the so called WMD we came for were never found, they did not exist, they were never real to begin with. A far cry from how things got started, we start seeing articles about the falsehood of the iraq war. the same publishers who willingly handed out propaganda to the masses about WMD in Saddam’s hands are now saying “wait…we’ve made an error.” the narrative shifts. the occupation ends 3 years after a new commander in chief is granted the power to end it. in its wake we leave behind military bases and mercenaries that are ready to activate whenever called upon. 

That same year, the u.s. supports various popular movements across the arab world. tens of regimes are flipped. 

and in that same year, using the same weapons left behind by valiant american rapists and invaders, an army of another kind of mercenaries is born. they call themselves ISIL, then ISIS. 

ISIS vows to cleanse the muslim world of shia muslims, minority sect muslims, christians, yezidis, Jewish people. ISIS also vows they are enemies of the u.s. America vows vice versa. Their feud is a celebrated one. ISIS, the evil nemesis of the Brave & Courageous America. 

But then, 2012 happens. America, losing their influence and control over the levant, start funding ISIS factions. America starts funding Al-Qaeda factions. 

The same NYT that once convinced us that Iraq had WMD is now INSISTING that these al-qaeda factions, that themselves claim to be brothers of al-qaeda, are moderate rebels simply looking for democracy and liberation. people believe it. 

America’s proxies in the levant go on to destroy the region in unimaginable ways–and then, 2018 happens. 

Iraqis & Iranians destroy ISIS. Indisputably, action from both nations led to the destruction of ISIS, now a paid member of the U.S. military. America, once using ISIS and AQ factions to regain control over the levant struggles to position themselves as the heroes – attempting pathetically to play both sides of the same coin. Again, the same way outlets like NYT backtracked their Iraq war propaganda, they start apologizing for identical mistakes in naming actual american funded terrorists as “freedom fighters.” another cycle ends. 

ISIS is gone, but the real loss is America’s. They’ve lost the barbaric feudalistic control they once held in the region via ISIS and Al-Qaeda. Their terrorist assets have been reduced to ashes by a people they once themselves invaded from 2003 - 2011.

This brings us to today. The united states has assassinated Qassem Soleimani, Iran’s second in command. this is akin to another nation murdering the likes of mike pence, joe biden or dick cheney. it is an act of war. 4000 troops have been deployed to the Iraq-Iran region. It is an invasion. 

And just as in 2003 the NYT & MSM justified the faulty invasion of iraq, and just as in 2012 the NYT & MSM justified the funding of ISIS & AQ factions, in 2020, a new propaganda will circulate to justify the illegal assassination of sovereign leaders. 

New propaganda will circulate to justify a new era of bloodshed in Iraq & Iran and the rape and murder of innocents.  New propaganda will vilify young, brown children as terrorists.  New propaganda will circulate to return us to the year 2003. 

There is nothing I can do within my capacity to help anyone. I am completely useless in saving any of the lives that will be taken in the next several years. 

All I can do is ask that when you see a piece of information that attempts to justify the actions of the u.s. on foreign soil, in any foreign nation, that you reduce it to ashes. They lied to you in 2003, they did it again in 2011, they are doing it again in 2020. 

I live in a state where you “have to” report anyone you suspect of being undocumented (that wonderful hellhole of Arizona). Now in practice this law has fallen far short, thank goodness. But if you live in such a place and they start enforcing it, here is how you get around it:

Assume everyone who doesn’t speak English is visiting.

Never ask about their job, because if they tell you they work here then you know they’re not visiting. You see them a lot for several weeks or months? Hm. Someone in the family must be ill. That’s terribly tough. They always dress in old, ratty laborers’ clothes? I feel you, my dude, I can’t afford new clothes either, and my dad has the fashion sense of an aardvark, so sometimes it’s not even about “affording” them. They say they’ve been here for years? You must have misunderstood. Spanish isn’t your first language, after all. First and last name? It never came up, or you don’t recall–you meet a lot of people.

Don’t do more than is expressly asked of you, and do what you are asked with such an intense attention to protocol that not asking you at all becomes more effective than even bothering.

In this case:

“Have you seen an illegal immigrant?”

“Could you describe an illegal immigrant, officer?”

*officer describes a person who is in the country without appropriate paperwork, or who has crossed the border illegally*

“No, sir, I haven’t seen any illegal immigrant.”

I’m considering coming out to my family as non-binary, and so today I brought up the subject of non-binary gendering/transgendering with my Dad as a casual conversational topic. He’s told me that if somebody is born a boy then they “should stay a fucking boy” and not trans to a girl or be a boy some days/girl other days/genderless other days.

I told him that I think gender identity should be something one can choose for themselves, and he says that nobody thinks like that and anybody who is trans/non-binary will just be shunned by every member of society they meet. He doesn’t think that people support n-b/t communities, because he doesn’t. He says to me that not staying one’s natural gender is wrong and against the point of being born a boy/girl.