☆|Falter Your Alter|☆ || Catching Up

Faltering my alter is an alter having pseudo memories and yearning so bad that the host feels it really strong and ahas a slight psychotic break. (Idk if that was actually what it’s called but it was something like that.)

ough I think this is a good one idk I’m sleepy

When dissociation hit so hard you start losing balance of ur head and ur neck becomes floppy

faltering my alter by being a new split that isn't even done splitting yet

Us again/silly

faltering our alter by sitting on the couch and saying, very casually, "man, why do I feel like im, like, half floating out of my body, thats so weird", only for our roommate to turn to us and go "weird, its almost like you have a *dissociative* disorder?"

Faltering my alter by why do I randomly remember something super specific from childhood and then everything blanks (while looking like a cat trying to collect a brain cell)

Faltering our alter by watching in horror as host splits a new guy (or guys) and promptly dragging us into The Fog (identity confusion gauntlet) for the next week or so

faltering my alter by

Faltering your alter is (is that how you do the phrase? I just found this blog today srry) dissociating so hard that you feel like everything inside your head was moved slightly to the left and now everything about yourself and your mind feels off for a while

faltering my later by hnnnnn mmmmmm hmmmm nnngnggg hnnmmmmnn whuh where am i. what time is it

faltering my alter by feeling stupid for not understanding anything because of dissociation and amnesia, then the feeling stupid feelings trigger me more and i definitely won't remember what I'm supposed to be learning now

A few days ago, I was just watching YouTube and ended up in a little fronting for the rest of the day due to trauma that I never knew of. That's never good. But I wanted to talk about that feeling of getting pulled away when someone needs you. There's nothing to grab onto. There's nothing that you can do to slow it down. There's just this giant tug that's unrelenting and constant until you're either "gone" (internal) or stuck behind a barrier that you can't destroy, which is what happened to me. I yelled and I called, but I don't think that they could hear me. It was agonizing to not be able to help myself for what became an entire day. I couldn't front for over six hours while the body was in constant flight. I still feel like I could have done more, even though I didn't have any opportunity to.

Our past medical professionals and even some friends that we had irl kept saying that we weren't a system when we first discovered it, that we were just having "auditory hallucinations" of our alters. But surprise! We have Paranoid Schizophrenia, hardly any auditory hallucinations (maybe a few times in a year), and we are a system. It's almost like we knew the difference this whole time!

When you have headaches caused by splitting but they travel from one side of the head to the other

“You’re responsible for managing your triggers”